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first day of school, term one



I don't feel like being an achiever today. I think the right word is 'hero'? Not really. Productive is more apropos. I'll go out later. Maybe ride my bike, or take the path of least resistance and go for a walk so I can do yoga in the morning. Or I can take a nap later after lunch.

But I have been reading all these scary stories on reddit. I am creeped out right now. I am going to cut that for now. Do something else instead. Am I not ready for this? Allow things as they should be. I think this tells me what my definitions are.

It's good to type on this keyboard. I feel like my palms are sliding off and had to remove those little back stands at the back and test having the keyboard flat. The kids, three of them are still in bed. Should I wake them up? I got up before six. It felt different. I sleep better on the right side of the bed closest to the door. On the left side, I tend to wake up some time after three.

I think it's because I am leaned back that makes my fingers slide off the keyboard. This is day one. I had a fast for 16 hours yesterday. I stopped eating after lunch. My next meal is going to be after the kids have gone off to school. I can make hamburger, or bacon—maybe both. What was that noise? Is there someone on the door? I think that was elise walking in the bathroom with her shoes.

Kyla just got up. The sausage rolls are cooling off on the table. I don't wrap them until the kids are about to leave. That way, it cools down and do not get wrapped hot/warm.

I am done with programming for now. I am not interested in that, or find that exciting for now. It feels flat atm. I am allowing that. Do something else instead. I can choose to go back to that later on.

Leaning back makes it slide back. Do omething else instead. Like what? What to eat for breakfast? Nothing. I will make some burgers later on. Do they have carbs? Yes. Should I be eating them? It's what I want to eat. Or I can make something else. Like that steak I had the other time. I can unfreeze that now and see what happens.

Wife is coming home late tonight. I will pick her up from mork at midnight. This means I will have two nap times later on. I can go out for a bike ride later. I haven't ridden for a while. I forgot what my bike's name is. I think it's number two.

When my fingers go off the keyboard, the flow stops. Do I do something else? Movies are disappointing. I think we can do a lot more with tv series. And what else is there for me? I think I am goetting hooked on that. Do something else. Why not work on odesk?

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mixed weather



Wife is in the office, and the kids are still in bed. It's time for my morning pages. It's bright and sunny outside. I just hope that we don't have rain later so the clothes outside can dry. But if it rains, so be it. I am not going to fight it.

I will go out for a walk later, maybe when the kids have taken over the computers. I do that everyday. School starts on monday. That means more quiet time for me. But afternoons get busy then. On holidays, the schedule is stable. Although I do things for them, I tend to oversee things and teach them how to do things themselves, like cooking their own meal.

Wife and I often discuss about the possibility of a friend being gay. He's not open about it, at least that's my opinion. Based on experience, I am convinced that he is gay. It's fine with me if he is gay. I don't mind and I accept him for who he is. It doesn't matter also if he doesn't come out. It's all up to him. If he's happy that way, then it's his choice not mine.

I've seen a lot of friends in the past who were suspected of being gay but I did not care. The truth came out eventually, and on facebook. But that's a different story altogether.

I am doing two pages. This makes them easy to read on the blog. Not too long and not too short. It tends to be longer than what is commonly available out there. I am following the market. I am watching how things turn out. There's news coming out later on. I think that news will only confirm price action. No need for me to watch the news. Anyway, what happened yesterday was interesting.

During the asian session, h1 chart was showing all whites going up and not a single down candle. I suspect that normal price action has a mix of both up candles and down candles. All of asian session was up candles. I did not initiate a position on the long side when the signal came up. It's a good thing I did not. Immediately after london opened, price went south and steep. It tested previous day's low. If I had a long position, I would have been stopped out.

There's one more thing I want to test. Holding a position for a short period of time. It's true that holding them longer is good for the account, but there's a lot of uncertainty that way. I would rather get my one percent for the day, then get on with my life. But that's just a theory. I can do that, or go for swing trades. We'll see what happens.

I need to start losing weight. I am over forty inches in my waistline. Something needs to be done here. But I am surrounded by sweet lovers. How do I get out? Choose. I always have a choice.

Having junk food no longer pleases me. What else can I do here. The act loves my daughter. She feeds her everytime. And gives her a good pat. They talk to each other. The cat sleeps on her bed whenever she is in the house. That is her pet.

Kyla is up and playing raiderz. I think she is, but she might be checking her social media sites first. Now I hear the background music. She's online and playing now. The two younger kids are still sleeping. The youngest is usually last to get up. He is also last to go to bed.

I have several movies lined up from the library. I think they will finish later. I wonder what the wife will want to see later on? I want to see a comedy. Maybe I can check the library list and see what else I can borrow.

And what lese can I write about? How come daughter has a notebook with her while she's playing? Do I want to install windows? That's all for gaming. I don't think I want to go there. I would rather go out and ride my bike. So I will not go there. I already have a good arch install. Everything is working as expected. I have expectations then.

That's normal. I allow that in myself. No need to fight these things. And what else can I write about? This keyboard types like a dream. It's soft and sensitive enough. And what else is there to write about? I don't know. Only that I finish page two. And then after that, I can go on with my day.

If the bin fills up fast, I can save the plastics and when the time comes, I can share with the neighbor's bin. That worked out today and it saved the neighbors' bin that had plastic in them. I remember that plastic bags are not allowed in the bin. If there was someone checking these bins, theirs would have that sticker in them. I think I will be more careful next time.

I also have several trading videos checked out from the library. Do I have to see what I am typing? I don't have to. Not seeing them helps me connect to source and write faster. No need for that. It helps now and then, but I don't have to dwell on that. I am allowing who I am. This is the path I am in. I am different in the way that my path is here. No need to judge otherwise.

back online




Morning pages. This time, I do three pages, then post them on my blog. We are online. The modem arrived yesterday morning, some time before 8am. That was great. There was not much configuring that I did. I simply plugged in everything, restart arch linux—and I am online.

After running some tests, I woke up my daughter with the news. She usually gets up after 10am. This time, after hearing that we were online, she got up from bed and took the laptop. She then proceeded to install her raiderz game.

Now marcus wants a game installed into windows. I will work on that later. I have virtualbox installed in arch. There are a few configs that needs to be done to get them to work. After I have breakfast, I can start working on that.

I also have arch installed on the laptop, but I couldn't get it to connect to the internet. I will work on that later too. I don't get what the error message is—what it means.

I don't think I can access openoffice in arch. It's probably deprecated. Too bad. I like openoffice so far. The gui looks better, slick. I got a message on facebook that a cousin is getting married again. I think this is his second marriage. This is what cousins are like then. Things are starting to fade. It's not that I don't care. It's just that I am so far away that I can't make direct deposits into the account. So be it. This is synchronicity.

I'm trying to get how to install wh4 into arch inside wine. It's easy and straightforward with vbox. I can go there as path of least resistance. I will do so later. For now, I want to finish these. What am I going to have for breakfast?

There is bacon. I can have that, plus egg. Then I do the egg salad plus chicken. I will make three packs of that so I can bring them tomorrow when we go to the city. The kids are coming. The wife is taking them shopping.

Wife couldn't get how to get around the paypal error that she's been getting. I think there was a lesson for me there. I will do yoga later. I started practice last night but got this painful—i forgot what it's called. It's when the muscles tighten and it's painful. Anyway, I stopped shortly after and had dinner.

I will do that again later. This morning, I can go out for a walk. I can go for a bike ride, but I am not keen on going to the library this time. I just need a short walk to get that in. I am going out for exercise more often now. I am making that into a habit. When the kids go back to school next week, my schedule will again change.

I am getting tired of dexter. I think it's best that I have a break in between. If you watch the series straight on, it gets kinda stale. The last season we watched wasn't that intense. Suits has already started and we are down three episodes. I think we are going to see them tonight after dinner.

I also need to set up openvpn for cloudnymous. Jeff is flying to manila next week on so. He'll be there for at least a week for his fiance's birthday. He's been in the gloom lately. Maybe he is mustering up the courage to split? I don't think so. It would be terrible to do that before one's birthday.

I have everything up and running now. I am on config mode. There's stuff to do and I do them when I remember them. This is what arch is about. I'd do the same on a different distro. Better this way. Arch is more customisable. I prefer it that way.

The kids sit around the house all day waiting for their turn on whatever gadget they want to use. I think we can work with another computer, but it's not in the radar. I don't think I can do anything about it now.

What else is there for me? I don't know. Do I need a dotus domain? I don't think so. I can't think of anything for that. Why not for my trading website? I am going to start one anyway. What will the domain name be about? It's going to be about trading. What will it be then? I don't know yet. Trading. Money management. What else?

I don't really want something that's formal. I want something taht's quirky. Since I cant think of anything, that tells me I don't need it. Time to move forward then. What else to write about?

There's so much you can do on the internet. I can make the kids breakfast. What will they have? There's still rice on the cooker. The kids do not like brown rice. I like it better than white rice. It's more filling. White rice just passes through my mouth and straight into my belly.

Page two is almost done. No need to hurry this. Rush this, I mean. Only that I write. This is to connect the imagination into my fingers so I can write them down. That is the practice is about. No need to go into facebook anymore. It is starting to get boring in there. Do I want to bring in traffic? Not really. I am so done with that. Moving forward now.

What else to write about? Anything that comes to mind. Daughter is back in raiderz. She is starting to get so into it. She gets to be a boring person. Is the other pc on? I think so.

I left it running in case the kdis might want to use it. I don't know how to set up the media server in the modem. It has that function. How do I access the gui to that. Maybe I can google that and see what happens. If not, I can call tech support and see what happens.

I also need to reload the cloudnymous account. That way, I can go into that when I go to the library. There is something on the net that says that dna for hair analysis is flawed. Why so? That is one of the more common ways to nab someone into court. I think something is in there, but we shall see.

Grey's anatomy was a great series back in its first few seasons. Now you won't recognize what it's about. There has been so many changes. I don't really dig watching tv. It's just that it gets so cold around here and there's nothing to do in takapuna that I stay at home. If we were closer to the city, I would be riding there at nights just to hang around and watch people.

That is something I enjoy doing when I ride my bike. The bike I have now is sort of a cruiser. I picked it so I can wear regular clothes when I ride out in the cold. This way, I can wear chunky jackets to keep me warm when I ride. I also have a pannier bag on the side. I don't have to have the bag on my body when I ride, giving me a more comfy ride.

With the sacdalans, we are often the outsiders. I think, feel that we used to be so much closer when we were kids. We have more affinity with the syyap-side of the family. That's life. We spent more time with them. Ricky was a good influence for us growing up. He was a good leader. People look up to him. I do.

And I am going to finish these and then have breakfast. Elise can use these and go on the internet. Tehre are things I need to do later. I will write them down as I get them in the head. For now, I have one more paragraph to go and I am done. Wife will come home early. She will make dinner. We can sleep late tonight. I will be spending more time with the ibm pc.