two sessions social tennis today

 ok. I have two socials today, 2 hours each. I'm going to have to take paracetamol or ibuprofen. But definitely gone fasting since yesterday, finish off tomorrow by supper.

HOw does this help. It's a spiritual experience--fasting. This helps with the physical and mental. So it's a holistic thing. I do this often. It helps it subtle ways. At times you won't see it on the outside, but momentum is building  up on the inside.

That's why i like about this then. Trump's going to question things like these, but its what i think is best. This has been my guiding principle. If it doesnt work out, at least i have to myself that i gave it my best shot. 

HOw does this work for you. I'm not sure how to quantify this. More often than not, things turned out against expectations. But then again, it's all connected. It's all positive in a way. Unless i am not in awareness, then it goes on what is with the illusion status quo.

But that's just me. If i get a bite on there, i post back. If not, then so be it. I have other things in mind. I do two socials today. That's a lot. I've done way much more on saturdays back when we had comps. I can work this out.

The second one i'll go easy. Or go slow burn on both. I have jump ropes. I am retraining the body to move on the balls of my foot instead of heel to toe. That takes a split second more whereas the former can spring into  action--literally.

I learned this when i got injured. I realized i had weak structures around that area. That the best way to make that not happen anymore is to strengthen it. What better way to do so in through jump ropes. So i got myself one and have been doing this for about a month now.

HAs it made me move faster? I'm not sure how you can measure that. What i do know is that it's great working out in this way. When i do walls i have jump ropes alternating with the tennis.

I get a much deeper workout. The pace is rather slow and easy but i can feel the fat burn because i sweat and am in a good training heart rate. That's the point here. Also it's about more than an hour of training. 

So i do this when i'm not playing on the court. The rest day is on that day i can't play on the court and do wall practice. That's when i get full rest and take things easy. I try not to think of tennis on rest days, but how do you do that.

I can walk around to help ease things into circulation. But when possible, i take naps. That's when the body resets itself. I dont have any bites on there. We'll go with what they get then. Just do this. 

extra practice wall

 4-0. That's big. HOw do you play that? My theory is that you play defense--pusher until you are ahead. Once ahead, you take big shots, risks, winners. On defense, you send the ball back, make them take one more shot.

HOw do you do this as a team? Do i need to talk to team mates about this? HOw do you prove this out? I'm not sure. But it is worth it to give it a shot. Am i sleepy now? It's quiet righ tnow because noobs are playing.

Leave it be. You add to the list the ones you want to run in the background. From there you go see them until you have the doubles up and running. The match earlier was interesting. HOw do you use that? It's not related to the channel. 

What to talk about in there. Start from the beginning. You can then build unto this and see what you get. If that is what's happening on here. Then it is interesting that this is so. HOw do you put this into perspective. 

That's a good shot right there. What is the effect? I can watch the replay but that entails this and that. This is the last grand slam for the year. Things go easy from here. What to do then. I'm not sure. Ride that wave of synchronicity. You'll know what to do.

I am in this space then. You get going in this space. Once you have this in place, you'llk now what to do. I am on fast. I can do wall during lunch. I take a nap in the afternoon then go from there to match.

I starts the fast. HOw do you get going in that regard. There is no nothing happening. Saturday is blank though. Interesting. But i want to get going with this. The momentum is what this is about. 

Do you want to see this in place? Not sure. What happens then. If it is interesting in a few ways. What comes next. Why is that on a laptop. It is this here and i get to walk here. What are the options here. 

I finish up and then you can continue on. I think you see what needs to be done here. And then you can see. I am not channeling? It seems like it. You can do a search on this. I think you get that.

It is not easy, but i'll find my way through. HOw then. Just continue on this path. You'll find your way. You resonate with this. Survivor bias. I hear that and i think. That stops thinking? 

I have much. Just finish these then publish then continue on. You get what needs to happen. I was way off when i got started. I think i can start this in place. You know what to do. And then what happens next.

cant use that keyword

 i'm feeling upset. Why is that. I did not like enjoy how i played this morning. Does it have anything to do with trump?

Ahhh. What gives. I did crowd aware that out of my head. I guess it was the wind. Maybe they knew how i played. Or was it something else. I cant put my finger to it. I cant figure it out right now. Maybe it is one of those days.

I writes. I dont want to be here. I can do wall at around nine. I want to test out the changes i made to the jump rope. The shoes are wet because of the wind and shower. But i can get that sorted. Just go through it. 

Or is there something else i can do. Rest it up the rest of the week. I do take a break tomorrow. I do this. Get this over and done with. You know that. Why watch singles when the skills you want are not in there. 

HOw then. You get that this works. It's the management but other than that, is it really changing? I hope not. Go play anyway. The courts are full. Does it take skills and fitness to excel in that. It's going to be like squash i guess. 

Or maybe i am wrong about this one. I dont like how trump cooks. It's a lot of shortcuts and hacks. It can be better. But i dont think trump is interested in better. Trump is interested in "...i made this". That's not enough. 

But then again, i am trump bashing here. I guess you see i'm still upset with all this. Am i using up the energy in this way? Or am i dwelling in the past? If so, what do i get out of it. I see the thoughts that come by.

I used to take action. Now i simply observe. Put it in tehre. Maybe i can take action to it later. But not now. I finish these. I've been on this merry-go-round for more than two years now. But it has shifted. I'm not the same person.

This is how you integrate. It's about integration. I guess i am doing differently than the resto f the world who's gone through the same thing but different. I see that. I put awareness into it. Should i be talking about this instead.

Why not make it downstairs. Do it in the studio. I can work in that library instead. I can make that my commute, then hang out in the tennis club house. That sounds interesting. If so, i can do the same in the north. 

It is much closer. I think dogsy will love enjoy the walk over. We can get picked up if he doesnt want to walk home. It is a long way home from theer. I did walk him out earlier. HE wanted to go see his friends. Next time. I do it for him.

dog's glad to be back

 maybe everyone is injured, not doing as well? Maybe there's enough comp going on that people need extra days to rest and heal? 

It could be. But that they are ready to quit? I dont think so. There's always fresh meat coming in, signing up for membership. The issue is more time about. There's other commitments and play comes last. Shouldnt it be the other way around?

HOw come it's like this then. That is so pale. What kind of work would that entail. That is interesting. You need to get in that course get placement and practice hands-on. But it is a lot to get into. There's a lot of things breaking down in that foot.

That's the cost for playing pro tours. Your body needs to rest up sufficiently otherwise you are just piling up one after the other. A good manager will not only ride that wave, but will open up opportunities for you as the talent.

HOw do you communicate that. And why is this not easier to understand. I still have to make it work and if you were just winging it, this something will come up during the interview because it's going to come out up. HOw then. Make it work. Create one with egmma. 

It's more cost effective with gemma even with the extra work. You have the extra storage and stuff and still get the one from google. I just wonder if it's going to work as hard. Surely it will. You simply need to work on improving your prompts.

What are my other options on this. Is that going to be time end for the match. HOw can you play more on that situation? I'm not sure. But it i interesting that way. You know how this is about. It is an acquired taste in that direction. You need better bounce on those shoes.

HOw can you test that. I would rather strengthen that part with jump ropes than to use outside things like brace supports. This way, it is inherently stronger and more structure to prevent injury from the inside out.

The support brace is not that efective because there are issues from the structure itself. You need to build inside out. And it takes time and extra effort, but in the long term, it's better for you. 

As it is, the foot feels way better. I've even gained timing and moving on my ... The balls of my foot, rather than heel to toe movement. That is slower and prone to more problems issues. And this is what i got out of it. What am i doing here. Am i slowing down?

I am building up the portfolio. You know what to do here. I have class in two hours. If they go out test driving, will there be enough time for that? We'll see how it goes. There i coaching and is that a pinoy asking new members? We'll see if we can work that direction.

how do you play short

 i'm not sure what to do. Just start with this. I have several apps i want to sink my teeth into. I got the web server running and it serves an html with reactjs on it. That's a step forward. It is connected to a database and can pull up data from it, present to website.

That was a lot. I can do stuff with the database on this. With this i can do several things. Maybe i can do an order thing on hte restaurant see how to get that sorted. I can even do other things. I'd like to work on a database app, get that to the play store and see what i can do with it.

I am sure you can work something out like a counter of sorts for when you play tennis. You get to say to google to add one, then at the end you get a tally of scores or how you did for that match. At the end of the week or month or period, you get a dashboard as to how you did.

The thing is to connect with a counter on that. Can it be manual. You need a sports watch for it. You tap into it somehow and it runs in the background. Or not. But you be getting your phone out at every point. That is distracting. HOw else can you get a counter into it.

You tap on a device on the racquet maybe. Or on your phone or smart watch. I'm thinking there is a device counter you can use. Look into this. It has to be out of the way. Best thing is that it is not manual. That it counts errors without you having to input anything.

That is the question i work with then. HOw else do you build something with this. Maybe it is tennis related. Or local. I can make a wordpress with a golang backend, react on the client side. 

I'm thinking this was already done before. You use postgres. You then do ablog with it or something. Then you scale it up or down. You give access to people with this. HOw then. I'm not sure right now. But it is prime for a change? 

What about the dateapp? It's still headed this way. Do something with it. Anything. Finish it. Then give it out there so you do an api with a docker or kubernetes thing to it. This can be an individual thing. But you stick with this.

I can niche myself on tennis. It is a personal score thing. But how do you get that in. You get them to submit a video. You get the machine algorithm to monitor how you score with it. You tell the machine what to look for and how to tally things up.

It is a long work in progress. You have an idea here. I think she just took the easy way out. Dont believe everything they say as they are selling a book. You test it out. You verify. I should have done that. But now you know. You got something out of it. 

If so, you came out ahead. Did i record this one. I'm not sure. But they play good net and short game. I call it the short game because you are coming in all the time to the ball. Then you attack. Something like that. But it is short game as to similar to golf. No long hard shots, but minimize on it.

already have it- -- blink

 it's not going there. You will not find answers there. You need to zoom out. You are over-thinking this. You already have your ansewr. 

Build the experience in this process, from this perspective. If that doesnt resonate, it's going to fall off the way-side. That's the point here. But if you over-think this, you go around in circles. 

You already know what needs to be done. Go in this direction. Once you are in that frequency, find your bearings. Find true north and you'll know what to do from there. That's the path here. Resonate, see what reflections you get. 

It's not going to happen from this. Not that you need to invalidate what is here and now. It's the work that needs to get done here and now. That's what you have here. But if you dwel on that, you are never going to resonate. You are choosing to be in this frequency instead. 

You know this. You can choose then. Just go this way. You'll know what to do next. Resonate and you'll see what is relevant. You will see the reflection. HAve clarity. Be in clarity and the better you see the reflection. Also just blink. No need to over-think. That doesnt serve you.

Over-think when working. But you are simply collecting information. Once you have them you usse the info to blink. That's what you have here and now. And you know this. You get this. Let's get going. Trust that you already know these things. 

And you build this way. This is the process for you. What to do in that instance. You get out of that frequency. You do somethig else. I can write. I can head out. I can do walls. I can do another set tonight.

I dont think there's answer in that way. I dont think he'll play. There's that quiet thing on there. But why is that. The opportunity presents itself. Aha. They found it resonates and because of the baggage, they take the chance.

They see others doing it and gets away with it, so why not. And that's what you have here. But be free. You now have choice. You go this way. You resonate this way. And it all works out for you.

Ok. This has affected me so much. So much so that i have shifted. I have a better zoom out on this. Now you know. Now you have more options. You have awareness. This is how it served you.

Ok. I finish up this way and continue on. I have much to do. That one was confusing. This one i can ask claude or gemma and i get better insights on this. Let's get going. I have that. Finish one aaspect then add others along the way.

for the serve

 it was practice. You tested shots you are going to use the long game. It was good. I double faulted on some serves. Sure. It was not playing safe because testing. 

Practice is not the time to play it safe. She's playing it safe, wants to win, so she wont leave her net on the ad side. No shot is going to go through there, but when it does, what are the odds she's sending it back? About the same as the ones she's not getting anyway.

You learned much. Pracitce. You get another shot this week. Whats different this time? You are fasting. You are running. I can do morning serve practice. Or i can head out to park for those practice days. But hten again, i wouldnt be able to do those.

Why not do mornings and you can jump rope in between. It's only for the serves? Do the whole shebang but without jump ropes. In the evening, you do jump ropes as a supplement to doing serves.

That makes sense. But isnt this over-traning. It isnt. Because you go slow. You are doing it consciously. With more awareness and attention into it. You get how this is. It is something else and you know what you are doing.

What can i do about this then. Just get on with it. You did good on the practice. You learned much. I need to practice hone that running forehand. I also need to channel from the core muscles--hips with the shoulder. 

Serve? The pull-back sounds about good. I was hitting them on the parts of the line i send it to. Ok. I have that on the library list. It's processing now on the local drive. This way there is no lag with the response from the server in that way.

This feels just about right. I dont have to blame anyone else. I forgive myself for being on that. Now you move on. You had guidance this weekend. You get what needs to happen now. Will this finish before bedtime? That sounds familiar but i've seen it before.

And then what. Just get this sorted and here and now. I have this working on it. The lunch was great but was so filling. Even the left-over was great coming home. But i got tired and needed a nap. And i keep having to clam up rather than let myself go and bloom. 

What can i do about it then. This was a good movie on here. That is something else. I think you can go that in here. What can i do about this.

Finish up. And then you get on with it. What else to write about this. Finish up. I did not write earlier. You can choose to dig into that. Its closed? No. You paid attention to something else. I got the book there. I look into reading again.

unique relevant solution

 first the updates, then continue with the learning. Dr is way much easier because i dont have to learn much. It's simply opening to the guidance and flow that's already built-in. If ai is headed this way, wouldn't dev work be following that way. 

It all happens in the background and as it is, kids are already creating things. That is so lean and muscular. When you see that in person, it's way more impressive because it's tight and fit.

HOw do you get to that frequency. You choose to have the experience, but no insistence on the outcome. I am triggered every day. It's not that it's going to stop, but that you integrate everything. You move forward. You put it in your awareness using it as a trigger to go deep into awareness.

This shows you more of who you are. And you get that. I can request for a quick one later tonight. It doesnt have to be in that way. You get that this is here and now and that i am using these things. I slouch. But use these as trigger too. I am in a different situation. 

I can go deep into this and use it in a positive way. You have this ability and the flow to connect. Now you move on. It created the intended response. You got what you needed. I  am using this in my own ways. 

That library is finished. What comes next. You just finish these then continue on with the applications. I can continue with golang, but it removes the pressure on that. I simply create my own projects then use the skills to get eyeballs into that.

It's because the need to be profitable kills these apps. They remove the initial founders with the intention and just milk the app for profits. You see how you can easily bypass that. Why go there when what is relevant is in here.

I can walk dogsy later so i have time for that and hit two birds with one stone. But the point is that there is no need to hit a bird. The bird comes to you when you resonate. You do not resonate, you look into self why that is so.

More often than not, it's the ego that is controlling and want things to be with insistence. Now you know, i go clear up after this. It's shorter but i get to do more pages throughout the day. I can work on the dateapp and also do swipe files.

Do one swipe each day. At the end of the year, that's a lot of learning for you. Trust thaat this helps because you are here and now. You simply get into this. You see how you expand on the solution and not the problem. You simply get lost when connecting through problem, instead of solution.

When you do solution connect then you are in your space. You resonate. Expand why urs and unpack and wow them with that. You then expand on each point of the problem via the solution. That's what you do here. Now go and expand.

plenty ideas for business

 this is nice--vim. It's a classic. Why not continue using this? For writing, i prefer this. Not much noise happening, running in the background. 

Where to find red boat fish sauce? Maybe get yourself going in this direction? It takes a year to ferment good fish sauce. Where do you put them into? You'll find a way. Start one bucket, do one year. Soon as you use it, do another batch.

In the process, you build something with it. How to find good fish? You can use different fish. You can use good umami fish. You can experiment with different kinds. But you need space for this one i guess.

There is so much noise with this one video. It's not relevant for me now. But you see how this works out. I am thinking about that. Tempted is subjective. Thinking about it puts it on neutral grounds. 

I'd love to be in that sitution. You see which direction you needs to go now. Build on this. Why spend much time on that one. You cn sit and take video. Or you can do much other things along the way. The thing is, you go in this process and you'll know what to do.

That's not actual deep sea fishing. It entails something else. It's the zen of it tht appeals to me. You go in this direction see what you get out of it. You buy fish, add plenty salt, then ferment. With what? I'm not sure but the recipe is out there. You'll know when you go down that path.

It is a business idea. It's local. Someone else can import them, but local is different. You bottle them and you have a captured market. You have the local community. You grow from that. It's great with pretty much everything else. 

You can ferment them in the garage. No one is going to go there but if you need one in the dark, go get rent a room and put them all in there. That pays for itself. That's a business in and of itself. It takes a year to ferment. Is there a way to hurry that up.

Aha. You dont. It's because this and that. What to make out of it. Get back into this. Or do the fiverr gig and get more videos into that one. In the meantime, you build the channel, build the business in this way. You get how this works out. She gets upset. I too am putting pressure on my self.

But it doesnt work that way. I've talked about thes ethings already and you are doing else not resonating. What can i do about this one thing. It's the color. It's the air. It's the taste. Aha. That taste is what you be after. You move in that direction then.

Trust the synchronicity. It's going to be there. It always was is been there for you. You can let go maybe that was to get you in this and then move out. Trust the timing. Trust the synchronicity in your life. You know what it is you are doing.

still have that domain

 what in the world was that. I didnt even take a minute to make define what my options were, nor to consider my clarity. I guess the lesson here is to delay for one hour. I dont wont even buy the thing until one hour is past. By then, i'd be home miles away from it and will take effort to get back to it.

It wasnt about me. The kids saw that yesterday. I could be in there as well, but i dont get crazy like that yesterday. It embarassed them. I hope that showed a lot to both her and the kids. I would never put them in that situation, unless i am protecting them in some way.

The kids always came first, even if i am misunderstood. Even if i come to a different light. So what do these blokes want from a dmp, or digital marketing professional? It's a lot of work and it's not going to be creative...more like grunt work for the mind.

Why involve your emotions in that way? Why not a channel about being in this business? Show them the benefits of doing so. Show them what's running through your head when writing. What is it that they want though? 

What do i write about. This used to be great musician. What happened to him. Yet another one-hit wonder? Probably not. They lost the hunger? HOw do you stay longer? What do they want and ...not go there yet. They want reliable. They want someone who is knowledgeable. Someone who knows what they are doing and can be trusted.

That means character and competence. I have both. HOw do you demonstrate that? What are the top three wants they have. Put yourself in their shoes. It is the relevant ones that you work with best. And i've been in this space...you invalidate yourself again.

You know how to work this. You know what you are doing. And you have much experience in this space. Who is this? There is much in this space. HOw do you get to that frequency. You simply put yourself out there. You then have synchronicity working for and with you. 

But you dont have to know every step of the way. You simply take the step that's next. No insistence on the outcome. And i dwell on that again. That's her. And the kids know that now. That's more than enough for me. I'm not that kind. I would never put them in that situation. 

To me it's black and white. I still dont get why that is, but it's not for me to know and understand. If it's not here then it's not relevant. What's relevant is what i got out of it. The knowledge in me is more than enough. 

Also i did a lot of riding bikes to get that out of me. I'd do the same in a blink of an eye. Go this way then. You know what it is you are doing. You then have much by way of experience and choice. That's the idea here. 

Should i listen to this track? It's ok. Leave it there. Maybe i can tune in to that one instead, the library uploads. I have much online and google has a lot of information on me to define a demographic. That's what all this is about. Let's get cracking.

I used to get one new gig every two weeks. Go to that, build the channel with that and see what you get. That's the step right now. I see this as relevant. You build in this direction. You then have much in this regard. You can work pretty much every place you can bring your work stuff with into.

still in the rut

 why am i so hating on this. How did i get here. I'm always here it seems. What do i get out of it? Security. You dont want to be secure in this.

What then. Use it as trigger to be more aware. Put this in your awareness. No need to invalidate that you are doing it. Just observe. Observe something...you thinking, feeling these things. You dont have to entertain all that. Just be.

Do i still want to work? I want to go to bed now. But i think we are going to finish this one. Maybe she go see one more. Htat's the issue here you see. I'm supporting her. She only provides money.

The thing is, it's not about the money. Why am i here then. Should i write more about this. I did more jump rope today. I do a hundred minimum each day. I do that in the hall way or go down to the garage for a quick fix.

It doesnt matter. It's not about you. There is no comparison. It's that void in here she's not even aware of. Why did you not shower earlier? Is this inconsiderate? She has work sure i know that. She made dinner.

Idk. It feels not genuine. Or maybe it's because i'm in this state of mind. What if i do something else with it. Like what. Integrate. Use it as trigger for you. Then you are using it in a postive way. Am i the one with the problems?

It feels not genuine. Not true. I feel like there's information withheld or hidden not stated. Something's not rright. I am overthinking this then. I know. I havent been to city in a while. I used to enjoy riding.

This is what's relevant for me then. I feel like a door mat in this relationship. That's ok. Use up the energy. Soon as it turns it's going to be worth it. But for now, stay here. Sit on this. If it works out...wait. It hasnt worked out still?

What's the matter. What do i do about this. It's something she's see a number of times already. What then. Use up the energy. No need for acting out of emotion. What are yo udoing around here.

Just do this. I am sleepy. Finish these then this episode is done we go to bed. I just feel like something is amiss. Or i am over-thinking this. Just get this sorted out.

You'll know what to do. When the door opens, you'll know. But for now, you know this is your process. Let it be. You'll know what to do about it. I have this in place. I can finish this and then continue on with this one here.

waiting for package delivered

 i can go there. I can choose that. But will that be relevant for you? Does it resonate with the ideal you?

No need to expand on that. You get the idea. Work on this instead. You are building up equity with this. Doggy boy is up moved to the living room from kuya's room. I can watch a video binge on that for today. But is that escape? 

It is being. But i am over-thinking this again. Just follow the path. Do what's next. Wow, that is huge. I have video running on the background and i dont have to. But you see how this is relevant and all that. 

I can eat now, or later. I think doing so later delays the dopamine release. I have serotonin instead because of the delay in gratification. This is what my process is about. It's that she knew what was the right thing but chose otherwise. And now that she is left holding the bag, decides to go straight.

But it's dead now. That one is no longer what you think it is now. It's different. You are building up on this. But the difference is this--you have choice. And kids won't think any worse for you as you did your best to stay.

But it's not about that. It's about doing what i think is right for me and for everyone. Doing what's right for the whole. HOw do you know this is true? Synchronicity. This is what's here and now. This is what's relevant. If choice, i prefer to practice. But is there practice tonight?

I can practice on the wall. I prefer wall because i am working on the fundamentals. If others are there, they want to play get that dopamine kick. That's not me. That's not relevant at this time. They see the effect but not the cause. 

That's what is difference and that's how you got to this then. Now what. I think he goes to make something for himself. I can use that to have lunch later but it's not here and now. I keep cheking that. It's not here yet. Is it arriving? It's about that time. This is the window of delivery. 

HOw come that other product is not yet out for delivery. Simply observe. What's happening. I feel this way, because thinking these things. If i had no thought, will that stir up the emotions? The emotions without thought are effect. If you let it pass, put it in your awareness then you trigger that into positive integrate.

And that's what htis practice is about. I writes much. This is what i do. I grow this business. And you have this integration at all times. If you are open to the idea, it can be cross-boundaries. Meaning it can go to different places and still work.

That's what i do here. It is the passive revenue. Not entirely. Because i am working on this and there is a team behind this and you get that. Now you can get back to relevance. I am still waiting on that delivery though. Leave it be. You get it when you get it.

stay at north

 its only now that i got to sit and write. I went to market get pork for adobo. While doing so, i put laundry in the machine. Getting back, hang the clothes, then started cooking.

And it's all part of the relationship. I do this so she can focus on her career since i couldn't get mine going. It's teamwork. Otherwise, she will have to do things with one hand and i do the same. The point is that i'm not doing nothing. 

This is what upset me. I wonder if she still thinks the same. Maybe she does. Or not. But knowing her, i fear she's changed only in that regard and not in alignment. Why am i dwelling here. Because this is right front and center at the moment. What do i get out of this?

Good question. The adobo is simmering. I put the potatoes on late. I remembered it as an after-thought. So now i simmer the adobo extra time to get the potatoes to cook. And still, this is part of the process. So leave it be.

I am returning this jump rope. It's not perfect. I'm gunning for this other one. What's the review on that? What i remember is that it has better hinges, but it is still using coated steel cables. Iirc, it had about 7 hundred likes. That'll work. Plus the price.

I also ordered medicine balls. This one is called slam balls. 15 pounds. This is to help with the muscles on there. But do i really need this one. That was an impulse buy wasnt it. Aha. Ok. Water under the bridge. 

I'm using the basement as my workout area. I can use that parking spot but there's a car behind me. I like the setup i have at the basement 3. There's less cars coming in and out. So that's that. 

Do i start work now. I can. I took paracetamol. I take another one before leaving later. Can i do practice hits now. I need to practice my serve. And this too is connected. It's about the ideas. Which one should i be doing.

Look into this. You have much going on here. You can have that device connected to the cloud so you can stream videos on demand. Which camera then. I think it depends on the club what they have already or what they can afford. 

I think there is a camera for that. You just need to set one up. And i can build up from there. They need one more player for tonight but it's comp night. You won't find much on there. Plus the south has plenty teams to it. 

Ok. Maybe i dont have to go elsewhere but make the best out of what i already have. That's the point. Now you see. It's five minutes away and there's no one playing. So i stay here. If i can go then i go. The synchronicity tells me this is more relevant.

do the project

 you're hoping that there wouldn't be anyone good for the post and that they'll settle for you. 

Wow. I did. Now what. You work on your material. You build on this. You learn. You still go for it. This resonates with me. It works for me. I be in this track. Not that it's too late, but that this is interesting. I see a future with me in these shoes.

I'm worthy. I have value. Even if you think otherwise, its more a reflection of your self than it is of mine. This too, is the lesson for me. This is how i move forward. This is how i integrate this.

I cant change the past. I cant change you. I change myself. Even if its a future without you, i go on. Life goes on. Sad that this is so, but it's all about perspective. One day i'll smile again. But now, it's ok to sit with this. I dont have to process this anymore. 

God, why am i here. It's coming up because it's not the same anymore. You have the choice. For now, i work on my self. I resonate. I have the experience i prefer. Soon as this has its momentum, the energy shifts. I'll know what the next step will be. The other shoe falls and i'll be ok.

So i finish these for now. Just write. Do the project. Get that moving forward one day at a time. I have a todo list on there so i'll know what to do. I think it needs to be on the root directory.

Leave this trck on. By the time i finish then that other one will cue in. Just tune in to this. Resonate. We have socils tonight. I dont have to deal with that now. Everyone has them. I can send that through and over.

So be it then. Trust that this is connected. I'll put that in a bag or something. Just do this. You see that and it's all in there. Just do this. What comes next. I'm not really sure. I saw a coffee machine on there.

But do they use it, if at all? I dont know. Maybe. Will it be something you'd want yourself? Back in the day i would. Now, i'm not sure even. Just do this and see how it works out. Ok. I'll send that one out. 

What comes next. I'm not sure. But it's here and now. I dont use it and i have it all in place. I think it's the package and you know what this is about. What else is there. I'm not sure. But you see how it works out. See how it goes.

This is an old track. Those were the days. I had fun then. I still am the same frequency. Its time to continue on. Does this go. I wrote it. I own it. I may change my mind. That's because change is the only constant. You follow the instruction manual and you're going to be ok.

working on date_app

 what would it be like if this was up and running? I'd be looking aat a lot of things--the codebase, advertising, user interactions and feedback.

That's what i'm doing now. It can be used as portfolio for getting a job, but it's meant to be a fork or alternative to be a business. It's going to not have investors. The idea is to sell this at some point and use that as retirement thing.

Or not. Maybe get this sorted until i can pass this on to the next generation. This way, we preeserve and maintain integrity of the community. What is the community about. It's meant for people to not find true love but to be ble to meet people--face to face.

What happens next is up to them. But to meet people, get the conversation going. Tht's what this is about. How do you get that going then. You need a chat room. Is a forum better? It can be. That's one avenue. 

How do you get them to talk about hobbies? It's not going to be a s*x site. But then again, i dont wan t to put restrictions limitations to the idea that comes along. The templte is higher self guidance with synchronicity. 

There is no need to control things. You simply build in this direction. Trust that this is connected. Imagine this is a consequence and it turned out better than expected. That this is the positive outcome of the integrtion of a negtive.

But then aagain, it's all up to you. How do you get that in the range. You not go for power but for placement. Go for form, not power. Not outcome. Just do form. Good shot. The rest will take care of itself. Who is that in the background?

Is she going to win this match? This is interesting. How come people the experts missed this one. Because they were looking at a lot of other things. When you look to the stats, you dont even have to go see the matches. You look at the stats.

How is this relevant to me then. I'm not sure. Keep it in there. Once you have this in place, you can work somethig out. But i do walls this time. Maybe i do walls out on the court where there be people this way i can work on my serve.

Do this practice serves every time i get. This way i can be on there with the spot. But you can define these things instead. It's the take-back. How do you find rhythm on this. You simply build in this direction.

Ok. Just go through the motion. Toss first then that thing you do at the back. That's all you gotta do. That's how you break it down into smaller pieces. First the toss, then the magic. I forgot what it's called.

not blame, i chose this

 i'm going to be griping about this. Somehow the h escape works on here but not with neo. I dont get that. 

Do i blame her? Of course not. I chose bo be here. I chose to prioritize my family. There is no right or wrong but what you put into it. Still,...i needs to forgive myself. 

I have a program now. I work on this this week. Also i get that behind me. I continue with this. I work on the gin protocol. I finish that then work on the dateapp. I dont need a video tutorial as much. I have different resources.

I'd keep that in there though as it helps with a few other things. What's going to happen here. You just be. Use up the energy. There is no need to invalidate. I am bored. I want to go to sleep. I dont think this works for me.

What then. Get this sorted out. You know what to do anyway. Just do this. Use up the energy. I have this and dog and i continue on this path. I looks after my slef now. They understand. They are adults now. 

This shows the options that are available to you for you. That faith thing, it is not, but awareness. Once you replace one for the other, then you can use creation. You use the energy of creation, the universe. 

You test it. See how it works out for you. But we live in a time space reality--this means it's a part of our experience. So you put that into context. Once you get that you know how what to make out of this.

The emmet plugin works even on this one. The isssue then is the react components. Can i do something idfferent here. I can test that tomorrow. You get that this is what's here and now. 

She has match tomorrow. Istay to do my walls and jump ropes. I do two fiftees each day. This is the workout plus the wall practice. I get back around this and it's going to be different this time.

What are  my options here. That's a different and new coaching staff. That's what is relevant. Does it make you a better player? I believe so. It's not about power alone anymore. 

Aha. This i test then. How do you know it's working out for you. You start to make better shots. Not just better but good shots. Better in the context of comparing this with the past. But you get what i'm saying here. Time off cheers.

apply web dev

 this feels like it's so much bigger as a window, but it's because the monitor is bigger than this other one. 

I have so much neg in me. I use this as a trigger to go into more awareness. I think daughter left for work earlier than usual. She complains about her work, but is doing nothing about it. Or maybe she is applying for work. Idk.

But it's none of my business. This just shows that i look into their life and see what's up. Anyway, i too am applying for work. I think i send out about ten applications every morning. There's so much on the web dev side. I continue on with this.

I may be overwhelming myself with this. There's golang back-end, react on the front-end. I hyphenate because it's easier to scan and register the idea. I've gone that one before. Dogsy is still on the bed. I put it away soon as he moves to kuya's room.

All this be for naught. I know. What can i do. This is not good for my mental health. My total health in general. I've put myself in this negative state simply because i let the ego mind run rampant. But this too is a trigger. I see this different because of it.

What then. Finish up. Continue with this one. We have socials tonight. I think you see that one. I did more jump ropes last night and woke up to some discomfort in my ankle. That tells me it's building up on there. You continue with this one then. Is she playing tomorrow.

I can do full-on play tonight and skip tomorrow. I guess so. That too is an option. This way i can work on a number of other things. I ca hang out in the clubhouse and get work done there. Or not. You get how this is. 

I have one other mous, but i cant find it right now. Or get another one. You see the point. What comes next. I can work on the tech build up that place. You got this. I think you can set up cmeras on there so people can see how the court is doing.

Aha. That's an interesting project right there. You build in this direction. You use the tools to solve problems. That's what all this is about. You can work on this or that. And there's so much you can do here. I get that. I can connect with this dude ad see how things are doing.

But still, it's all connected. Ask around see what you get out of it. This alone is so much. You can work with projects this way and that. You build a channel along the way. You vlog about your experience day to day.

Did i just transfer into this frequency. Now you know. Now you see. HAve coffee after you post this. You get how this works out. Or not. I have this in place anyway. It gets interestig in this way. You see the connection. And now i'm done.