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looking outside for validation

 what if there's a middle way to this. What if i can be happy in this situation relationship anyway?

If that wer eso, how will that feel like? You already know what t odo. You can talk about these things, or you can work something out different. Either way, it's all in you now.

How do you know what it is to talk about? It's in you. You get how it is connected. Trust the timing. Ok. Let's move in this direction. What comes next. You do these videos. Show the small detail of where you are at.

They dont know what it is. You can expand in this direction. You can be the simple life slacker or something. It doesnt have to be perfect but it can be beautiful. You know what to do. This is why i write. 

I think you see what's different on here. She gets it from the outside. Mine springs from within. It flows through me. That's the difference. But can i stay here. It doesnt feel beautiful atthis time. Maybe it's because of all the baggage i carry.

I see. What if i were to let go already. She has too much work. There's no way i see in the middle of it. Why not simply move on. You'll find your reflection once you see the light. 

Right now, it has to come from the outside. There is nothing wrong with you. You are seek reflection from the outside. All that was lesson gained. You got something out of it. Now it is time to move on. Next. 

I get it. That was all in there. I have enough already. I am not going to go in that direction. I dont have to cause hurt anymore. I simply move on. I have everything i need anyway. 

I can open up to something on here. I have all this anyway. Let's get going. You can find relevance and all this is connected anyway. You dont need something big and grand. You simply work with this and see how it goes.

You have something big on here. You can bring in different and you know how to work this out. Trust the timing. I think you see where this is going. Let's get going. I dont have to announce anything.

It's this way and that. It feels comfortable and safe. But you already know what this is about. Trust the timinng. You know what is relevant. You get how creation works. She dont want you there anyway. It's just validation from the outside.

Did you learn anything anyway. That's what socials are about. People go and look for play. You can always go and find something different. Or not. You get the idea. What comes next. 

You expand in this direction. I can bring the bike home but that is a different story altogether. It doesnt come from that. You know the drill. That's two day. I can have something else different and see how it works each month.

It's meant to be slow burn. That' the ideal. I finish these then continue on move on. You got this. If it stays on, i can choose. It's all here anyway. I dont think i'm the one. Because it has to come from the outside.

I see what you mean. The connection was there. She chose different. Ouch. That stopped me from writing. Is it voice in my head. Was that insight. Is it different this time. Now you get it.

Now you see. I move on or not. But you get the idea. This is why i write. I move on continue on with my life. It doesnt have to come from that. I can practice one hundred serves and i am better for it.