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Them hives woke me up last night. It was shortly before three am. I got this itch at the back of my knee...then my elbows. When I got up this morning, I saw some rashes on my body. I allow this. It's happening. I don't know why I get these. There was what felt like a spider on me last night as I went to bed. It was around midnight. I guess this spider is my friend and is telling me something.

Or maybe it was there to help alleviate the situation. That is a better way to define it. It's the second night that I slept on my own. There feels like peace in it. No more roller coasters. I think I can have this for the rest of my life. I can go out and get those moments for myself.

If I can't sleep later in the afternoon, I am going out for a ride. I can do my intensities later on. It seems I have gps or something but I will need data for it. I don't know how it will work, but we shall see.

I have a lot on my plate right now. My days are interesting. I am always learning something new. There is bootstrap. Angular is like magic. Also android and jruby are in that list. When I get bored and saturated with one subject, I fork the other way. I can sit in front of the computer for hours and not get that bored. When I am bored, it tells me that it's time for a break. And then I go out. Or I take a nap.

Ususally I take a nap. There was spell check on this but I turned it off. So how are things going to turn out? I don't know. We shall see. I don't think my opinion matters in this house. Not that I want to control anything. I allow synchronicity in my life. Things happen for a reason even if I do not understand how things are going.





I know, not faith, that something is in there for me. Faith is manipulation and control. Not that I am against it, it's just that it doesn't work for me anymore. I saw through the veil. You do not need faith when there is knowing. Some people know what they get into. For me, it's like putting your powers into an amulet and feel that the amulet gives them power. In reality, it is them that experience the power, not because they have the magic amulet. It's like that with religion. Only this time, they want something in exchange for it.

And I am beyond that. If that works for them, if that floats your boat, so be it then. And what else is there for us to move on from here. How will you generate the power for that? And why is my phone not showing up on this computer? Does it not have micro sd card? I don't think it has. I will look into that. Maybe daughter still has it and is keeping it someplace.

Is thes a bottom for ozzy? It looks like it on the hour chart. I can zoom out, but that is too out there. I have the lunch cooling off before I pack it. I write while it is cooling off.

Does daughter have an alarm clock? I think things happened for james so he can live this way. No need to blame others. These things happen and no way you can do otherwise. It was good chatting with james in the past. He was a good friend. He is one you can spend time with. He has good social skills.

And how do things go from here? I don't know. I think she has work now and it takes her attention away from the social network. Reddit is a big social network, but how many are unique members? I think you can tell by the number on the computer. This is page two?

I thought I was still is page one. Anyway, these things go through faster than I expected. Maybe I am typing faster now. And that is the purpose of all this. There was a time starting off and I hated it. Now writing is so much easier on my fingers.

friday again



Almost everyone is up early today. And now I write. I am getting lost again as to the programming language to learn. Then it's time for me to take a break. No need to rush these things. Only get to the other side. I don't even have to learn them. Just be in the light.

I like this video wife is watching. She is hot. I think she has a kid. For the first two kids, you get off ealy. Only work out a bit and there you go. But after the second and you are doing nothing about it, then women balloon.

I saw this couple walking yesterday. I used ta have that in my life. I would take long walks and women would come with me. I enjoy going on those long walks. I wonder what ever happened to juli. She went to germany. Never found her anywhere else. I think she got married then. Is she alright? And so is lileth. These people are nowhere to be found on the internet.

If they have smartphones, they'd probably heard of the internet. I have a smartphone but I seldom use it to go on the internet. I tend to use them for quick short messages. On those times when I need to connect directly and get a response, the phone comes in handy. I think you can go in that direction.

Java is kinda easy. I can go in there. It gets complicated when applied to android. It is next level and I am not yet there. So I just be patient and I will learn all that. It's like clang. I could have learned that straight off as my first programming language. Instead, I went around and learned the easy ones first. Now I am going around in circles. I think that is judging myself to harsh. Things happen for a reason. I went that path for a reason.

And now what? Go for java. Finish them videos. Make something out of it. No need to go the easy way. Soon as I get that, things will be easier to code. My son is getting bigger. Not just in height, but also sideways. That's life. These things happen they grow up so fast. Today is trash day. Just the orange bag. Next week is the blue bin. I have two books waiting in the library. I can return the python django book. I don't need that for now.

Next time I want to look into it, I can check out that book. For now, I want to concentrate on android stuff. There's java and xml. The latter is easier for me as I alread know html. I can also do hybrid apps, but that is a shocrtcut.

Finish java and then I can do hybrid apps. I like javascript. I have already done a lot of things with it. I can go on odesk with just that language. I can go as far as I can with that as well. There are a lot of resources out there that will make things work. If I installed skype, will it still work?





I can experimeth with that. I wonder how to test that? There is a way for that. But I was able to fix it this time. The next question is, will the keys work? If that works off the bat, then problem solved. If not, then I will look deeper into that.

I can create scripts for myself, but I don't need one right now. I think I can look up an mt4 for my phone. Where can I find one? Google. That is a good source. I think fxcm has one. Who else? I can do a demo account for that, then put in my trades using the web platform. How did they do that?

I think documentation is there if you looked for it. I am losing connection with a favorite daughter. She keeps to herself these days. Where to go? I can go to narrow neck beach and just hang there. I like that one beach. There are a lot of good beaches here.

Mission bay is also good. I have been there on bike before. I got so tired that I had to ride in the car going back.

peak in the market



It's too hot to wear my blue long jacket, and a bit cold when I don't. I think you can still make a living copying the popular apps or second tier, but make a good copy on the landing page. This way, you get people to try it and hopefully will leave a positive feedback on your page.

The key here is good support and copywriting. You don't have to do direct marketing the old way. Just get a good app, write effective copywriting, and you are off to the races.

Do I still have to learn java for android? Yes. I don't want to write for the clueless. There's a lot out there. All I want to do is to mind my own business.

Programming is a lot like if this then that. It's going to connect with the low level system to do its job. You can find this in the api's and documentation. Is this seat too far? It feels like it. Is that the trash collector? I don't think so. They tend to stay in one place.

Daughter's game is broken again. I don't know how to fix it now. She has something else installed. I think that game is dying. People are going to have to look someplace else. Support is important for these games. Where do you find one? You may have to get your own call center for it. Better yet, get a forum and let the community help out.

But most of them are busy playing. Not all. Reward those who will help out. They can spend an hour a day helping out with support. Those who get more upvotes will get goodies and rewards that you can use in the game.




I think there is something to it. I am suspecting that market will gap down. It has done so in the last several weeks. There is non farm payroll happening soon. I need to wake up the kids and get ready for school. Soon as daughter goes out of her room, then I go wake up son.

This is morning pages and I am now on page two. I am not writing for an audienc, only write for practice. No need to get an audience for this. I write to connect fingers to the flow. This way, when the connection is set, then I can write better stuff. I think it's a balance betwenn writing from flow, and edidting. You spend half and half on both.

It takes time, but if you can do this, add good research to it, then you can write about anything in the world. Then it's a three way thing. If you don't know a thing about it, then spend three days doing research. That is going to take time. I don't think five dollars is going to compensate you well for it.

It's a monday. I think I can do that twenty thousand return in a span of a few weeks. Gear up with leverage to four trades to ten percent loss. Minimise your risk, then trade accordingly.

I will do more analysis on that. I have the stats. I can reverse engineer a method out of that later on. I think I have something good here. I don't have to do scalps. Just wait for a good setup then trade accordingly.

I cando that after I do those things for the kids. Get their lunch ready, make hot cocoa, then wake them up. After that is behind me, then I can sit down for them analysis. There is no farm payrolls later on.

I think the philippine stock market is nearing its peak. There are more juan de la cruz's investing and getting in the market. Soon as you get these stock market seminars, that tells you to start considering selling out. Will it continue on? Of course it will.

But the big boys will see it. Better be ready. You need about two decades of watching the market for this strategy. I think you can make something out of it.

yet a new friday



Soon as I finish the android tutorials, I can get gigs fixing android apps on either fiverr, pph or odesk. That will give me enough apps to practice on and improve my skills. I like where this is headed.

I even removed those programming tutroials that I do not enjoy doing. Ruby is a good programming language, but there is not a lot of learning resources online as compared to python. Python is more available. I can always find something on python. And I am going to stick with that. They are almost identical anyway.

So it's going to be python and java for now. Until the end of the year at least. Next year I go full time on this. Nodejs also that's three. If you count in html and css, then that's also part of it. Golang, not so much. Soon as I get how to code in java, I think golang will also fall into place. For now, these three are what I am going to focus on.

What else? I put out the trash. I can watch my tutorials in the morning. I can do yoga. I can ride my bike. Jeff bought a tv last ngiht. It was huge. I am not there, but I can match that frequency. That's why I am in this situation, to show that I too, am even without the outside circumstances.




If it were easy for me to have the outside, like have a lot of money, I would have a hard time learning that. In a way, it's a handicap for me so I can learn to without the crutch. And I am in the light. No need to have. Only to be.

And I am not lacking in programming and hacking skills. They've spent time in university learning about it. I use my own time elarning about it as well. Ot that one is better than the othre, only that it's different. That is where the light is. There's a lot to talk about. There are plenty of places to go here. Waht's next for me?

Wife wants to go out this weekend. I don't know where they want to go. Wherever that is, I can go on my bike, except they go someplace that's beyond the city.

I wonder when jeff is going to get his own car? I think it's easy for him to get a driver's license if he was that keen on getting a car. He will and he is going to get a car when the timing is right. That way, I don't have to get moral ascendancy on them. I get that in me sometimes. I am now aware. I have always been aware of that. And then I let go.

That is what self awareness is. That is where practirce is right now. I do detox this morning. I don't think I need to do carbs tonight. I can eat light later at dinner. I don't have to go there. I can choose to go there. It's a viable an alternative as all the other alternativez. But I don't have to go there. Just be in this moment.

Where else is there? I can hang out over there. Bring the laptop and see what can happen. I don't think it's appropos. It raises a lot of questions. Besides, I have everything in here. I don't have to go there anyway.

I can do a lot of things in here. I don't nap as often during the day. Why is that? Maybe I don't get so tired anymore. I will do the sandwiches soon as I finish these. The broadband resets tomorrow.

Garbage is going to get pickep up soon. I don't have to worry about that. Why is it that the people around here are not putting out their garbage? Maybe there wasn't any notice. There has to be a notice before they get put out.

I will check the council website. Otherwise, things start to pile up this weekend. Then they pick up the trash next week on monday. I think that's how things work. Do I have to get the extra bandwidth? Only keep them there. It will get there when we get there.

use that contrast



This sometimes feel like an obligation. I was using monospaced yesterday as programming font. I think there's something interesting about it. But if I were to use that...

being angry about something is not the way to change it. You only add tremendous amounts of energy to it that it becomes more solid. It's that much harder to change it than if you were more allowing of it. Use that energy and find how the situation serves you. Everything happens... is there for a reason. Use that to put a positive meaning into it and you get a positive effect out.

This is what the process is about. It also applies to my trading. I am spending time with java. It's ok for now. I got this great tutorial from my library. It explains a lot of things making it clear.

I would rather go deep in java than mono at this time. I don't have to worry about licensing—and they are similar in ways. One runs in the other, but java is native to android. So I go in that direction.

Tutorials at tutsplus is better than lynda's. Both are at the top of my charts anyway, but tuts is cheaper by five dollars and the concepts are better explained. But that's just my opinion. Experience it for yourself and make your own opinion of it.

Wife got up early today. She is easily offended by the smallest things. I wonder how that is part of my experience?

I use it for the contrast. Other than that, staying there does not serve me so I just let it be. She gets upset so be it. What else is new? This happens all the time anyway.

Ej might fail off that recent high on h1. I am looking for a double top on m5. Only then will I trade it short. Otherwise, do nothing. It's still bullish at this time. I tend to be more bullish near the bottom. Sometimes I face into a running train with this. That's part of the process.

Sometimes I get the nail on its head. The trade is spot on. This way, my loss is minimal. That's how I like things around here. They have issues and love to hold on to their anger. I can't change that. They can only choose to change that themselves.

It serves as contrast for me. If I was told what my job really was as a med rep, I could have done things differently. What it really means is that you are a lobbyist, not in sales. There's a big difference. I could have spent more time with the key persons in the game. I could have more efficient with my resources.

I know better now. It is the definitions that count. Find the right definitions and you make things better. Wife gets upset for the smallest things. That's her. That's contrast for me. Use it that way. No need to add more energy into it.

I will move forward now. Just change my attention. What am I putting my energy into? This writing. I will concentrate on my writing. Someone showed up in my dream. It was something, an energy that I do not like. There was resistance in it. I found myself choosing my response.

Then that served you well. That is what being positive is about. Use that from here on. I will pick up son from school. No more waiting in countdown. I will have a good week this time. I choose to make it that way. I used to work out with weights.

It doesn't take a lot of time. I can do that on my free time. Maybe after yoga to round things up to make it an hour. Try it next time.

on spotify radio



I get this urge to listen to jazz—mostly starbucks like music. Maybe this is telling me that I do not have to go to starbucks to have that experience? This adds to that bucket. I forgot what that bucket is about. I think I like spotify. Is this my new music station? I used to enjoy grooveshark. I don't go there much as I can do youtube. I have a playlist in there. I want to discover something else. This is part of what brought me to spotify.

I am long on ej. I saw a divergence pattern spot on and had low risk compared to the potential of the trade. Support to h1 swing low. I opened this on the m5. Let's see where this takes us when tokyo opens later. I think the downtrend will come to an end soon. More so when the us shutdown is over.

I had a good night's sleep last night. I woke up some time before four am and couldn't get back to sleep. I can always take a nap later. I can use this time to listen to music as I write. It's quiet around here.

I can use this time to write. I felt bad about the interaction with didi last night. I wonder if I offended her. I hope not. I was condescending? It felt like I was and got that as a reflection off her.

I tride creating my own station, but couldn't figure it out. Might as well write and go there later on. By the time they get up, i'd have four hours on my day. I then take an hour nap and I get a fresh eight hours to my day. This is what me as a forex trader is like. I think I can create a blog dump like this.

I like easy listening music like this. It's new and I enjoy this. I might sign up for this to have this with me offline on a smartphone. That's what my next phone is going to be. That way, I can check in on the market every hour.

Moving forward now. The kids are all asleep. It's been an hour since I got up. It is almost six am. This is who I am. Wife was in the dark last night. I don't have to be there with her. I allow her to be. I don't have to judge her for it. Instead, I used that as opportunity for me to choose to be in the light despite what I see around me. It was a chance for me to practice being a positive person. Do I expect something out of it?

Only to feel better at this time. Girl from ipanema. I like this. I like that word as well. Maybe use that for something? I already have a url. I am now building up that brand on the net. What else can I talk about here? What does this music feel like? Easy. My frequency lowers. It's smooth?

I'm not a jazz person, but this is something I can listen to. Move forward from there. I don't have to listen to pinoy music. I would rather listen to something like this and see what happens. This is online radio. I like it. I wonder how they make money there?

I think I was able to make something... forgot what that was. I have an hour before the library closes. Not that I am wanting anything. Just to get things sorted out. Election ends today. I can go to the library and see what's in there. I don't have anything in the mail to cast my vote. Imagine we can vote by mail. That is awesome there. Imagine how much savings you can have in there.

I think that is behind me now. I got something out of this and see what happens. This is what I get with the free account on spotify. Ads. That's ok I think. That's a small price to pay for the service. I can live with that.

That price bounced off my entry, that is a good sign. I can move my stops up later on. We'll see how far this baby will go. I can do this business anywhere in the worsd that I have internet connection. This is what me is about. I am moving forward in this light.

no plans on a sunday



I went to bed early last night. I didn't get my afternoon nap in. after dinner, I was already pooped and wasn't talking much. We had guests and as we drove them off, I was sitting quietly and was aware of it. I did not know what to do about it so I just sat there doing nothing. I think they too, were already tired.

What I couldn't understand is why they had to bring us there? I think it be better if they said that they wanted someone else's opinion on the car they were about to get. But it's just my opinion. I think he is being too picky about it. If it were me, once I get a good deal, then I go with it—specially if he asked for a big discount and getting it. It would be not good to go to someone else after getting a big discount like that. But that's just me. Maybe his point of view is different.

I had a good week trading last week. Things were working. Miley is getting out of control. People do not want to be shocked. They want to see talent. If you can't give that, don't do something else, like going naked or going wild. You only lose cred that way. You don't want that. I am done with marketing. It is not the path that I want to take. I would rather do my own thing, market my own gigs and be in the light than to do it for someone else who doesn't get it.

You don't find that often on the internet. If they do get it, they wouldn't be in odesk looking for cheap amateurs. And so I am out of it. I think it is good if you were that amateur. Someone else is paying you to learn. If so, keep at it and get to the light soon enough. When you do get there, do it.

I am moving on and forward. I don't think people will go through a blog when you offer the information up front. Ten dollars sounds like a good price for that information. They can go through that in less than a week if they were not careful. I can throw in the indicators and templates that I use. Now that's a good deal. I will bite that bait.

One daughter is already awake. I was so tired yesterday. What's in store for today? I can go out and ride my bike. I don't know what the wife plasns to do today. I think we can go out for a walk. I can go out for a ride. We can go to that bush in beach haven. But where do you leave the car? In a sidewalk around there. What else can we do around here? I don't know. I can just sit here.

I do that the rest of the week. Do something else for a change. There's bush walks around that path near albany. Or we can do that seven kilometer walk in onewa or something. The wife and I can do that. The kids can choose to stay at home. I will ask wife later what she wants to do.

She did not work out this time? I saw her get up earlier. She went back to bed. I am on detox today. What are they going to have for breakfast? They are going to rush through that. They have church today. I can have hot soup with them. Or just plain water. My eyesight is different tow. What to do abut I it? Take a break. They go to church. I can stay at home. Or do something different altogoether. Like what? I don't know yet. Just get to the other side and see what happens.

Right now, I will finish these pages. Then post them on the internet. Things get like this when there is nothing to write about. Those shades need to be in a safe location. I think it is normal for kids to move away from the friendship. These things happen. They outgrow each other. I wonder why? I think they did not mesh well with each other. Their path were different. That's normal. If you forced them together, you are going to get friction. Better to allow these things to happen.

That's how things fall into place. I miss going to the gym. What can I do around here to do that again? I think the forex trading biz is going to get us there. I just need to shift into that light. This is why I have this situation. This is the contrast that I will use. This is the energy for me to move into the light.

How to get there? Just be in the light. No need to react to what I think there is. It is only illusion. It will change once you see the light. It is the trinity. Not the holy trinity that you find in the church. That is taking power away from you and outside. You put it outside of you and you do ont have access to it.

orewa this saturday



This is a late morning pages. I wasn't up to it earlier today. I got up some time after 5am. Technically, it was still 4am because we just moved into daylight savings time.

The kdis have been watching tv or on the internet since this morning. I think the reason I ma here is because I am bored and don't have anything that's fun to do. What can I do about it? Find something that's interesting to do. Like what? Ride my bike is fun. But there's no purpose to it. I think I need direction.. motivation is the right word, but I think you get the point.

The last time I was overweight, I lost weight because I was going out more. I went to the gym. I rode my bike going to the gym. I was hanging out with people. I was into sports. There was never a dull moment. What can I do here that is something like that.

I can volunteer for something. I am good with computers and programming. Maybe I can help old people with that or something. And what else can I do around here? I can volunteer my time with the old people in that community near our home. The kids can choose to come with me. I can give them my phone number and they can call me whenever they need help.

That is going to be interesting. I can meet more people that way too. Is that going to be for me? I have spaghetti sauce simmering in the kitchen. I chose to slow cook that. The kids are not hungry anyway. I think I can make the pasta when they are about to it. I am not making it now and let it sit when they are not yet ready to eat. That will lose quality that way.

I enjoy cooking. What else can I do around here that's going to be fun? I don't know yet. I think I can do something here that will get me to the other side. Like what? Ride the bike is good. On the computer is also good. I think there's a connection there. We'll see. At least the idea is there.

I was riding a lot going to the gym and back. Do I need to go to the gym again? What else can I do that is akin to where I am? I don't know yet. I will be open to my imagination and see what comes up.

This is the morning pages. I enjoy golang and want to go deeper with that. Since it is similar to C, I am watching videos on that too, just to get an idea of what these two languages are capable of doing.

My left eye is weaker now. Try the other contact lens? I think I can go there and do that. But then again, I will have to wear that glasses just to read stuff here. I think I will have to go there anyway. Then go. Will it help? I don't know. Only that I work with my excitement and be in the light. That is what these things are about.

Am I looking to have an affair again? Why not? That was exciting. Maybe that is the light I am looking for. If it's there, then it's there. If not, I am not going to go around looking for it. Trusting the synchronicity on that. Am I watching supernatural with the kids? It is interesting. That guy from grey's anatomy is an interesting person. His character is cool. That's one of the watching people today.

How do you get that? I am learning that now. I have this book, how to talk to anyone. I think it is interesting and it's the next step for napoleon hill—no, dale carnegie's book. I think I have the basics. Reddit is there as well and it helps tremendously.

Reddit helps me to find stuff by Synchronicity. And that's why I am always there. We are going to orewa this weekend. I can ride my bike going there. I used to do that a lot. The thing is, it is a long way from here and I don't know if I can make it here.

I can try. I go for short walks now and then. I will have to leave earlier than they would. It takes them a short car ride to get there. It will take me two hours to get there one way by bike.

There's a paknsave in there. We can stop there for meals after the walk. It will be interesting then. I am looking forward to it. After this, I am going to check that spaghetti sauce slow cooker. After that, I am going to post these on the internet. And I am done.