post birthday tuesday

My birthday just came and went. It was ok, but it could be better. Basically, I just stayed at home and waited for wife and friends to arrive. I was in front of the computer all day, eating. How could I have done it otherwise?

Spend the day riding to a location I want to overnight in. then family and friends will be there. They get there on bike or car if they choose. I think that's how it will be next year. Spend the weekend overnight.

How to get there? Start riding. Do I ride today? I can. Forecast is rain. I can do yoga later tonight while waiting for wife to get picked up. That way, I can ride during the day. Where to go? Even a short ride to takapuna is good.

How to do things differently then? How come there were no gifts? I don't think people do gifts anymore. So be it then. I changed a few things with my method. Basically watching pivot and level1 support and resistance level.

I am also looking for harami patterns. It's the bands that tell me where it is. Sometimes I don't get it. In the meantime, I do nothing. Wife got home late last night. I was watching walking dead. There's no meat in the story anymore. It's about the fighting and the contrast. Maybe i'm not that anymore that's why it doesn't appeal that much.

What to do now? I go back to java and android. I can revert back to cpp anytime, but I don't know. There is no good ide for it. I can always do gvim. It's that old reliable text editor. I made it through javascript with just that. I think I can get to the other side with this one.

With android dev, there is so much going on, that a good ide will help a lot. Then stick with that. I must have spent all day with cpp yesterday. It's simpler than java at the basic level. Why does it get complicated as they say? Maybe stick with clang instead? no. oop is goot to get into. It makes things simpler, although I can do functional with cpp if I wanted to.

What to do today? Do what interests you. Do java game dev for now and see where that leads to. It gets boring. I can go out for a ride, just to be out there doing something. That'd be interesting. I am putting my power out there. I am aware of that now.

That light doesn't come from someone else. It comes from me. If there was a folding bike, then I can load it up at the back, ride the car, then ride from there. How to get there? Do odesk or something that's similar.

I can do something else here. Like what? I don't know. Just get to the other side each time and see what happens. This here, I am writing. There is a half an hour before my son wakes up. Sometimes when it's bedtime, I am already tired. What will become of this? I am fighting this that's why it is still here.

What else can I do about it? That is only contrast. I don't have to fight it. Only watch what it brings forth in you. Like what? How I respond to it. That tells a lot about the definitions I have. Then I can stay here instead. Is this going up or down?

It goes up but where do I get in? That is the question? Look for the macd? Sometimes it's not that reliable. What else can I look at? The bands can get awesome sometimes. Look for gimmee bars.

It worked before. Only this time, I know how to read the charts differently. I can stick with that and see how far that goes. All my kids are growing up. She got up early this time. She is into her phome a lot.

tasker writing three

I give up trying to get that wifi off working with tasker. I think it doesn't work with llama. I've seen it working with automateit, but it probably had something to do with the power saver option. Maybe that's what is hindering everything. Other than that, things work well. I have a silent night profile on tasker. It turns off wifi when the profile is activated.

Maybe there is something I am not getting there with the wifi near thing. I don't know. The on off task works by itself. Maybe the way tasker is reading the state is the opportunity for me here. Opportunity because I can learn something from it.

I learned that I can define it as a problem, or as an opportunity for me to learn something. This is why I have it everywhere. This to remind me that everything really is an opportunity if you looked at it that way.

This way, cause and effect are in alignment with the light—my light. It's always that way. I am starting to enjoy java programming. It's sort of like similar to ruby, only that it's more fine-grained and close to metal programming. I think things will work out from here.

I have this cookbook. I can start posting them on github. I am going to grow that account. No need to go to that library get a job thing. That was from the past. I think things are rapidly evolving. And I can find my way from here if I keep to the light. I do things my way and I get the effect that I want.

No need to go through head hunters. They are in it for the money. I think it'd be better for me to get with business owners directly and I know how to do that. I can spend more time with them through meetups than going to toastmasters. Their baby is their business. I don't think some of them will want to improve on their public speaking. Things are changing and you don't need to be talking to the public to get traction. I think it's good to have that tool with you, but it's not the only tool to get things done.

Writing, I can reach more people, plus I can respond the way I want. This is why I do this. It has been like fifteen years that I have been writing. I have a lot of junk out there. Not that it's bad writing. Only that they are practice pages and I just leave them everywhere on the net.

I am not so concerned about privacy. It's a negative thing. Being positive, there is no privacy, but respect and allowing. If you see it that way, then you get a positive effect out of it.

I am writing now as I have time for it. I don't like waiting for the kids to get up. I can do the laundry for the bed sheets but it might start raining some time soon. Not heavy rains, just light showers now and then and it's not going to get the clothes dry.

I don't have to install arch on the laptop, but it's something I can do. I think the deep freeze issue has been resolved. I can move forward from there.

Then that's what I will be doing later on. There is the java tutorials. Also there is learning android. I have a full plate. Yesterday I did not do much. I felt like I am tired of all that. I am moving forward with this now.

I can do fiverr gigs for android. That's a great way for me to learn stuff. I can learn them as I go. The only opportunity that I see from there is that it is going to take some time. I think I can get a lot of training from that site and make a few bucks here and there. Lets go there and fire up that profile.


Rubbish day today, plus recycling. I am off to see friends later for lunch. I think we can go to that korean restaurant that serves buffet. Or if that other one is open the gangnam site, then we can go there instead. I can check it out on my way there.

Eldest daughter is not going to school today. I think it had something to do with them finishing exams week. I don't think she'd be interested in coming along. I prefer to ride my bike.

The question now is, im I running this morning? I want to, then I will. I can take the easy way going there on bike. On those uphills, I can just walk if the legs complain too much. Yoga is good for these things when the muscles are full of lactic acid. I can do that later in the day.

Last night I got through that hurdle in learning android. I wasn't as tired this time and my head got it how to make it work. Basically, you sit on it. Make yourself comfortable and take a look at the situation. I used to have this notion that I need to finish through all of the tutorial. I wasn't in learning mode that way. I would rather take my time and enjoy the view.

Tacloban is so devastated. I wonder how this is connected? I think it's an opportunity to start over. I am interested in seeing how this will turn out in the end.

I have kept to this font for some time now—days, I think. I have monaco on other apps, but for most writing apps, I use this one. It's interesting to see this in action. It's also a monospaced font. It is better than the old courier I was using. This is where I am now. It is different from all the other fonts I have used. This tells me that I am moving forward. There is contrast and it shows me the difference in my reality.

I welcome that then. I am glad this is so. I am using whatever energy is there to create and fashion—engineer my own reality experience.

There's a lot for me today. I am taking a break from programming this morning. I have breakfast after I finish my run. It's fun to run. How do I bring my phone on my run? Do I want to listen to something else?

That quiet, space in the head in my awareness is important for me. That is connection right there. Therefore, I am not bringing my phone with me when I run.

Wife noticed last night that I was losing weight. That is encouraging. I did not each much last night and felt good about it. That 'feel good' is what keeps me going. That's the motivation now. Before, it was that initial rush when you eat carbs. It wears out quickly and is replaced by remorse and feeling bad the rest of the day. I am over that. I see the contrast there.

And how are things going later? I enjoy eating fresh mussles. I put them in the microwave for about five minutes. They come out hot and ready. It tastes great and I feel better after eating it. I am sober. I have clarity.

That's what's good about this thing. Is it showing in my trading? I am able to do dozens of trades and my risk is very small. The potential rewards are more than double when things work out for me. For this reason, I am moving forward with this.

How to move on from here? Like spiderman swinging from building to building, I swing from one interest to the other. If it doesn't interest me, I don't go there. I don't have to. If I had to, then it is someone else's baggage that I don't have to carry. That is how different things are right now in my life.

monospace trading et al

The default on an empty page is at consolas. These i's and l's look cute when writing. I am keeping to this font, lucida console. It's a monospaced font and it looks good while writing. The parentheses are also roundish like monaco's and it looks cute as well. These are some of the motivations I have for writing—good fonts.

And where did I find these? I was looking around for a font to use, I can't remember what for. I found this on yaourt. This is what's great about arch linux's package manager that is not available with ububntu's apt-get.

With yaourt, when you search for something, it gives you stuff that's relevant to what you are looking for. It can get muddled sometimes, but if you wanted something more specific, do pacman -Ss.

I haven't been doing good with my trading. The method isn't making any sense at this time. I think my trades are too early. I get a good idea as to which side of the market to trade, but I get stopped out, then the market gets going.

Good thing that my losses are small. These can easily be offset with a good position. I will keep to this. It takes some time, but I am confident that things will work out later on. This is still so much better than running a business, a job or investing my money. It is all three at the same time.

I can do trading while I work on my computer science. I think jeff sent me that microsoft thing because it's a dying tech. Nobody uses ms much in my world, but still, there's a lot of non-tech who are into that.

But I am done with the licensing thing. That's not for me. I would rather stick to open source. At least that way, you have leverage. And that's what abundance is about. You get more with less. It's what my reality is about these days. I don't get to update my blog these days except to post stuff I found on the internet. And that's good.

Is this a losing streak? I think so. If it were poker, I would understand. But this is like see what happens here. I think there's a spot opening up for a short on ej. It looks oversold and now trading at level 1. I am thinking if I should short this.

I have a limit sell in place. If it goes back then I can get that position at a cheap price—a bargain. This is what trading is about. Buy low, sell high. If wrong, cut losses then move on. It's not that one is better than the other, only that it's different. What's best is what works for you. This one works for me.

I am going to finish these then get going. I am going to post these as well. Do I go short now? I just did. I have an eye out for that stop. I think I will post that stop after I finish this. I don't think there's stop hunting going on around here. It is what it is. This is how I trade.

Is this going to go up some more? I don't know. If it does, then I am wrong with my read. It's time to do something else then. There is android training for today. Am I too old to get a job?

no. I have a different view on things. I am no better than the next guy, only that I see things differently. My experiences are different. And if that matches with their needs, then we have a match.

I can go for a sales job, but that doesn't work for me. I don't think that's what makes it work. Marketing and advertising also. It's based on fear. Give them what the want and they will come to you. No need to mislead.

this be my drug

I replaced firefox reg with the nightly version. I noticed there seemed to be a screenshot taking place now and then—out of nowhere. Lately, the sites seemed to be loading slower than usual. I think there is something fishy there. I tried both chrome and opera, but they don't work the same way. Maybe try the other chrome, but we'll see.

I switch things around now and then. It's a friday. It might be good weather today and througout the weekend. Manila is bracing for a typhoon. There are a lot of things to go through with the internet. It's a never ending progression.

One thing I notice, javascript is always there. I think I will focus on that some more. There's coffeescript and that makes things easier. I also have the most resources from the library in that subject. I am also doing java for android. Those two subjects are what keeps me busy. I can do the one thousand odesk hours with javascript alone. Let's get started with that.

I can do a lot of writing, but everyone else can do that. I see the path ahead of me. There is clarity. That is my drug. No more sugar. That clarity is what feels good. It's like that movie limitless. He had clarity and he got addicted to it.

Unlike him though, I don't have to know everything, but I will know what I need to know when I need to know it. Like what? I don't know. It's not relevant for me to answer that question now. I get there when I get there.

I have so much books to go through that I don't have to go to the library. Just be in the moment. Not sit there and do nothing, be that person you want to be. Be that which you admire most in others. Like what? Waturity. Wisdom. Clarity. I think that's a powerful word there. I think that's what people go after. I have it. It's here now.

I don't have to do anything or take anything. With drugs, it gets clouded. Clarity is like the blue skies in spring. It's cool outside and yet you want to be out there in the sun. it's not too hot, yet ever if it were, it's ok.

That's where I am right now. No amount of junk food will get you there. And that's how I kicked it out of me. This is my motivation. Will I ever go back? I don't think so. There's so much here for me to play with. I think I will be more loose, but I have seen the light. Why bother losing it? See more is what's next for me. Explore is what's next for me. There's a lot out there. Sex is a good drug to get into. I can go that way.

Mask the javascript inside a web app. It plays in the background. How will it play with the hardware? Through node. I think it's possible. It runs on v8 and that one has access to hardware stuff. There is also webkit. I think I can go deeper into that and see where it goes. Then it's javascript day today. Maybe until the rest of the week. There's node and there's a lot to go through with that library.

If I can't find it, I can ever create my own library for that. I think I like that idea. No need to be the jack of all trades. Just do this and get to the other side. I can make the kids' lunch after I finisth this. Right now, I kust want to do this. It its the writing. It is the conecting. Crlarity. That is powerful. You know the choices you can make and they seem to just open up. It's a lot more than you think you have.

This is where you want to be. It's not about the money. I see that now. Where to go with this? Right here and now. There is no out there anyway. Is that the gift? I think so. It feels like it. I feel empowered. It's not like a physical gift that the novelty wears off after some time. It just feels good. It goes on and on.

How do you give this to others? I don't know. Just be a shining example of it. No need to preach. Just be. If it is in their vibration, they will see. They wil be attracted like moth to the light. That is where you want to be. This is where I would rather be. I am here.

Now what else do I write about? I wirte so much better this way. The fingers are not jumping all over the place. I just write. No need no see where things are going. I know where I am. I amnot heaaded anywoere. There is only here and now. Reality happens through me.

I think I get what that means now. It is the consciousness. No amount of money will igve you that. That is what the context was about. I see now. I don't have to pity me. Not even the highset paid bloke has clarity. They have something else. And I dont' need that. It happens through me. This comes to me. It's in there I just can't explain it.

blue sky monday

I had a contrast moment with the wife last night. I understood this morning why she was in my reality. I am so positive now that all this negative shows up. I do not have to respond to them in a reactive way. All this negative is here to show me that I have a choice.

Just like learning a skill, you can't teach by theory. They , whoever you want to teach, must have that emptyness in them that needs to be filled. If so, they do not need your help to fill it in, they will go there themselves. But wife is of the reality I am no longer in.

I find myself drifting away from her. Maybe that is the reality I am in now. This is part of the synchronicity. I can create my own autohotkey with all this. No need to do otherwise. Is there ruby with intellij? I don't know. Ide's are cool for code complete and all the tools that run to help you write better code. Sometimes they get in the way because it's opinionated. Eclipse is like that but it's a handy tool. It worked for a lot of people. It did not work out for me. I was getting an error and I couldn't move past it.

Right now, I hate java. Developing for android is so complicated. It doesn't have to be that way. Why not do something you enjoy doing instead? Like what? Just do native and then it will come to you. I can do cpp and do ndks instead. Python is good. Jruby I thought was there, but it's such a big file on the upload and install. I don't want to go there. I guess I need to give this a break today.

I can go out for a bike ride. It's something that I enjoy doing. I walked yesterday. I will do weight training today. It's alternate days. Do yoga in the morning then do weights later in the day.

Yoga is so much better when I am alone in the house. Rather, when the kids are in school. It's just me and the cat and some other things my local mind can't grasp. It feels scary because locas can't grasp how different it is in the different dimension. But it's not out to kill me. It's there to connect. It is part of the awareness. And it's connecting with that awareness. It is coming throug. I am allowing it. I get connection there.

What to do today? The market is open. The wife can solve her own problem if she wanted to. I don't have to be in the dark with her. That is not how I want my state of being to be in. she chose how to spend money. I can't choose for her. I can only change myself.

She has to learn that. I can't teach her that. And this is the path I am in. I don't have to teach her anything. I think pandora is good. The quality of the sound is a bit iffy, but it's ok. I have it installed on my phone. I can listen to that when I have free wifi. I think that's cool. I can go do that on tasker.

Maybe that's what I need to do today. I can look up tasker and figure out how to do that. My daughter is interested in that too. I think there's a lot of things you can do with that. It's like your own programming language. It has a lot of java for that to work with the underlying.

I think it's a great app. Good price too. Now to get going with it. Can I make money out of it? That is the old way of seeing it. Will I have fun learning all that stuff? Yes, that is a better way of seeing things.

What to do with wife? It's up to her. Let her be in her ways. I can do my own stuff. No need to judge her for her choices. I don't need that to feel good about myself. I don't need that to be in the light. I just want to be in the light. No need to respond to her otherwise. This is my responsibility. If she wants to be in the light then good. If not, I allow her that.