go blue then red

 if this is synchronicity, what's it telling me? It's not trying to tell you anything. It just is. It's not working. What is not working? Netcat works. I tested it. The firewall and iptables are not the issue. I checked yesterday. Metasploit works so that's not it.

HOw do you check the target vm? I set up netcat to test the comms between two terminals it works. Test it via an outside machine. If it were that outgoing firewall, what is it. I dont think it is. If firewall was blocking comms then nmap would be restricted.

Is it? It's not you. It's a slump. You go through these and why would i hit the ball straight when it can go higher. Because you dont turn cross on the hit. I have been training it this way. What happened last night?

Maybe i need to get a video of that. HOw do you get this working. I have all that. I just need to make a video of that. HOw do you determine if it's the outgoing firewall on the target? That's the next question. 

That's on my todo list. I'll check that out. These things are what needs to happen when you are in this space. If so, it's not the ai. The easy ones get covered, but the challenge is when it doesnt seem to line up with you. What then. 

Finish things up. Let it be ok. Build from this. It's the challenge that gets you going? It's the build. It's the process. Get in this space finish up. You dont have yoga today because this. I make that adobo then. It takes an hour or two. 

I know. I make that working then. You have this in place anyway. You brown it up first. Then you add all the ingredients to get that going. I think there is enough garlic for that. It's interesting in this way. Work this through.

Just be in resonance for today. You dont have access to tomorrow, but do so for tomorrow you. Build on this for today. Once we have netcat reverse shell working, then i can build on this skill. 

You already have it in this way. Metasploit wouldnt be there all the time. You need to get reverse shell from scratch. And that is what the website is for. I think you see this in place. It is possible to do so from bash.

Then we are in this scripting on bash. You see how it works out. You have this tested already. Get in this frequency and you see how it works out. Finish up. You have that in place anyway. What comes next. You got this. I think it was interesting in that way.

If a system were under attack, how do you test that. You do sherlocks. See what is happening in the backend. It's going to leave a trace of activity, unless logs were erased? It wouldnt be. But i can check on those.

I have the means to do so. You have that. Iam is easy. You just follow the instructions. You have the others as well. It is monitoring network traffic. Then you need to create a server to monitor that traffic.

You need to keep that running in the backend so you can monitor that different. What is the server name. Aha. This is interesting already. You have plenty to practice on. If it goes this way, you have one or two months on the blank.

Let it be so. Just be this. What comes next. I am doing the bug hunt season. Finish these then. Why do i feel rushed pushed? Put it in your awareness. That is glimmer so you are in awareness with this. Then you are using this in a positive way.

HOw do you respond to that. You report, then make suggestions. That's what the skill is for. Aha. Then i can work through that track. Finish that then work through on the next one. You are not getting the reverse shell right now.

I see what you mean. Finish that path. Concentrate on that for now. You are going to use that anyway. Go through that get elite on that then segue into the red side of things, then go dark. 

start new journal

 it turns out i'm incomplete in two units. I may have to go back for that, then finish off the final 2 units again. That's ok.

The question now is, how important is this cert4 going to be? At this time, i dont think i'll work on the bachelor's degree. It's useless at these levels. I'd rather do the cert oscp than get a bachelors. There are requirements for tertiary, but i dont think that'll work for me.

But then again, it's an option. I can do that on the side as i do contract work with this. If i be working off-site, then i be enrolled in a different uni to finish that off. The big question is, can i do much with just the cert?

I think it is possible. This is a course that relies more on what you can do. Do them labs. Finish htb. See what you get when you get to that level. I finished off the fines. That's a lesson for me. No more of that. I never did get the receipt from the last one. At least it's all in my payment record.

I finished my walk. This is a tough draw for ena. She may have to finish early on this one, focus instead on doubles. I can have lunch now, my one meal for the day. It's quiet anyway. She is yet to cook lunch and there's plenty on there to work with through. 

Finish this. You start, you finish. So that's what we do now. I have this in place. Just make this a habit. Then you have much to work with anyway. I think dogi went to kuya's room early this morning. HE's sleeping this through.

I can go through the labs then start that vlog. Do i need to make that in the todo list? No need. I do that after this. I'll take the driver test after this phase/cycle. It's what i have here and now. She is tall. They seem short on the court but it's because of the backdrop.

Because athletics, they expand to maximum potential, more so with training. What happens next. Finish up. You have much on your plate right now. Just get this sorted through. I have halfway through. So just put down the what something finish.

And if i have to repeat everything, it doesnt matter. You are building the habit in this way. I resume the one meal today habit. I break once on sundays i guess. Not that, but feeding window. It's four hours. Or i can finish that in one meal.

But you get the idea. What happens now. I have cara cara oranges. These are great. I like them when they get over-ripe. It gets sweeter. It's my favorite now, along-side a good steak and rock melon.

So this is how i treats myself. HOw do you get to contract position. You network. You talk to people. You put your self out there. I dont know how, but this is what resonates with me. Maybe i can do something in this regard.

I can work through the bounty program. You are not hunting bugs or break in the software interface, but vulnerability. You are looking for a way to get root admin. That's different from just doing bugs. That's what i'm doing here. Where is she headed. I'm not sure. But you see the path. 

You always have choice in this way. I do them machines, then sherlocks and see what you get out of it. Maybe someone turned off the mongo shell so it's not to finish that. I can go back to that later. Just do this.

Iif there is opportunity to finish then i will. If not, i move on to the next phase. And you always have something going for you on this one. I finish these and two lines more to go. I have this in place. Just do this. 

What comes next. You know what. You work through this next month. I have the channel then build up on the other one. You have much in this regard. It doesnt have to be a full-on thing. Just use up the energy, see how it goes.

And that's what i do next now. I make the steak, have my meal for today. I have wall tonight anyway. I continue on with that. What else. I dont know. Take a nap. Take a break. Tomorrow is tuesday then we have match on wed. That's more than enough tennis. I train everyday.

it feels right

 ok that's in place. Let's get to it. I am hungry. I can move time to eat to after lunch, or wait until you have more choices with them fish and chips. 

But there's tennis tonight, and tomorrow. I did fast today 24 hours, or no dinner yesterday until first meal today. That's something already. It's an achievement. This here is a good match. I upload curate good match that are not slams. This way the event is commemorated.

The slams are more commercial. There is hustle there but you dont see good players like this. And i do the cwe25 series. That's good for at least 25 to 50 videos. It becomes a resource others can refer to in the coming weeks. 

It's kinda limited in this way but i can do this way. I can create local vlogs but in the meantime, this is what's relevant. I can go this way or that, but getting that lifestyle vlog is more important for me. It's vertical and caters to a different market. It elevates the audience makes them aware of a different perspective they too can choose.

But it's not meant to teach. It's there for a reason. It resonates then the reflection is there. You can see this in place. I have others in here. I can do vdp and bug bounties. But you get the idea. If when it resonates then you find your way. 

In the meantime, i do this series. I have plenty notes in here. You get the idea. This is turning out to be a good match and the edits are good. You can find your way through this. They made it back. I think the team has plenty room to improve. 

Dogi didnt react to this. There's plenty more in here and they pay a lot. You can work in this direction. What are those symbols. It means there's a lot already done work in there. But still you can check things out. 

Like that one has plenty user interactions. You will find things in tehre and you can work your way through that. You get the idea here. Ok. Let's get right into this. Plenty opportunities right here. I'd have that but the lunch takes a while to make.

I can head out for my walk shortly. Finish these then i can go for a walk. It's still early anyway. You have tennis later tonight. No, this afternoon. There should be socials in this club to get more members. They bring friends and they create good talk.

I dont know why they are doing these things. It's also a good way to promote the new facebook page. You can create a chat group based on that, or something else. I think you see the big picture in this way. Ok. I can coordinate with the group in this way. 

What is covered and not covered. Is friday good, or is it better sundays? I'm not sure. Test it. You get to see what's there better in this way. You can invite others to sign in. Otherwise, you get wear and tear and you have more members come in.

I think you can do socials, promote that to springboard into comp, then have them as members. The comp is there to get them to sign up so you have a regular roster. What time or date is best. You had a good audience friday last time.

I can build on that. I can ask the group about these things. When are they implementing the lights. If there is comp, then you need lights in there. If not, you can ask around. You only need one court to get started.

Or is there something else you can do on here. It takse a while for them to build sometihng. I can create something for saturday. It's for people to hang out and then go after tennis. It will finish nice and good at that time. 

There's no comp that time too. You can use a court and some lights to it. I think you can start it this weekend. I can ask around. It's the committee that looks into it and people can rest up afterwards.

I can bring it up. What is that thing. This is now officially a good match. Whoever wins this has good potential in the long term. Or not. It's up to you and me anyway. I can have the walk around the block so i can get back sooner earlier. 

plan test leverage

 i'm upset. Use up the energy. Walk, write. Meditate. Practice mindfulness. Give your ego something to chew on. Otherwise, it's going to dwell on that negative perspective and you spiral into darkness.

What then. I can make a video with this new tool. I can read through this and learn much about it--or i can simply use this on my bughunt. That works out too. You show how you figure things out on the fly. It shows how you find answers, no matter how long it'll take.

And more importantly, you know when to let it go. You find something else. Like how to get reverse shell on netcat. It works on parrot, but not on my local. Why is that. Maybe i can get answers to it. Maybe it has something to do with my firewall. But i've looked into it.

Not as thorough. Get back in there. In the meantime, i do bughunts and full-time with this. I feel like if i ran ctf's, it takes a week and all day into that. I can simply watch a video on how they do this, pick up a few ideas here and ther. 

That sounds legit. That is something i am looking into considering the options. Or something else altogether. But you have all this in place. I finished seek. Next step is i am into bughunts now. Learning about the tools is part of q2.

I can dwell on that neg, or i can do something else. I'd rather have choice. So be it then. Do i need these tools? It doesnt work at times. I can turn them off and reactivate when i need them. That works too. It's part of the recon. And i know how to interacti with my ai. That's important. 

It has context. It knows what i'm into with all those prompts. HOw to get to this level? Create good content. Show how you do. I can create brolls whenever i get into that. It's like recon. You look at what's available and you plan things out. After that, you do tests and then leverage into it.

That's the process for me. I dont have line numbers but currently at 15. I have it on that side of the fence. I simply write more until it hits the limit number. What happens today. Probably tennis later on. Unless you have bum knee.

There line number works. I can narrow the window some more. I can do that. I want to walk first then head out. Finish these then head out. This way the energy gets used up. The line numbers get in the way. Or not. I can do a search instead.

I think the search is used more often than jumping line numbers. I use it now and then but search is better as it shows me what's out there. Again, it's all about choice. And i have choice. I have much of it.

It's natural that you go into that. It's ok. I get that. I was in there myself. I think you see how this is relevant for me. Now you know. You go where it's more relevant for you. So much to do on here. It's like this getting started.

And having the tools as you go along hers. I get into this more. I can use that one instead. It connects by usb. The sound is good and i can use that instead. That works out. I can use this one but it can be that sound that clicks into place.

Ok. You got this then. HEad out for the walk. They get up later and i have this much one hour to do the walk. I can use that instead. It's going to get warm as you walk out. I have enough playlist videos to tune into. Or i can meditate do mindfulness practice--mp.

I can spell things out. Or not. But you get the videos on the list this way. Or save them for later. Just leave them on for now. I have much in here to work through anyway. Plus you have this in place. 

I did not have dinner last night. You get that. And you see how negative that energy is. I dont have to dwell on that now. I have this. I cleared up my morning. I continue on with this. It takes a lot but this is where you need to be. This is what's relevant.

The business is q2 for me. No matter what you do. This is the second channel and there isnt much information out there that you can use. I can show the experience. That's the point. I can have that on the bottom. 

I need to set these things up.

won set last night

 i'll do morning pages first then get to it. It's part of the process. This too, is part and is relevant as this is what's here and now. 

I use this to get to the other side, next step. I do not have to invalidate. What hppened. This one disconnects. It takes a while to connect to that. Leave it be. Maybe it's not relevant? See how it goes. I see a path as to how this will be.

And it serves a purpose in this way. It gets me going in this direction, see a vista that would not be possible available relevant resonate with if i had not gone down this way. So leave it be. Let it be ok.

We won a set last night. It was a positive experience. As a whole, were we a better team? I believe so. The combination was positive. She was good at hitting deep and consistent returns. I was the missing pressure on the net. 

They would have evened the match had they stuck to the net, applied pressure. But the net person moved back. I'm not sure how that is. My partner kept lobbing. Maybe that's why. She left her net position. That's why they lost. HAd she kept to the net, pressure is applied and she would be in a better position to score.

That's what she was doing all night anyway. Them shoes look nice. So you are using it in this way. HOw come the wifi connection is more reliable? I'm not sure. I can look into it. Itm, just do this. Maybe it is the quality of the connection. Or it could be something else.

Getting hired is outside of your control. You can focus on what's here for you. Making the videos. Learning process. Gain uncover skills that are relevant. It's there. You dont have to gain it. Just practice. Polish. 

One skill expands to the other. The main ingredient is asking questions. That's the point. And then you have all this in place. That's the reason why it's here. That knee is bum. She should rest it. But then again, that's years of pressure. You see how this is relevant.

I got me hat back. I learned something from that experience. That shirt says a lot. Why wear that. You see the lesson there. The insight, the reflection. It is all about reflection .leave it be at that. You get how this works. 

This setup feels way much better. The two word phrase is the verb. HTe one word is the noun at times an adjective. And it is this way that makes scanning to connect easier. Nothing today and tomorrow.

We have big match saturday. Today tomorrow i do wall practice. That's a positive for me. And i do once a meal days. What's up for tonight. I have wall. I have tea when you gets home. Then i head down to wall. That's the point. I can skip this one here, but you get the idea.

What then. Build up again and again. You have this in place anyway. Trust that this is connected for you. Does it have clicks to it, or just eyeballs? I think the eyeballs are suffice enough. Will suffice. I edit this. I know.

Then you have it different. It's not the same that way. What is that about. Not sure. It is a group and they travel in packs. That's how they connect. They can venture outside but it takes this way and that. You get the idea. This one here is a long dl.

I know. I finish these anyway. Then you can have that in place. You can review every now and then. Go forward and back. Why this one then. I'm not sure. She lost first set on this but she is good at comebacks like this. Let's see how this goes.

HOw or what is the frequency playing that way. You get her to run. That was the opportunity shown. What was different last night? I had points. But that's expectation. I was able to minimize errors. I had six.

And it was applied pressure. I scored wins. I had good serves and returns at key points. That' swhat is different. My partner played well returned balls consistently. That's the point. You can build on this then.

assertive is push-back?

 now i decompress. So much energy in me. I was upset? I was. But i was objective about it as much as possible. I may have been personal, but it was to show the perspective.

What now. I can take a break. Is redshift running? It should be. It restarts with logins so it's in there. It's just that daytime and no filters to it. I think i can publish that video? But then again, better to show archives than latest. 

Ok. I can work with this. What comes next. I have match tonight. Set an example and take the position. That's what i'd do. But then is this the last season with them. I deserve and am worthy. If i dont open up...but then again there is much fear in me. 

I like how this player works doubles. She is consistent. Why not win. It's how the ball bounces. HOw does she rank in doubles? I dont know. I can look into it later. In the meantime, you come up with ideas for the remix.

HOw many files are in there now. I can make fried rice but that's for tomorrow. Or saturday. It's wed. I have the balls arriving today. That's right on time for saturday home game. We have enough players now. 

I may need to find a fourth if these two back out. Who else is available at this time. Would you rather have different players? If so, who's available. I can ask around. I have different members in the equation.

I did not get upset. I pushed back. It got personal but not quite. It was a push back. I had to show the point otherwise she would have insisted i finish a sub-task i did not agree upon. It was not feasible. 

She doesnt understand what she was doing and was insisting i do a task she did not clearly understand. That deserves a push-back. I tried to be civil about it, to no aivl.

What now. Finish up. Is it going on there. I can start today finish saturday after the match. That sounds legit. I have plenty on here. It's going to go in that direction. Or i can put that in the ref to dry out. 

Ok. Let's have it this way. I'm done with that frequency. That's not me anymore. That's why i push-back if needed. At times there is ego involved. I will zoom out if that's the case. HOw come they made it to sf?

Maybe they play better as a team. But the team here is better imo. But i could be wrong. It doesnt matter. Should i create a blog about this. I am thinking that will help. Or maybe not. But you get how this is connected.

I lost the morning to that one. That's ok. I finished my side of the assessment. I have other screenshots in there. I can add user then delete just to show user. But i can help if asked. Otherwise, it's derogatory. It might be misconstrued otherwise.

Ok. Leave it at that. They won first set. It's eight sets on saturdays. It makes things more interesting in this way. What comes next. I can ask around if there be players. 

If not, i can continue on to the next stop. It's not like that anymore. You get how this works out. Can i practice today. I have match. That's more than enough for now. I can edit these and see. Or not.

The finals is between those? That's a good poach from a strong serve. That's how you work with this. Can i do something similar? She did not get to poach off that cross-court shot. That's part of the equation.

I dont play one tonight. It's not for me anymore. Last we played i was that. So i get to choose as i am not leader anyway. Or so i think that way. Anyway, continue on. Just do this. See what you get out of it.

upset over things

 i dont know how that one looks, but it doesnt resonate right now. Leave it at that. Just finish this one. It's just junk you're watching. 

Maybe it is rest time, but it is wasting mine. I use the time then. Just chill yourself. You dont have to go there. I can win matches. It's just the energy you give off there, it stinks. 

What are my options. Ignore. Just play. You can do something else. Or i can stop playing, do something else. But the comp is exciting enough. Maybe there is something else out there. I can play sub and see what you get out of it. 

Maybe it's time to lay off a bit. Maybe i can do something else in the meantime. Like what. I'm not sure. Maybe i can play different. Like fridays socials. Or something else altogether.

What then. That's a waste of time right there. I dont think you are worried enough. And you waste other people's time. This is a reflection. Trust that this is connected. At least you see how this is.

Then you have options. Or not. But you get the idea. What can i do different. I am already doing it. I can work on the thread. Record then upload then voice-over. Polish the video. Or do soemthing else altogether. 

I skipped today because i made the journal on github. That took me all morning. I can move on from here. At least i have that in place. I can build on the channel again tomorrow. You know what to do.

This is taking too long. We go to bed after this but this should have been at ten. This way you have olnger time to sleep. Not this way. Ok. Now you see. You see what the opportunity is. You get the idea.

You see how this works out. HOw do you move to that one. You dont. You have this in place. Now you have this in place. What are my options. What is that. They are marketing that much. HOw do you get that in place.

I'm not sure. I need to do research on that to make a decision. I am done with that part of the equation. I am commencing to finish this one. You get the idea. If you dont have anything to say, do nothing saying. Just finish the work.

Ok. I am sleepy on here. I just finish the render then i get ready for bed. This might come to finish at the same time. Otherwise, i leave everything else running in the background. This one is starting to take too much space.

I can delete the ones i dont need anymore. Like the ones i have on interest getting anyway. Or i can add some more. If you rae not watching them, do nothing.  People are not going to see that.

You can get it later anyway. In the meantime, if it's terrible, it is not worth it. I can dl the ones i'll need. Itm, ignore delete the ones i dont need anymore.

Ok. I see what needs to be done. You can work this through and i dont know what to write about anymore. HOw can this be in that space. You science your way through this. 

Science means you test and record results compare. You test again. That's what it is about. Is it possible to do martian on here. It could be. At least the env is familiar.

Ignore them. You've done your part. Take time to respond. You dont have to do anything anymore. Just do this. Finish up. What are they doing on there. They could have done something to finish things. But htey havent. Just leave it be. This is ego.