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i want to write first before i tune in with the essassani. I couldn't go to sleep last night. I felt i was there but there were issues in my head. I got up, read a few pages, then went back. It took several minutes to finally doze off. I got up at eight.




It's foggy outside. There's thick fog outside i didn't see the motorway after i made that turn. Nothing bad happened. It's habitual for me that when someone starts describing a scene, you know something bad is going to happen. I think there's a better way to write it out.

How do you write it out. Write like it's another day. Then you start to bring it what it's like when it comes up on you. There is no set up. You simply state what's happening. That too is a lesson. I don't have to go write there. You have so much concepts to explore that you'll have a good series up and running that way.




I can play with that. Do i put on the mike now? I'll do that. My chair seems off a bit to the other side. I'll close out my droplet. The domains expire soon and i can host local anyway. Maybe i'll put them up somewhat on a server that runs overnight. How often do they ping that?

I'm not sure, but this is where i am now. I can't won't run this laptop all day just to serve that but i am looking into that myself. Why not do a basic php server? Better yet do it on nginx or something like that.




It is something i can do on my free time. I am not going back into that but it is something i can look into. Is this a better profile? There's talk on that side of the fence. It is what it is. They can talk that way but it's all not perfect. It doesn't have to be. All that is is exploring every possibility.

If you are trying to be someone else, then you are not your unique self? Of course you are. You are being that version of someone else. It's all connected. I can have my nap later. When i get back, i have my coffee and do some work. Son has hockey today. I could have made him lunch. But he said he don't want to.




I'd let it go at that now. That's a lot of files there. I am still confused about what i am going to write about. Simply start. It's not the idea to write but that you finish. Start with a simple idea no matter what it is. Your intention is to finish.

Strive to do it in one week. Then you can explore other topics. Can i start now? Do that notw. That sounds interesting and it gives me a few ideas to play with. I'll start now then. It's the path i'm going on anyway. I take a break later.




In the meantime, i finish writing. I feel better now. How do you get to that side? The cat sleeps. Kids left early while i was sleeping. What's up with that? I'm not sure. But i can go there where she thought she was right, but it's not what i prefer.

You see, she wants to worry about almost everything. I would rather think that if it's here, then it's connected. That i have a process to go through. If i worry or get anxious about it then i am creating a universe that's dark.




That is not what i prefer. I would rather live in a universe that's neutral. This way, i can put meaning into it. With my own meaning and interpretation, then i can choose how i respond to it. It's that simple. I get on a good relationship with everything.

Wife don't get that. She's always anxious about something. I am here to set an example then. I guess so. And she to you as well. It's all here and now. I now see that and i've chosen what i prefer. Now i use up the energy. I own this.




I think this is what my process is about then. It's a late start for me. I have meetup tomorrow. Worst case i take the bike. I'd leave early then. I haven't been on that bike for a year now. What happened? Brakes issue.

I get that. Get working on your book then. You want to put something out that makes sense. You don't have to learn everything. You'll pick up what you know when you need it. Trust the synchronicity.




It's like yes man but things the univers synchronicity responds to your frequency. Yes then the echo catches up and you put meaning into it. Something always happens giving you the opportunity to put meaning into it.

The theme for my books is positive. I can use a thriller but it's still positive. These monsters exist only in consciousness. Then they are real. Yes. Because you put them there. Once you are aware of it, then you can choose to raise your frequency and realize what these beings are.




They are not monsters. They are extensions of yourself. You are all that is. It's consciousness. It's energy. You put them there because it is you from a different perspective. How do you write about these things? The hero checks in. With every stimulus, hero will take pause to go inside and check dsr.

This gives him the power to ____ and make an impact in the world. I can go there, or not. Why was the call coming in then? Maybe they needed someone to go with them. I don't know. We'll see how it goes. It was kinda tight that way. I can do something in the meantime.




There's that guy and that other guy. These are regulars and they are nice guys. If i were there i could have gone there myself. Or not. I can do something in the meantime. What else is there? I don't know .it's been fun. I still use the energy.

I get something out of it. Even if only to write about the idea, i still get somethig there. The ideas just keep coming. How do you get an idea from that? It's a group of tech people. How do you write this one out?




Pick out a character. Maybe an idea person. He gets an idea, starts to develop it and builds a business around it. Things happen and he builds up on that. The universe will throw things at you and it's up to you how to use it.

This is what it's about? You can fold time and space but you miss out on the creation side. I can explore this idea as well. What is the process of creation? Why is it important that way? I can listen outside, or choose to tune in from the inside.




The latter sounds better. It's more aligned that way. It don't matter. You can label or be aware. This way, you have a choice anyway. You helped out and that's important. You can ues that down the line. These kids have grown up.

It's time for me to reclaim my life. I can do things for myself now. Let's see here this is going. What can i do about it? I'm not sure. Let my self be light. I can be in my own light. It don't matter what's out there as long as i am aware of it.

So be it.


how to access

you don't have to do things their way. People want to read about your perspective. How do you see the world? How will your character respond or react? Is he positive or negative? It don't have to be a big adventure or it could be.




Why should it not be a big adventure? It's humans engaging beings from a different dimension. How do you do this? It's like dragons, but these beings are from the astral world. The local mind has interacted with them. They see them as demons but only because the psyche doesn't ahve the words to wrap their mind around it.

So one kid comes along and teaches us how it works. Or one human interacts and introduces them via social media. It goes viral. People think it's a hoax. Religions condemn it as blasphemy. But everyone can see what it's about. This being has powers so humans cannot do it harm.




What can it do? It shows us who we truly are. We have unlimited energy. We have all this technology to fold time and space. It's not magic but physics of the universe. It's physics of all that is. So it's einstein of the multi-verse. How would that be like?

There's a story in there. So einstein discovers how to access the multiverse. There's no hypen. It's one word. How do you see this as science fiction. Instead of going outside, you go inside. You change frequency. It's why we see the universe as empty. We do not have the frequency to see everything that's in there. How do you see it then. You go inside. You tap into that part of your self.




My head can't wrap itself around it. This is going to have to be a series. Man meets extra-terrestrial. The story is about him meeting and making a connection with this being. Why did they pick him? He is a bit of a simpleton. No. The better word is simple-minded.

This hero prefers to simplify things. In this way, he is a genius. He can convert explain complex things so that a child can understand them. So it first comes in a dream. Hero wakes up in the middle of the night. He sees an orb outside his window. He goes back to sleep and the connection is made there.




Hero wakes up with an idea in his head. He thinks he was dreaming but the voice is there and persistent. How did they meet on this level of reality? They haven't. All he has is this communication link. It's like an app on his phone. He has to talk to the being using this app.

He learns much about it. He asks questions. He introduces others to the app. They talk as they would to another using a phone. At some point, they get video hookup. In the meantime, the communication is there. Anyone can download the app? What if they could? They will have their own access? They should. For now, the story is about the initial connection.




Anyone can download the app but it only works when they are with hero. They need to be in one venue so there is control? Not really. Why can't everyone access it? It's because of the agreement with hero. Everyone has access in their dream but it's being responsible for one's self and actions.

Eventually people won't need that app because the beings are then living amongst us. They interact with those in the same frequency. Will there be discrimination? It won't be allowed. People pushed the button and that's how they showed up made themselves known. Maybe that's what north korea is doing.




But things will not even escalate to that point. What if it could. Then they show their hand. It won't even get off the silo. The means is going to get cut-off. Why not make it more evident. It don't have to be shallow that way. But that's much later.

Hero meets extra-terrestrial being and communicates through an app. What's the conflict. Hero intends to do ____. But he can't because ____. That's what the story is about. Fill in the blanks later in the day. Tell about the story of this transition. That's where we are headed. You are introducing everyone.




Now that you have the seed, let it germinate for a while. Let it sit there. The story will unfold as you go along. In the meantime, do this things and get to the other side. I can finish all that in one hour. I'll do them later after my coffee. I may have to go out for a walk later.

I can do that walk now. I can even run in the morning but that's for yoga. Do the walk this morning then do yoga after your coffee. But it's this way already. Let's go for this path. The kids are going on vacation soon. I'm fine with that. The other two have work.




So i'll only have two at home. This is different. The energy has already shifted. How am i moving forward with this? Change is the only constant. Change has already happened on a different level. Trust the timing. It's all here for you. Act on your excitement. Be in the light. This is how you fold time and space. This is how you manifest.

It's all inside out. Am i trying to explain things to others by explaining it to myself. This is what i do. This helps me to understand this better. Then you do so from the inside. You look in the mirror and see that person already there. You define evrything. It's all here for you.




Do i need to rearrange that? No. I like it as it is. I can move things later but that fireplace is in the way. I have a good setup as is. Let's keep it here and focus on your writing. How many days has it been? I'll have to take note. I may use that app again.

I'll do so after i finish these. I think it's still in there. Or i can look it up. It's like a todo list but you have to be proactive about it. You have the template. Respond accordingly. It's all here for you anyway. How will you behave as a cook? You need to build up your self esteem as a good cook.




What's great about this series are the characters. You learn more about them because you see how they respond to things. People then will see what it's like. So you have a number of them in there. The protagonist and antagonist are one. The hero is the one people connect with.

So you have several and the reader will latch on to the one they resonate with. How many are there? You can have three or four. Each one will have their own persona. Let them tell you how things are going to be like. Or is it all this? I think you see where this is going.




I am getting filled up. Empty the cup and you can start over again later. This kid has work later and coming home late. I don't have to pick up. Wife is home then she can decide for herself. I don't have to go there. It's fragmented. I know. Allow for this to be here. You can make changes later.

I see where this is. It's not heading anyway. I guess it's connecte. That's not the path. The sooner you get going the better for you. What happens next? Move away. You don't have to put in to that. You know it's not for you. Let's get going then.




She can go herself. This is where the breakup happens. I don't even have to say anything. Just be on your own. You don't have to explain anything. When you are in your own light, people will see. Teach by the clarity of your example.

They'll get it or they won't. If not, then it's not relevant. What's important is that you live your life. Be all that is' unique perspective. It's why you are here. You don't have to be someone else's ____.

Good for you!


put this character

i had about twenty lines of morning pages earlier, pressed the wrong keyboard combination and lost everything. I'm starting over. This seems to be a theme every now and then. I'm sick and tired of this so i'm changing things up a bit.




How is this a story? You have a character in place. You put this character in precarious situations to show who this person is, what they are about. I need to look up that definition.

Precarious meaning it's not safe, unsecured. I now have a mental note of that. It's more like a feeling bookmarked in my consciousness. The next time i need it, i access how it felt and i get ideas through my imagination. I don't think it's about how much money you make but the enjoyment of it. Does it interest you? Is it exciting that you can't seem to have enough of it.




That's what aikido days was about. I practiced everyday, almost. I was also into aerobics and it was fun. I was broke but somehow i was supported. Right when i need it, i'd have something. I was able to live in alexandra. It was like living a dream. I had abundance but it came from someplace else.

I check out meanings of words and synonyms as this helps to build up my vocabulary. I don't intend to use heavy words in my writing though. I use words easily understood by tweeners. They are not my target audience but this helps the reader to move along. I may be repeating words but it's who i am.




Wife is busy cleaning up. I was there yesterday. I have nothing on my plate now so i can take it easy. She'll do some cleaning anyway. What's up next week? I schedule recycling. If it were not for the family, where would you live?

Browns bay sounds good. I need to wash daughter's stuffed toy. I'll do so tomorrow. These kids...see what she's done to the cat? She put the stuffed toy on top of smoky to show that it's hugging him. I don't think smoky minds. He just lay there basking in the sun and the hug from the teddy bear.




What happens today? I ask myself questions when i write to help me get moving to the next idea. When i ask, i get insights, answers. This came up after i asked the question. I am not doing any driving today. The side bags seem feel smaller today. It's the fifth day on keto. I feel better although there are temptations.

They are there to serve as contrast. You have feedback that it's not you anymore. You need to have them situations to show yourself "that's not me anymore." i turned off the auto-complete for quotes...why did she have to bring that up. She can do something about it anyway. I guess she had to let off steam in there.




I don't think she know how much work i did yestday. That's ok. She doesn't have to. I did it for myself. I do things for myself most of the time. I don't do so for others but every now and then, i get off my butt for them. Well, some of the time mostly when they ask. No videos. There's nothing good anymore. What happens when it's like that permanently?

Then you get good stories as bootleg. People write and people produce them as independent amateurs. You'll find a good one every now and then because the big shops don't have them anymore. I just learned that amazon opened a brick and mortar bookstore in new york. The neighbors downstairs are cleaning up. They are moving.




Again. What happens now? You allow for that to be there. It used to be alright. I guess things are shifting again in my universe. It's always like this anyway. Let it go. Allow for it to be there. No need to fight it but see how you respond to it. You change from the inside.

It's resonance and reflection. That's what my universe is about. I get this part. It's the local self that has expectations. Now that it's in the light, i can let go. Or not put too much into it. How to go from here? Just use up the energy. Put a positive response to it. That's why it's here. This gives you feedback to "how are things going?"




this way you'll know and see that you are now the person you prefer to be. It's in the inside. How is it like to be a best-selling author? That's interesting. I'd be checking the stats at least once aday. I'll be putting in more time to research and filling the pond. I'd get more experience related to the story i'm writing.

I'd do more writing. I am more trusting of the process this way. How do you respond to these things? I see what you mean. These things get in there not to block you but to point in a different direction. And i go there. I take that path and see how it's connected. And i get insights from it.




This guy had carpal tunnel on his wrist. I guess that's how it is with them. If they are not interested then i won't make an effort to connect. I am moving forward here. There's not much difference there anyway. I get to write what i want and see how things are going. I can do this then.

Do i have to write more? I am halfway through. Unless i'll be adding more lines to morning pages, i am going to finish soon enough around here. So what happens next? Do i have to get that email? I don't think so. I have issues here i see that. I am processing them and i'm done with programming.




It's not that i am not using anymore. I feel that i have different interests now. Maybe programming will come in with the writing. It was a part of the process. And then what happens? I'm not sure. Just use it when the need arises. In the meantime, finish. That's what's important here.

How do you finish? Create scenes, write out dialogues. That's the next step. You write the draft. It doesn't have to be awesome. You can improve on it over time. But when you sit down to write you put it out there edit later. That's my process at least. At times the writing comes easy. Most of the time, there's a lot coming through that you can't afford to edit.




I get this now. How long did it take for you to get here? After i did more copywriting. But it's a negative experience. It's not me. Writing fiction feels more at home for me. There's me being negative so i write it down. I don't have to get off my butt for her. I've done things already.

This is what i do when she's home. It's better if they went to church. I know. Then i can do something else. Like what? I'm not sure yet. Daughter is stepping up responsibility in her work. That's good. She's more independent. That's the point of it all. I guess i get sensitive about the shift in energy.




Let it be there. It's here for you. There's a reason for it. I am aware of that. Sometimes i forget. The feeling reminds me. I look into my source code for alignment. Then i can move on. What happens now? I am hungry. I can have another cup of coffee. That sounds good. Is that better though?

Wife comes home late tonight. I don't know if she'll talk to her sister or mom today. Take it easy there. I do things when i do things. This is more important for me so i spend time and awareness on it. I can choose to let go...or not. Otherwise it's all part of it. I have two meetups this week.




One is for shopify. It's about online sales. The other one is for writing. I look forward to the one in the weekend. It happens in the morning. I think there are seven members. You only need one or two to form an inner circle. Let's get there and see how it goes. Any expectations?

Yes. Be open to synchronicity. That's what keeps it dynamic and vibrant. That's what makes it exciting. It's more fluid that way. That's how i want it.

Done.


lack of template

two characters, complete opposite to each other or, they are so similar that like magnets, they repel each other. Each one coming from their own unique direction and path. When they cross, the ego repel each other. But when does it work together? How does it repel each other?




Intention. Both want the same thing, but deep inside, the definitions are different. The local self thinks it's that because the translation is distorted, lack of template. Why did she walk in this rain, this early? What does she get out of it?

Is it mental gratification? Probably. Maybe there is something or someone there that moves her to go. I am thinking that. I put myself in her shoes and i see it. Should i be worried? I think i should but higher self tells me that this is part of her process. That if i put in negative, then negative comes out the other end.




And the same with my story. One has negatives, the other is more allowing because of upbringing. The other is controlling hence becomes negative in nature. Even if the intention looks good on the outside, the frequency or signal it sends out is negative. It has a lot of expectations to it.

The other has learned to allow for things to happen. This person knows that everything is connected. It's there for a reason even if it were there to simply give contrast. As contrast, it's feedback you can use. This person has expectations that trips him up in his path. But soon as he realizes what his signal is about, he gains clarity. He gave up expectation and moves spirals expands.




It doesn't matter that he wins a round or not. He is being consistent. The other has training and money. This one has resources and abundance and synchronicity. This one has spirit connected to flow. What are his flaws weakness as a human being? Is he selfish? He has insecurities. Growing up outside, he thinks he is not worthy.

This is his habitual thinking. It's his pattern. But hen he sees how the signal feels like, he checks into his source code and makes the necessary changes. This is what his process is about. It's an ongoing process for him. It is ever expanding. Will he win this competition?




He can but would it be better if he didn't? That to him, it's an ongoing process. That him not winning will bring about relevant details that will show him who he really is, that he has the power to create his own world. Is that too deep? Of course not. He loses this title but gains something bigger.

He goes ahead and expands. He works at a top restaurant that gives him more clarity. He learns from the masters this way. He learns from the white belts as well as from the blacks. Everything for him is an opportunity to reveal himself and to raise his frequency.




What situation can this be? Maybe he gets more time to move around in the market and talk to people. Maybe he travels the world and picks up techniques here and there. How will this be made manifest to him? Will he have his own restaurant? But that is going to anchor weigh him down.

What moves his souls is the exploration and learning. Maybe he joins the competition not for the title, but for the exploration. The title is irrelevant. He'll take it as far as it will go and push his oppontent to improve himself. At the finals, he intentionally fails.




Those who know will see what he did. He intentionally did or did not do something to lose the title. Casual onlookers thinks something odd happened. The judges are aware of this. Their hands are tied though and had to give the title to the antagonist. The antagonist doesn't still get it. His arrogance shows through and everyone can see it.

How do you tell this with more clarity? This is the keyword here. You tell it the way yuo see it. I see the outline. I am soon going in and write the scene. The outline is clear then the scenes come out from the characters themselves. I don't have to think things through. I am only the channel here.




This is what the story is about. What is he going to do next? He continues his exploration. People do not have to know who he is. Some will but it's not important. What's important is the exploration. Is it? Eventually, the contract ends. Because of the negative nature of the antagonist, he repels everything he wants. He is still the poor little rich boy.

He realizes thts and in the end, converts. How? Is this relevant? Why not something else. This doesn't feel right. Maybe in a future story, i can go into this. I am looking for an ending. See that. You lost connection there. The ending is not going to come from you. It's coming from the characters. They will show you how it ends.




Put it all in that one story. You can move henceforth when you have everything in the bag. For now, connect and you have all of it in place. I go do the kids' lunch. What happens today? I think we have rain. We'll see how it goes. I had five hours of good sleep. I can play with this then. It don't matter if dream be not. I can always connect.

Use simple words that everyone can understand. Do not bog down with too much tdetails. Use only what is relevant and will move the story forward. You do not pad with too much description. Show as much as you can. Give them the experience. Nothing more.




You see where that's going then. The rains stopped but the winds are there. It was her decision. She chose that. Why so? I'm not sure. It's all there anyway. It's connected. I have more than enough. I can move forward with this. You do so inside out. What is on the outside can only affect you when you let them.

But when you are inside out, nothing outside will get you off your signal. It's all about how clear that signal is. Discipline is not what you want. You can be all over the place but when your signal is clear, the universe comes to you. There is that thing. So the story is about clarity then.




Protagonist is so clear that the universe can't help itself but be relevant to him. The other thinks he needs discipline to bring results but this trips him up. The signal and intention oppose each other. This is what you see in the world. Be clear. That the universe is resonant means a lot.

It's not the rebel but that he has a different source code. It's not about talent. This kid grew up with nothing so he learned to use everything. Without this curiosity, he would not get context. It's how you gain context. You figure out how things work. This is why you talk to people. The master chef does not have all the answers.




You go out to market and talk to people. Someone will have a technique or ingredient that gives adds to context. This lets you use it at when the timing is right. The other one relies on the master teacher. It's a title conferred by ego. You don't want that. Learn from the white belts.

This is what your story is about. One learns from self proclaimed masters whereas the other one learns from the universe. Protagonist grew up with nothing to connect with everything. The antagonist had a silver spoon and had training from all over the world. He has all the toys in the world. He even has a flair for good taste. But he misses one thing. Curiosity.




Curiosity brings creativity. Not wanting but emptiness. When your cup is empty, the universe can fill it up. Antagonist always has a masterful recipe in his head. But when the ingredients throws you a curve ball, what can you do about it?

You create something new. You use the flavors and do simple elevated. You create with as few ingredients but the taste complements each other. Even when it's opposing, the effect is positive. How do you do that? It's all in the natural ingredients.

There is testing.