what you want for self, you give to others

 fasting mode me. I dont have to tell her, but as relationship transparency and all that, i will. I am not taking the course. It's not me. I would am exploring failure if it were if i were to label it.

I need to be authentic. Doing the nursing job isnt me. I'm doing it for her just so she'd think highly of me. That's not me. I'd give her the option. I dont want that. If it's not acceptable for her, then i move on. 

What then. Continue on this path. You get what this is all about. Trust the timing. You know what you are doing. I am fasting until wednesday night. That's the context right there. 

I dont have to put more energy into it. The awareness itself changeds that. I can go this way and that. I can say that i chose this not her. I can be mum about it. But i am no longer going to be there. 

Shestill chose that path and i guess it was part of her exploration. Now things are not the same. I guess it was meant to be so. But still i give my self choice. This is what i give her as well. I think different. I'm not sure if this is positive.

Ok. No more invalidation. Is this what i prefer. I build up on that now. Trust the timing. You get what this is about. I build up on that account. Let's get going. You know what to do here. 

Fast until then. Build up, break down with autophagy. I do three days this week. I continue on. This is the path for me. Where is the phone. Do three days then continue on. This i raised frequency.

It's not the same. It's different now. Do you want to go that way. If it were to be so, let it be. This is part of the equation. It's going to be weak this time. Let it be so. You get what this is all about.

You can work something out, or not. But it is quiet on there and it's not the same anymore. Let it be so. Trust the timing on this one. You get what it's about then. I think i remember it wrong.

Or not. You see what this is about. How come it got quiet on there. Do i talk to her later about it. Or do we do so now. I'm not sure. She wont be thinking about ithere and now. Did she think about things back then.

Aha. It's not the same. She might go back. She might hide it again. She did so last time. Why would things be different this time. Because it's not thesame. 

Forget about it. Let's move on. This is what's next. I'm not going on there now. Trust the timing. I can simply do this one instead. She says it's going to be paidback once i get going. That's what i thought back then. I did not pursue it.

Is it the thinking then. I had all the time in the world but things broke down. Why is it here this way. What can i do different here. Do i want to go there. Just do this instead. 

I am conflicted. Maybe it's time to move on. I give you choice because that's what i want for my self. Should i wake her up. Wait until then there and you can talk things over. Is it different now.

I can take a nap later but then again, i'd have to leave much later. It's not the same. The promotions are not there anymore. It's only there when theyneeded more on the field. But it doesnt work that way anymore.

I continue on to the next page then. Dog is outside. It's starting toget cold again. I guess this is what the reflection is about. How come it feels sad this way. It's over and done. It's not the same.

wta content channel

 what if i'm distracting myself. It's pain, but you going choosing this is the definition of suffering.

She's giving it her best. Give her some slack. You trust your intution now. Dont give it over to the ego. Identify with higher mind. That's the lesson here. If it were not this difficult, you will not have context enough to use the tool.

I can write again later. Or do something else. I want to take the day off. I see a way to get to the other side. You take action in this direction. You dont have to go that way there. It's all this. 

You explore these things and people like watching content that way. She sleeps pa. I can go in there later and do my work. I upload videos about my interests. It is a different world this time.

I simply do the other to go out have fun but it's here this way. What are my options on this. You cross to this simply you get the point. I think the password is in there. You simply do this. Finish up and continue on later.

She wont be up until way much later. In the meantime, this is what i do. You have much in this way and content isnt as reliable. There is a time delay on this. You simply create this get to the other side. You get how all this works out.

But to record all that takes time. Two to three hours. Then you see how this works. The pc run on this while it records things. I get home and i do something else. Let's get going. Ask what they want to see. It's not about that but you get to change things around.

Do i need that watermark? Not really. You get the point and these are highlights and check things out in its entirety. What then. Give it time. You say how it works out but you gotta attend to your needs, not wants. 

You get it. Get to the other side. My legs need some rest. Get some balance into this. Two days then rest is more than enough for now. I guess so. The earnings on there is disappointing. 

I know. It's not consistent anymore. I did all that and this is here. Do ten and it's just that. Not good enough there. And it's not as busy as it used to. What comes next. Trust the timing. 

Get to the other side in this way. What if i lose interest in this. Then you move on to the next one. You simply use up the energy in every way. You have much to go through. It doesnt dl by itself. Or maybe i can run some scripts on here. 

Try that. If it were so, then i save a lot of time in production. I can learn more about that tool. That's what it's about. Let's get going. It doesnt have to be about all that. Simply get going with this one.

For one month you do this player profile. The next month do the next. This keeps you so busy you know what to do. And i have another channel. I have two channels on this. Now you know. Let's get going. How soon to monetize? I'm not sure. 

That is expectation insistence assumptions conditions. You know this. It's in my awareness now. You simply do this get to the other side. Is she up now. I'm not sure. Did she forget about it. Perhaps.

Or did she ignore your request. I dont think so. Get something done this way. She is selfish? I dont think so. I expect too much. This i am aware. Then i ease off. I dont have to put pressure. 

Now you see. That is courage and consideration. That is maturity. Now you can talk about these things. Or not. You get the point. It's all the same and different. It creates this much and one video has so much.

how creation works

 what are those screenshots for? I'm not going that path anymore. It's not me. It doesnt resonate with me. One move that's insisting assumptous and it's gone. Maybe i can do something different.

Have a look. You have something in there that makes sense. You know which way to go. Now you get it. It's not the definitive thing, but you get what it's about. Let's get moving.

I think it is something that will interest you. I can go into that direction. Do you need to have that at all. I dont think so. Maybe i can work with something else. Something that's different. 

But then again, it's just me thinking. Why not have coffee. I can take a nap later. It's a long but interesting day. Act on your joy. That's the point to all this. You have much in this way.

Trust the timing. You can work something out. Maybe motivational videos about these things. Aha. I think i can work something out. What would it take for her to turn things around. 

You need something to focus on. Do action. No insistence on the outcome. That's the point here. You can work something out. It's the action you take. Why not go down that path. You see where this is going.

Now you know. Let's get going. How to resonate with this then. You get into this and that. You practice and resonate with what works for you. I think you see what all this is about. You have this. You got this.

Not that word. But because you have it in the body memory. It's ingrained in you...if that's the right word. How then. You get what all this is about. Add to this platform. I think you see what this is about. Trust the timing. 

I can build something in that direction. It doesnt matter that it still went that way. I have this in place. Is there something else i can do in the meantime. 

How do you trade this thing. I think you see how. Let's get going. You get what all this is about. You know. Chop woodcarry water. I like the wisdom with this guy. I think i can explore more of that.

You have this in place. It's going against. That is more about ego thing. You dont want to go there. It doesnt resonate with me in that way. I can make the course. 

If that pair moves that much, how then. Do you want rain or palabok. She leaves early tomorrow. I can work something out. I survived that. I can work something out. Now you know. Now you get it. 

I get that in place. You get how this works out. Let's get going. I can go this way or that. Trust the timing. You have something to give. Do i need to go there. For the longest time, that worked. It still does. 

It's the website that limits that. You know what todo. You can go this way or that. You have it in your awareness. Now you know. Let's get going here. You have this. It's rooted on action. It resonates with me.

I get this. That thing gets in the way. I think that saves everything on the config. You can build something in this direction. I get that. It doesnt give me anything that way.

I can trade while i'm outside. That's the point. I think you got this. It's a business you can run on the side. That's the point. You can go this way or that. You can ease up with the pressure. You know how this works. She dont know what or how creation works anyway.

didnt leave

 i'm headed out tomorrow. Is that a mac? It looks like it. He seems like he has a hard tim erunning. He's old now.

I get to that and learn something about my self. It's moving forward. There's pain involved andit's part of the process i guess. I was going to leave. I gave notice last night. This morning, she woke up and ...idk, it made me soft. I wasnt keen on leaving. 

I couldnt even remember what caused me to say that. I would have. But then again, looking back, she didnt say anything about wanting me to stay. Hmm. That is something to consider? Not really. We've talked about this before. 

What then. I've gone down that path. I've been here before. What comes next. Is it worth it going out tomorrow? I'm short a few more. I finish those then i can close this over. It works out but i be pushing my self. I rest sunday anyway.

It's a long ride from camberwell, but then again, it's just another 5km. I can work with that. This for until may. That's a long stretch. I've been here before. I can work something out. Use up the energy. This is here for a reason. 

I am tired. I would rather take it easy. But then again, this is what's relevant. Use this up. I be making more videos for that channel. Is it a dead-end? I dontthink so. It is a motivation situation. It's a mood circumstance. I guess so, looking at it from this perspective.

How come there is access to that room. It's short term or something. What can i do about this. It is a traveller's thing. It's cheap and gets the work done. You can work something out. Trust the timing.

Use up the energy. I dont have to invalidate this. It's here for a reason. That's the point. I sleep this through and we see how things work out. It is this and that. You can work something out here.

It's friday. Is there something big coming up. I think there is that thing coming up. I have thi sin place anyway. Just do this get to the other side. I have ice pack on my ankle. Use up the energy. What time will she finish. This is what we have now. Trust the timing.

It's here for a reason. This is a time situation that you can learn from. Just do this. Use up the energy. I can work something out. I have serve and volley. I have serve +1. I have a few things in there.

Trust the timing on this one. It's connected with everything. Use up the energy. You get what you are doing. I dont have to watch this. It's part of the equation. What can i do about this. 

I have this in place. I can make changes here and now. I go all around the city and i am familiar with most in there. Simply do this. Get to the other side. You know what this is about. You can work something out in there. 

I am doingthat. Only that i am yet to getthat sorted or something. But you get the idea. I smell funeral something. Is this premonition. It started on there i guess. That was strong signal.

I see how it goes now. Trust the synchronicity. It's all connected in this way. I dont get why, but i the local self doesnt have it. Higher self can work something out. It's connected in this way.

Now you see. This dog pees a lot. That car does it have to be there. Finish up then continue on. Is she working till late. It's friday. Just do this. Use up the energy in this way.

Liam's old now. I think you see how this works out. Do i want to see this through. Where is that place. I need to see what's on the outside. I guess it is the convention center. It's bigand the outside looks familiar. Just do this.

next chapter

 i want to end this. How do i know for sure? It'snot about certainty. The energy has shifted. It's like all that experience in the past where you know it's over but stayed anyway.

You needs to move on. Life is short. Is the timing right? I dont have to. Maybe she is different now. But i have chanegd too. I'm not happy? It's that feeling that you've overstayed. It's time to go. It's time to move on.

What comes next. Move out. See how things work out. I wont be able to help much in this condition. How do i know it's the right thing to do. You dont. You only take it one day at a time. 

If it is, am i limiting my self to this. Ornot. How do you know? You wont know for sure. But since i'm entertaining this thought, then the apple doest fall that farfrom the tree.

Give your self the chance. It's worked out before. It'll work out again. You know how these things are. You get how it is. Trust the timing. You have everything in order. Simply make it to the other side.

What comes next. I'm not sure. It is not an edge in itself. That is a character flaw. I dont have to be here. Just do this. When to cut ties. One month. The sooner the better. Just get over to the other side. 

I'm not sure how this works out but you've been here before. Trust the timing. Get a room to rent. Eventually you move out from that and continue on to something else. Trust the timing. Trust the synchronicity of in your life. 

You know what to do today then. You got this. What comes next. I dont have to keep watch anymore. I get to explore the unknown in this way. Just do this then. It's asigh of relief. You move on. You'll see the light again. 

Youdont have to. Sit this one through. I did. Six months of this i did so. Simply get to the other side and see how things work out in this way. Simply get to the other side. 

I think that's why dog moved over to the room. Support held. Is this going to continue on. Why did i close that position. I'm not sure. Just do this. Get going. You know what to do.

What comes next. I'm not really sure. Look up rooms to rent. Find a place you can move to. Recuperate. Heal. This ankle issue is a reflection. You cant move in this direction. You need to heal. Give it timing. 

Ok. I know what to do today. I then have that talk soon as i find one. For now this is the exploration. How do you know it's the right thing to do. By going in thisdirection. I may have to live my life in this way forever.

But i have reflection. I would rather find more of my self this way. You know the drill. You can explore this way and that. Simply do this. You know the drill. It doesnt have tobe that way.

I know. Justdo this then. What if you were wrong about it. I'm not sure what to make of this. It's not entirely a reverse action. You watch and do nothing. Or not. But you always have options onthis.

What comes next. I have coffee. I sits. I drive over. See how things work out. Simply do this. You got this sorted out. It feels like opening a window in my soul. It's like the spirit heaving a sigh ofrelief.

Things happen for a reason. Now is the timing. It's not about me anymore. Mine is not teh spot light. Nothing more can be done. Its all been said and done. Continue on to the next chapter. Why did i write no.

clarity aaa

 just do this. Awareness. Use up the energy. Aaa. Acknowledge. Appreciate. Allow. That's what i am now. It's not outside. 

Ok. I can work on this here now. This dog is so charming. He knows what's important. Be like dog. That's the point here. I get that. When did he get on the bed last night. Imust have been exhausted or something.

It was my rest day. I wasnt doing much of anything. I react to that. I see that now. I can have coffee then go. I shifted. I make that video tonight. Is it worth that much. Or i can lower it and see the demand.

Let's do that. Or do something else. It can be in native tongue or language then you have something else. Idk. Trust the timing. You know. You dont have to go in that direction. This here is more than enough.

This is what's relevant for now. You dont have to go about searching. You already have this. I have already seen it. I've made my choice. No need to check back on that. The decision is build on this, then decide on dday. 

I can live with that. Trust the timing then. I have my own dday. You got thisthen. Build on that. It's not a prison but a reflection of who you are. I get that now. I dont have to be in that reflection.

Ok. That's the story then. I can live with that. It quiets the mind? It does in a way. I can go in this direction. You are building up something. I forgot the word but i understand what it is. Dog is charming in this way. Do dogs do this naturally.

I believe so. They live with their pack. I took him out to park yesterday. There were other dogs but he was hanging out with me. That's the point here. We are his family. 

Ok. I can be in this frequency here. That's the point to all this. I can choose. I can have me a dog later on. I have choice. This is the synchronicity. It's this way and that.

You get how all this works out. Let's get going. It's starting to get cold. It is goingto be cold this year. This is the norm. But you get how all this works out. That page is noise. You get that. Every now and then you understand how it is.

This is manjaro on xfce. I see the difference. But the other is for stability. It will not go this way or that in the meantime. I have this. If keyboard shortcuts dont work that way i have something else.

At least gpu processes renders the video in super time. It's way much faster. I can work with this operating system environment. Simply do this then. I can bring pup along withme to room when i have coffee.

You got this. You resonate. No need to check in. Give ego mind something to chew on. I see what you means there. That place is where i hang out. I can make changes later. Just do this.

I have more than enough videos on here anyway. I trust the timing. I doubt she'll watch those anyway. You simply do this. Ok. Let's moveon with this. What comes next. Aha. Now you see. It's always about what comes next.

It is something i needs to go through then. She doesnt know. She thinks it's that but it isnt. Now i get it. I will not go in that direction. The veil has been lifted. I have strong intuition.

Now i trust me. Let's move on. The lesson was learned. I am open to synchronicity now. That's the gift. Use the tools in this way. Now you know. Now you see. You extend process go live in this direction.

reflection is consistent

 i'm not excited about this relationship anymore. It's not real what i see. Or is it expectations then. I'm not sure. It could be that.

Or something else. It's been six years. The tree has died. She stopped putting into the relationship. But this is what's here. I use up the energy now. Move on. Forgive. Surrender. Simply move on to the next one. 

There's a lot of things out there that resonate with me. I can go and explore this world. If they resonate, they will seek me out. Otherwise, it's not my energy preference anymore. Use up the energy then.

Wow. And so it came to this. It's not my fault? It isnt. She didnt have the ...i am putting blame here. It's judgement. Simply use up the energy. It's not my preferred state anymore.

Where to now. Just get it over and done with. I'm not sure about that. You saw how it was before. Clear things up. You have the power on here. Let it be. The kids are all grown. Why not something else.

Aha. It's all connected. It's not a priority anymore. I can make something out of it. You get how all this works out. They her team isnt sincere about it. Why get serious about it then. I see what you means.

Sama ako sa story nya. That doesnt resonate with me then. I can work something out. The priority goes out the window. We can go there and here. Or not. It is something to look forward to.

I get what you mean there. Now you see. This week then that. You have plenty on here to work with. Now you know. Now you see. It's all about you now. You have choice. I get that. 

How do i print it out. You can make something into that story. Now you have the tools. Now you are using them. Get going. This too is part of the excitement and all that. You get to choose. 

You are free. Aha. Now i get it. You areinvalidating all this. Now you see. It's broken but it's not. It's simply shifted to a different frequency. Aha. That's a different perspective.

You get that it's all connected. She took herself out of the picture herself. I did not have to do anything here. Now you know. Let's get going then. What comes next. You can work soemthing out in that regard.

Aha. That's another different aspect altogether. It's not real. I dont resonate with that. Ok. Do something else. I can make something up but that's not true. It's not a good relationship connection in that way.

You say yes, but then again have to make up lies. You have acceptance self-worth issues. That's what happened there. Now you see. People dont like you that way. I have resentment issues. I dont trust you. I trust someone else. 

Now you see. If this is the case, then its not real after all. I wasted all that time. I am an eternal being. This is the exploration. I can rest up today, or do something else. I get that. Let's make video.

Or i can cancel out of this. What happened on there. You see how to trade this. There wasnt anything there. It was going sideways. You have opportunities elsewhere. Now you know. It's not mine anymore.

Does is she even aware of what she's doing. I dont think so. Maybe she is, but it serves her. She gets something out of it. The self-worth issue isnt affected, but it is. Itcomes back to bite you. I move on. I'm not the same person now.

take it or leave it

 that is one choppy market. All this time i stayed to keep it together, she wasnt. Even so back then. Why do i have this belief then. Why not simply take your losses and move on to the next trade?

It's a consequence of her behavior. Why do i need to fix this. Fix it from the outsie. You have your own reflection on this. Now you know. All cards are on the table. What then. O we work on this, or take our losses.

Is it really gone? All this time, it was negative emotions i was acting on. All these years, it was the neg. There was a disconnect. And then it happened again. Its going to happen again because it's not easy. When it falters, she's out the door.

Take care of your self. Move on. Take your losses. If she's not up to it, why continue holding on. Let go. That's the best you can do in this situation. It doesnt fit you anymore. That's why you've been like this all along.

What about him. He's all grown up. What then. I was in denial. She dont reflect that back to you but she is part of your the reflection. This is part of the process. What then. How do i move on now.

I dont have to bend over backwards. If she does nothing else, i do nothing. I'm not the one who went away. I continue on with mine. Soon as ...you see that. You are not really keen on doing this. Simply move on then. I heads out come back later.

Is it going to rain hard? It doesnt look like it. I continue on. I make that number and it's big. But this doesnt do anything until then. But this is a mystery. I would rather do the unknown than go get a job. 

You saw how that worked out for you. Move on. Continue on to the next one. She has her family. So be it. I have mine on here. Trust the synchronicity in your life. Be civil about it. 

What then. Do hte quest. Build up the account. Build up the business. That's what i'm doing here. Move on. Continue on. I'm not well but i have started getting breakthroughs. You continue on with this pattern on here.

What comes next. You move on. Is he in the mix on there. I think so. It's here. Then so be it. This too is part of the equation. She'll be back at it. She cant control her diet. It's best to move on now.

You get how all this works out. You can work things out. I dont think she can travel but it isnt relevant for you in this way. It was negative in that way. Trust the synchronicity. 

It didnt fix it for them. Why go into that. I have bashar. I have guidance. I listen to the synchronicities in my life. That's the point to this. I'm not taking action from her perspective.

Aha. That too is insight. You know what it is to do because you listen to the synchronicity. What does it say then. All this here and now is what's relevant. I'm here we try to fixthis. It's brken. I stay. 

Will it come back. It's not coming back. It's not the same. I be headed out then. Trust the timing in this way. You see how this is connected. Let it go. Let's get going in this way. 

You get how all this works out. Go head out finish up late if need be, or not. You get the idea. But you have social tennis. You have hitting partners. Or something like it. Best to have a coach but you know how to work this.

I can attend that. Or this one here. It's going to be like that until may. So be it. But i might not be around here. I was acting out of negative beliefs. Now that you know you can work something out.