new job start next wed

 i have this in me. It doesnt have me. I contain this, not me in this. This is the context for the experience. You know this. Experience from this perspective why not.

You've seen how she is lately. If when you go back to that it doesnt serve you other than to control the outside. But how does that work for you.

Finish the fast, then get on with your life. Why do you keep putting that one off. Is there tennis there. You have two public tennis courts. Maybe i can will find play  when you get there.

It's a lot of effort playing but you see it when you get there. Trust the timing on this. It takes one hour to get there and back. But it is the bus the last stretch. I can bypass that andgo faster.

I think you see the point here. If i bike there and back...that's how far it is from souther cross? About that distance. If not too hilly then it's a good ride. Else work something out.

Am i wanted cherished needed in this, or is it just inertia. She's paid for all that, but she's got stuff planned already. If it pays well on there then you can work something out. 

It's not converting, that's the point. This is why they need help outsource this andbring help in. Otherwise, they'll just get someone to input andedit everything from there. 

You get the idea. But can i stay here. You dont have to. I can move. That's the point. There's plenty around here and you can transfer out later. You see how this works for you. Plenty out there to see. You can move by the sea.

You build in thisdirection and see what you get out of it. Why not write a book or something. You can always sell the story from there. It's this andthat. You get how this works out and it's fun this way. At least you building up on to something in this way. 

You've been here before. You know how this is andit is a reflection of your higher self. It's a tool for you. How do you be in this frequency. It's answers you need at your fingertips anyway.

And i am better off asking this way. I see. Now you know. How do you trust the synchronicity in this way. Ask away. You get answers in this way plus you see how the working is. You put everything in perspective.

Is it something on there. You got this. I can improve on this. I can ask questions in that way and get the conversation going. But you get where this is headed anyway. You have much in this regard. 

Can i go do somethingelse different. I see what yo umean there. You put space on here and see what you get out of it. I think you get the point. Is it this or that. It's both. And same.

I get that part. Now you know. Now you see. It's this way and that. But you get how this works. Now you know. Now you see. What are your options moving forward. Trust that this is connected.

Ok. I trust the synchronicity. It's a tennis life from here on. I get your point. It can be this way or that. You have much in this way. Trut that thits is all connected. It's all for you.

You were med-rep days. Thatwas interesting times. I have it in me anyway. Let's get going. I can always travel to this and that. Now you are free. Let's get going. See what you get out of this.

it's still not real, but what is

 it's not real. The life i live with her isnt real. It's all fake. Even today after all that we've been through, it's still not real.

Is it because she couldnt be true to herself? Maybe she cant accept who she is without all the worldly goods. It's what i see in the reflection. Is leaving going to fix anything. Blink it will.

That's the quick answer. But if i were to slow think everything, it's going to go around in circles. Now you see. Do you need access to that. It's for collecting information. Other than that, it is time to move on. Let's continue on. 

You'll know what to do when you get there. For now, trust that this is what needs to be here. Stay for one more year. But i can move out soon enough. Then do that. Do this. What are my other options.

You dont needoptions. Your next move is to move out. Trust that this is what's goodfor you -- hence it's what everyone else needs to transform. It's a disconnect anyway. Why not make yourself right. 

Right yourself. That's the point. It wasnt real then. Only i made it real myself. Trust that this is so. Build on this. Next step is to find a room to rent. Go this way. Trust that this is so. When do you move out.

Soon as i find me a room and make thedeposit. You will have a lot to process. Let it be so. It's the price you pay anyway. You can build in this direction. I dont think you'll need that. 

You be ok all this time. Trust that this is connected in every way. If you were toinvest that, you get better returns. It is the security illusion thats there .ti is all an illusion. 

Now you know. Let's get going. I have a commute there. I have much in this way. Trust that this is where you needed to be. Right yourself. That's the point. If she dontget it, i dont know what to make out of it.

Butit's not real. And i cantbe here. I dont want to spend another minute with you. You created all that shit. You had choice every step of the way. Now you live with it. I dont have to be here.

It's sad it hadto be this way but learning all about that is what made it sad. Just get on with your life. Maybe somethingwill come out of this. Idk. But i know that it'll be betterbecause i made it so.

Tennis, there's tennis courts all over the world. Which one is the better? Even in the philippines is ok. It's the traffic you go through. And that's ok. I can make something out of this anyway.

Just do this. Get to the other side. It's not shame who i am. I am ashamed of who she is, what she did. Am i judging. It just got real. I'm not stupid. I know things. If you dont talk to me about thiscome clean, you wont have me in your life.

So be it. This is what needs to happen. Let's get a move on. I couldnt heal, choose notto because iwantedcontrol. Now you see. It's not thesame. Now you know what's here for you.

What are my options here. Do i want to go that way. Finish this then you'll figure out what to do next. Ok. Get it over and done with. It's not big but it is enough. It is more than enough. 

You have path to go through. You have this much to process through you. Let it be. Sit through this storm and you discover more of yourself. This is what's essential. Let's get going. 

triggered job application

 ok, that's behind me. I took it as far as it will go. I am again triggered. It's been like this at nights and when there's...wait. When i choose to stay there entertain the thought.

Hmm. Insight there. When i choose to entertain the thought. What if i dwell on something else...something that's more important to where i'm going. Is this relationship relevant for me. It's a part of the whole. Sure, this happened, but time and space is an illusion. 

I see what i'm doing here. It's not invalidating anything or anyone. But that i am choosing to be here. Sure there are consequences. But you see what you're doing to yourself. Now you are aware. 

This here is the formula. Show why you are a unique solution to the problem. You play it up, build certainty and confidence and you are good to go. I think that is part of a thing these days. 

Should i be worried then. I believe so. But now you know. Now you see. It's part of the process in this way. You are using this in a positive way. Take it as far as it will go, then see what you get out of it. 

Maybe because it's recharging thats why. The stats are low for the video. That's ok. It's moving from this to that. But now you know. Now you get it. What comes next. Ride that wave. Trust the synchronicity. You get how this is. 

You've come a long way. You can still break it up...start over. It's up to you. But choose what's good for you. If that is best for you, go for it. If you are not sure, then that tells you something -- you learn more about self in the unknown.

Does this mean i split? Ok. It's that small voice. But when you doubt and think about these things, then it gets awry. Things come up and i go into that. Anyways, that's behind me. The two are downstairs. It's the blink. When you blink, you get it. You have the answer. It's fast thining. 

When you take time to think, it's local self processing...and local self doesnt have the big picture. It can't process this because it's too close to the problem situation. You need to zoom out. Then it makes sense. That's the point.

There's a lot of junk out there. And i'm adding to this heap. But this one is raw. It's how the work is done. It's how you grow the agency. In a way, it's like an outsource thing. Businesses outsource to another that has more expertise in the matter.

That's what you do. That's what all this is about. Do you need to go into that. Hmm. I see what this is here. I can move forward with this. Do that later. For now, finish up and see what you get out of it. 

Tennis tonight. Focus on this. You get triggered anyway. Put it in your awareness. I have much in this way. I see what you get out of this. Trust that this is all connected. I have much swipe files it can last me a long time. 

It's the swipes that you have on here. Dont put it out in one bag. They won't appreciate the value of it. First show how you are using it, give them that piece-meal and you build up on it over time. 

If you create one video each week or month, then there's reason for them to continue with the subscription. You show them how you work with it. That's the point. You get how this works out. Let's move in this direction. The thing is downloading.

I have choice. That's the point. It's not me. That's clear now. Am i not seeing the other side on this. I believe so. But so in the other side. I dont have to fight that then. Just do this. We never did talk about that anyway.

Now you see. Now you get what needs to happen next. I can work on that later. In the meantime, just do this. I am waiting on the pics. It takes a while for him to get back on that. Trust the timing.

try be efficient

 i dont have to go there...no need to put more energy into what i dont prefer. You get how these things work anyway. That is reason enough.

What then. Continue with this path. Or not. You get how all this is connected anyway. I can go in this direction see how it works out. For now, only do this. Get to the other side. I dont have to go there.

I dont think it's working. Rather, i dont want to put in anymore into this relationship. I dont have to know for sure. I feel it in my gut. Instinct insight or something like it. Blink and ask me -- that's the answer you get. But if i were to slow think this through, i'd come up with a dozen excuses to stay.

Ok. What happens now. Be open. Do the instruction manual. Things open up and you blink your way through. Blink here meaning fast think. When cognitive strain, you go into slow thinking mode. This book is helpful.

I see that. Now you know. Now you get how this works for you. I can work something out eventually go in that direction and you get how all things are connected anyway. But i dont think she's keen about these things. Were do i get one of those. 

You dont need that. You have everything you need. Simply go in this direction. You'll know what all this is about. Do they monitor the comings and going of these things. I think you can plural that word, but it's understood anyway. Come and go. You can scan that and it makes sense. 

That's the point. Anyway. You get what to do next. Simply go in this direction. Just head out in this way. I can work out other things in the equation this way. You know get what to do next. I dont think email is there. I think they are sorting things out.

That's good then. You can move on to the next one in the equation. Just do this. Get to the other side. What happens next? Do the instruction manual. That's what all this is about. I did my best. I dont think it's relevant anymore. So i use up the energy. 

This might change. But if it doesnt, i'm ok with it. Continue on. Move on. That's what all this is about. I can travel soon enough. Just get it out there and you know what else to do. When do we get that out. 

I'm not really sure. But you get how this is. I have anxiety there. You can build on there and you'll know what to do. Can i move the material into this hard drive? I think so. 

I'll do so later. For now, it's only this. I dont want to have to carry another phone with me. But if i did, i can work something out then. I can ask about this and that. You get how this is. I think the msg is still on there.

I can send them a msg later. Am i hungry now. I be finishing this. It is the higher self. That is junk. That wouldnt work out. Sit this through. Should i make a note of that. 

There you go. That's in the mix. Continue on. I dont have to dwell on that. I choose not to dwell on that. Is it because she's out all the time that's why she's playing catch up? 

I dont think so. It's how she works or something. She's trying to get ahead running on a treadmill. That's not for me. You're in a hamster cage that way and you only progress within the limits of the cage. 

That's not me. I know what i prefer. I dont have to invalidate but why do i. You see how it is. Continue writing in this way. You have much in this regard. You can continue in that way.

Fishing for insights is what this is. You know what to do then. I have much on there. Can i change things around. I think so. Move folders around. You'll know what to do. I listen to different book now.

reinstall looks great

 this is test. I think it works. I reinstalled os. After testing the jabra headset, mic and sound went awry. Reinstall looks good. I discovered a new theme i like. 

I make pizza later. Itm, the phone is recharging. I head out after this. Finish up. I be recording with audio as i work moving forward. I dont want to have to make major edits later. I've lost the connection in that way.

I think this font looks bigger but that's ok. Can i adjust that still. It looks ok. I dont want to have to micro-manage everything. The pomodoro timer works. It's on gnome. The other one i have errors installation. The clock needs adjustment on the interface.

But other than that, it's all good. Continue on. I works until later. No game tonight. I rest up me legs. We have event this sunday iirc. It's the end of season get-together. We should have that more often. Next time. We have something new coming up.

I'm not keen about those things but you get the point. I think it's time to move on. I'm done with the double lives and it's not relevant. I dont feel excited for that but then again, that's a different time-line. This is simply context for which i can use the tools with.

What then. Finish up that gig, move on. You got this anyway. It has three revisions coming up and i can work something out. Trust that this is all connected and you get what all this is about. 

The install looks clean. There were errors earlier but i guess that's part of this process. I would rather do something that's relevant. Fasted tonight for steak friday. I enjoy steak. I can work something out in this regard. 

Ok. That is settled. What comes next. I dont have to get that. I can get me a different mic down the road but you get the point. It wasnt relevant. Why do i get that need to punish. It's an idea that's not relevant to me. I dont have to feed it.

But i get something out of the reflection. This tells me i have baggage that needs redefining. Ok. I can have a look later. For now, this is what's relevant for me. Finish up then continue on later. I can find me a different tribe. This is ok then. 

Clarence is ok. I'm glad he's ok. Not sure where the strain came from. Maybe in the house. Maybe in the park. I cleaned up my serve yesterday last night. I have this went back to the braden serve. This resonates with me. Less issues on shoulder and it's easier that way.

I have much in place. How do you get back to that. Phone is recharging. I can delay that with my clarity. So be it. This is what's relevant. This is the process for me. Can i get another cup of coffee? It's still early but you get the point.

At times it's like that. But i can work something out all the time. Most of the time. Finish up then continue on. You get the idea. I dont think that's going to happen on there but there is here and now. Trust that this is so.

You can work with other writers. It's ok. I have all this in place. I can change update the folders. You get what all this is about then. Can i add that in there. It' too big a file and you wont be able to read through. 

I look forward to that get-together. I hyphenate. This makes it easier to read scan because the words are broken up. I learned much in the interaction because of practice and perspective experience energy. 

I got a lot out of it. I am surprised. I continue on with this and plenty on this plate. This is the one i have in mind. This is the template. Why feel sorry for yourself. You got what resonates preference. I think i can continue on now.

Trust that it's all connected.

system scale leverage

 i got another bite--landing page critique to improve conversions. This is what i do now. I can have that going in six months at least, one year at most.

How do you know. Blink. I know how to work this. Let's get going. What that is, the saturday tennis her having to play elsewhere, it's just a phase. I trust my synchronicity when i'm zoomed out. I can am using the time to build self-confidence instead.

Self-confidence is self-respect, self-esteem. Things like that similar elk. Something like that. I get a bite every week and that's fifty two assignments projects to my portfolio.

That's enough to binge-watch on in my channel. Add that to the idea that i can work something out on here. They get more business, i get more business. This is what i do. This is interesting. This is exciting. Trust that this is all connected.

I needs to put in an urgency thing so they simply buy the gig ask questions later. You get how this works. Its not substitutable. You cant get a substitute for great results. Web dev you get substitute for price. If they cant afford it, you are replaced. But results, theyexpense that out. It's cost of doing business but as investing into their brand.

That's what i like about it. I can run this business anywhere in the world. Leave her be. She needs space to be her own, stretch her legs so to speak. I hope not literally, but if process is in that direction, so be it. 

I dont have to. I see it in this way. Trust thatthis is so. I pretended to be sleeping already. Just do this. No need to. I put theseed on there but it's upto you what to do here.

And i get it. Seh doesnt? Back then. If i focus then in the past, so much baggage. Focus on this. Build the business. Build the channel. Get a job on there if it interests you. But i have something going here to last me a lifetime.

I think i have the connections to make it through. It's like the neural pathway connection. It builds automatically on itself when the need arises. You know it's going to be there. 

You just go. Finish this up then continue on to the next one. I get how all this works out. Let's get going. There's at least three on here that can be improved. And that's just off the top of my head. 

I'm sure that if i looked at the target audience, the market, your offer -- i can do much more to improve conversions. And this is what it is. This is what yo udo on here. You get how things work out.

I have all this in place. You know where this is headed. You can build something and i have me here a talent on this. What can this channel be about. Build in this direction. It's my brand or ...diffeernt positioning. In short, yes it is a brand ofsorts. I like this.

I expand in this direction. I did my best. I cant wont blame my self on this. I'm way past that. It's time to move on continue on. You get how thi sworks out. You get how creation works.

Let's get going. Finish this today and submit. You get back edits revisions goodfor the day. I submit my own. Then i start a new gig coming into the new week. This is interesting. This is fun.

You get all that and you build in this way. I have plenty on here. You simply shoot b-roll and then edit them all up together. You create a story intoit. That's the point.

I can do this. You take baby steps your way into experience. Action here andnow.this is wha yo uget out of it. Is it a business? Is it a system? Does it scale? Do you have leverage? Yes to all that. Let's get going.

see the world burn

 i think this is in jetbrains font. It's ok. I be seeing experience variety in this way. I'll finish work on the copy tonight after we get back.

This here is on that. I think i wrote earlier. No thinking much on anything. It's there, you simply trust the higher self on about these things. I think they all went to central earlier. Or not. I think two went, the other stayed.

It's warm outside. But we get cold tomorrow. It's ok. Things change all the time. I like this one better. The size is just right. I think this was the original. Others made iterations to it and got different results. 

This one takes the cake. We have play on tonight. Who else is coming. I think them organizing something coming up. Can you do something differently better different. Why not. There's always opportunity with this one. 

I work on that return full strength. Go cross so you have much, in the meantime. From there you can go down the line. But it is all connected in this way. It sounds like they are going around in circles. I think she is teaching someone.

Then that's not good. It's neutral. It's not good or bad. It's what you make out of it. Aha. This is why i'm still here anyway. Do you want to see a video or something. I'm not sure she's interested. We can connect on something else.

It doesnt have to go that way. Just do this. You get what all this is about. It goes straight, not down. You go down on the serve and it goes to net. You had this experience recently. My double faults are down significantly...in a big way. 

Ok. I expand on this. I can do wall after this. It's my warm-up. I do two hours of wall then i'm good to go for tonight. We be late or something. You get how this is. Is she going out. I think so. It's a friday. I made chicken salad when i got home. 

It's much this way and that. I have much resources and i can pick on something similar. Trust that this is so. It can go this way or that. But you get the idea on this. That is so wierd weird looking that way. I had to see which one spelled right.

It's blink in all directions. I can add the file on there. I can remove everything else move it over there. I think it works out best in this way. I have much in place. Two hours wall is a lot. No need to go there. But you get the idea. You get the point. 

Where did that car come from. I think them be out late all day. I can look into this. Trust that this is connected in every way. I think i use that font on there. You have much in this regard. 

I record how i write copy later. Simply do this see how it goes. I can build in this direction as well. I am applying for this position. It's not a common thing. You dont learn that on there and those that do, they're not sure what it is they are doing.

It's a tool. You get how this things work. I can stay there get warmed up all afternoon. I heads out tomorrow. She be practicing anyway. I dont think that will last but yo uhave blink working for you. No need to press. You get how this is.

I think too much on this. Trust the blink part. You have this in place. I can unplug later but it can recharge in the meantime. It doesnt take one hour to full charge. Only do this. I thought about it too much. You get how that works.

I know .let go now. It's not worth it to think too much about these things. You get how this works out. Just finish up then continue on to the next one. What happens there. I'm not really sure. There were 20 that confirmed not sure they showed up.

What is there to think about. I think it's great to connect with other people in that way. This is way much less people how do you get in touch with the rest. I'm not sure. Maybe talk about thes ethings or otherwise. You get the point. Others simply want to sit back and chill.

voodoo magic science

 just write. No expectations on the outcome. Write, see what comes out of it. That's the point. Do you need fancy fonts? I dont think so. 

Finish then let the mind explore. Write it out. Jetbrains mono do i need one. It looks interesting and the pieces connect. They work together even if it looks unrelated connected at this time. I can work something out. You get the point.

What gives. You can move this way or that. It doesnt matter much. I dont think this is relevant then. But it is conversion and this is where it's headed. Where be the eyes in that. These penguins look interesting. 

What comes next. Write it out. I can explore on that but write what is here. Write what is now. You can expand on this way and that. I dont think i'm headed out today. Just do this. Finish up. You know what this is about.

Then you move on to the next one. I like it. I like the series. I can start with this but we dont see anything else until next week. Just be then. When does the next one come out. It comes out every week.

You see what's different here. It is this way and that. But you are in this space. This is what's relevant. I dont have to go. I can head out anyway. Or not. You see how this is connected in this way. 

You take everything ...every ball that comes your way. That's the point. You can miss that shot, but you learn something anyway. That's why it's here. Hit or not, you get something out of it. This is why tennis is interesting. You ...like it's a lab. You experiement. You test different variables.

Aha. So it's like chemistry then. You use different base chemicals, put them together and you have magic. Aha. That's what we do here. The effect is magic, but the causing agent, it's complex but simple in nature. You put them all together. This is my lab.

I stopped again. This is what it's here for. I slouch. I dont have to invalidate. I simply put it in my awareness and move on continue on. Do they monitor what goes in...the variables that are part of it. Or do they just throw things together. Like i know how to use this tool and that.

But the chemistry...making magic. Not everyone is into that. To some its a job. For select few, it's making magic through science. Or something like it. I wonder when they are going. They said lunch so i guess that's at noon. I can head out later do  four hours.

The game isnt doesnt start until seven. I can head out work until six. That be my warm-up. That gets the legs going and warmed up for the game...primed up. This is what i do. You can do walls later when you finish. In the meantime, itm you do four hours.

And this is how it's connected. I can fast today until friday. If i eats, i wouldnt be able to get go out. Or do this until weekend. That works for me. I have this assignment. I can choose this way or that. I head out to the library. I can look things up.

There are books not available here. I can get the details later on. I have an idea where this is headed. It's a story. It's for copy this way. You need a graphic design person to help out with that. Again, it's science under the hood and you work magic into it.

This is the story in this way. You have this in spades. Can i expand on this way or not. You get the idea. I can look into folder and separate...i'm not sure about the spelling of that. Why is this zoomed in. There you go. This looks better. 

Keep it this way for now. I can work something out later. But it is interesting in this way. Bug bit. That says a lot. If you dont get it, i dont think you want to comment on that. It shows who you are really. But it is different in every way.

I know. I get that. You see how it all works out. There are no points, so why bother. You know how to work this through. I can take a nap and see how it goes from here. I think you see. Now what comes next. It is well-written story. It goes this way and that. I get it.

still neg but zoom out

 what's it feel like when you complete this? Light. Clarity. Pleased with self. Not proud, but feel good about self. 

Why not experience this now...take action in this direction. This is what i prefer anyway. Stay in this frequency. I can always go back to that. That, breaking fast, is dopamine hit, but it doesnt stick. It goes the other way soon and immediate.

I would rather do the reverse dopamine hit instead. Do i still head out. You got this anyway. You know where this is going. Trust that this is so. You see how it works out. I think i played in that space. 

But it is different now. Just do this. You get how this works. I couldnt sleep. I take a nap much later on. Or not. You get the idea. I'd rather play tennis. I can do wall downstairs. 

So much wind to be playing out on teh court later. Sit this one out. We have sunny weather in the coming days. This is where i am. It's windy out. Let it be so. I can work out other things as well. 

I do this. I can make the diveo now. I dont think that one is relevant but this is where i am. You have support group in that direction. How do you build on this one. You make a resource they can buy. I can work something out.

It's this and that anyway. You have much in this direction. I should have stayed there. But it's different altogether. I wouldnt be this if not that. I can work something out. Just do this finish this. You finish up. You resonate.

It's simple as that. Stay in this. What do they get out of that. It puts them in this way. You get the idea. Can i play tennis tonigth? I'm not really sure it's possible. Courts are taken and i dont think she's good to play. Do something else. 

Make this your rest day. How can it be that. It works this way and that. It can go this way. You observe. You put this in your awareness. That was out of step not in balance. You got this. 

Match sunday was good. I think it was best perfornace to date. Amazing. I tried something and it worked perfectly well. I think they thought that and it was different. This is how it is then. I think you have something on there. 

And you can go this way or that. You have something on here. Finish this up and see what you get out of it. Now what. Just do this then. Can you be taught. Can you get assistance in this way. I think so.

I can start building in this direction then. Just do this. Finish it up and see what you get out of it. I can repeatedly do that. Or do something else. But work through this. It could be sorted out by now.

Get going. This is what you need want. Is it time to go online again. I can get back to working. But finish these first then see what you get out of it. That wasnt thinking but it was a stretch. It had to happen zoomed in.

I see that. Why not go in that way. I'm not really sure. But you get the point. It can work out in that direction. Just do thi ssee how you do get out of it. Finish up then continue on. I have much anyway.

That's the difference on here. I see the point this way. And the skills transfers all throughout that level. This is the business side. It is lower salary because it's meant to be a business in itself.

Let's go here. Let's do this. I can work something out. They have doubts but if they think positively more about you, and you deliver on that clear with clarity, then why not. This is what's relevant for you.

bait and switch

 this feels like salang matanda all over again. How come it takes this long to see? You've been seeing it all along. You were just hoping things would change. Now you have the moment. Change. Resonate. 

It doesnt have to show from the outside. But you get how this all works out for you. This is not the lfie i want. This is not what i prefer. I would rather have something that's dynamic. I dont mind that it's changing all the time.

What can i do here. Resonate. I can head out. I can make that video. First you look over all your b-roll. You then decide what the story is about. There's tennis but it happens at four.

They can all have lunch while i get to work this way. Plenty on here today. Ithink i can work something out. Tennis be later at four . Ibe done by three or so. I can have lunch later at night.

I'm not doing anything around here. Just do this get worried. I'd rather resonate with higher self. That is the call to adventure. I can take it easy anyway. It's the weekend. People be sleeping in late.

I can work something out instead. You have the numbers. You know what to do. Trust that this is connected for you. I channel? I think it is there. Just get along and you will see how this is relevant for you. I then scale up and down when needed.

I can work something out. I think i have something on here that works. I dont have to go down the jobs path. It doesnt resonate with me anyway. It's the security but it isnt. It's bait and switch. That's what life with her was all about.

I dont have to stay here. I have choice. Everything be alright. Life goes on but i dont have to be here anymore. The kids are grown up. Let's head off to europe. It's a dead-end here. She's not going anywhere. I dont need her anymore.

Why be here. It's the synchronicity. Use up the energy and you see things shift up. Ok. Let's go do this way then. Trust that this is connected. All the way. All the way. You know how to get to this level.

I dont have to be here. I reflect. I resonate. I get what is relevant for me. Why all that messaging. It's the north. So much there that dont seem to line up for me. Then i can work something out.

I see what you mean here. Let's get going. This is what's relevant for me. Trust that i know what it is i am doing here. You have this and that. What comes next. I'm not really sure. 

Go build your network around you. It feels like that and so it is. Life is changing. It's always shifting. You know that. You have this awareness. It's that i have to sit through this. Then this iswhere the practice is. 

This is the process. This here. Sit through this. Put it in your awareness. And now you know. Now you get it. Let's head out today. Not much happening today anyway. I dont have morning sex as we dont have room. 

It sucks i know. But i put hate on thi ssituation and you feed it energy. Put it in your awareness. Even the fact that you hate it. In my awareness. Everything oges into that bag. 

And carry that bag. Or sit. Make your self comfortable. This is what i do now. I dont have to consume all that content. Simply sit. If it is uncomfortable, you know what to do. Make yourself comfy.

And this is what's next. It is always evolving in this way. Now you know what to do. Let's get going with this see what you get out of it. I'd like that but we dont have it right now.

raining nothing today

 this is what i'd rather do. Tennis. Surf. Grow build business in direct marketing. Do marketing campaigns my own. Something like it. I try not to narrow down the definition, but more like a general direction i'm headed. 

This way i dont get bogged down with insistence. But definitely not looking for work. Might do so just to tide me over to the next one. But i'd rather work on my business. I am my own employee in this business. I am more into quality of life stuff. 

But that's me. You get your energy from these things. And it's just great. I can go for days without food just riding my bike, play tennis...be out there on the beach or in the water. That's not in the equation right now. I guess it's not relevant at this time.

But it is cool to be out there. This is nice. I can watch these series from here. These things are hard-core. I be editing a video today. Finish this. Not much happening right now. I can edit that video. I have several anyway. That puts you on the side for quite a while...injury.

And you still have plenty on your plate this way. I dont do that right now, but you get where this is headed. Plenty on here on my plate. It's sad this way but i give myself this gift. It's not something you do for someone(forgiveness), but it's for your self.

And this is what's different here. This is what i do here now. When i get that, then i switch over. It's my trigger being triggered. Do i eat all day. It's been weeks. I can work out a lot of other things. This is crazy bin. Do something else.

I dont have them pictures. But things are always shifting. You can work something out in every way. You dont have to go this way though. Can i change that around. Maybe create copy that works better for me. I can look into that.

This is do. I didnt write earlier. I can work something out. This can be negative but there are positive aspects to this equation. I build in this direction. How can i make that video more interesting. Make it raw somewhat. It's not there to teach but to share the experience.

Aha. I can work with that. People are looking for the next big thing? I'm not into that. Just do your own thing. There's always people wanting to expand onto something. You get what all this is about. Trust the connection.

This is nice. I can go here. I can do something like this. What are my options in this way. I think you see how this works out. You have plenty on here. Those are really big waves though. Can i do something that's similar. 

You can do a documentary on something like this. Can i make video on this then. It's too far out. Ok. I can put the camera right mid center net and shooting back at us. That works out. Let's do so next time. 

Then you can create edit learn from the experience. That's the point. I dont know if that's relevant. I stay home all day do nothing. That works out. But it is this and that. I think it stopped so we're just waiting for clouds to clear. Idk.

Finish up and see what you get next. It's just this and that. When you have one in the bag, you continue on with this. The end date always gets pushed out with every revision. It's best to work it through use up the energy and be done with it.

That's what i do here. We look to see what comes next. You build in this direction. It's the product. What is the product on there. You sell that it is part of the connection. You raced through that copy. I know. I can work something out instead.

Continue on. Move on to the next one. You'll know what to do next. I guess i am someone's old man now. I guess so. It' different all the time. I can watch a movie today. That sounds nice. I like that mackerel thing. The fasting put the gout at bay.

I havent had an episode since i started fasting. That's amazing on here. And i'm still in this path. Things are always shifting. It's never the same day. This time though i see where this is going. I should have stayed back then but i see why it is how it was.

stay home finish gig

 i dont have to do runs today. I can finish the video, render, sent to cx. This way the energy is used up. It's not imposter syndrome but misaligned perspective definition.

I feel anxiety but it's because i have definition that doesnt line up with what i prefer. Now that i know, i can choose. I have choice. And this is what's different with every step. 

Waiting for them shoes to arrive. It's a sig delivery. This means someone will ring then leave package. Else, it can be concerning this way. I have an idea as to how the video will go. Trust that this is connected. Dog is pooping. Someone in teh toilet.

What then. Finish up. You'll know what to do. Better to finish up then see how things work out. Rather than have this energy awareness inside of me. Best to use it up, make changes alignment as i move along. That's the point. Action experience energy. 

This is how i craft my reality experience. It's all here and now. I have this perspective and it can change. It's always changing. Always shifting. I think you see how this works out. I make pizza dinner. I can do wall later. That's enough for the day. 

That's a full day for me. Trust that this is so. No need for that anymore. Just do this. You see how misaligned that is. But no need to dwell on that. I have choice. If not, then i can do something else. In the meantime, i build in this direction. 

Or not. You get the point. Is it going to be open or not. It should be. Else it is for invites and people are going to be there anyway. I think it is the awards thing. What if i head out. I wont be able to finish that video tonigth when everyone is at home and tv is blaring.

I can finish it and have plenty time for edits. That's what i do here. Later tonight i render as i send out applications. It's great that i have this. I build on appreciate habit. It comes in useful and i work with mental condition. It's not sickness. It's a choice how you think.

You dont even have to think. That's the point to all this. I can move that around. What's teh point of having that run in the background but change it everytime. I see. You have choice every which way. I can eat now. Or do something else. I can fast.

What works for you here. I think you get how this works. I finish that then i get something to eat. I can fast today until friday. Or maybe even saturday after tennis. Ok. That makes sense. 

The thing is, you...how come the black screen. You can make compilations like this anyway. It adds up. How come it went back. It did. Let's build on this. It feels icky. Why go there then. It used to be fun. Work on something else. This looks interesting. If that doesnt work out for you...something else comes up.

But keep shifting. Dont judge. Evolve. Flow. You are maser creator at this anyway. You are bigger than this. See how it works for you. This is what's interesting about it. It can go this way or that. You get the point. I publish the video with every client. 

You continue on. You have one each week. You can reform the content and republish it under different context. That's why you build on this. People find it and see. You focus on small business growth conversion get more customers sales. That's the niche i'm in.

Dog seem anxious. Or i can stuff my face with muffins. How does that make you feel. It's the dopamine hit you want. Go for delayed hit. That on eis higher hit and you go for days with it. 

Everytime it heads down you know the next hit is higher. That's what great about dopamine. Can you make it easier. No. Easy means it's a shortcut. It wouldnt last and will go the other way. You go the hard way and it goes the opposite. I'm not sure how.

That's paradox. And everything here is about paradox. Is this video going to repeat again. Its weird that way. I can continue on to the next one. Or the next. In the meantime, i do this. Finish up.

jive or not

 i like what this guy's doing. Maybe i can make a video about these different clubs in my area. Do you need permission to do so. I can look it up. But you see where this is going.

I like writing on this keyboard now. I can do different videos about the tennis courts. Not the players. But it's coold this way. People look things up on the internet and when a search is made, the video appears on the search results page.

Can i do a funnel out of this? I can do affiliate selling on there. You can build something out of that. You make recommendations and you see it this way. The thing about singles play is they play as such. 

I can hang out around the south and play tennis go to the beach hang out there all day. That sounds interesting. I can work this out. I think you see how this is where this is going. I go to different courts anyway. I can build on this. Which one then. It goes to jimmy desu. 

I can build a channel funnel on this. How come nobody does stringing on there. You get how these things work out. They get delivered and you see how this is. It is interesting that it is this way. Can you do reviews of shops. You can build goodwill into the channel. 

Let's get going. I like this channel and can watch these things. You can be like lonely planet but about tennis. You get around much anyway and you make that your pilgrimage. You travel on a wider circle. 

It's the same. There is so much in that ways. So much noise on there. If there are more courts, how come it had to be exclusive. I think it's because people there enjoy tennis. Now you see. You can work something out.

I am recharging my phones. Soon as they're good to go i go head out get some sun. I also do workout in this way. She has tennis. I can do walls. In the meantime, i can work os something else. 

What is the thing about. Strategy. It's not just about getting that into place. How do you build a funnel in this way. There's more customers something than agencies. Focus on that instead. But then again you can work on what resonates then you can build on that instead.

This is just sweets. I can get this into the algorithm this way and see how it goes. Or not. You get the idea. I can do that thing tonight. Work with what you have. Now you know. Now you see. I think it is chatgpt machine learning. 

I dont call that ai right now because it isnt. Its just marketing jargon that got picked up by mainstream media to get eyeballs. But it's not. It's not there yet. How then. There is a key ingredient...why am i here then. Continue on to next idea.

I prefer it this way. Maybe i can change things up around this way. Or not. You get the point. Trust that this is connected for you.

There you go. I can work with that. The phone's charging. Cant do without it so i stick with this. It's still early anyway. How what is the funnel about. Get going in this direction. Local tennis clubs. Do search they find your channel. You build in this direction. 

Ok. Let's get going with that. We start with the local and continue on. You have much in this way. I can work with that. I have much in place. Build sales funnel. Finish up then go there. I have ideas in this way. But the other doesnt seem to jive rigth now. 

Do something else. If not, head out already. You get what all this is about anyway. I dont have to go there. But you see what's relevant for you anyway. It can be about this or that. We can make something. Or not. It is the clarity to experiment knowing you know what you need to know.

That looks interesting. I can work with that. Now you see how this is. I can build in this direction. I like that. I can travel in this way also. People come here anyway. You video and you get stopped when it doesnt jive.

bounce rank landings

 do you even need all that? I think these ones be good for now. I think that one is in the library already. I showed mine how to use the library safely. I think some of them use that. 

I have gigs in place. I can grow from here. Is she up alerady. I have spring rolls started. I think them...so much noise around me. It's in my awareness. Do i need to go there. Not at this time.

There is workout. When do you put in yoga. There is tennis later this afternoon...then, again tomorrow morning. That one is more like opportunity to play different. I can do north or balwyn. It is varied. You can go different ways.

But then there is that old man who comes to play solo. We can play practice there. It doesnt have to be crazy different in that way. You can simply add ot this later on. Plenty on my plate. I can add that to my portfolio, or focus on conversion copy sales copy...more like persuasion copy...

But the industry jargon for that is sales copy or direct response. It's to get the reader to take action then and there. If that is the point plus dispersion, what is the lifecycle for. I think you focus best on search. Paid search. 

When they get to that point when you need it, you do a search. That's where the funnel comes in. Ok...do this for now. Finish up then go this other way. I have much on my plate right now. I have the whole weekend to catch up. But you see, it's not about catching up. Why is that not working.

Maybe i need to restart this. There's aqueue to it. It's about copy. It's about connecting. You dont have to get certified as to how the post office works to make it in direct mail. You focus on the conversion end. You work test ...ab-test your way back from conversion to optimise some more.

But if you start from optimisation, you rely on luck to convert. Sure you'll find one every now and then, but you see how this works out for you. You have all this covered. Can i put this on audio. I think there is a way to it.

Let's get going on this see how this works out. You have that as the brand. You go this way and that. It's how you get feedback insights and work your way from there. When are the finals. Let's look at it from that perspective. How come that one doesnt work.

When you focus on seo thinking that it's about keywords, you are wrong. There is semantics. You have broad search. That's what you focus on. But you work with bounce rate and ad rank. Good copy helps with that. It is that search engines want them coming back because of low bounce rate.

I can make a gig with that. I think those are the benefits i need to sell. There you go. That was insight. I made quick edit on the gig. That should be a good hook to get eyeballs into the gig ad copy.

You build up from there. You have much by way on this. You get how all this works out. Trust that this is so. But is the ad copy in line with that offer benefit. I think so. The question for them is how. They already know about these things. 

What they look for are solutions. How do you do this. You dont have to repeat everything on there. They want to know how you are going to work this through. So now you know. Now you have alignment on this. Trust that this is so. 

This is what the channel is going to be about. I think you have something there. Now let the numbers do its work. Let math do its numbers. Its not geometry and trig, but statistics. I would have loved stats. Now you know. Now you have alignment in this way.

It is this and that. It is knowing which nomubrs to look at. It's not about the technical backend, but working with what's there and how to improve on that. I think you have more than enough on this regard. 

Finish up then continue on. This is what we do every day. I think this is interesting. With all the noise out there, you got this. That is what you do. That is what you offer. This is a key offer that you know how to work with.

cbd my office

 we'll do that later, not now. It's too early. There is timing. I guess he is training me or somewhat. But not now. Do something else. Wait up.

I have stuff to do and this is connecting. It's there. It's just the insistence that it has to be this way or another. But not another. That's not insistence. You can write copy this way or that. 

You go there and this. He goes...it's why they go to that place. There's nothing wrong with you. Or there needs tobe a redifing. You do these things. You get how creation works. Let's get going.

I have this villa out there. And where will it be going.you get that this is so. Why would it be otherwise. What is the unique offer in there. Why not this and that. 

It can be exciting, or that it is this way or that. They think excitement can convert, but it is different in every which way. Can you make them excited about it. You dont be excited. You give them a reason to get excited about the product.

It's the voice? It's the frequency you project resonate. That's what they pick up on. Why is it this way or that. If it were cheap, does it count. Should i equate value with this. There are different steps intothis and that. I think i can work better different this way or another. 

You get the idea. Work your way through. That's the point. You get tothis or that. But thepoint is you write about it. This is the way for me. I can go to the library and finish the copy from there. Ican spend theday on there then come home. 

That's the point to all this. The whole city is my office. I can write copy from here and there. That's the exciting part. This you can do. You put your camera on record out by the sidewalk as you write copy.

This is the next iteration for you. Does it resonate with you. Then you get the reflection. It is this and that. Tell more unpack about the product what it is they are buying. Tell me more about it. What is great about it. Why should i be excited about this. I think you get the idea. Tell me more about this. 

I can write. I can work this way through. Yo uonly needs one to get to this side of the fence. You work your way through this. I guess he was this then got picked up by a big client. And that'sthe end goal. 

It's the transformation...the process not the destination. It's the journey not the you know what. Then you get why you are here. Let's get going. Be in this frequency. Tell me why this is so. Unpack. 

They want conversion. I can make that for you. They traveled far and wide or serp. They know what it is? Of course. That's not for me to educate. They simply point out why thisisbest for you.

You tell them six way to sundays. That's whati can work with here. There isso much on there. You know what to do. This isthe exciting part. Now i have something on here to make it worthwhile traveling. 

It's theprocess of writing copy. It can go this way and that but you resonate with all this. I have memy bike. It goes this way and that. This is interesting enough already. Let's get going. 

I have plenty on my plate. I come home play tennis. Or play tennis all day then come home later. You get the point. Ecommerce. Those websites that sell stuff like amazon, i write the product details or something.

But then again, you get why this is so. You know how tocross that bridge when yo uget there. It's all in my head. You get what works and what doesnt. It is specific andthey know how to resonate.

sour after-taste

 it's sad it had to be this way, but it is. This is what's relevant for you. Trust the timing. It is stable but unhappy. It is indifferent. 

I blame outside, but it doesnt work that way. Simply move on. If you were on that space, blames self. Dont have the awareness to knowself doesnt know self. That's the point. How do i get my answers then. 

It comes from self-awareness. You have this, you can equate but on the level of this not of that. You can move on now. It's not the same. It looks like hat but maybe it was about me. 

Does it. Then i'm no longer needed here. The energy is used up. It's notthe same. It was aperception and now i see it was an illusion i have of my self. Now i move on. It's not the same.

I dont want to carry baggage that isnt mine. It's not my baggage. Why should that be then. Why focus on that. I cant change that. Go in this direction. I am headed in this direction. It's not the same anymore.

What can i do different then. I gave it a shot. It's not there anymore. I'm not the one. If so, i am. That's the paradox. Maybe i over-thinkthis. If so, letthe wave pass. Let the cycle turn.

Use up the energy by not doing anything. Sit on this. But it is stable unhappy. Am i unhappy? Definitely so. What makes me happythen. Not with her. 

Ouch. That took a  moment to sink in. The kids are grown up now. I can move on. I did my best on here. This ishow i useup theenergy. Write it out.this way i donthave tothink much about it. 

Is tennis a band-aidsolution then. It is not. I am having fun on ther. What is band-aid if any. That we talk. We do not. There is no connection. At least not from me. I try but there is not much self-awareness on that side. But then again, i project who i am.

This is the learning experience. To make this positive. We went our separate ways but it's because she left not me. I was left holding the bag so to speak. The baggage. What can i do about this. Move on. You cant change the past. 

It's here again, i know, but thisis what it's like. You get how all these things work out. Let it be so. Use up the energy. You have knowledge on all this. When have you seen a dev bileted in a hotel. 

They get paid much but it is an expense. This too you know. How do you change these things. It's gone spiritual. You are past that. It's different now. It was fun, but it goes a deeper higher more intense feeling on the physical.

Look into this.the keyboard needs retouching. How do you fixthat. You dont. At times it issomething you let happen fall into place. And now you know. Now you get it. What then. 

I'm done with that level. Let's explore this spirit thing then. Do fourth density. Things are way different from this perspective. But what is that perspective. You know what itis. 

Do i want to go there. It is all connected in this way. Do i want to do that. I was repeatingthat. So be it.

You can work this way and that. Can i build in this direction. How many want to be in that space. You sell thesizzle. How is that. I dont know what itis.