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going to rotorua




I am starting to enjoy soundcloud. I mostly listen to trance and electronic music. Now and then, I listen to rock. I am building up my likes and playlist from there. It's not mainstream. What I like about soundcloud is that I get to discover a different perspective on good music. There's a lot of flak in there, but over time, I find something good.

One of these days, I will have that playlist. In this moment, I sit and enjoy what is in there—and now I write. I think this inaanak of mine got married over the weekend. It looks different? Not mine, not how I would like it to be. I don't know. It's not my preference.

I think this soundcloud has dj shows. I guess I will listen to this and grow things from there. Do I want to go into that? I don't know. It's something that interests me. It could be related.

Later in the day, we will see jordan belfort movie. They see it for the actor and the movie, I want to see it for the story as to how he was able to grow his business and make almost a million a week.

It's there. It's simmering at the back of my head. I will get there eventually. Anyway, just write in the background listening to music. There is also this guy I am now following on spotify. He has the best of 2013 playlist. Thus far, it has been awesome. I wonder what genre those music are specifically. Like there is this umbrella genre, electronic music. There are several more under that—trance, etc. I want to see what flavor each of these are. Over time I go deeper into that.

I get tired of these eventually. That means I need to take a break. But while programming, these are awesome. There is also grooveshark. I can crank up the radio there. Does soundcloud have something like that? I think so. I think it's that trending thread. It's like radio, but it's based on likes from listeners. It's different from pandoras' algorithm. I get something from both. Not that one is better than the other.

It's that base beat that gets me. Where to get more of it? I don't know. I get there when I get there. I am more open to synchronicity these days. Like I was upset that this guy did not set things up as expected. After the initial response in my head, I labeled things as synchronicity. That some things happen and there's something in it for me. All I need to do now is to see what it is. Always it's good for me, like a surprise present. It could be a physical gift—or mental, or spiritual. Still, it's a surprise and I am going into that with that attitude.





I explained this to my wife last night. I wonder if she got it. Anyway, this is page two. I went to bed early last night. I did not get my afternoon nap. I think I fell asleep for a few minutes. When I am on keto, I tend to have shorter naps. That's good. That means I get into my zone sooner.

It takes 24 hours to get into the zone when on keto. On the second day, I feel this buzz inside of me. It goes away when I eat carbs. Carbs is like a quick high. It doesn't last. When I am on keto-buzz, it's like that good feeling you get while having sex and not yet having an orgasm. Eating carbs feels like an orgasm. After that, I taper off. I think I like the keto-buzz more. It's there in the background. It's always there for me to dip in. all I have to do is to take a moment and go in.

only when I feel blah that I look for that orgasm. I am going to remind myself how to deal with tis. It's not always good to listen to streaming radio. Not all of the music presented I am going to like. It's that contrast. All of this are connected. I can always reference this to the four laws.

And that could be why I get something from the inside even if the local mind couldn't get it. Local mind is open, I call local mind = local self.

Local self couldn't get things sometimes, but local me is open to it knowing that higher me is there already. I am allowing this to simmer in and local me will get it down the road.

And this is why the rotorua thing is here. I don't know how things will turn out from here. All I need to know is that it's part of the synchronicity. If it's here, then there's nomething in it for me, even if it's only there to get me going down a certain path.

What can I make out of it? I don't know yet. Writing about it lets me explore the different avenues available. I gottoa go down the path to get what's there though. After I write, things are a bit more clear.

christmas morning rain




Listening to soundcloud. Amazing that the quality of the sound is. I don't have to use an equaliver, rather, it's as if I have an equalizer with this.

It's christmas morning and it's raining. Do I want to listen to this? Or do I go back to pandora? I might go back. It's that shuffle function. But then again, they play the same thing over and over again. That's what I don't like about it.

Why not turn off the music instead? I dreamed that I had something created the other night. This morning, I woke up with the idea that I had a better tool to grasp what I need to do. Is this on to something?

Wife is doing her workouts. She got up early. We are going to this community christmas party. Do I want to be a part of that? It's a family and friends thing for them. The kids might want to go there. It's the anonymity that I don't like. There are no real conversations going on. The sound is too much? Amazing that it can be that loud. How come soundcloud has this good quality when the others don't have it?

Is it the tech? I am sure you can reverse engineer that. Daughter raiderz is now up. I think she liked the headphones we got for her. I don't really want to go to that christmas party. I would rather do my own thing. But since it's here, that's synchronicity for me. This is creation/higher self telling me to go try this path.

It's not a block. It's the idea that I consider something else. So I go. If you figure this out, the idea behind this, you will know and understand how to work with me. And I allow it. Is this something I want to listen to? I think if you had a party, you can listen to this. But then again, you will need to do a lot of filtering to make it work.





If kids want to see it, then so be it. Is there something else that I want to listen to? The thing about indieshuffle, there are not much mainstream music. I go there when I want to listen to something different and is already filtered by humans. That filtered by humans thing is quite useful for me.

This time, I am saving these music streaming sites to the cloud so I can go back to them in the future. Is that how you travel? I just amped the volume. The sound with this site is pretty ok. It's not as loud, but it's well moderated. People want their own thing. If you can support that, then the people will support you. If the current system is going to implode, what is going to replace it? Do I have to create that? We shall see. Car is going to be serviced on the 27th. We will see how things will go from there.

Wife has started planning the trip with ste. That's a good three letter name I heard last night. It got boring here and there. Why did I choose to zoom out? I want better conversations. It was good to do aikido there. I think I have enough time writing. I am way past that ten thousand hours practice time.

Where is this going? Nowhere. I have no expectations on this artistic expression of mine other than to enjoy the practice. I just remembered phimco days. That was me growing up. And it's now behind me. If I were management, how do I change things? How do I motivate people?

Do that six to one ratio. Everything else goes into dividends that is shared with everyone. I think that is a good thing there. It's more than enough. And if you go something else.. I don't like this music. Go do something else.

That is what the radio is for. It's new and indie. No issues with copyright there. It is only those who see it shallow will think that copyright is going to work there. As we can see now, it doesn't really work. Maybe I can go there now. I am tired of c++. I need a diversion. This is the diversion I seek.

Or maybe I can do something else. I just write. Most of the kids are still sleeping, or staying in their room. Third daughter has issues there. Do I want to listen to this? I don't know.

Do something else. Realize that music is only a reflection this time. It is you that will decide all this. Is there any good movies coming up? Glad that there are no christmas pinoy movie festivals here. They play that same movie here.

If I were at the helm, how do I turn things around? You already know them. You will know when you get there. Will I get a shot at public office? If I say so, then it will be so. But is that alignment for me? I don't know. Be open. You will find it.

sunday morning showers




My wife puts a lot of effort into her workouts. I admire that. I saw this video about the mayor binay incident. Neighbor has a new cars. This is the second one this month. Amazing. I feel envious.

It's spitting outside. I do no laundry. Maybe tomorrow. I found this channel on youtube where the channel owner apparently has good taste. I bookmarked it and will see how things go in the coming weeks. First song off the recent playlist sounds good. It's chill music. I like it. It's not my usual cup of tea, but it's good. I have senheiser headphones. I am open to good music.

Senheisers—i'm still looking into this. I like the sony pods I had before. It's still there. This one, the senheiser, doesn't have that 'separation' thing. Maybe because the pods go deeper into my ear that it sounds better. I don't know. The senheisers are here so I use it. It's not that bad. I can get used to it. There is a bit of a disappointment, but maybe it's something that I am not familiar with. I'll learn more about it in the coming days.

We got three headphones the other day. The other two are christmas gifts for our kids. I need to get christmas gifts for the wife and kids. It's a sunday. I can do that on tuesday. I will change my contact lens tomorrow. I'll be riding my bike later to go to a friend's house.

I am upset, choosing to get upset with the mayor issue. That's fine. And then there is the arnold video and I love it. Why can't they be like that. If leadership is going to the dogs, man, it's sad that that country has to go through that. Will this affect that leader's candidacy? I hope so. Who else is there?

There is bayani. I wonder how he lost? He did a great job there. I would give my life for that? Maybe in a different dimension. At the moment, I would rather walk away. That music don't sound good there and I moved it forward. This is chill music here. It's good to listen to something different.





Pandora, with its algorithm, is not that effective for me to find new music. I am all for new music. People are into that. How to do this then? Purchases are a good indicator too. Maybe there is a function on youtube for this? There should be. With google behind them, it's disappointing that they were not able to improve on youtube. They should do a shakeup there. How come no one else is picking up the pace? Like, if I were the competition, I will introduce changes that will wake everything up—much like what apple did.

This is how you can get in to this market. You disrupt everything. You offer an advantage to your market that is clearly for them. You support the all and they will support you back. No expectations. Only do it because it interests you.

I found this youtube streamer but I lost the link. That means I don't need it. Move forward to the next one. Next time, bookmark them to the cloud so I will know where to find them next. I feel like I overslept this time. Do I want to keep to this music? There are other sites that offer new music. Should I go there?

I just want something in my ears. Is that addicted? That lady on kettlebells has hot torso. I like that part. She must look good naked. She's not so muscular, but her torso, that part from the abs going to the hips, is awesome. I don't know what that is called, but I think it is called the torso.

Anyway, I am writing to finish these. I have teenagers in the house. I am getting old—shifting into something else. The physical is not the main thing here anymore. I don't know what it is. The local mind can't get a grasp for it, but together, it is understood.

My phone rang. I am halfway through this one page. This is the second page. That means I am almost done here. Wife and kids are going to church, then head off to the flea market. I like it there. It's cloudy with showers today. I wonder if things are going to improve later on.

I can hang out there, then when it's time to go, I can head over there. I can bring a towelette to freshen up when I get there. That be a good day working out. I will go back to that. There are a number of things to do around here. Do this and get to the other side. I will get it with regular practice.

That's how you get good at something, even programming. You practice everyday. More so when no one is looking. When it is not expected of you. I don't have much to offer other than I am committing to it. If you can't get that, then you are not fit to be my guide. Not teacher. There is no such thing as a teacher.

december summer here




I was able to fix the connection problem with mt4. I think it had something to do with the server. Tech support(chat) gave me some ip numbers and it worked. And I thought that either the broker was closed, or the fx market was off early for christmas.

Next time I know better. I tried a trade at market and it worked. It did not let me do a limit/stop order. I will test that later on. In the meantime, do this.

There was an article I found earlier. This guy traded 1500 into a million dollars in three years. He was trading penny stocks. He was a student of sykes. When I found out, the article lost a bit of credibility. It could be true, but it's also true that sykes is selling his system.

But anymay, trading penny stocks is as risky as trading fx. I would rather trade the fx market. It's more open althogh I am having a challenge with it right now. It's been a drought for some time now. I am not riding, then I am runnig. These past few days, I have been inside the house and in front of the cmoputer. I need to get out more often.

I can run in that field later after wife leaves for work. In the meantime, I write. I am making progress with learning c++. I am getting it. The first time I tried learning it, I must have been not patient enough. This time, the alternative is java/android. I would rather do c++. I think the future is embedded programming. You need a language that is closer to the metal. Java isn't it. That means android won't be around that long? It will be. It's this and that. I just don't like working with java. That might change, but for now, my interests tell me that c++ is the way to go.





The book I am using is learn c++ in 21 days. It is simple enough and is explained in layman's terms. I get it. They also give good and plenty of examples that I can do. The second book is still a basics, but covers different topics. I have videos in my library, but they make me sleepy. At least with a book, I can listen to music and it helps me to stay alert. I do a one hour session morning, afternoon and night. I am making good progress.

This time, I get object oriented programming. I also get pointers—at least the basics. I can do a basic program. It's the lookup that's painful, but I can do it. I will start exploring soon enough. I don't have to finish the whole thing.

And what about trading? Qt is a good framework to use. I can go down that path as well. That is a field of expertise I can look into. Things don't work immediadtely though. There are bits and pieces that are missing for me. But that's one path that I see from where I am.

I went to bed early last night. I don't do things until midnight anymore. It must be that redshift app in the pc. It changes color when it starts to get dark. This helps me to get sleepy after ten. And that's good. Wife comes home early now. Next stop is christmas break.

She is going to work with my second daughter. She is going there to meet some friends—my daughter. Three stay at home and do their thing. I can go out and run later. No need to go fast. Just do my thing. I realize that I am overweight. This is the path I am on. I don't get how things work when I think about it. I instinctively know though, that it works by reflection. And that's what local mind has a hard time wrapping itself in.





and that's ok. This is part of the process. Only do this and get to the other side. I can go into ea testing. There is something there. I think I can trade this on dead hours. This is something that I will look into.

It is wednesday. Time flies so fast. Soon it's going to be the weekend. Wife is up. She will work out. That will keep me company as I write. This is my morning sessions. I have lots of images to post on me blog. So much that I created a facebook page to post the overflow. I post there twice a day.

There's so much on the internet. How to spread them? I don't know how to monetize them. I can create a blog and take it from there. Create one in node. Then post the images where? Imgur. That one is free.

I think I can do that. That will keep me on the learning side of things. What else is there for me? I can make into like pinterest. That too is a learning angle for me. Then add angularjs.

That also is a good path for me. I can monetize them. Seo is ok, but there are things I can do to make things better. I can get traffic through that page. Then take things from there.

saturday grocery later




Daughter's friend is sleeping over. She invites herself over. That's fine with me. I like her attitude, but when she's here, I remember how annoying having five kids in the house can be—specially now that they are teenagers.

I guess it's not them that's annoying, but that I am choosing to be annoyed. There's a difference there. They are darlings each of them. I have definitions that put conditions on how I respond. This affects my experience and how I respond to things.

Maybe this is why she is in this picture. She is here to show me this. I am now thankful.

I think this is what my process is about. Spotify lets me play them playlist. Now I need to find a way how to shuffle them. I think I need to create my own, then shuffle them together much like what they do on pandora. If this is so, why move to spotify? I already have this feature on pandora?

It's to get more money from others. If they, spotify can show that they have more eyeballs, then the money will come in. I think that there is nothing special about what that other wine guy did. He found a good wave and rode it. Now he is disappearing from the radar. His last name is hard to remember. I think his first name is gary.

He tried to extend things, but there was a bit of anxiety in it. It doesn't reflect well. This is how things are. I am still with c++. there is qt. But the path is not quite set considering that it's been around for years. I can't find a good tutorial. Maybe lynda.com has something on it?

Or tutsplus. I looked around, but the tech all points to the web. Maybe this is why I am still with c++, it's because everyone else is focused on the web. I think that it's mobile + native that's going to work here. The device has limited resources. If you can create a web browser app with qt, and all content goes through that, and then go native when not connected—there is something about it.





I miss creating stuff. When did I create stuff? I do that all the time. I do create things with my morning pages. I write every morning whenever I can. There's plenty of beautiful pictures on the internet. How do I use that?

No need to work for money. As it is, when I am in the right angle, I see that. I don't have to define things the way they do. It's a different world I like in and the definitions from the old world no longer apply.

When I find myself not in the light, then things get confused. Co-fused is something to it. I don't have to go there. I know where it is I am going. I think she leaves later in the day. Her dad picks her up. He's a nice guy. She said her laptop is messed up. I can fix it, look it up and if need be, reinstall os. But the parents have to give permission for that as I don't have it. It's not mine.

It's a toshiba. I sued to think that that brand is better. I guess dan has someone else for tech support these days. Do I want to go there? I have skype, but they have issues with security. That's why I don't have it on my phone. I can use it, but who else is using it?

I like hangouts better. I can send sms with that, and if need be, make calls with it as well. Going back to odesk, I can use that, or whatever else the client needs using. I think also that people are looking for that app to sex people up.

I think that was the appeal with wechat. Badoo is more spammy. I don't think they want to be the community's choice for hookups. You don't want to control it. Doing so only makes people go away.

How do you do it then? Build the campfire, then let the community build itself around it. Support the people and the people will support you. Not a lot of clients get that. All they want is to be the next big thing on the internet. That is why facebook made it. Also google. They made the campfire, people found it and decided to stay.

Badoo built a campfire, but they want to make money out of it. It's like you can watch from afar, but to sit close to the fire, you have to pay. In the meantime, someone else is building a better fire and supporting the community.

This is why reddit is so successful. That's what you want to do. Support the people with your app and the people will support your app. That's it. That's all you have to do. Don't worry about the money. It will come from investors.

So how do I go from here? This is the last paragraph. Post this, then get on with my day. Wife came home late last night. I was already sleeping.

last day school




I like spotify but there's a few things about it that makes me choose pandora instead. First, streaming. There are times when music streaming gets choppy. Considering that our broadband connection is fast enough and steady, I don't think it has anything to do with our connection. Pandora's stream doesn't, never been choppy like that. Youtube streams without a glitch. When I listen to spotify and music starts getting choppy, I am outa there.

Second issue is, no shuffle. It gets boring listening to one genre at a time. I can create my own station, or listen to someone else's station, but that's not mine. I don't know what to expect with that. I will look into that, but soon as I get the chops, I move to a different station.

Third, I forgot. No need to dwell on that but I am sure there's a third issue with spotify. I have mentionde choppy streams. I think that's one trouble enough already with spotify.

Pandora is pretty ok, but they are starting to give me repeats. I'm not sure if there's any streaming music sites out there but I am on thelookout for this. I get hese headaches latesy.

Yesterday, there was also the dizzyness. I wonder what it is. I get concerned about it. That tells me the definitions I have about these things. What can I do about it?




Last day of school for the kids in westlake. The other two ends on friday. They maximize these things. The kids are growing up fast. It's going to shift again. I have more time for myself, but still I am tied to the house. I guess this is my job now. And I am doing a good work with it. No need to want to be a big shot corporate sob. It's not me anymore. I don't go there. I would rather be a tech startup. That's where my interests are these days.

I don't know where this is going, but as long as it's interesting enough, I am right there. Atm, it's all about mobile apps. I am learning native. I already am familiar with mobile web. Javascript is a deeper subject and I already have a grasp on it. So I am moving on now and c++ is interesting. I am surprised that I am getting it.

It is getting warm again. I just removed my jacket. I continue writing. When I get back later, I am to get ready for my dauoghter's prize giving ceremony. She is getting an award. She works hard at school. I am thinking of stopping by burger king later on and get her something. I will check my account balance later on.

And what else is there? I think the issue is about something else. When she gets tantrums, it's not about the privacy or getting her own room. I think it has to do with the guilt. That's not good about the church. They plant that in your head. This way, you are going to keep going back to them.

Why do they do that. If they were so powerful, why would they want the control? It's the contrast. This is here to show me the difference between both realities. I have a choice here. Be in the light, or get in religion. I already made that choice a long time ago. This is just traces of the past to show me the contrast.

I have never been at peace like this. It is based onmy own criteria than someone else's. This is what my self is about . No more religion. I never carry someone else's cross anymore. Jesus chose that. Why should I choose to carry his cross for hime.

If it works for them, then so be it. My choice acts as contrast for them. This to show that they too, have a choice. I don't have to go there. I am a man of peace. I don't hink I am an evil person because I don't have religion like them. It's too much a burdento carry. I am moving forward now. No need to write about it.

I have too many baggages to carry myself. Most of the time, it has to do with someone else's baggage. When I am out of the light, I realize it with the way I feel. If it's not something that feels good, I check in on the definitions atd thoughts I am having. Then I go into the light.

This is my daily practice. This is where you will find me. This is where things expand from. How do I find that? See the expansion? Only that I take a moment to be in the present. When I do that, then I see the definitions and all that. There is no outside. The reflection shows me and I make adjustments if needed.

Why am I writing about this? It's what is in my head right now. I pick up daughter from friend's house later on. I also go meet the wife someplace else. She moves to different work next year. That is good. It is exciting for her. I knew that she was going to get that job because she was excited about it. Things are different with her.

astral gemma estrada




I'm done with my morning chores. Son isn't going to school today. I woke up from a dream about gemma estrada. She was someone from my past-now. I still wonder what happened there. I let her go.

Now what. There is regret. How do you deal with that? Things happen for a reason. How does this memory serve me? Is it something I want or need to redefine? I feel like things are not happening—or that the reflection I get is not in alignment. How do you fix that?

Is there a hack for this? What if there isn't? Then I will live with it and just be ok with it. I may not know what it means, but yes I do. How come I don't get what I want most? How come the higher self knows, but local self will only find out in hindsight?

How is this connected to the expectation? I have kids. I could have kids with her too. Sometimes I see the society I grew up in and wonder how that serves me. It would still serve me, and I feeling better about it, if I got what I wanted. How is that possible?

Things turned out well overall, but in the end, I fell like it fell apart. What wal wrong there?it wasn't going to last forever. I should have let go long before it fell apart. Was it something that excited me? It was interesting. I was in the light. Maybe...i still don't get it really.

I like how this letter char I looks like. It is a popular font. I see it all the time. But maybe it's because it is in my config files. So be it then. Only that I write. It's a friday. I woke up thinking ti was a saturday. But it istomorrow. Wife is goitg to work tomorrow. I fell asleep immediately last night.

There was no sex this time as wife has her periiod. I don't really need it, but the intimacy is great. Maybe this is what it's all about.

Why not get what you want? Maybe there is somethig there. The reason that you don't know what you want or that it's not good for you doesn't cut it for me.

I think it's because it's the conditions that you have. You think, rather I have this idea that if I got what I wanted, then I would be happy. That if I got what I wanted, I would be in the light.

This is here to show me that it is the other way around. That I can be happy without getting what I want. That if I were to just be in the light, then I will get something else that is greater than what I originally wanted. Ith is a reflection.

I think that's the lesson there. That if I wanted something, I match that vibration. Even if I don't get that, I have already that vibration and that I don't need it anymore. It as an ivnvitation to be in the light. That you do not have to have the physical to get to being.

I could have learned that in the physical? Not really. You'd be after the physical, the outer illusion rather than being on the inside. I think that is how it is.

Where di d that comef rom? This is what writing is about. I was able to connect tehre. It doesn't come from me. If you have that idea, then it is a limited resource. But if you were to connect to all that is and not be from just you, then you have all of creatio to source from.

This is what to me is what open source is about. It's not about mine or yours. It is all connected. Be that way and it will be that way. No need to change what is on the outside. Only that you be without conditinos. Thisi s what my writing is about. No need ta make it fancy. Just write and get to the other side.

North korea is so clean. Is it a better society? I think it has to do with the fact that—i just went around in circles there. Rather than getting to the point. Now I lost what I was about to say.

I dreamed that I left my wife for gemma. What does that mean? That I went, that I chose to be in the light no mattter what. I did not have sex with her because that was in the outer world. That was in the illusion, the reflection.

What if I chose to be in the light? How do yo udo that in your dream? You wanted to have something on the outside. But it's inmy dream. In tehre, there is no outside.

How do you have sex with someone in your dream? I get to that sexy parts, but nothing happens. I wake up. Or maybe I think that nothing happened. The local mind can't get what is happening on that level.

post birthday tuesday




My birthday just came and went. It was ok, but it could be better. Basically, I just stayed at home and waited for wife and friends to arrive. I was in front of the computer all day, eating. How could I have done it otherwise?

Spend the day riding to a location I want to overnight in. then family and friends will be there. They get there on bike or car if they choose. I think that's how it will be next year. Spend the weekend overnight.

How to get there? Start riding. Do I ride today? I can. Forecast is rain. I can do yoga later tonight while waiting for wife to get picked up. That way, I can ride during the day. Where to go? Even a short ride to takapuna is good.

How to do things differently then? How come there were no gifts? I don't think people do gifts anymore. So be it then. I changed a few things with my method. Basically watching pivot and level1 support and resistance level.

I am also looking for harami patterns. It's the bands that tell me where it is. Sometimes I don't get it. In the meantime, I do nothing. Wife got home late last night. I was watching walking dead. There's no meat in the story anymore. It's about the fighting and the contrast. Maybe i'm not that anymore that's why it doesn't appeal that much.





What to do now? I go back to java and android. I can revert back to cpp anytime, but I don't know. There is no good ide for it. I can always do gvim. It's that old reliable text editor. I made it through javascript with just that. I think I can get to the other side with this one.

With android dev, there is so much going on, that a good ide will help a lot. Then stick with that. I must have spent all day with cpp yesterday. It's simpler than java at the basic level. Why does it get complicated as they say? Maybe stick with clang instead? no. oop is goot to get into. It makes things simpler, although I can do functional with cpp if I wanted to.

What to do today? Do what interests you. Do java game dev for now and see where that leads to. It gets boring. I can go out for a ride, just to be out there doing something. That'd be interesting. I am putting my power out there. I am aware of that now.

That light doesn't come from someone else. It comes from me. If there was a folding bike, then I can load it up at the back, ride the car, then ride from there. How to get there? Do odesk or something that's similar.

I can do something else here. Like what? I don't know. Just get to the other side each time and see what happens. This here, I am writing. There is a half an hour before my son wakes up. Sometimes when it's bedtime, I am already tired. What will become of this? I am fighting this that's why it is still here.

What else can I do about it? That is only contrast. I don't have to fight it. Only watch what it brings forth in you. Like what? How I respond to it. That tells a lot about the definitions I have. Then I can stay here instead. Is this going up or down?

It goes up but where do I get in? That is the question? Look for the macd? Sometimes it's not that reliable. What else can I look at? The bands can get awesome sometimes. Look for gimmee bars.

It worked before. Only this time, I know how to read the charts differently. I can stick with that and see how far that goes. All my kids are growing up. She got up early this time. She is into her phome a lot.

tasker writing three




I give up trying to get that wifi off working with tasker. I think it doesn't work with llama. I've seen it working with automateit, but it probably had something to do with the power saver option. Maybe that's what is hindering everything. Other than that, things work well. I have a silent night profile on tasker. It turns off wifi when the profile is activated.

Maybe there is something I am not getting there with the wifi near thing. I don't know. The on off task works by itself. Maybe the way tasker is reading the state is the opportunity for me here. Opportunity because I can learn something from it.

I learned that I can define it as a problem, or as an opportunity for me to learn something. This is why I have it everywhere. This to remind me that everything really is an opportunity if you looked at it that way.

This way, cause and effect are in alignment with the light—my light. It's always that way. I am starting to enjoy java programming. It's sort of like similar to ruby, only that it's more fine-grained and close to metal programming. I think things will work out from here.

I have this cookbook. I can start posting them on github. I am going to grow that account. No need to go to that library get a job thing. That was from the past. I think things are rapidly evolving. And I can find my way from here if I keep to the light. I do things my way and I get the effect that I want.





No need to go through head hunters. They are in it for the money. I think it'd be better for me to get with business owners directly and I know how to do that. I can spend more time with them through meetups than going to toastmasters. Their baby is their business. I don't think some of them will want to improve on their public speaking. Things are changing and you don't need to be talking to the public to get traction. I think it's good to have that tool with you, but it's not the only tool to get things done.

Writing, I can reach more people, plus I can respond the way I want. This is why I do this. It has been like fifteen years that I have been writing. I have a lot of junk out there. Not that it's bad writing. Only that they are practice pages and I just leave them everywhere on the net.

I am not so concerned about privacy. It's a negative thing. Being positive, there is no privacy, but respect and allowing. If you see it that way, then you get a positive effect out of it.

I am writing now as I have time for it. I don't like waiting for the kids to get up. I can do the laundry for the bed sheets but it might start raining some time soon. Not heavy rains, just light showers now and then and it's not going to get the clothes dry.

I don't have to install arch on the laptop, but it's something I can do. I think the deep freeze issue has been resolved. I can move forward from there.

Then that's what I will be doing later on. There is the java tutorials. Also there is learning android. I have a full plate. Yesterday I did not do much. I felt like I am tired of all that. I am moving forward with this now.

I can do fiverr gigs for android. That's a great way for me to learn stuff. I can learn them as I go. The only opportunity that I see from there is that it is going to take some time. I think I can get a lot of training from that site and make a few bucks here and there. Lets go there and fire up that profile.

app_builder-izerator




Rubbish day today, plus recycling. I am off to see friends later for lunch. I think we can go to that korean restaurant that serves buffet. Or if that other one is open the gangnam site, then we can go there instead. I can check it out on my way there.

Eldest daughter is not going to school today. I think it had something to do with them finishing exams week. I don't think she'd be interested in coming along. I prefer to ride my bike.

The question now is, im I running this morning? I want to, then I will. I can take the easy way going there on bike. On those uphills, I can just walk if the legs complain too much. Yoga is good for these things when the muscles are full of lactic acid. I can do that later in the day.

Last night I got through that hurdle in learning android. I wasn't as tired this time and my head got it how to make it work. Basically, you sit on it. Make yourself comfortable and take a look at the situation. I used to have this notion that I need to finish through all of the tutorial. I wasn't in learning mode that way. I would rather take my time and enjoy the view.

Tacloban is so devastated. I wonder how this is connected? I think it's an opportunity to start over. I am interested in seeing how this will turn out in the end.

I have kept to this font for some time now—days, I think. I have monaco on other apps, but for most writing apps, I use this one. It's interesting to see this in action. It's also a monospaced font. It is better than the old courier I was using. This is where I am now. It is different from all the other fonts I have used. This tells me that I am moving forward. There is contrast and it shows me the difference in my reality.

I welcome that then. I am glad this is so. I am using whatever energy is there to create and fashion—engineer my own reality experience.

There's a lot for me today. I am taking a break from programming this morning. I have breakfast after I finish my run. It's fun to run. How do I bring my phone on my run? Do I want to listen to something else?

That quiet, space in the head in my awareness is important for me. That is connection right there. Therefore, I am not bringing my phone with me when I run.

Wife noticed last night that I was losing weight. That is encouraging. I did not each much last night and felt good about it. That 'feel good' is what keeps me going. That's the motivation now. Before, it was that initial rush when you eat carbs. It wears out quickly and is replaced by remorse and feeling bad the rest of the day. I am over that. I see the contrast there.

And how are things going later? I enjoy eating fresh mussles. I put them in the microwave for about five minutes. They come out hot and ready. It tastes great and I feel better after eating it. I am sober. I have clarity.

That's what's good about this thing. Is it showing in my trading? I am able to do dozens of trades and my risk is very small. The potential rewards are more than double when things work out for me. For this reason, I am moving forward with this.

How to move on from here? Like spiderman swinging from building to building, I swing from one interest to the other. If it doesn't interest me, I don't go there. I don't have to. If I had to, then it is someone else's baggage that I don't have to carry. That is how different things are right now in my life.

monospace trading et al




The default on an empty page is at consolas. These i's and l's look cute when writing. I am keeping to this font, lucida console. It's a monospaced font and it looks good while writing. The parentheses are also roundish like monaco's and it looks cute as well. These are some of the motivations I have for writing—good fonts.

And where did I find these? I was looking around for a font to use, I can't remember what for. I found this on yaourt. This is what's great about arch linux's package manager that is not available with ububntu's apt-get.

With yaourt, when you search for something, it gives you stuff that's relevant to what you are looking for. It can get muddled sometimes, but if you wanted something more specific, do pacman -Ss.

I haven't been doing good with my trading. The method isn't making any sense at this time. I think my trades are too early. I get a good idea as to which side of the market to trade, but I get stopped out, then the market gets going.

Good thing that my losses are small. These can easily be offset with a good position. I will keep to this. It takes some time, but I am confident that things will work out later on. This is still so much better than running a business, a job or investing my money. It is all three at the same time.

I can do trading while I work on my computer science. I think jeff sent me that microsoft thing because it's a dying tech. Nobody uses ms much in my world, but still, there's a lot of non-tech who are into that.

But I am done with the licensing thing. That's not for me. I would rather stick to open source. At least that way, you have leverage. And that's what abundance is about. You get more with less. It's what my reality is about these days. I don't get to update my blog these days except to post stuff I found on the internet. And that's good.

Is this a losing streak? I think so. If it were poker, I would understand. But this is like see what happens here. I think there's a spot opening up for a short on ej. It looks oversold and now trading at level 1. I am thinking if I should short this.

I have a limit sell in place. If it goes back then I can get that position at a cheap price—a bargain. This is what trading is about. Buy low, sell high. If wrong, cut losses then move on. It's not that one is better than the other, only that it's different. What's best is what works for you. This one works for me.

I am going to finish these then get going. I am going to post these as well. Do I go short now? I just did. I have an eye out for that stop. I think I will post that stop after I finish this. I don't think there's stop hunting going on around here. It is what it is. This is how I trade.

Is this going to go up some more? I don't know. If it does, then I am wrong with my read. It's time to do something else then. There is android training for today. Am I too old to get a job?

no. I have a different view on things. I am no better than the next guy, only that I see things differently. My experiences are different. And if that matches with their needs, then we have a match.

I can go for a sales job, but that doesn't work for me. I don't think that's what makes it work. Marketing and advertising also. It's based on fear. Give them what the want and they will come to you. No need to mislead.

this be my drug




I replaced firefox reg with the nightly version. I noticed there seemed to be a screenshot taking place now and then—out of nowhere. Lately, the sites seemed to be loading slower than usual. I think there is something fishy there. I tried both chrome and opera, but they don't work the same way. Maybe try the other chrome, but we'll see.

I switch things around now and then. It's a friday. It might be good weather today and througout the weekend. Manila is bracing for a typhoon. There are a lot of things to go through with the internet. It's a never ending progression.

One thing I notice, javascript is always there. I think I will focus on that some more. There's coffeescript and that makes things easier. I also have the most resources from the library in that subject. I am also doing java for android. Those two subjects are what keeps me busy. I can do the one thousand odesk hours with javascript alone. Let's get started with that.

I can do a lot of writing, but everyone else can do that. I see the path ahead of me. There is clarity. That is my drug. No more sugar. That clarity is what feels good. It's like that movie limitless. He had clarity and he got addicted to it.

Unlike him though, I don't have to know everything, but I will know what I need to know when I need to know it. Like what? I don't know. It's not relevant for me to answer that question now. I get there when I get there.

I have so much books to go through that I don't have to go to the library. Just be in the moment. Not sit there and do nothing, be that person you want to be. Be that which you admire most in others. Like what? Waturity. Wisdom. Clarity. I think that's a powerful word there. I think that's what people go after. I have it. It's here now.






I don't have to do anything or take anything. With drugs, it gets clouded. Clarity is like the blue skies in spring. It's cool outside and yet you want to be out there in the sun. it's not too hot, yet ever if it were, it's ok.

That's where I am right now. No amount of junk food will get you there. And that's how I kicked it out of me. This is my motivation. Will I ever go back? I don't think so. There's so much here for me to play with. I think I will be more loose, but I have seen the light. Why bother losing it? See more is what's next for me. Explore is what's next for me. There's a lot out there. Sex is a good drug to get into. I can go that way.

Mask the javascript inside a web app. It plays in the background. How will it play with the hardware? Through node. I think it's possible. It runs on v8 and that one has access to hardware stuff. There is also webkit. I think I can go deeper into that and see where it goes. Then it's javascript day today. Maybe until the rest of the week. There's node and there's a lot to go through with that library.

If I can't find it, I can ever create my own library for that. I think I like that idea. No need to be the jack of all trades. Just do this and get to the other side. I can make the kids' lunch after I finisth this. Right now, I kust want to do this. It its the writing. It is the conecting. Crlarity. That is powerful. You know the choices you can make and they seem to just open up. It's a lot more than you think you have.

This is where you want to be. It's not about the money. I see that now. Where to go with this? Right here and now. There is no out there anyway. Is that the gift? I think so. It feels like it. I feel empowered. It's not like a physical gift that the novelty wears off after some time. It just feels good. It goes on and on.

How do you give this to others? I don't know. Just be a shining example of it. No need to preach. Just be. If it is in their vibration, they will see. They wil be attracted like moth to the light. That is where you want to be. This is where I would rather be. I am here.

Now what else do I write about? I wirte so much better this way. The fingers are not jumping all over the place. I just write. No need no see where things are going. I know where I am. I amnot heaaded anywoere. There is only here and now. Reality happens through me.

I think I get what that means now. It is the consciousness. No amount of money will igve you that. That is what the context was about. I see now. I don't have to pity me. Not even the highset paid bloke has clarity. They have something else. And I dont' need that. It happens through me. This comes to me. It's in there I just can't explain it.

blue sky monday



I had a contrast moment with the wife last night. I understood this morning why she was in my reality. I am so positive now that all this negative shows up. I do not have to respond to them in a reactive way. All this negative is here to show me that I have a choice.

Just like learning a skill, you can't teach by theory. They , whoever you want to teach, must have that emptyness in them that needs to be filled. If so, they do not need your help to fill it in, they will go there themselves. But wife is of the reality I am no longer in.

I find myself drifting away from her. Maybe that is the reality I am in now. This is part of the synchronicity. I can create my own autohotkey with all this. No need to do otherwise. Is there ruby with intellij? I don't know. Ide's are cool for code complete and all the tools that run to help you write better code. Sometimes they get in the way because it's opinionated. Eclipse is like that but it's a handy tool. It worked for a lot of people. It did not work out for me. I was getting an error and I couldn't move past it.

Right now, I hate java. Developing for android is so complicated. It doesn't have to be that way. Why not do something you enjoy doing instead? Like what? Just do native and then it will come to you. I can do cpp and do ndks instead. Python is good. Jruby I thought was there, but it's such a big file on the upload and install. I don't want to go there. I guess I need to give this a break today.

I can go out for a bike ride. It's something that I enjoy doing. I walked yesterday. I will do weight training today. It's alternate days. Do yoga in the morning then do weights later in the day.

Yoga is so much better when I am alone in the house. Rather, when the kids are in school. It's just me and the cat and some other things my local mind can't grasp. It feels scary because locas can't grasp how different it is in the different dimension. But it's not out to kill me. It's there to connect. It is part of the awareness. And it's connecting with that awareness. It is coming throug. I am allowing it. I get connection there.





What to do today? The market is open. The wife can solve her own problem if she wanted to. I don't have to be in the dark with her. That is not how I want my state of being to be in. she chose how to spend money. I can't choose for her. I can only change myself.

She has to learn that. I can't teach her that. And this is the path I am in. I don't have to teach her anything. I think pandora is good. The quality of the sound is a bit iffy, but it's ok. I have it installed on my phone. I can listen to that when I have free wifi. I think that's cool. I can go do that on tasker.

Maybe that's what I need to do today. I can look up tasker and figure out how to do that. My daughter is interested in that too. I think there's a lot of things you can do with that. It's like your own programming language. It has a lot of java for that to work with the underlying.

I think it's a great app. Good price too. Now to get going with it. Can I make money out of it? That is the old way of seeing it. Will I have fun learning all that stuff? Yes, that is a better way of seeing things.

What to do with wife? It's up to her. Let her be in her ways. I can do my own stuff. No need to judge her for her choices. I don't need that to feel good about myself. I don't need that to be in the light. I just want to be in the light. No need to respond to her otherwise. This is my responsibility. If she wants to be in the light then good. If not, I allow her that.

caroling carolina



Them hives woke me up last night. It was shortly before three am. I got this itch at the back of my knee...then my elbows. When I got up this morning, I saw some rashes on my body. I allow this. It's happening. I don't know why I get these. There was what felt like a spider on me last night as I went to bed. It was around midnight. I guess this spider is my friend and is telling me something.

Or maybe it was there to help alleviate the situation. That is a better way to define it. It's the second night that I slept on my own. There feels like peace in it. No more roller coasters. I think I can have this for the rest of my life. I can go out and get those moments for myself.

If I can't sleep later in the afternoon, I am going out for a ride. I can do my intensities later on. It seems I have gps or something but I will need data for it. I don't know how it will work, but we shall see.

I have a lot on my plate right now. My days are interesting. I am always learning something new. There is bootstrap. Angular is like magic. Also android and jruby are in that list. When I get bored and saturated with one subject, I fork the other way. I can sit in front of the computer for hours and not get that bored. When I am bored, it tells me that it's time for a break. And then I go out. Or I take a nap.

Ususally I take a nap. There was spell check on this but I turned it off. So how are things going to turn out? I don't know. We shall see. I don't think my opinion matters in this house. Not that I want to control anything. I allow synchronicity in my life. Things happen for a reason even if I do not understand how things are going.





I know, not faith, that something is in there for me. Faith is manipulation and control. Not that I am against it, it's just that it doesn't work for me anymore. I saw through the veil. You do not need faith when there is knowing. Some people know what they get into. For me, it's like putting your powers into an amulet and feel that the amulet gives them power. In reality, it is them that experience the power, not because they have the magic amulet. It's like that with religion. Only this time, they want something in exchange for it.

And I am beyond that. If that works for them, if that floats your boat, so be it then. And what else is there for us to move on from here. How will you generate the power for that? And why is my phone not showing up on this computer? Does it not have micro sd card? I don't think it has. I will look into that. Maybe daughter still has it and is keeping it someplace.

Is thes a bottom for ozzy? It looks like it on the hour chart. I can zoom out, but that is too out there. I have the lunch cooling off before I pack it. I write while it is cooling off.

Does daughter have an alarm clock? I think things happened for james so he can live this way. No need to blame others. These things happen and no way you can do otherwise. It was good chatting with james in the past. He was a good friend. He is one you can spend time with. He has good social skills.

And how do things go from here? I don't know. I think she has work now and it takes her attention away from the social network. Reddit is a big social network, but how many are unique members? I think you can tell by the number on the computer. This is page two?

I thought I was still is page one. Anyway, these things go through faster than I expected. Maybe I am typing faster now. And that is the purpose of all this. There was a time starting off and I hated it. Now writing is so much easier on my fingers.

friday again



Almost everyone is up early today. And now I write. I am getting lost again as to the programming language to learn. Then it's time for me to take a break. No need to rush these things. Only get to the other side. I don't even have to learn them. Just be in the light.

I like this video wife is watching. She is hot. I think she has a kid. For the first two kids, you get off ealy. Only work out a bit and there you go. But after the second and you are doing nothing about it, then women balloon.

I saw this couple walking yesterday. I used ta have that in my life. I would take long walks and women would come with me. I enjoy going on those long walks. I wonder what ever happened to juli. She went to germany. Never found her anywhere else. I think she got married then. Is she alright? And so is lileth. These people are nowhere to be found on the internet.

If they have smartphones, they'd probably heard of the internet. I have a smartphone but I seldom use it to go on the internet. I tend to use them for quick short messages. On those times when I need to connect directly and get a response, the phone comes in handy. I think you can go in that direction.

Java is kinda easy. I can go in there. It gets complicated when applied to android. It is next level and I am not yet there. So I just be patient and I will learn all that. It's like clang. I could have learned that straight off as my first programming language. Instead, I went around and learned the easy ones first. Now I am going around in circles. I think that is judging myself to harsh. Things happen for a reason. I went that path for a reason.

And now what? Go for java. Finish them videos. Make something out of it. No need to go the easy way. Soon as I get that, things will be easier to code. My son is getting bigger. Not just in height, but also sideways. That's life. These things happen they grow up so fast. Today is trash day. Just the orange bag. Next week is the blue bin. I have two books waiting in the library. I can return the python django book. I don't need that for now.

Next time I want to look into it, I can check out that book. For now, I want to concentrate on android stuff. There's java and xml. The latter is easier for me as I alread know html. I can also do hybrid apps, but that is a shocrtcut.

Finish java and then I can do hybrid apps. I like javascript. I have already done a lot of things with it. I can go on odesk with just that language. I can go as far as I can with that as well. There are a lot of resources out there that will make things work. If I installed skype, will it still work?





I can experimeth with that. I wonder how to test that? There is a way for that. But I was able to fix it this time. The next question is, will the keys work? If that works off the bat, then problem solved. If not, then I will look deeper into that.

I can create scripts for myself, but I don't need one right now. I think I can look up an mt4 for my phone. Where can I find one? Google. That is a good source. I think fxcm has one. Who else? I can do a demo account for that, then put in my trades using the web platform. How did they do that?

I think documentation is there if you looked for it. I am losing connection with a favorite daughter. She keeps to herself these days. Where to go? I can go to narrow neck beach and just hang there. I like that one beach. There are a lot of good beaches here.

Mission bay is also good. I have been there on bike before. I got so tired that I had to ride in the car going back.

peak in the market



It's too hot to wear my blue long jacket, and a bit cold when I don't. I think you can still make a living copying the popular apps or second tier, but make a good copy on the landing page. This way, you get people to try it and hopefully will leave a positive feedback on your page.

The key here is good support and copywriting. You don't have to do direct marketing the old way. Just get a good app, write effective copywriting, and you are off to the races.

Do I still have to learn java for android? Yes. I don't want to write for the clueless. There's a lot out there. All I want to do is to mind my own business.

Programming is a lot like if this then that. It's going to connect with the low level system to do its job. You can find this in the api's and documentation. Is this seat too far? It feels like it. Is that the trash collector? I don't think so. They tend to stay in one place.

Daughter's game is broken again. I don't know how to fix it now. She has something else installed. I think that game is dying. People are going to have to look someplace else. Support is important for these games. Where do you find one? You may have to get your own call center for it. Better yet, get a forum and let the community help out.

But most of them are busy playing. Not all. Reward those who will help out. They can spend an hour a day helping out with support. Those who get more upvotes will get goodies and rewards that you can use in the game.




I think there is something to it. I am suspecting that market will gap down. It has done so in the last several weeks. There is non farm payroll happening soon. I need to wake up the kids and get ready for school. Soon as daughter goes out of her room, then I go wake up son.

This is morning pages and I am now on page two. I am not writing for an audienc, only write for practice. No need to get an audience for this. I write to connect fingers to the flow. This way, when the connection is set, then I can write better stuff. I think it's a balance betwenn writing from flow, and edidting. You spend half and half on both.

It takes time, but if you can do this, add good research to it, then you can write about anything in the world. Then it's a three way thing. If you don't know a thing about it, then spend three days doing research. That is going to take time. I don't think five dollars is going to compensate you well for it.

It's a monday. I think I can do that twenty thousand return in a span of a few weeks. Gear up with leverage to four trades to ten percent loss. Minimise your risk, then trade accordingly.

I will do more analysis on that. I have the stats. I can reverse engineer a method out of that later on. I think I have something good here. I don't have to do scalps. Just wait for a good setup then trade accordingly.

I cando that after I do those things for the kids. Get their lunch ready, make hot cocoa, then wake them up. After that is behind me, then I can sit down for them analysis. There is no farm payrolls later on.

I think the philippine stock market is nearing its peak. There are more juan de la cruz's investing and getting in the market. Soon as you get these stock market seminars, that tells you to start considering selling out. Will it continue on? Of course it will.

But the big boys will see it. Better be ready. You need about two decades of watching the market for this strategy. I think you can make something out of it.

yet a new friday



Soon as I finish the android tutorials, I can get gigs fixing android apps on either fiverr, pph or odesk. That will give me enough apps to practice on and improve my skills. I like where this is headed.

I even removed those programming tutroials that I do not enjoy doing. Ruby is a good programming language, but there is not a lot of learning resources online as compared to python. Python is more available. I can always find something on python. And I am going to stick with that. They are almost identical anyway.

So it's going to be python and java for now. Until the end of the year at least. Next year I go full time on this. Nodejs also that's three. If you count in html and css, then that's also part of it. Golang, not so much. Soon as I get how to code in java, I think golang will also fall into place. For now, these three are what I am going to focus on.

What else? I put out the trash. I can watch my tutorials in the morning. I can do yoga. I can ride my bike. Jeff bought a tv last ngiht. It was huge. I am not there, but I can match that frequency. That's why I am in this situation, to show that I too, am even without the outside circumstances.




If it were easy for me to have the outside, like have a lot of money, I would have a hard time learning that. In a way, it's a handicap for me so I can learn to without the crutch. And I am in the light. No need to have. Only to be.

And I am not lacking in programming and hacking skills. They've spent time in university learning about it. I use my own time elarning about it as well. Ot that one is better than the othre, only that it's different. That is where the light is. There's a lot to talk about. There are plenty of places to go here. Waht's next for me?

Wife wants to go out this weekend. I don't know where they want to go. Wherever that is, I can go on my bike, except they go someplace that's beyond the city.

I wonder when jeff is going to get his own car? I think it's easy for him to get a driver's license if he was that keen on getting a car. He will and he is going to get a car when the timing is right. That way, I don't have to get moral ascendancy on them. I get that in me sometimes. I am now aware. I have always been aware of that. And then I let go.

That is what self awareness is. That is where practirce is right now. I do detox this morning. I don't think I need to do carbs tonight. I can eat light later at dinner. I don't have to go there. I can choose to go there. It's a viable an alternative as all the other alternativez. But I don't have to go there. Just be in this moment.

Where else is there? I can hang out over there. Bring the laptop and see what can happen. I don't think it's appropos. It raises a lot of questions. Besides, I have everything in here. I don't have to go there anyway.

I can do a lot of things in here. I don't nap as often during the day. Why is that? Maybe I don't get so tired anymore. I will do the sandwiches soon as I finish these. The broadband resets tomorrow.

Garbage is going to get pickep up soon. I don't have to worry about that. Why is it that the people around here are not putting out their garbage? Maybe there wasn't any notice. There has to be a notice before they get put out.

I will check the council website. Otherwise, things start to pile up this weekend. Then they pick up the trash next week on monday. I think that's how things work. Do I have to get the extra bandwidth? Only keep them there. It will get there when we get there.

use that contrast



This sometimes feel like an obligation. I was using monospaced yesterday as programming font. I think there's something interesting about it. But if I were to use that...

being angry about something is not the way to change it. You only add tremendous amounts of energy to it that it becomes more solid. It's that much harder to change it than if you were more allowing of it. Use that energy and find how the situation serves you. Everything happens... is there for a reason. Use that to put a positive meaning into it and you get a positive effect out.

This is what the process is about. It also applies to my trading. I am spending time with java. It's ok for now. I got this great tutorial from my library. It explains a lot of things making it clear.

I would rather go deep in java than mono at this time. I don't have to worry about licensing—and they are similar in ways. One runs in the other, but java is native to android. So I go in that direction.

Tutorials at tutsplus is better than lynda's. Both are at the top of my charts anyway, but tuts is cheaper by five dollars and the concepts are better explained. But that's just my opinion. Experience it for yourself and make your own opinion of it.

Wife got up early today. She is easily offended by the smallest things. I wonder how that is part of my experience?

I use it for the contrast. Other than that, staying there does not serve me so I just let it be. She gets upset so be it. What else is new? This happens all the time anyway.

Ej might fail off that recent high on h1. I am looking for a double top on m5. Only then will I trade it short. Otherwise, do nothing. It's still bullish at this time. I tend to be more bullish near the bottom. Sometimes I face into a running train with this. That's part of the process.

Sometimes I get the nail on its head. The trade is spot on. This way, my loss is minimal. That's how I like things around here. They have issues and love to hold on to their anger. I can't change that. They can only choose to change that themselves.

It serves as contrast for me. If I was told what my job really was as a med rep, I could have done things differently. What it really means is that you are a lobbyist, not in sales. There's a big difference. I could have spent more time with the key persons in the game. I could have more efficient with my resources.

I know better now. It is the definitions that count. Find the right definitions and you make things better. Wife gets upset for the smallest things. That's her. That's contrast for me. Use it that way. No need to add more energy into it.

I will move forward now. Just change my attention. What am I putting my energy into? This writing. I will concentrate on my writing. Someone showed up in my dream. It was something, an energy that I do not like. There was resistance in it. I found myself choosing my response.

Then that served you well. That is what being positive is about. Use that from here on. I will pick up son from school. No more waiting in countdown. I will have a good week this time. I choose to make it that way. I used to work out with weights.

It doesn't take a lot of time. I can do that on my free time. Maybe after yoga to round things up to make it an hour. Try it next time.

on spotify radio



I get this urge to listen to jazz—mostly starbucks like music. Maybe this is telling me that I do not have to go to starbucks to have that experience? This adds to that bucket. I forgot what that bucket is about. I think I like spotify. Is this my new music station? I used to enjoy grooveshark. I don't go there much as I can do youtube. I have a playlist in there. I want to discover something else. This is part of what brought me to spotify.

I am long on ej. I saw a divergence pattern spot on and had low risk compared to the potential of the trade. Support to h1 swing low. I opened this on the m5. Let's see where this takes us when tokyo opens later. I think the downtrend will come to an end soon. More so when the us shutdown is over.

I had a good night's sleep last night. I woke up some time before four am and couldn't get back to sleep. I can always take a nap later. I can use this time to listen to music as I write. It's quiet around here.

I can use this time to write. I felt bad about the interaction with didi last night. I wonder if I offended her. I hope not. I was condescending? It felt like I was and got that as a reflection off her.

I tride creating my own station, but couldn't figure it out. Might as well write and go there later on. By the time they get up, i'd have four hours on my day. I then take an hour nap and I get a fresh eight hours to my day. This is what me as a forex trader is like. I think I can create a blog dump like this.

I like easy listening music like this. It's new and I enjoy this. I might sign up for this to have this with me offline on a smartphone. That's what my next phone is going to be. That way, I can check in on the market every hour.

Moving forward now. The kids are all asleep. It's been an hour since I got up. It is almost six am. This is who I am. Wife was in the dark last night. I don't have to be there with her. I allow her to be. I don't have to judge her for it. Instead, I used that as opportunity for me to choose to be in the light despite what I see around me. It was a chance for me to practice being a positive person. Do I expect something out of it?

Only to feel better at this time. Girl from ipanema. I like this. I like that word as well. Maybe use that for something? I already have a url. I am now building up that brand on the net. What else can I talk about here? What does this music feel like? Easy. My frequency lowers. It's smooth?

I'm not a jazz person, but this is something I can listen to. Move forward from there. I don't have to listen to pinoy music. I would rather listen to something like this and see what happens. This is online radio. I like it. I wonder how they make money there?

I think I was able to make something... forgot what that was. I have an hour before the library closes. Not that I am wanting anything. Just to get things sorted out. Election ends today. I can go to the library and see what's in there. I don't have anything in the mail to cast my vote. Imagine we can vote by mail. That is awesome there. Imagine how much savings you can have in there.

I think that is behind me now. I got something out of this and see what happens. This is what I get with the free account on spotify. Ads. That's ok I think. That's a small price to pay for the service. I can live with that.

That price bounced off my entry, that is a good sign. I can move my stops up later on. We'll see how far this baby will go. I can do this business anywhere in the worsd that I have internet connection. This is what me is about. I am moving forward in this light.

no plans on a sunday



I went to bed early last night. I didn't get my afternoon nap in. after dinner, I was already pooped and wasn't talking much. We had guests and as we drove them off, I was sitting quietly and was aware of it. I did not know what to do about it so I just sat there doing nothing. I think they too, were already tired.

What I couldn't understand is why they had to bring us there? I think it be better if they said that they wanted someone else's opinion on the car they were about to get. But it's just my opinion. I think he is being too picky about it. If it were me, once I get a good deal, then I go with it—specially if he asked for a big discount and getting it. It would be not good to go to someone else after getting a big discount like that. But that's just me. Maybe his point of view is different.

I had a good week trading last week. Things were working. Miley is getting out of control. People do not want to be shocked. They want to see talent. If you can't give that, don't do something else, like going naked or going wild. You only lose cred that way. You don't want that. I am done with marketing. It is not the path that I want to take. I would rather do my own thing, market my own gigs and be in the light than to do it for someone else who doesn't get it.

You don't find that often on the internet. If they do get it, they wouldn't be in odesk looking for cheap amateurs. And so I am out of it. I think it is good if you were that amateur. Someone else is paying you to learn. If so, keep at it and get to the light soon enough. When you do get there, do it.

I am moving on and forward. I don't think people will go through a blog when you offer the information up front. Ten dollars sounds like a good price for that information. They can go through that in less than a week if they were not careful. I can throw in the indicators and templates that I use. Now that's a good deal. I will bite that bait.

One daughter is already awake. I was so tired yesterday. What's in store for today? I can go out and ride my bike. I don't know what the wife plasns to do today. I think we can go out for a walk. I can go out for a ride. We can go to that bush in beach haven. But where do you leave the car? In a sidewalk around there. What else can we do around here? I don't know. I can just sit here.

I do that the rest of the week. Do something else for a change. There's bush walks around that path near albany. Or we can do that seven kilometer walk in onewa or something. The wife and I can do that. The kids can choose to stay at home. I will ask wife later what she wants to do.

She did not work out this time? I saw her get up earlier. She went back to bed. I am on detox today. What are they going to have for breakfast? They are going to rush through that. They have church today. I can have hot soup with them. Or just plain water. My eyesight is different tow. What to do abut I it? Take a break. They go to church. I can stay at home. Or do something different altogoether. Like what? I don't know yet. Just get to the other side and see what happens.

Right now, I will finish these pages. Then post them on the internet. Things get like this when there is nothing to write about. Those shades need to be in a safe location. I think it is normal for kids to move away from the friendship. These things happen. They outgrow each other. I wonder why? I think they did not mesh well with each other. Their path were different. That's normal. If you forced them together, you are going to get friction. Better to allow these things to happen.

That's how things fall into place. I miss going to the gym. What can I do around here to do that again? I think the forex trading biz is going to get us there. I just need to shift into that light. This is why I have this situation. This is the contrast that I will use. This is the energy for me to move into the light.

How to get there? Just be in the light. No need to react to what I think there is. It is only illusion. It will change once you see the light. It is the trinity. Not the holy trinity that you find in the church. That is taking power away from you and outside. You put it outside of you and you do ont have access to it.

orewa this saturday



This is a late morning pages. I wasn't up to it earlier today. I got up some time after 5am. Technically, it was still 4am because we just moved into daylight savings time.

The kdis have been watching tv or on the internet since this morning. I think the reason I ma here is because I am bored and don't have anything that's fun to do. What can I do about it? Find something that's interesting to do. Like what? Ride my bike is fun. But there's no purpose to it. I think I need direction.. motivation is the right word, but I think you get the point.

The last time I was overweight, I lost weight because I was going out more. I went to the gym. I rode my bike going to the gym. I was hanging out with people. I was into sports. There was never a dull moment. What can I do here that is something like that.

I can volunteer for something. I am good with computers and programming. Maybe I can help old people with that or something. And what else can I do around here? I can volunteer my time with the old people in that community near our home. The kids can choose to come with me. I can give them my phone number and they can call me whenever they need help.

That is going to be interesting. I can meet more people that way too. Is that going to be for me? I have spaghetti sauce simmering in the kitchen. I chose to slow cook that. The kids are not hungry anyway. I think I can make the pasta when they are about to it. I am not making it now and let it sit when they are not yet ready to eat. That will lose quality that way.

I enjoy cooking. What else can I do around here that's going to be fun? I don't know yet. I think I can do something here that will get me to the other side. Like what? Ride the bike is good. On the computer is also good. I think there's a connection there. We'll see. At least the idea is there.

I was riding a lot going to the gym and back. Do I need to go to the gym again? What else can I do that is akin to where I am? I don't know yet. I will be open to my imagination and see what comes up.

This is the morning pages. I enjoy golang and want to go deeper with that. Since it is similar to C, I am watching videos on that too, just to get an idea of what these two languages are capable of doing.

My left eye is weaker now. Try the other contact lens? I think I can go there and do that. But then again, I will have to wear that glasses just to read stuff here. I think I will have to go there anyway. Then go. Will it help? I don't know. Only that I work with my excitement and be in the light. That is what these things are about.

Am I looking to have an affair again? Why not? That was exciting. Maybe that is the light I am looking for. If it's there, then it's there. If not, I am not going to go around looking for it. Trusting the synchronicity on that. Am I watching supernatural with the kids? It is interesting. That guy from grey's anatomy is an interesting person. His character is cool. That's one of the watching people today.

How do you get that? I am learning that now. I have this book, how to talk to anyone. I think it is interesting and it's the next step for napoleon hill—no, dale carnegie's book. I think I have the basics. Reddit is there as well and it helps tremendously.

Reddit helps me to find stuff by Synchronicity. And that's why I am always there. We are going to orewa this weekend. I can ride my bike going there. I used to do that a lot. The thing is, it is a long way from here and I don't know if I can make it here.

I can try. I go for short walks now and then. I will have to leave earlier than they would. It takes them a short car ride to get there. It will take me two hours to get there one way by bike.

There's a paknsave in there. We can stop there for meals after the walk. It will be interesting then. I am looking forward to it. After this, I am going to check that spaghetti sauce slow cooker. After that, I am going to post these on the internet. And I am done.

still with c



It is 7.30am. Everyone is still sleeping. This is my morning pages. Jeff has moved out. He's with stela now. I feel like this is a new chapter in my life. It feel like a fresh start again. We are meeting them for lunch. I think it's a good opportunity for me to go out and ride my bike. Yesterday was bright and sunny.

I moved my default pc to hp. The asus is for the kids while they are on term break. I think they like it because of the wide screen and the location. I am getting the seat for this replaced on the next recycling day. What's next for me here.? I am going on my way now. Theirs is a different path. Not that one is better than the other, only different. I know this. I allow this. Things are different for me. No need for me to compare in their standards. We are all different.

I don't feel like having breakfast now. I can have lunch and go low carb. This is a choire. I am now consistently going to make this choice. I see where I am headed. I did not feel up to par yesterday. I can ever go out for a walk later in the day. It would be fun to be like them, but that is not my path. My path is different. I am who I am. I know things they do not. It is time to go my way.

What is my way. I live in the fourth dimension. Things work different in here. I can't explain it how it works, only that I can live it. I do not have to change people into this. If they are of that vibration, then we will see eye to eye. In the meantime, you do not have to know about how it works in order to make it work in your reality.

Sometimes you are in the light and everything works out. That's how things are around here. I think things are going to synchronize here. I have openoffice on this pc. I like how it works. It's a monday. We have trading today. But I won't do anything until much later in the day when the spreads have settled down. That mitoy guy has such a powerful voice. I think he sings in bands. Things are like this for now. I think I am there. That's my age range. No ned to know the exact number. The other people are going on their own way. Mine is different. No need to go their own way.

I think joey is doing ok. Do I need to email him? Things will work out on their own timing. Right now is not the right time. It will fall into place for me here. What else. Wife is still in bed. I don't think she is going to work out.

I am going to bookmark that weather site. This way, I know if I will hang the laundry outlide or not. Wife is not going to work out today. That is her path. I do not have to judge her for it. When she thinks the timing is right for her, then she is going to go in that direction as well.

Mine is different. This is where I am right now. Just do this and see what happens. And then what? Did I just make a new friend there? I don't know. If it is, then so be it. I think he is a sincere person. He talks about himself a lot, but that's ok. I can just listen and zoom out when needed.

Things are a lot more quiet now. The kids sleep in their own beds. This is how things are going to be for a while. Kila is getting a new laptop on her birthday. I can speed up the laptop asus by removing the game from there. That will be less issues and complications in there.

The router timer is on right now. It will turn off at nine. Every two hours hence, the internet will shut down for them for an hour. This way, the pc is going to have an hour's break. This gives them time to do something else.

I think that be good. They can choose to go outside, but I don't think they will. They know what's good for them. I encourage that. I don't have all the answers. This is what's happening right now. I think this pc has enough tools in it. It is running fast. It is faster than the newest pc here running on windows.

This is why I love arch linux. It takes a lot of tweaking, but it will never hide anything from you. You will have to tinker with it a lot, but you will learn something in the process. This is why I am learning c. it is a lower level programming language. It takes a while to learn it, but when you have a good grasp of it, then you are the master of the universe. I am going to keep at it then.

now into java



I am putting more interest into java and android dev rather than mono. Mono feels like a bandaid solution to android dev, and like microsoft, there's money involved if you want to go further into learning it.

It's like, “i learned this from someone else and now you have to pay to learn from me.” I don't subscribe to that. Why spend time in a system like that? There are alternatives and I can keep to the open source light with android.

I find it weird that I can't open my xdd. I will try open it in windows or a different system. Last time I played with it, I imported some files into it. And I also ran antivirus on it. But I rememrber that I still put files into that last night. It must have been the antivirus. I will make test to see what happened there.

I was able to open that in my other arch pc. That means it could be that last update. I may have to restart this machine to see if that will work. It seems to have stopped raining. There's still winds today. I will make the kids lunch after 7. I have a lot to learn/go through today. There's c and golang and now java is in the mix. Better to learn java than mono. Same banana, but java is free and open source—that I know of. We'll see. I think there are other resources that I can use to make things work for me.

In the meantime, I will only do this. Two more days and a new chapter opens up. It's always a new chapter. Every moment is a new chapter, if you want to see it that way. Is that bullish? I think it's weak. I can test a buy on support and see what happens.

We are headed into the asian session. Oz will open in a few hours. I think I can watch the market from there. I think paitence is the best strategy with this. But there is something better than patience.

I don't know what that is at the moment, but I feel that energy. Then I will go to that light. I am also writing. I don't need a new url. That's just one more layer of abstraction. Better to go in there and get close to the metal. That wy, I get a better understanding of how theset ings work. That way, you will know what is happening in here.

I don't think I will want to go in there, but I have a good linux setup. It's pretty fast and works well. I learn how to be a better hack by making things work with this machine. I think I will learn moro and 2014 is an exciting era coming up. We will see and watch. Participate isa better word for that. Get in there an run with the wolves, so to speak. And how to do that? Choose.

You always have a choice. There is always that oppeortunity to choose the light. Or dark. It doesn't matter which way. It is only labels. No need for judgement. Only go there. What to do today? I haven't been walking out because of the rain. I have been cleaning up though. What to make for lunch? I don't know yet. Maybe it is time for intermittent fasting.

Do I have to learn more about it? No need. Only go by experience. That is more interesting that wy. I am a better dvorak user now. I can write better this way. And now the practice things are kicking in. that way, I get to write more often. No need for expectations.

What if I went for c as my first language? Will things be more different? Tehre are concepts that I do nont understand and had to learn. That is why the path I took, although it looks like going around in circles was the best path for me.

I have a better understanding of how these things work because of that path. If I took the short and direct path, I might have lost interest in this sooner. Or maybe not. But now and here is where I am. I am supported in my decision here.

I think I need to have a date with the wife. Where to go from here? I don't know. Only get to the othrer side and see what happens. And do I want to go to odesk with this? Maybe. We shall see. I think there'- more learning ta have from there. If it is interesting enough, then I can go that way. I have tools in my pc. Now I need to restart this. Then things will work again. Posting this now.