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I haven't written morning pages for some time now. Might as well be now. Brother emailed that they are not paying realty taxes on the house they are living in. I guess they are subconsciously making someone else decide for them. It takes very little to put something in each month. That way, the creditors are off their back. I guess they want to experience that path. I don't know if I can help them. If I can, I would. I am not able to. That means they are on their own.

I have clementine and it works just fine for me. I like vlc better. When i think of a song, it would be easy to add it to the list of songs I have running. I can run that right now and listen to it. It tends to get buggy some times. I made an update of that software this morning. Something was buggy with this pc this morning. It did not start, boot right away. I had to turn it on and off several times. Little boy went to bed early today. I wonder why. Maybe he got tired and sleepy early.

Back to vlc, it has a lot of tools in it that I have yet to learn. When the need arises, when the question is there, then I will learn it. No need to learn it and I won't find it. I don't want to force myself to look it up and learn it if it is not in my vibration. As for my brothers, I don't know how things will turn out for them. Maybe they are going to learn something from that. Maybe not. They know that I do not have work at the moment. I have a business. It is making money. It is working as expected. I am leaning how to automate it right now. That is the next step. Not that I have expectations for it. It is just what I see immediately ahead, or what the next step is for me. I am interested in learning or how to automate it. That is where I also want to go. It excites me to be that person who can tweak this tool to suit be better.

Now that I am going there, I only need to be in that state of being. I am looking for a second pc. Something that will act as back up as well as a promise I made to a daughter. I can make something work here. The second one will be exclusively linux. It will have smaller memory and capacity than this one as it is a second hand pc. I am going to learn about hardware with these two. Next step for that is to get a monitor and maybe a router.

I am listening to this music file. It feels like it is not quality. Should I switch to clementine? That is another app that I like using. I adjusted the volume settings so it is louder. I like this song from heart. It is powerful and full of emotion. I liked, enjoyed listening to it in the car. Those were great times. I had good friends and things were great.

It is about this lady who had an affair with a stranger she met. That is exciting. I would like to be in that situation if possible. I like the rhythm. It is about sex. I wonder how things are in there. I don't know. I am paying attention to it, listening as I write. The kids are going to sleep now. Wife is still watching tv.

I wonder where that band is right now? They are not writing anymore? Probably they are. Or some of the other members have moved on and are doing something. But when you are young and in a band, you know you are going to make something out of it. No expectations, just enjoy the ride. That is where I am right now.

I finished the medical requirement this morning. That is one step closer to getting the permanent residency thing. Then the kids go and get theirs, then we submit everything. Things will fall into place. No need for me to force anything here to happen. My job is to feel good now. Nothing is more important than I feel good now. The transitions to this music player are not as clean. Why is that? But I like that it can be loud. I am listening to jesus jones right now.

I think I can make something happen here. This is the morning pages and this is part of the practice here. I go to bed later when wife is ready to go to bed.I am not sleepy right now. There is no discomfort in me. I am going to learn python after I finish these. Only when the kids use the internet that I open tor. Otherwise, if it is just me, I don't use proxy. Unless I need some privacy when browsing. Then I turn it on.

It works for me. I get the privacy I want. More so when the browsing or the sites I visit reflect the personal side of me. Is blogging part of that? Not really. This is somewhat anonymous. No names. I try to avoid that. There is ten minutes remaining to my writing. I made breakout this morning. I made some good plays--I meant early afternoon. Not morning as I was away all morning. The switch to the next song is not clean. Try clementine now. Or can I do something with the switch? switching now.

It is on now, clementine. I like the name. Amarok must have been a great app back then. This clementine is a fork from that version, 1.4. I like this clementine. The transition is smooth between songs. It is easy to listen to it. I adjusted the system volume so I can get louder music and drown out everything else. I have seven minutes to this writing. I will learn python after I finish posting this.

It has been sometime that I used scribefire. I have already taken it out of firefox. I like addthis better. It has all my blogs without me having to enter them one by one with username and password. This is so much easier and has eliminated steps to automate things. I wonder how you make an app like this.

I think things like this, not just python but add something to it like django so it works in the web. I am going to learn that. I have some good basics already in place. I know where to look for answers. I know how to look for answers. That is important. This hardware issue is also the next step for me. I am considering getting work part time in a tech shop where I get hands on learning from them. I can even work for free. I think I can offer my services for them. How else am I going to learn this? I don't know yet. I can ask around. I can even offer my services full time to that. I will look into that some more.

What else are there to consider here? I can send them an application letter stating that it is what I want to do. I just go there to help build pc's. They do not have to pay me. They can pay me an allowance or something. No cleaning. That is not going to be part of the job description. I have this vision for a company I want to start. Everyone shares in the profits of the company equally no matter the seniority or know how. Everyone depends on each other any way.

The music is transitioning. This is great. I think it is great how they do that. How do they do that anyway? There is also a notification that comes out. It tells me what the next music is. It doesn't get garbled when the switch happens. I have less than two minutes to go in my writing. I can write with my eyes closed and get less error as I am more careful here. This music is not sharp. I wonder how I got this music? I changed it.

Now it is playing pearl jam. Do I want to work? Only if it interests me and excites me. That is important a criteria for me. If it don't work for me, then I am not going to go there. Do I want to go to birkenhead? We will see. I will send over an application. If it works out, then good. If it doesn't, then I can do something else. I am done here.

Seize the Day

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Morning pages!

I have been reading a lot about bitcoin and the p2p economy. I think it has potential, the only problem is that it is difficult to get in on that. You can't just participate and buy or sell bitcoins. But once you are in and have everything set up, it has great potential.

In what way? For one, it is an economy supported by the peer network and not some institution. Bashar mentioned something about this, now synchronicity is knocking at my door, saying, 'hey! take a look at this!' There is a lot of opportunity for growth in this direction. I think this is the reason for me taking a break in poker, so I can pay more attention to this, plus the fact that I am learning how to code. Everything fits together.

I am going to play with the codes after I am done posting this. I had a whole day yesterday tweaking the allconvert program. I made some breakthroughs yesterday, finally able to make the code work the way I envisioned it. Now I am going to add more factors to it so that it converts more. After that, I am going to post the code for peer review. I think there is a way to cut the code in half, making it more efficient. I will do that when it is ready.

Wife went to work today. I woke up half past two this morning because of my hives. They were in my fingers and foot. That tells me it is in its final phase. That is a welcome occurence. I knew I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep so I fired up the pc and surfed the net. I surfed about bitcoin. It was interesting and I was curious about it.

I learned about anonymous and how committed and dedicated its members were. I Wonder how they got started. Institutions are afraid of what they can do. They are very adept at what they do. They know their job well. I wonder what happened with their war with the govt of nz? They declared war with that govt after that copyright law was passed. I am not hearing much about it. Either they have effectively disabled the internet facilities of the govt, or not much happened after the publicity went down. We will see in the coming days.

I did not get to write yesterday. I think. Or maybe I did, but couldn't remember. I saw this channel on youtube and it is for startups. The host has a lot of ego in there. He has this sidekick who only interjects every now and then, then the host cuts him off after a few sentences. He gets paid to do that? I think he is one of the seniors in that project. Too much ego in there. I might have to unsub from that later when it doesn't suit me anymore.

It has been raining again. It is going to be a wet weekend. It is winter. We get more of these these days. I want to run later, but it is going to be super cold. I can do yoga later, and after my daughter gets back from the mall, I can run. Right now, the schedule is too tight for that. I will do what I can with what I got. Right now, I write. I can do facebook, but it gets too predictable in there. i would rather do a lot of other things. Like stumble. I learn something new when I do that.

I have been feeling sick because I was buying into someone else's belief system. That if I have high cholesterol count, that I am not well. I read somewhere on a low carb blog that it was expected of you to have high bad cholesterol. The good cholesterol is healthy as well. I will look into that some more over the coming days. But for now, that was an aha moment. That shone the light in me. Now I see better.

One daughter finished with her computer turn. There'd be more later on. One daughter is going out with her friend to go to the mall. I am in this situation to see that I can still be in the state of being that I prefer even if the circumstances are not what I want them to be. I learned this first from my father. I was drinking a lot. He explained that I don't have to be the heaviest drinker in the group to have fun. It made sense. Slow but sure, I got rid of the alcohol and still had a great time with the group while they drink. I drank soda instead. Diet soda. My dad also had a diabetic friend who did that. He drank regular coke. He was fat and all that. He was good friends with my father then. I think he has already passed away.

I think I am here because I am to go a process of growth. This sometimes doesn't make sense. But I put myself here. This is where I am. I am not here by accident or by forces beyond my control. It is only that I am resisting this and want what was familiar that I am having a hard time. I see that now. I am in the light. That is the goal each time, that I be in the light and make the present moment as best as I can--by being in the light.

I don't have to be an expert python programmer. I only have to be better than I was before. With that goal in mind, I am always having a grand day learning. The process serves me well. I have seven minutes to go, so I am going to bramble to kill the time and to fill up the pages.

I miss the last few days we had in manila. I can still feel it. The sm mall in taytay that we frequented. The mall. I miss them. The people. The things I used to do there. The buko after workout. The isaw. I used to work out in the morning, do something then have buko and isaw later in the day. I miss that. I also miss the dates with the wife. We watched a movie twice a week. We had a great time then.

Things are different here. We are evolving. Is it better here? Or was it better back in manila? Not that one is better, good or bad, but only different. I think I am here to choose to get that feeling even if I don't have what is familiar to me. I don't have to have twice a week dates with the wife to have a good time with her. We can do something else without that and still be in the light.

I have beef stew to last me all through the weekend. The kids can have that, or egg for lunch. I don't think they are hungry right now. Do I want to go get a nap? My eyes feel tired. I can take a nap when I can't help stay awake anymore. Right now, I am ok, but feeling tired.. Not really tired. Maybe bored. I miss playing poker. I haven't logged into windows for a long time now. I don't see the need to. If the need is there, I can easily do that. for now, linux works and it works well for me. Better than expected.

Sometimes there is the issue that it don't shut down properly. It's not a regular thing. Once in 20 shutdowns I suppose. I can look it up when it gets out of hand. For now, things are working perfectly. I looked up computer janitor and saw a lot of neggies about it. But when I tried it out, it worked well. It removed the old distro from the grub list on start up. I did not expect that. I thought I just removed some dead files, cleared the register the way I did with vista. It worked great for me. I removed computer janitor from my pc after reading the write ups. I might put that back in again, or look for a better alternative.

I have less than a minute to go writing here. I will just extend this, it is called delaying the time, there is a better term for this playing basketball, I forgot what that term was. I haven't played in a long time.

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