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I was thinking of removing the unwanted libre office stuff, but then it had to remove everything. So I stopped right there. Jeffrey got nowhere. He missed his bus. Why not in the maxx website? It should have been updted there. That way, we would have known. I think that site has to be notified or something.

I am doing morning pages on the old pc. This is going to be called that. This is the oldest in terms of model. Mine, the desktop is oldest as it was bought earlier than this pc. The latest is the tablet which my daughter uses, but is of no use to me at the moment as I don't see myself hacking through there.

Is that how I see myself now? As a hacker? I think hacker like tony stark is builds stuff. Is there a term for that? To build stuff? I don't know. Maybe mechanic is a term for that. Geeks will get that now. I don't know. We shall see what happens there.

If I were to create a virus for an alien tech, which language will I use? If I just introduced a python script to it, will it work? I don't know if that will work. Will it? I am not sure. There has to be an interface to that to make it work. Some sort of similarity for the virus to latch on.

The files in this dropbox has been updted. Typing on this pc feels like I am folding my fingers too much. I lowerd the top of the keyboard a bit. I think the fingers are more relaxed this way. This is tough writing on qwerty. What can I do about this?

So is this guy starting to get anxiety attacks? I think he has to relax and enjoy being in the moment instead. This is all about reflection. What you pu out is what you get back and that is related to prgramming. The kids are playign all the time, on their gadgets and on the internet.

If I were to shut down the itnernet for a day, I wonder what is going to happen. I can change the password. Maybe they can figure it out. Or I can write a script that will crach passwords. Is that possible? I think so. How to do that then?

I don't know. Start with a hash of words from the dictionary. Where to get that? I don't now. Or connect to google or soemthing throught the search query. This keyboard is really tough on my fingers. I set it back to the higher top level. This way, I don't hit the space bar as I type. The acer keyboard which is based on the hp is better for typing. At least in my experience that is true. It doesn't have to be true for you.

Write down words and ideas. No need grammar correct. Write like tarzan talks. That is how you write ideas as they flow through you. When you make grammar correct, then you pause a bit, there is a misconnection there.

Wife is jealous me. I don't know. There is proximity. I don't t hink I need to be worried about her. I am secure in that position. And if things turned south, these are part of process anyway. Synchronicity and this is going to be a present for me so I will look forward to whatever it is that is happeninng.

I did not do yoga today. I had spaghetti for lunch. I do day one tomorrow. He's a kid. He has a lot to learn still. I too have a lot to learn. His reality is different frommine and that is a different perspective. Then I welcome that. Should I have gone off with him? I chose not to. He did not ask. If he had asked, then it is synchronicity and I will not say no to that. Why am I saying no to my reality then?

It is the ego. It is me. No need to put blame on ego. I am ego. I chose that. I chose to deny my own experience. Why? I did not like it. But then I catch myself doing that and I am in the light. This is what my process is about. It is being in the light unconditionally. It is being in the light no matter what.

How is this going to benefit me? None. That is expectatton. I just choose to be in the light. There is the awareness and awareness brings choice and choice is to go to the light. I can also choose to be in the dark. That is also valid. But it does not make me happy. It is contrast, but I would rather be happy, or at peace.

This is page two. I am going to write in this pc. I am going to get stuff from here to, but I need to figure out how to set up network connections with this. If so, it will be easy to get there. The one in linux mint is a bit confusing. Maybe there is a cli for that which I can use.

There are plenty of things to learn here. Shell scripting is one. Also python and coffeescript. That will come over time. I am also maintaining my blogs. That is also there. I am also doing that ebook one dollar thing. It has been weeks. I feel like this is not interesting. So I let it go.

What else is there for me to leran here?

I think I just figured it out. What are my other skills then? I don't know yet. Maybe pus shomething kenjutsu? no. write something else altogheter. Like what? I don't know yet. When that hits torrents, then the selling power is lost. People will only get it from there.

So what else am I going to do here? I don't know yet. Just get to th e tother side each time. This is to finish writing this and I can go do soemthing else. I don't watch movies that much. If the tech is less, then I am not interested. I think there is something there for me.

Write novels. There is soemthing to learn there. Write like a superhero would. What would stark do? If it were not for the suit, that is one to one. What is one to many stark? I think it is through software. Why not develp software for that?

I don't know yet. There is soemthing there to do. Why not go in that direction. I think that is possible. Is there a way to do that? Id on't see that now. So I sit here and do nothing. Like what? They are taking stark to different levels. How will he think?

I think that is something there. What about a poor stark? It is not that he has money. He only has ideas. And that is the difference one makes. What is lesson there? That money tdooens't matter. It is the quality of the ideas. It is the passion.

I want to go to the city and just hang out there. If I can't then so be it. They are going to put bike racks onbuses. That is going to be cool. I can do that. And if the bridge path is up, I can go there more often. It is easy to go there then. I can pay the tax on that. It is only two dollars. But it's like taking the bus already. Why not just take the bus?

It is going to eat on your expense. I t hink it has to be removed as we are paying taxes indirectly.

more dvorakses




I am going to write a while and then I am going to do yoga. I do not feel so well. It must have been either the bacon or the ribs that I had for breakfast. I had a nap instead of going out for a ride. I think that was a good thing for me to do. I can always ride later, or take a walk.

In the meantime, I can write, then do yoga later. I started work on the dentist copy. There is not much I can do. The website needs an overhaul. I can make a mock up on my side, maybe contact the dentist and tell them what I think. Then I wonder how thiy can use the copy to get better business.

I am writitng three pages. I am feeling more comfortable writing with dvorak. It's just that writitng that name is hard enough. Even when I write in qwerty, it is difficult already. That tells me that things are moving on and that the brain is now adapting to this sort of keyboald layout.

So now I do three pages. This is how I start writitng. First I go around in circles. Then I go this way and that. Then I make a few edits. Then I write some morev then I write as I edit. Next thing I know, thi writitng is actually going somewhere.

I do not know where it is supposed to go when I sit down to write. All I know is that I go north, keep to the light as I write. I try not to have any expectations. I think most of the wrods are within homekey. Then things are going to fall into place as I write.

That new guy is comnig next week. Things are going to be shaky for a while around here. The kids are going to end the term next wiik as well. If so, classes school is good only until friday.

I will have a new term coming up soon. I wonder if they were able to fix the novopay issue. I have a new domain name. I think, I feel like I etjoy where this is going. I can continue on with that direction.

For one, the site is more within my control. I can do changes with it. It is open source. It ts no longer blogger, yet it is better than wordpress. It is so much faster. Imagine I am hosting it in heroku and it is still on the free package and yet it is loading faster thatn a paid wordpress site. I think this has potential to it. I just do not know where this is going at this time.

Now I am on my second page. Is there something to worry about? If sow then there is a lot of things to worry about. There is something always. You just have to check in and see why the reflection is there.

Why is that reflection there. Simone is calling. I gotta finish these first. That too, is a ceflection. I see that. This is what the relationship is about. Everything then is about relationships. It is all connected. That is what it means to have a relationship with something.

It is there for you. Things happen for a reason and I put them there for a reason. Sometimes I do not pay attention and the reason is buried in minutiae. That is a new word for me to use. What does that mean? The details. It is the small details that I am often buried in.

my chldren are important. But sometimes, they do not know what is important for them. I am wrong there. I seldom do that. That I am wrong and admitting to it. I should do that more often.

What else to write about? Follow the thread. The local self do not know which direction to take. Rather, the creation come from the higher mind. The local mind is great with editing. The creative part comes from the higher mind. That is how I work. So how to access the higher mind when writitng?

You just write. Get the fingers used to writing whatever comes to mind. Let it out. Connect to that flow. When there is nothing that is coming out,w then you can start editing. Rocal mind and higher mind is one. This is that. There is no separation. Why should there be separation?

When you are that, then it is you. The one is the all and the all together are the one. I feel like I am not writing as fast. That is local. When you get a curve ball and do not know there that came from, that is local filtering for the higher mind.

I have the heater on. I am doing yoga after I finish these. Do I post this time? I was not able to post last tim. I think we will be shorh on broadband this month. I can add more later when it is finish. Cight now, I will work with what I got. When we get there, then I will make that decision to add more or not.

We had excess the last time. Why not let that carry over>that is haw they make money. How do I do that? I think this is where my practice is. I am getting tired of this? no. local mind is starting to wander around. I can stick with this and fininsh them.

All I need to do is three pages. Just write whatever comes to mind. No need to make good writing. There are a number of good stories out there. Surprisingly, ruby was good. What else can I do here? I can learn python later. I have that in my to do list.

I have several resources to learn that from. Sometimes I am surprised that the letters fall into place. That is where things get automatic.

So where are things going to go to next? Wife is going to take the day off to help me pick up the new guy. That is good. We are going out on a date then.

I am wanting to get this finished. I want to go to the next agenda. Then I will go back to this later. I am learning shuff here thatt I am not even aware of. Like whoat? Rike learning dvorak. The low keys are hard to get at. I think I can do practice with that. There are several sites out there that can help.

I can do that later. I can do that everyday. It takes getting used to. I am stoppnig here. Why is that? I will work on those exercises when I have the hime later. For now, finish these. Rather, enjoy what I am doing. Then the time flies and next thing you know, I am finished with thiese

I think I am about two or three paragraphs away from the end of these. So be it. I will simply write. The fingers are getting caught up. Why not go hungry? It is not bad for you. That is where all the good shuff comes from. That means you are opening up to the universe.

When I am empty and hungry, I get a lot of curve balls. That is good and that I do not know where I am going but when I try to control everything, I get lost.

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I quit odesk. I don't know what's going to happen next. That's good. I guess. All I know is that I wasn't happy writing for other people. I did not know what to write about and they are always rushing things. I write better my way my pace. Better that way.

Now, my goal is to be better one percent each day. Did I make that? Am I a one percent better copywriter? Yes I am. Am I a one percent better programmer? Yes, I am. Then I can go to bed now. My day has been productive.

If I don't check in like that, I get anxious and wonder what the future will be and I regret the past. That means I am not in the present. I see that. This is why I write. To check in, to connect tot he flow. I was going to call it higher self higher mind, but the flow seems more appropos for this situation.

Wife came home late and we had late dinner. I was upset with that. What to do next? Pluralis doesn't seem to work. I was thinking of going there. It's been weeks and it hasn't worked since? I think it was working before. Or was that just the test page?

I emailed their support. If that doen't work out, then I go for peopleperhour. Or pph for short. I am also learning new stuff. Did I learn something new today? Tehre's bootstrap and golang and python. Also angularjs that's on my list.

That's all I am doing right now. I don't know how toat is going to work out, but this is synchronicity. This is what's happening and this is where I need to be. I think daughter's online game download is going to finish later.

Do I still want to learn dvorak? I think I can do that now. There's not much happening here. I can do that all day. Do the tests all day long and not write much. Will I get bored with that? I sure am going to get bored witht hat.

What else is there? Will I write better code that way? I don't know. It is going to be slower. So we stick with this for now. ok. Write three pages and take it to the other side. I see that.

Facebook is starting to get boring. No more conversations. What you put out is what you get back. Then I am not being social anymore. I don't think I can make money on odesk. They pay so low and the talent is not appreciated. I can withdraw my funds tomorrow check in on the account.

I have everything covered, but if syncrhonicity requires that, then so be it. I am writing three pages. I don't know how things are going to turn out from here. Just write. Finish the pages. Write what comes to mind. No need to be better. Just be in the moment. Be that which I seek today. No tomorrow. No past. Only today.

I can write with y eyes closed. The speling sucks but I can write fast. The thing here is to get what comes into mind and put that on paper. That is what I am doing here. No need to edit. I can do that later as always. What you want is to firm upt he connection. That is what I am doing now.

The next walking dead is in october. At least we get some early bed time on mondays. And I can get the other shows at a more convenient time. I think they have such a great show going on in there. Good thing I saw that in netflix.

The kids do not watch netflix that much. I watch it. I enjoy some of the shows in there. Not all, just some. Not all of it is up to my taste. I stopped watching there actually.

Do I start playing poker again? no. i'd rather write or learn howt o code. This way, I am moving forward with this. What else is there for me to do aroun dhere?

Just write. Do three pages. I am past two pages. That is one and a half more and I am done. I am getting sleepy? I have a lot of learning materials in here. Am I going around in circles? no. I am learning stuff and I am doing soemthing about it.

For now, just write. Then I post this. I like deep waters. I like swimming and diving into the deep. More so in bright sunny weather. I got that from puerto galera. I think that is a good name. Galera is a good name. What else?

I don't know just get to the other side. Victoria is the name of that beach in samar. I will go back there one of these days. I am going to bike ride through the whole province and back. That's what is going to happen when I visit the philippines. I can go frm luzon to mindanao while I am there. I wonder what happened to that guy who was going on tour?

I don't know. He's probably still on it. I think he had a blog. Is he still updating them? I don't know I don't care really. Maybe he is or maybe not.

I have this anxiety in me. What is the worst that can happen? Emergency happens and I can do nothing about it. Nothing. I guess this is what I a going through. I am allowing this to happen then. No need for fear. I think it will be good to do dvorak now.

I can dvorak as I learn how to code. I am going to have to make canges to vim. Do a little remap things. I think there are people out there who are doing that. I can look it up and see what happens. It is the location of the keys that matter. I can learn soemthing else there. Like j is somewhere in the bottom row. That is a bit different. I can do a lot of remaps as I go along.

I think I am already halfway on page three. I used to frequent halfway inn. We used to go there on weekends for beer. Didn't meet any ladies while there. That's what I did not do when I was younger. Feeling regret for that.

Anyway, it is not here anymore. I am moving on now. Maybe in the next life. Maybe I was such in a previous life. I see it in my head. So maybe in a different reality, I am.

Can touch base with that? I feelt hat. I know I can touch base with that alternate self. But I am here. The awareness is here. That means I am supposed to be here. Otherwise, the awareness is giong to be there. There is s subtle difference there. I see that. I am going on from here.

I have like two or three paragraphs to go. Just write and finish these. Then I post this on my blog. Don't care if anyone reads this. Just write and see what happens.

That is one paragraph down. That means three or four sentences to finish these. I can have a month on me to write. I can do that eveyr hhour when I am not really doing anything. I can print out the keybord and get started.