pick up month

 this text editor now works seamlessly in the background. When i first got started, i was in the config tweaking testing different things. Now it just updates every now and then.

I have the ai tool in there too so it works like that, except for writing. But it's ok. I use it mainly for code. I felt a need to take a break from that and write something.

It's raining outside. Match today could be a wipe-out and i'm ok with it i guess. We can do a hit later if it's not wet. I got me some atp dunlop balls from yesterday. It's starting to pick up again. Let's get going.

Do i need to change the channel name? I can. But not right now. How much before you get this up. One month. I'll get to that level and it's going to be a month ahead of the other one. 

Get going. You have all the resources you need. Trust the synchronicity. I learned much in that way. You know how to make this work for you. The rx glasses are good for editing, but for comp, i needs to wear contacts.

There's a fish-eye effect on my vision. When tracking balls, it affects my perception. I guess i'd still wear those and that's all good. It's all connected. It's wet, the temp is below 20s but it's humid. We had early dinner out last night.

I did not quite enjoy the one i had, but the mango for dessert was just something. I dont have the word for it now. Delectable? Something like it. Exquisite. But these are adjectives. It'll be best to unpack them and use more easy words to describe how it was.

And that's the beauty of writing connected. You get these ideas instead of just relying on ai or the thesaurus. You paint a picture in their mind. I am practicing how to do this on video.

In video, you show, not tell. Instead of unpacking words, you unpack process using visuals. And then you get as many b-rolls as you can. You also use audio but do so in hte editing process. 

Keep it simple. You already know what to do. She's not having coffee as she might go back to sleep on the couch. If it were me, weekend mornings would be glorious and grand. Get to tha tlevel then. 

This segue is also part of the process. Now i have perspective and experience to match. And then i expand in this direction. What comes next. It's ok to show outdated matches. 

You have everyone else showing the popular ones. You dont have to join that. You can be big fish in this small pond--david vs goliath. That's a strong and helpful lesson for me.

I will get back to it. Not right now. Trust the timing. Now you have references to that and you know what to do. Trust that this too is process you are doing. Then you get that sorted. You'll know what to do.

I love enjoy those runs. You'll get back to that again. Plus you know how to grow a channel. You have three things going for you. I may cut back on the time doing runs. Twice a week minimum would be great. 

I love rides like those. It's short and i get around much. And we continue on from there. Just this. I know which way to go now. In the meantime, you grow into that beach cottage near the mountains. 

It doesnt have to be cold. Just grow a channel in that direction. You have access to an audience that enjoys these things. And then you expand from there. You know what to do. Let's get going.

planning xmas party

 these contact lens are nnot so good anymore. What can i do about these. The glasses dont arrive until next week. 

Maybe synchronicity is telling me to take a break for a while. It could be. Why not be ok with not doing anything for a while. It may be a few days, three. Then things start to shift. 

Ok. Let's try that. I sleeps. Watch videos, practice tennis. There's process involved in a number of these things. I know. What can you do about these things? Observe. Put it in your awareness.

It doesnt have to be fancy and all that. Just do this.  It's no longer about wide screen, but the story. People go for the story. What can i do about here and now. I see that i used that tech. I have fifty-one videos still in there.

Even if it were just 10, it's going to work anyway. I see that the priority then is to protect the pointn. Is it. Because it's a game of errors. It's a moving game. 

You can be so aggressive, but the opponent is conservative waiting for you to make mistakes. And you make errors while the other strives just to return the ball. 

I see the idea there. How then do you get to that level. I can check on taht. The editor is not yet available. Do nothing. Or i can test hat but it's going to give me errors. Leave it be.

Do nothing, as you know. It rains today even later. Do nothing. Let the phone charge. Go downstairs and practice. That's a lot on your list already. Take a nap when it's quiet. 

Spend time with doggie boy here. It's humid and we are doing something about it. Get to even this mediocre average level and you'll be all right. That's the point then. 

This one takes until feb. Nothing happens till then. This is the clarifying process. How do you tell a team-mate that they are too aggressive. Aha. That's the lesson for me then. 

Wait for balance then go. That's the gameplan now. So you are testing waters in the meantime. And it's ok that it takes too long. But you get the idea. You learns much from here. 

Is it about timing? It is, but that's just part of it. You get to this level. I think i adjusted for that and you can work something out. I sees what you means there. 

I can work on this here and then you build in this direction or that. It doesnt have to be right in the middle. You are going for quality. What's the story then. 

Tell them about this and that. I can do a series on bouchard. You won't find much out there about this. Then you expand in every which way on this. But you see the point. 

I dont want to have to monitor several channnels. But you can upload one each week for that. I see what you mean there. The chat is organisig a xmas party. 

That's what this group was made for. It's to bring together all these people and something. But it's working isnt it. Some have dropped out, but still, it's there. 

something's not right

 something doesnt feel right. Maybe i am sick? Look into this. Explore this. There's so much to do sometimes. Do the instruction manual. Refer to it when making decisions which way to go.

At the end of the day, you, the higher self and local will find what's relevant anyway. You're on hopium. Go into knowing. You know that what's happening now is what's most relevant for you.

I can live with that. Let it be ok. You get insights and ideas on how to use these things. I go this way so i can do the one hour golang. Once you've used up the energy, the frequency shits. There's nothing there. 

You ride thiswave of synchronicity and take it as far as it will go. That's the point. What about coding this here. What about that other vlog. Maybe i can work something into building this sales funnel. Maybe i can talk about these ideas and grow from there.

Maybe i can get input as to how or what next to do. People like to give their ideas. Maybe you can build a community around this where people come together and talk about ideas and experiences.

That sounds interesting. It's going to take a while. I can share tho code and is it possible to run the server local? Definitely. How much does it cost to do so. Else, is there something else i can do on here. 

Do that later. Right now, finish writing these. Again, i use golang to setu up a sales funnel, then build up from there. It can be a mailing list, or a forum. Or simply like a media server of sorts.

The audience can stay or do things idk. But the server feels like a next step or is that something to keep you busy. What is it that the audience wants? I can put advertising on the site or channel. 

This way it pays for the resources used in the cloud. Or not. You have this running anyway. How to make it secure is part of the learning process. Why is it hard to see this way. I'm waiting on them glasses. This is what's here and now.

Plenty happened in practice last night. Maybe that one is wrong. What would be ideal then. The nadal shot looks like it but i dont have the details. I'm not getting the same result. 

Keep practicing. You know how the learning process works in this way. You can work something out. It's going to rain all day. Practice is downstairs. I can take naps. I can have coffee. It's warm and humid right now.

I can set that one up. Check why it's humid in this way. Maybe there is something there i can learn. Or not. You get the idea. The clips should be no more than thirty seconds.

I think i can work with that. Is it too long this way. I can let go of control and let the imagination feed the ideas into these pages. I'm justa  conduit...the fingers that input through keyboard. 

So this is what i do for now. Can i turn on aircon or open that door. Hte door is more climate friendly. I can check things out and go from there. You know what to do.

This is why i check in on these things. You know which way to go with this. I can shoot video. Or i can do the code, finish it up. Once i have it up and running, i can make video? Or i can do so now.

Maybe i can use gai to help with this. I use the fiber package and build with react. That's the front-end back-end. But i can use templates from fiber. It comes with it. You can do the react thing once it adds input from user.

Aha. This ssounds interesting.

waiting for glsses

 leave it be. Stay in your truth. Live your truth. What others think are mostly their opinion. They do not have the self-awareness to see what's true anyway.

More often than not, they see the darkness ignorance not knowing as the light because that's what they have in their experience. And how do you know this to be true?

Can you live in this way? Go back to apply for these spots? You have it in you anyway. Who is that kid. What's he up to. I'm not sure, but he is sharing in that limelight.

This dog is bored. Comebacks. Why would you think that. You are not. That's not true. That is my opinion. Given what i've been through, it's not a comeback, but a process towards clarity. That's a definition that works for me.

Stay tuned listen to that, or create your own content? I think you see it that way. How? Just go in that direction. Test it out. It's what is trying to come through from you. 

No need to get into that one. You simply do this go in this direction. What happened last night? I'm not sure either. But there was this and that. I observe what's happening on here. You get what to do here.

I can go back to that. I can run postgres and the golang interface as server. You then have either react or bootstrap in the frontend. Do you even have to know these things?

It's just making these things and serve up things. Why not make your own then. Aha. It's not the money that's stopping you then. It's the project or idea not working out? 

Also it's not follow through when you encounter a detour. Now is that fact or opinion. It is insight i think. Right now i have a detour. What is a different word on there. 

I'm a mess. Is that fact or opinion? I see. It's not a mess. I am in a process. When it's dynamic like this, it's not in order as others percieve it. But everything in this process is in order.

Aha. Now you see. That's why you couldn't sleep last night. You had to read that book and get the insight processed while you slept. And now you have it in you. This brought up a number of things to your attention.

Now the ego mind has something to chew on. But not over-think this one. Just that it's now in your awareness. Do i go into that other one. Do you have time for it. Why not send the application, then work on the project business. 

You dont have to show the whole shebang. Just present this one and that, then pick up from there. Also you will be making changes to those so that it becomes this different entity altogether. 

Sure it gets flagged, but you can work this way towards and then it's a whole different shebang. That's the point here. How else can this be different. You can edit that out by spending more time to it. 

Those glasses will be refreshing. I've worn them a long time. Now you know. Now you see. You experience it and you ...it becomes you. Because you are the experience.

That is profound--you are the experience. The experience is you. And it doesnt have the garnishings of the ego mind. It simply is you and the experience. It's also synchronicity meshed with the experience. That's the point.

deciding by not deciding

 front-end dev is something i can bite into. Given a month, i can set something up and running. What about agency experience? That's something that can easily be sorted. Put your heart and soul into it.

Maybe make a vlog out of this. Talk things through during the day, shoot b-roll. By the end of the day, put them all together. It doesnt have to be fancy that way. Just this and that. I understand back-end anyway.

Most of these have already moved on to the latest tech or something. I'd be moving out. This feels downnstream for me. But is it achievable? You went down that path before and didnt open doors. It just did that way.

I did get one interview. This one went easy, but nothing happened. It just gave pains. And this is the second time this has happened. But how come the others stayed. It should have kept to this but it stayed. Why even leave them on.

There must be something to this. Leave this one up and about. In the meantime, there's som much you can do about these things. It's going to be hot. I feel that now. Maybe that's just an excuse. There's nothing really there. I sense that too.

It's time to go. I choose not to live in this way. Ok. That's decided then. What happens now. Talk to the kids. Head out. You dont have to see where it's headed. But right now, i cant stay here. That's what is evident for me. 

Why am i having this experience. I'm not really sure. I explored this up and down inside out...in every which way. It comes back to this. If you trust the timing and synchronicity, what is this telling you.

Now you see. Now you know. Let's get going here. Pacck up and go. Make that decision. She's not going to call it. That's how twisted the character is. Sad it took this long, but it's evident. You cant change that. You cant even change yourself.

People will see that anyway. You can build something in this direction. You know what to do. What happens next. Build in this way. You know what it is you do. You can do towards full-stack on php.

I dont think there's much on that. But i could be wrong. Have a look under the hood. This seems to be going nowhere, but it's better than the results i got from the tennis channel. Am i missing something here. 

If it were relevant, it's going t ocome up. Right now, you have everything you need. Trust the timing. You got everything you need to make it through. This is where you need to be, what needs to happen.

otu of contact lens

 test the idea insight. See where it goes, how far you can take it. But every step of the way, you give it your best.

In the meantime, it's all this. You get to this level and you see how it works out. They take on these athletes when they are young and grow from there. These are basketball stuff. And it's quite popular. But tennis is its own niche.

How do you get footage b-roll on that. You cant just walk to a park and shoot video. There has to be a different word for that. I can go there see what you get out of it. I think it's possible to get these images. But you want that as footage. How to do so.

Aha. That is a good question. The next question then is, when do you start. Now you talking. I dont think these ones resonate with you. But there's a story here. How do you find that story. There's plentoy of them out there. You just need to do work on this.

It is that workout on the ball of your feet like jumprope pads.  I dont know what it's caled now, but if i dug around much, i find my answer. Or the answer is there waiting. 

I dont have to look into these right now. But can you get better footage than this. It's all about that practice. Who gets the most ouf ot it because most everryone goes out to play. You see how you work on the ones you don't then you get that insight and use it to clarity.

That's why you dont go for wins. You go for clarity. Once you have that clarity, you are here and now. How do you get that tall. You stretch. You do yoga. You are always growing. The question is which way you go.

They are pinning on the next big thing. Is this where it needs to go. You see how this works for you. There's so much out there that it is unique to every individual, every account. Dont go for that one. Build on this instead. Now you know.

When will that be. I think you finish soon enough. Where is that court. Who is this kid. He's grown so much taller than these videos here. And when you get to that level, you keep going. You get that perspective. You use that to fruition. You take it as far as it will go. 

And then you see where to go next once you get to that level. You have four kids and they all go into the pro league. That's survival? There's a better word for it. I dont work in the meantime. This too is part of the work, process. You entertain ideas insights. 

Ok. Finish up then continue on from here. Those are great graffiti. You can find something on here and people travel in that way. Plus the local community is looking into these things. You get the idea. What happens today. We'll see how it goes.

don't stress--trust the timing

 insight from this morning is that it can be a hobby. It doesnt have to be great--just something that interests you. Rather than spend time editing videos that'll get strikes--go authentic.

Dont mind that pressure. You pressure yourself anyway. You know what works for you. Trust that this is what's relevant anyway. How then. You make it your own. What comes with this. Do razols. Btfgame is also something to emulate. Go for the old ones.

Maybe there is something in there that hinders the process. I go looks into that. What would it be. Those existing right now are more slams. What am i not seeing here. I am looking at these instead.

Ok. I may have to let this go for now. This conversation here is not the same as the one before. But you see how this works out for you. It means you need to let go for now. It's not because they have money and you don't. It's that you are not in your clarity.

Ok. What then. What now. Go take a nap. Take it easy. You have all this in place. Be in your clarity. Right now there's too much noise. You are over-thinking this. It's a hobby. Should i get a new hobby. What will that be about.

What interests you. I dont want to work with clients. It can be easy as this one and it's not? You get the idea here. What story are you telling on here. That one got a strike. You see that it's not relevant for you then. 

The others were let off. Finish these. That's one thing i can work on right now. Just write, put words in, then you can take a nap. Or make that fried rice. Be in your clarity. I dont know why that is. But you see where this is going.

She's not going to fight you about it. She won't go into confrontation. What then. I dont want to fight. I just want to be understood. What then. Understand yourself. Just be in this space. You can make something that's similar. Cook something. It doesnt have to be that there are a number of those out there.

This is to get you going in this direction. You then refine make improvements. You gain insights once you are on your way, started the process. But if you stay in the sidelines, it's not going to happen that way. 

What then. I need to publish one more video. Go with the old ones. Go with the videos that are not there. It expires in feb. I have all this to go through now. You can let go of that. I have pressure on this. 

I can choose to over-think this. Or choose to point downstream and trust that this is part of the synchronicity. To trust the timing in my life--this is where i need to be right now. Can i do that. I think i can.

body memory over-ride

 there has to be a better way to do this. I got the body fingers to pick up the pattern vim. It worked. But i cant remember. The body does. 

So i finish these then see what comes up. I should be on no mind mode. Then it comes up. Why did i stop doing this? I thought i can work something out. I was so derpressed earlier.

It's like waiting for something and in the meantime, things are in the dark. But the awareness is there. The presence is there. Connect with that presence. Quiet the mind. Pay attention. That's how you get through this. 

Not just get through as if waiting for the sun to come out. But be aware. Do the instruction manual. That's how you get through this. Do what excites you. I dont have bike. So right now, i works on the business.

I dont have ideas just yet, but when i get on a roll there, it all owrks out. Trust that this too is connected. I get through this and i'm ok. But i'm not going to wait. I use up the energy in a positive way.

Let's go then. When i get in that mode, when i feel that coming in, then i use it as a trigger to come into awareness presence. This is spelled with a capital letter. Presence. This makes it distinct from the regular and you know what this means.

Should i have that in auto-correct? Not necessarily so. At least son got his invite for the ceremony. He's past that. I use up the energy in this way. Just do what can be done and you see what you get out of it.

Will this work? Why not. This is what you do in the meantime. There are dozens of other videos in that library. I can work something out from there. Or i can build a different one. You get the idea.

And you go into that let the body memory take you there. I did that and then it's not worth it. It wasnt fun. And you get that. What comes of this then. Just do this. Get to the other side. 

If it turns then i enjoy it. But right now, it's not fun. You know what's fun, do this thing here and make it work for you. Do i have to put in everything? If it resonates with the audience then do so. 

In the meantime, use up the energy in this way. I already did my practice. I dont have to do another set unless it is something i look forward to. It was just too many thoughts. Now you know. Now you get it. I'l have another one.

insight saturday morning

 as i got up this morning, a thought or idea came up--tell stories. 

I think this is more permanent. You can craft a video, publish at the end of th emonth. You go for quality this time, not quantity. It doesnt have to be about you. It can be a simple story as 'your journey home'. Or the commute going home. 

It has everything on the storey circle, this dog is different. He sits and watch the world go by. He doesnt run around play like the other dogs. Is he enlightened? Every being is, but to a different tune. 

Create one video like this each time. You have a different story. Tell the story from this perspective. Then you have something new and unique each time you publish. It's a simple story. 

I go out to play tennis. Will i win or lose. Can i shoot video on there. Then you return update what happened. This is simple enough. Can i shoot video that way. I can look into it now. 

How much video do you need at each time. In the meantime, you show what it's like. It doesnt have to be like this or that. Everything will have something simple to it. You tell stories by showing, not telling. You unpack.

That's the point to all this. Some folks, they enjoy sitting back and crit make fun of the process. It's different doing the actual work. You dont just settle for the status quo. It's sad he's grown old that way. He's given up.

I dont have to criticize. I simply show what my process is about. I have this and that. I layer off to come to process. Then it's being layered in. That's the paradox. That's the process. I dont have to lecture. They already know.

And, this is the story. I think they need to create a ladder of sorts. This is what brings in the people. Hen you have something going for you. People come in to play there. That's the point. How many courts will you need. All six, two hours during the day.

Sunday morning sounds nice. We can create teams of sorts. Teams of two will work. Just as well. This way the round robins happen each weekend. You update the website for ladders and outcomes.

Aha. This is good. I think you can build on this. That's what all this story is about. You dont just say what happened. That's boring. You bake in the story as you go along. Now you know which way to go.

different frequency choices

 fasted on the second day feels way much better than short term gratis. The high you get is more intense, you have clarity in your thinking, you get insights--there's more there than i can think of right now.

For long term benefits, metabolic numbers are better, you feel good. You have faster reaction times and your body reacts better to balls coming at you. This means you play better tennis when you are fasted.

But why am i not going there. You keep using that pain. Now you know. Now you are aware of this. That makes it different. How to use this then. You set up alternatives. When you are in that frequency you set up different choices and you act on the ones that are relevant.

You use your awareness and you stay in that awareness. You dont go on auto-pilot and let the ego mind alone make the calls. You have the higher mind in the equation and that helps. 

What are my choices then. I can do yoga. I can do wall. I do yoga then do wall some time in the late afternoon. We play home the next two matches. That's a plus. 

When i choose to win a match i won. That was yesterday. I think i am not the same beginner anymore. Things are different. And the upcoming fast4 is going to be different this time. I look forward to it then.

Not all of them are able to play. Then you are open to new circumstance. People are coming in and you are able to play different. This is what makes it different for you. 

Do you need that thing coming up all the time? Or can i use something else. They have sponsors now. That helps them to act on opportunities that come up. She made it up to number two. That's a year of work on this.

You see the difference. You get to that level and then you find what's relevant for you. This way you heal better that way. What happens then. I have tea later. I bring my own and find that water heater.

Is there a different way to this. I can talk to people. That's different. Talk about fasting. And say that the next season is going to be way different than this. 

That one starts feb. I have ample time to finish this course. That is what's relevant. That is the exciting thing that's coming up. I resonate with this. I look forward to it.