open alone time

 it's over then. No. It's synchronicity i'm looking into. It is the reality experience. What is path of least resistance then. Is there a disconnect. 

That was the insight. I'll change that later. For now explore this. You have this. It is connected in this way. I dontget the unknown. It isdark on there. 

You will find more of your self in thisway. What then. Trust the synchronicity. Act on the synchronicity. You know what this is about. Listen and continue on. You have guidance in this way.

It doesnt connect now. I'm not excited about it. You know what to do then. Continu on. You know what all this is about. I think you see how this works out. This sets a baseline showing where you were in thistimelise.

But it is a timeline and it is in your awareness. Everything ishere and now. What is in place here. You can be this andthat. You get what this is about. No need to panic. Everything is as it should be. Trust the timing. It's not about when or how. It's timing.

And the timing tells me this is where i need to be. Am i simply looking at the past. It doest equate in that way. Finish the comps. You grow in this direction and see. What comes next. 

Ask. Explore options. See how it works out. Is this what is relevant on here. You get what this is all about. You have what it takesthen. Let's get going. You have more than enough. Act in this direction. What comes next. 

You have this in place. The shops close. There's not much to it other than sitting in the colddark streets. You have the channel to attendto. There is chuchi. That is more than enough. He's there for you.

I got it then? I do? Whta is it about. It's the energy. Explore what this energy is about. You got this. You know how this works out. You have all these resources. I can finish that video this morning then publish.

It's not like they sit with anticipation. Work on it. Publish. You dont have to pressure your self. Even if it takes a year, then the momentum continues on. Trust the timing on this. You have something going for you.

Expand in this direction. There is a different perspective on this. You know what all this is about. I can make it work with that way. Or go this way. You know what all this is about. 

Let's get going. You see how that works out. It is different in this way and you continue on. Trust the timing. You see how it all works out. You've crossed path in this. You get what all this is about.

I fast when bike. I continue on this. I have everpything i need. It's more than enough then. What about this. Aha. But it is withtheenergy. He can choose. He's grown up now. Give him options. Show him there are options to choosefrom. 

He understands. You can expand in every direction. Trust the timing. No need to live in the past. It's all here and now. I can drive her to train station. It continues on. We can find common ground?

Simply be open. Truts the timing on this. You got what this is about. It's all here and now. You can work something out anyway. You have everything you need. Is this fear? No. Local self wanting to process what's next.

Aha. Now it is in my awareness. I have the universe andthis is a big shout saying go in this direction. Now you know. Now you get it. Let's get going. You have everything on here.

it isnt about you

 i'ts done. I'm simply doing my shawshank. I'm not sure how this goes. I guess this is what the unknown is all about. But you get the point. 

What then. Use up the energy. Choose your sb. Do the instruction manual. That's what you do here and now. No need to go throguh that. It's never going to make sense. It is acting out of integrity but it is also taking care of self. 

And this too i have for me now. I the kids are all grown up anyway. What happens next. You simply do the instruction manual. You open to experience. I can hang out withdog. 

Or we can do so later this afternoon. There's not much happening later anyway. Can i head out to work. I have work on here. No need to rush through that. It is ego controling the outside. Let ego control the inside. 

Aha. There's an idea. I put my resources into this. You get how this works out. You simply not push but awareness intothis direction. 

That's the pointthen. What happens now. We can work something out tomorrow. Or not. You get the idea. It is being able to play with others in with the intention of competition with others as well.

This gets you going in this direction. Or not. You get the idea. I'm going to have todrop out of this soon enough though. Trust thetiming. You have organizers on there. I can play on most other days. Yo uhave choice in all this.

It goes on for six weeks. I think you see what this turns out to be. You see how this works out. Can i go to court here andnow. I can ask to join inwithother players. If there's any.

I see your point. Will there be others as well. It can if when it is relevant. You get the idea. I am drifting apart away. Should i be telling her about it. Is it part of open communication.

I'm not sure. It isnt. This isshutting things down. What then. You simply hed in thisdirection. This is part of my common thing. Do not much but what comes next. I dont know. It can be. Or it can be something else. You get the idea.

Do i have palabok this morning. See. I'm even anxious to ask for what i want. I can have this and that but the excitement there is gone. That's the point. You can be solo from here on. I think that is going to be interesting.

The ones that are relevant will come into the picture. In the meantime, you lead such excitinglife that it works out in any way. You have all this in place. Let's get going.

I can simply move to cbd. That's where my energy is anyway. You get how all this works out. Let's move in thisdirection. This is what is relevant. This is how i used up the energy. 

It opened a crack in the window. Now i see a different vista horizon. It isdifferent. It is not dank andmouldy like this but i invalidate. Now you know. 

Expand in this direction. My awareness is in this energy. Now you get it. Now you get it. Trust the synchronicity act on your excitement. You get the idea. It is your own now. I can choose. It's always been about choice.

I get that. But now she knows the folly of her decisions actions. I see that. But i'm not there anymore. I've shifted. And so is everything else. You get the idea then. Now you get it. It wasnt about you all along.

insistence in awareness

 i dont feel like doing much of anything. Son is off to work soon. I stays home be with chuchi. I can make videos througouht the day. This frees up time resources for the days i be out.

That's connected too. Trust the timing. Be use up the energy. No need to invalidate. This person has drones now. That's a lot to take in. What can i do with this. Trust the timing. You get what this is all about. 

In the meantime, build up the other channel. It's not competition or a tight market. It's simply a different perspective. That's what people want to see. This is something i can do. 

I can bring dog out to park. I get that off my list, but otherwise, it is something i enjoy doing anyway. Trust the timing. You have two months with this and i be building up in this direction. 

Or i can clean up, look for that battery charger. Last time i saw it we were at the aussie open. That got me started on this channel thing. This is interesting. We dont have such a market here but there's a lot of other things.

Is there socials tonight. I feel like i have so much fear in me anyway. You get what is relevant for you. This here is relevant. Use up the energy. I can go this way or that but it is what is here. What comes next.

Use up the energy. Focus on building up content. I now have 80 videos on the channel. Twenty more to go and i have cruise-control. Two weeks on that and we can shift into a different perspective on this. Why would i want to see videos like this.

Because it brings you back somewhat. You now have this in your perspective. Trust that this too is connected. You can work somethings out. It is connected in this way. There is someone else taking video. There's three of them going.

Is this something that you want to do. Is there other options with this. I think you see how they are making good. Now she has watch and the house looks different. They had a lof of things made. It is the unique perspective that works. Plus the story.

Tell the tsory and you have something else in there that's worth binge-watching. Can i tell my story. Do i want to have that for lunch. I make pizza anyway. Tomorrow is wed. I heads out. I can do the fast tomorrow then through to the weekend.

But then again, if i stays home, i be working on this altogether. Now you get it. You be doing this anyway. That looks good. It is tuna the young-uns. It can grow more but you see the point.

And it works out anyway. It's all connected in this way. That's plenty cats. What is that thing. Vinegar. Why drink that. It is something people want to do. It is authentic home-made vinegar.

I think it adds to the flavor. You see that this is here and now. Trust that this too is part of your process. The process is the journey in this way. You can work something out anyway. It is nice to see it this way and that.

Or it can be something else. Now you see it. That looks awesome that way. I can work something out anyway. Who is that. It is connected. Where is that headed to. You get the idea. I think you see now. 

Use up the energy. Work things out. You get how it works out. You dont need a safety net. You simply resonate on this andyou get where it needs to go next. Finish up then go. I can bring dog to park but there is lunch break. 

We do it then. I can work things out in this regard. There is two hours to process all this. I can work on the laptop, bring them over here to render. It is extra steps, but at least the ball is moving. Or i take a break.

watch this player

 i dont like that title. I have one on the dl. Why is this here. I have context to use these tools with. I have insistence. It hits hard.

I thought i had it better than this. I guess this is what the experience is about. What then. Maybe i should have gonethrough healing sooner...cut the source of infection or something like it.

But that's in hindsight. What if this hadto happen, something i had to go through. Then you are using it in a positive way. That's the point. I would write first more than anything. But is it still here. I get insights or what you may call a voice. But how do you know it is that. 

This one is falt, but you put meaning into it. And that's what happened. I start ft on monday. This hasnt improved? It's stil here. Like it has its own cycle to go through. At least it's in my awareness now. 

Why not bring him to the park. How come it's mostly empty. Because people share the court that way. At least the regular ones do so. What then. You are involved with a community. You get this.

I see. It's not the same anymore. It somehow got under therug. What to do this. I think he justified and healing happens. It's coming out and the two are not affected. They get immunity with that.how come. 

I'm not sure. But it is resonance altogether. This you know. It's in my awareness now. Are we having palabok? I can work with that. Maybe tomorrow. When do you see the doctor. I've been outmost of the time. The train is back monday. Bike is in camberwell.

Is it over. I am last on the list. What now.you build up in this direction. You know what to do then. Trust the timing. It's all connected. Now i have this. But why that had to go.

Now you know. What happens then. Is it the navigation that turns off. Do i get a different phone. I dont think so. It works all the time. What can i do about this. Trust the timing. 

How come the message dont come through real-time. Not sure. You can work with this. You get how this is connected. Trust the timing. Maybe when the train is back, things get back toregular programming.

I wasted time on there. Not really. It's just notthat interesting. But here this one i see results. It's a reflection levereaged. I prefer this path. Now what. You simply build in this direction.

I like that. It's not competition. It complements each other. But the video is different. I dont like that title. Change it. I changed it. It's better this way now. What comes next.

Finish up then start on that video. This other one takes too long. I can work something out. It's unfinished that way. And it's still running along. Shortcut there. Now you know. 

It's runningalong and see how this unfolds. That's the point. You get where this is going. I washed the face. If it's addiction, now it is in your awareness. This is something i work with. 

What comes next. Finish up. Thisis what's here anyway. Just do this. No need to go there through that. The title sounds corny in that way. Finish up.

I can work on something else. I know. And it doesnt have to go there. Does it get lonely. You get the picture. I've used up most of the energy. What's left is process. But it's already in my awareness. It's not the same anymore

it was there all along

 we had another argument. I feel like i'm not getting enough intimacy sexual. Am i having too much expectations? Is this an unmet need. 

What if i redefined this. Into what? Cuddling? Why would i have that anyway. I gave notice that this is not what i want. I dont like the attitude. It's easy to do something about it, but she chooses not to. 

If so, i guess it's teh end of the road for us. What then. Give it 30 days. If nothing changes...if she doesnt come to offer something to work things out then it's the end of the road. It's time to move on. I'm not going to go there that way.

You know what to do. Trust the synchronicity. I know what to do next. Trust the timing on this one. If she has other agenda then so be it. I'm done here. It's time to move on. What happens next. Work things out to end this amicably...in a positive tone. No compromise on that.

Is it even possible that way. Why not. Simply move on. You know what to do. Leave it be then. I have thirty days on this. That is after daughter's birthday. So be it then. Do i even put that on my calendar. 

Leave it be. You'll know what to do then. Trust the synchronicity. I put notice to cousin who is coming over. Just do this. Get to the other side. I have too much baggage in this way. Trust the timing. 

What then. I'm not really sure. She's not a therapist. Maybe she sees something i dont. Maybe we are too close to the fire in this way. I guess so. Let it cool off for now. You get you know how to work things out.

There's something left unsaid with this. I know. I couldnt put my finger on it, but this is what's here and now. I write about it to get this off my chest. Otherwise it's going to keep me up all night.

I'd still head out tomorrow. No sense staying home on a beautiful day. Trust the timing on this. You get what all this is about. I go to bed next. I can fast tomorrow until friday. 

That works for me then. Just do this. I guess this is an alternative path for me. I'm going to keep mum about this. Simply put distance on there. It's time to weed my self out of this mess. It's time to accept, surrender and move on. 

You've outgrown the invitation. Or something like it. Trust that this is for a positive reason. The next step is to break up in a positive way if that's possible. I dont know what's next, but this is all connected anyway.

Or not. You get the point. It's a choice we are making. I know. Trust tha tthis is here for a reason. If not, it wouldnt be here. I simply stated what i think was missing. I did not make demands. It's simply not there.

If nothing works out, then simply move on to the next stop. That's the point. You know what to do next. I think that's what these connections are for. You get what all this is about. Let's move on. 

Is there a blind-side to this. Could be. I am open to synchronicity. If there was, then let it come up. Or not. You get the point. I dont have to involve the innocent. Nsimply move on. 

They are adults now. They know what all this is about. Chuchi, i think he already knew all along. That's why he was giving you the look. I be fasting now. Ok. How far you going. Friday.

Then we decide how to go from there. Just do this. Get to the other side. This is all connected. This is the last one. I can move on. I can go to bed then. It doesnt have to. She chooses not to. That's what is evident. It's on tv. They have rerorded replays. Why not spend time with me. Now you see.

shawshank is choice

 i see now why it's here. Is this too paradox? One thing is forsure, i am not goingtotolerate that. She dont play fair. There is so much corruption in her soul. Not quite, but you get the point.

I dont think there is resonance here. Let it be ok. I build in this direction. No needto invalidate that. You know what you need to know. Now you can use it thisway. All cards are on the table now, so to speak. I have something she doesnt--choice.

Why is there spite. Where that extra space come from. You get what and how to build content. Now you know. Expand in this direction. You get what all this is about. You know now.trust thetiming. I can wait for that torender, but there is so much to go through here.

Trust thetiming. It's all connected this way. It's going to rain all day. Courts are washed out. We have chanceto play. Most players wouldnt even think about going. Then you know. What then. You have this in place.

I was there all along. She did not want to play fair. I can make changes to this.it's going to be liket that but i dont have to go so fast. Trust the timing. I can write these first. Or not. 

But you get the point. You have much on here anyway. Create this. What is the drama. Where is the conflict. That is what you are here for. And it doesnt have to be in that light. You can do so much more.

What comes next. It's going to rain much. I dont feel like writing. But i be letting this loose. Use up the energy. You get how this works. Trust the synchronicity. It's connected in this way. You get how this works out. It had to happen soyou be inthis light.

And now you know. Now you get it. Was that insight. I'm not sure. Do you need tat one inthere. I can do something else. Let's get going. How is itso. Was the error gone now. I think so. 

It seems like it. I can go from here. Ithink that is vinegarinfusion right there. Now you know. Let's get going. You get what all this isabout. You have choice. That'sthe point.

I dont have to advocate. Build in this direction.that's a small part of allthat is. Plus i got something out of it. Choice . Yes. That's a lot. That is abundance in anutshell. 

I expand in this direction. If you dont want to be in this light, i have been wanting out anyway. Trust the timing. I dont have to be here now. I know. You can usethis asreflection and continue on. Now i know. 

Hat was huge baggage. I see that now. I am free. I am. I have choice. I can choose any which wayto go. Now you know. Let's get going.

If it was relevant, they'd seek you out. I guess this is where the train lets off. So be it. What is thatnoise. How come it goes this way and that. It was partof the equation. Now you move on. 

Where to. Expansion. Do the instruction manual. You have one year. Not one year. More like three months maybe less. And there is resonance in this direction. Wheretogo. Europe definitely.

I've been wanting to be in warm sun anyway. I can work something out. You got this. Let's get going. It was a story about marriage. And now you know. You have choice. You get what the story is about.

Let's move on from here. No moreof that. I got something out of this. You got this.it's what i have now that's precious. You got this.