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everyone is sleeping. The time is one-thirty-eight am. I couldn't sleep. I got up to write, or do something. I'm driving daughter to work in about an hour. The cat's outside but i don't feel like getting up now. He should have come in earlier. I've started writing.




Is this morning pages? I guess so. I have hives but it's mild this time. It could be the walnuts or the decaf. If it's the former, i'm thinking it should be out of my system now so it's likely for now that this is decaf. I didn't have them today. I'll see if it clears up. I did not have the itch throughout the day after i woke up.

Could it be the bed or that blanket? Maybe. This thing started after i switched to that one. Maybe it needs a wash? The last time it was out was after camping. I'll put that in the tub tomorrow and use the other one instead. We'll see what happens. If so, then i can go back to using decaf?




It might take a week of testing. I'll see what i can do. Things are shifting. If this is the mid-life crisis they talk about then i'm probably going through it for the last ten years now. Or this is something else. My path and process is way different than anyone else's. That mid-life crisis thing might not apply to me in the practical sense.

Or whatever that means. While others are looking forward to retirement, i am building up my business. Monday is the start of a new term. I start with a hundred days after dinner. I would rather count this way. It's not exactly this or that. It's the same one thing anyway.




What else can i do here? I have an hour to go to drive daughter to work and then go to bed when i get back. I can sleep through til lunch. I don't know if wife is taking the kids to church tomorrow. Second daugther is not going to work anyway. Am i putting in enough effort into job hunting? I don't know. I'm not into it. Let's say i'm not doing it. I do it for show. I am more focused on writing my novel.

The energy is always shifting. That's good. Even if it looks the same, look closely and you'll see a small difference here and there. I can do grocery differently this time. I think wife is going to make lunch tomorrow. What's up tomorrow? I don't know yet. She goes to work tomorrow. She comes home late. I don't think daughter is going to work on monday morning as school starts then.




That was a tough two weeks. I know. How do you get back to normal? I think she goes to work on weekneds. I guess i'll adapt to that. In the meantime, do your best. Get in your light. No expectations. These are the things that line up for my self. What else can we do here? Wife bought that laptop anyways. That's her path.

The other one still works. I guess it wasn't really the keyboard. Or not. I don't know. What happened with this new acer? I will look into it but it doesn't even do post. It could be a fried motherboard. Daughter said the thing was overheating the last time she used it. Too bad. I'm not getting that brand anymore. One down.




What else to write about? There's plenty on the subscription. I can't find how to unsub from any board. It's not user friendly that way. I can make changes to my energy. This is the path i'm in. When i am aware, i have access to everything. When i'm in the past or the future, i am helpless. Now you know how to make it work?

I think so. Be in the moment. No expectations. That's all there is to it. What am i getting out of this? I don't know. Only that this is pointing downstream for me. No expectations and things will work out for you. Let's see how this works then. What's next? Finish writing. This i do everyday. Then i'll create scenes and add them to plots. This is how you do it.




When you have the draft manuscript, then you can polish it by adding influence factors or hooks. That makes it better then. You can zip through the book's timeline to make things work. I think i can do that now. It's the same anyway. You can see how this works. I will am doing something about it. It's all part of the process.

This is all connected for me. Even morning pages is connected to my novel. Back then, i wasn't sure i'd be able to start on this project. Now i am in the process itself. Let's see how it goes then. I've been here before. Not the exact path, but the energy. It's familiar and yet so different. This is how the energy is then.




You have both reflection and contrast. It's one and the same but from different point of view? Somewhat like it. I don't have to define that now. I only write. I see urban environment at night. Is it raining there? It could be. No characters zoomed in yet. Maybe this will go or not. It don't matter. Do i listen to music? Only if it feels good about it.

The energy invites me to japan. Also there are different parts of the world. It's all in your energy. You can explore that when it's here. What are you to do about it? I don't know yet. You can shift this way and that. Where would you like to take this? Is it part of that? I don't think it'll go anywhere other than to play with data.




It gets boring as i'm not really creating anything that way. I would rather do something else. But it is a path. I'm not invalidating it. It's just not what i prefer. What is it then? Something with travel. It has to do with food, cooking and all that. It has to do with enjoying the moment here and now.

I don't know if there's a job that pays that regularly other than being an artist. So this is what we do. Why not use their idea and develop that into a direction you can use. Maybe some perspective not covered or addressed in the movie. Maybe it was too out of the center to get attention.




What issue would be center then? Being a super when no one needs it? Right here and now, do you need a super? If you were a super you'd be travelling to different parts of the world. By the time you get there, it might be too late. That might affect some people. Or not.

What's it going to be like then? Say, a tsunami in japan. Soon as you hear the news, it doesn't take time to fold space and go there. But who do you save first? The one closest to you or the one deeper in danger. Are you interfering with process? That's a big one. Maybe this is why there be no more supers.




Maybe when it's relevant for them you are allowed to get in. Why not be a fireman or police? Or maybe someone who works behind the scenes? Right here and now, can you be of help to anyone? I don't know. Maybe so. Can i help myself? I already am. It is being in the light. Then the light will serve as beacon for them to see. Maybe that's how you can help.

Why am i exploring this idea then? I was thinking about supers. Are they relevant to this day and time. Maybe in a parallel world, they are relevant. There are several of them, like one in every city. That's a lot of supers. What about the antagonists? That too is a question. Who would they be?




Maybe they are here now. How would they hehave? They'd be selfish. They'd have powers but it's used for negative reasons somewhat. Would you allow leaders to get away with that? Probably not. What if you were to bring heat to that chair? Then you have the armed forces up your ass. How would that be? What's the story there?

Then they'd hire other supers to provide security and to hunt down those against. That's an angle there. How do they do that? There's technology. There's work for the supres. They form a team to hunt down the versus. What woulid it be like? There's a story there. I don't know how that will end. But if you were super, compensation will not mean anything.




You'll do, rather your motivation goes deep and for a higher purpose. Then it's all about perspective. So both sides are neither good or bad. It's just that they see the world differently. How then will you bring balance to the force? It goes from left to right and it's the synchronicity and teh universe that's going to bring balance.

How? It comes with its own reflection and contrast. If you do something, then you get something back. You go negative someone will put in a positive and bring it back to center. Then the people without supers are the pawns in this game? How are they here then.

That is interesting.