pinoy show qvm

 people are sick. This could be synchronicity telling me to take things easy for now. Empower, recuperate, heal.

Empower is always a priorty. This is quadrant 2 activity. How do you do this on a daily basis? Mental physical emotional spirit. Scan these and apply empowerment experience. You spiral from there. This also means you monitor your thoughts. Emotions follow thoughts.

Empower means you do no long think. Gather information. Let it simmer, then blink. Once you have that, check insight agains intel. Then you act. Ok. That made sense i had to add this to curate notes. It's in there. I lost that list. It's also in there now. You have such skills. It will come to you.

You get so deep into this, how do you build in that direction. That's ok. You can test this way and that. I think she goes there, but i dont have to. Just be in your clarity. How is this different from circle of influence and control. Aha. The word gave blink. 

It doesnt have to make much sense now. You simply go in this direction. Maybe that is so. You got that. You can work something out. I think it doesnt make sense at this time. I can let go, or see what comes out of this. Information was gathered last night. I act on that. No need to push to make things happens.

Grammar doesnt have to be good on here. She be sick. Went to bed late last night. I can work on other things. It is a sunday, end of the month. Tomorrow is a new month, week day. Interesting how these things line up. How come it's not going on there. 

Maybe there is a disconnect in there. See what you get out of it. Is that something i can work with? Cleaning up my env. This too is q2 activity. This is empowering? It feels like it. Just do this, get to the other side. It's all in there and after i circle back, i still have access.

This is how you connect with all this. Maybe i clean up that folder too. I think that works out. You have much on here. I can check that out but it is going this way. I can finish these, or take a nap. I recharged my equipment. How is this relevant?

I'm not sure. This is part of intel. Or at least there doesnt seem to bbe a direct connection, but you get this. You know how this works for you. It is part of the equation. Why is that defined as something wrong. Not acing out of integrity. That she had to break the bond in the guise of integrity.

How can you move forward. You simply move forward. Next time opportunity or situation presents itself you know what to do. You have intel this way. What to do next. Have a drink of water. I can skip that. It doesnt feel relevant at this time. You have this in place. 

I can work with that. This is q.one. I will write it as that from now on. What about tennis? It's both q.one and q.two. I need to make time for empowerment, so wall training is qtwo. Ok. Better this way. I did not create that env but i am making use of it, make this into positive.

It's a struggle but this shows me what my definitions are. Doing so helps me with my clarity. What is that icon there. It says you have more up here. Scroll up. Is going there relevant for me. It could be. I have this in place. Is this where you want to be.

I'm not sure. Check to see if you can work something out. At least you know. You saw that this is here and now. You can see what you get out of it. Good thing she's not going. You see now how this developed. Yes. I dont have to dwell on that. Focus instead on what she's doing to make things right.

But the experience of it makes me doubt. That i have to look for answers myself, which are based on assumptions. Would it not be easier to hear it from the horse's mouth. It could be. It's a long drive going there. I think it was late already.

Ut they could be open all day. It's a sunday and people go there the whole day. Maybe there be more activities the rest of the day and it's not just that. You have redraw issues again. The interview is so much better in this way. You see that already.

Finish up. The phone is still charging. It takes the whole morning to do so. Best to do so morning and night so you have less charging time. This works for me then. I can finish at this point, then publish.

physician's desk reference

 write gratis now before i get too sleepy. It's a friday. We got the car back. Is it the end? At least it's moved on and forward. 

Do i want to listen to this? It's noise. I think there is something else out there. But this is going nowhere. Let's do something else instead. Do i still want to go there. Just do this. You know what to do here. 

It's about that fear and you see how this is. Where do you get information on that. I''m not sure how that works out. What is that thing. Wow, there are several in there. What can i go do there. I'm not sure. Finish up.

What's great about today. We got the car. Spent time together. Is it different? She's putting more effort into the relationship. I've been non-responsive catatonic about it lately. I am triggered, but not in the old way.

Ok. It was a beautiful day. I tried to play, but my feet are too sensitive to step on. I'm not sure why that is. But i was able to help out anyway. I feel responsible for that there. Maybe there is something but i did what i thought was right.

Others might think it was unnecessary. But that's them. We all have a perspective to it. In the meantime, just do this. Get to the other side. I can get me that. I've been blinking about it. Am i justifying the purchase. 

I needs it anyway. He's a gentleman in there. I admire the guy. He's a gentleman in every which way. What happens now. I'm not sure. Just do this. Get to the other side. Just do this. I learned much about myself. 

I was pushing her away. Is that going to help. I dont think that's going to happen. It should have ended a long time ago. Weeks ago. But she's still there anyway. Give it time. Give her space. She'll come around.

What are your expectations? It's not going to come from the outside. It's all in you. Joy will not come from out there. It's all from the inside. It flows through you. It is the natural state. You only put conditions to it.

What happens then. I'm not really sure. There are honorable men out there. Be the exception. You know what this is about. Trust the timing on this one. You know understand how the universe works. 

This too i am thankful for--this knowing. It's not that i am better or less than you. It's that you knowwhat all this is about. You can escape on this one. I think you can work something out. Just be this. Just do this. I can watch that, but that doesnt resonate with me.

I think those are people replying to the post. I am waiting on this you see. What then. I think it comes down to this. Now you know. Now you see. I think this is where you are . How can you jump that. What comes next. You see this. You jump anyway? It's a long one. It's a risk. 

How do you survive that. Eventually you will find a way on there. Just go with the flow. Trust the synchronicity. You get how this works out. What comes next. I am thinking she got busy or something. She'll make it up with you.

Ok. Trust the timing. Trust the timing. Give her a week. If nothing, then you know for sure what the situation is. Ok. I can move on from here. I have much. I can finish that exam. Get that sorted over and done with.

I have a month another coming up. You get that. But you have something coming up. At least you see it in this way. And then you see. I'm not coming with them. I have work coming up. I did not publish video today. It's been a busy day.

I can do something tomorrow. I be doing that unboxing and then i can do a video tutorial. Should i get me a mic on there. I believe so. I caan use that and be on mic anyway. Ok. That makes sense. I can go for it. When she goes, i go.

adobo for lunch

 i needs to write before going on. Tdoay i'm learning the basics of machine learning as it pertains to golang. I'm at chapter one where it shows how to process data. It's ok for now, i have gemma to help with learning.

What then. I made adobo. It's simmering right now. Tomorrow we get the car. I go with her to assist in case she needs help with anything. Am i weak? I dont think so. It takes a lot of clarity to act in a positive way given what i've been through.

The question now is, which way to go. I am at a fork in the road where i needs to expand on a process. But you always are given a choice. Even if there seems none, you have choice. Ok. What then. See what comes...which doors open. You simply go process. If it works out, go that way.

You'll know anyway. Always refer back to your clarity. Right now, i think it's best i detach from context. Give it time water under the bridge. Once you've used up that energy, then you'll be in a different frequency that's relevant for the next step in your process.

It's all about this. What am i missing here. If when you think there's something missing, then that's what you have experience. But when you see it as perfect for what it is, then you are ok. You get this. Now what. People go into this. 

They are grown up. It's sad it's this way, but what more can you do. I dont...choose not to be on there. Bad things can happen all the time. I dont have to put more hurt into the equation. Simply know that this is here and now. 

I dont even have to explain myself. Ok...given all this. What's the next step. Build up the business. Apply for work. Act on your...do the instruction manual. That's all i have to do here and now. Im, also add long tail effect into the mix.

Clarity and how this is long tail effect. When you have this in place, then you are al good. The instruction manual is like your guiding principle...your true north. Refer to this and you are relevant in every which way. 

I am getting sleepy. I take a nap. Not sleepy, but mentally drained. Ok. This is one more month into the equation. Simply go through this. You'll know what to do once you've used up this energy.

At the moment, publish one vide oevery day. There is a progression on here. The point is that you learn something new. If i get stuck, then i'll continue on with gemma and see what is a recommended fix. That's my process here. I am ok with this.

I know bills are piling up. This too, is part of the equation. I continue on with the instruction manual. This is what's relevant for me now. I have adobo. Do i have early dinner. I can do that later. Or i can have dinner when she gets home.

That too is a consideration. Just do this. You'll know what to do later. Do this for now. Is that a video i want to see. Not really. Then do something else. Mine is a video worth watching later. You see the progress in all this. I can make updates everyday.

Also show what is relevant. I see this in place. There's not much on there so what you bring to the table is going to be considered on there. Is this a relevant programming language? Of course. It's all connected. 

I can do one other or the other and you can easily convert. You have debug mode so i can fix it anyway. This means i have context. I can go every which way. But golang is way much simpler. I prefer this path.

Ok. I am about done here. I take a nap afterwards. I leave this simmering to oget that taste in there. From the nap, i get up and then dry the sauce part. That takes another ouhr. You have everything in there.

I post after this. Then i continue on. I think this thing needs a restart. Or not. Just pkill in the background? Restart would be good. I be taking a nap anyway. Do that then this then that. It's all here and now. You know what to do next.

test, see what happens

 i'll write, shower, then get to work. It's only ten. Plenty time to get things going. Some people are cats, most are dogs. It's how you deal with them.

This will change in different stages of the relationship and as a person matures. I see what you means there. Approach like a cat, but once in the circle, you become dogs. I see. But you get the energy of it.

Play with that idea. What happens now. I did the video earlier. I can go back there, or do something else. I look into these things. Last night was a lot. I couldnt sleep much of late. I get that. I can work something out. 

Ok...tomorrow is wed. I dont think i can play just yet. I'd go there, watch the something, then get going. I can bring the crutches. I can have me a walk home. I think i'll walk home. It was surprising that the trip cost only that much.

It was like going to tanay or something. But the bus cost like that. I see. But it's not the same amenities. This is government working for the people. This is what i resonate wih. Do i wan to see this match? Not really. I be the cat as well.  I move on now. 

No need to wait. Move on. When the call comes, we go. Take it as far as it can go. Then see what you get out of it. This is tennis. But i havent practiced in a long while. I know. You get how this is. Trust he timing on this one. 

What comes next. You get what needs to happen now. Is it that. Was it a turn off. I can make that swing the next time around. In the meantime, it's all this and now. Maybe this is how it turns out. It's a present. I wanted to leave, but i guess this is what it is.

It was a learning experience, all of this is. I think she was trying to give space on there. I respect that. What then. Just see this as a new chapter in your life. It's time to move on. You can't change the past. You've already tried doing that. Just move on. That's patina. This is duel war. It's nothing to hide.

I see. It's made you stronger, yes. It gave you character. I think that speaks says a lot about you. Time to move on then. I go to  bed earlier? No. I shower, get myself more mileage. I think daughter was coming down with something. 

That sentence did not come out right. I come back t edit. I did. And then you move on. Plenty on here anyway. Just leave it hanging there. When's the next one. I cant do sundays. It's impossible weekends. I have tennis and it's pretty much the rest of the day.

Ok. Continue writing. I am starting to get sleepy. I dont have to be there all the time. Next stop is to get that in. Submit the project and see what you get out of it. What happens then. You have choice. It's always about choice.

If that push came to shove, what will it be. I am not down to pat. I stick with my clarity. This got me through all this anyway. It is this and you dont need that anyway. Trust that this is what's connected for you. I think they do their own due diligence. 

You get that. Finish up then. I can get rid of them numbers again. I think so too. But finish these. Then you can work on something else. In the meantime, you get how this works. 

You are sleepy. I think so. I can take a nap. Not really. I simply do this. What do you get out of it. I'm not really sure. But she works home tomorrow and we have aplenty on that. You get how this is. Trust the timing. 

I am about to finish these. I was looking at the date. We are down another months. I know.  But it is what it is. When it turns around, it only takes a little to get back into it. The difference now is that i build in this direction. 

So i work hard on this. If it becomes that then i have options. Trust that you always have options on here. You get that. You know what needs to happen next. What happens next. I think you see how it is relevant for you. It is the present.

yautja gift

 i'm back with lazy. Couldnt sleep last night, but had insight waking up.

It's the yautja and you face-off not because you are brave, but because you have clarity. It's not about dominating opponent, but you have such clarity, opponent with less will not stand against you.

Against doesnt feel like the right word. It's that they the other has less clarity so not be up to  par. Something like that. I dont look for the right word now, but i have the insight. I know where this is headed. 

You can create soemthing, a story in this regard, or use this in your projects. It doesnt matter what happened in the past. That's what is relevant right now. You get this. Continue on from here. You heads out and see all this. You know what is here for you.

I continue with this then. You got this. What happens now. You head out soon. I get ready at eleven, leave before twelve. The appointment is then but you know th eride going there. You have more than enough. You see how this goes. 

It's been tough, but that is the or warrior gift given by the yautja. The elders are beyond fighting. They are zoomed out and there is no need to confront. All is settled with their clarity. That's the story here. When you need confrontation, then you need to act on the illusion.

There is something amiss with the clarity. And that's how the elders gauge see who you are. If so, the juniors you engage because you butt your head against the wall. That's the lesson here. 

And now you see that. You build in this direction. You see how this works for you. That one there is just a detail that comes with the reflection synchronicity. You know how this works. Trust the timing. You have everything in place.

This works just as fast and i have this works better with less tweaking. The other i still have to figure out how to get that colorscheme to work. It is yet another rabbit hole. I can work with this. Maybe weekends i work on that but not right now. 

I have this in place. You get that. You see how to work with the energy. Let's get going. I have much on there. Do you needs to get into that one. I'm not sure what you mean there and you get what is relevant. Trust the timing. 

Ok. I see what needs to happen here. You get that. I see what this needs to happen. Learn with me. That's the video channel is about. I can add that there. That ones written. I get that sorted finish after this. There's so much on here. Surely people are looking for that resource.

Is it that hard? If you put your self into it, nothing is unlearnable. You simply resonate with the information and it's there. You get that. Now you see. It doesnt need that much but you have the experience. Else you know where to find that.

Should i put on the numbers? That's the issue here. You get that redraw. Maybe i can try something else? If not, i can do with somethig. But i be testing on that. It only happens with the text. Maybe it's a copilot issue? 

I will test that. The copilot is a tad slower but more precise. Codeium is fast, but you need to sort through the shadow text to find what you need, or edit them. Plus there were bugs. 

I dont want to have to deal with the bugs, leave them as is. It's not relevant at this time. This is where i needs to be. Just do this. I know that prat because golang. I can work with that. And you see how this works. Maybe that is something else.

Or you can be lone wolf on this one, like a hired-help. And you go deep into this. I think that works just right. How do you get that in place. You already know that. Just get this in there. You'll know what to do. Finish up. I am done. Getting ready now.

islands ocean food

 i'm not sure why the need to listen to news. I've been around for decades, only watched the news when there are life-changing events caught on camera. 

Wow. Maybe i can do something similar and there's so much of ...how do you build a community? You start one. Those that resonate with you will find you--both the positives and the negs. And it's all connected. You just go to it.

And this resonates with me. To her, it's a big question mark. But then again, did i miss out on the follow up? I dont think so. Until that part, i did all my best. I need to shower after this.

Should i be watching this? I have the tutorial in place. I removed the other terminal cli because it was too complicated. This one here is easy to use. I like this one fishing and deep sea boats. This is the direction i go.

How do you go there? You start walking in that direction. Baby steps. No insistence on the outcome. Take what comes up and then see what you get out of it. I can bring me camera and see what i can do about it. Maybe we can talk about opportunities and it's all connected anyway.

Maybe i can set one up in the corner or the other. I will edit them out later. Is that something i can do. In the meantime, it is something i can do. I shower after this. I'm full. Is that it for the day. I believe so. 

That was supposed to be dinner out. We take it easy tomorrow. Maybe them heads to coles for grocery. I have this. I carry this. I identify and am attached to this. It's in the past. I cant change that anyway. Just move on. Be here and now. Have the experience.

What then. It gets busy in that way. You choose the positive response. That's the point here. You go this way and that. What's he doing there. I shower and can take meds soon enough. That puts me in a different light.

This is where i am though. Just do this. See what you get out of it. It took several weeks. I guess i'm not out of the woods just yet. That's ok. Let's get this ssorted though. Just do this see what you get out of it. This is something i can use.

It's all for you. You can use this. It shows you more of who you are. I shower. Do i clean the shower. Not sure. The toilet i can do tomorrow. I can walk around. That was a long run there. It's sad they dont release what they dont need. They should. 

It's too young. Its this that i cant stand about it. I think they released it. They should have shown it. Why did they marinate the fish then put it in soup? That doesnt make sense. I thought they were going to fry it or do kinilaw but didnt.

Anyway. I like the series. It doesn show much but the contingent is showing promise. They have a program there running but it's not mainstream. Things come around. We see that get better next time. 

This time though, i am on a fitness base improvement program. I start doing yoga, then strength training with kettlebells. How cardio. I dont know. Maybe i do walls in between or something similar like run once a week. 

This one i finish up and then continue on with my day. That's a lot on there. They have grillled fish everyday they are out. There's the marinated fish. I'd have that any day of the week. Even everyday if i'm out here. This is why i'm headed this way.

Or not. I feel this energy. I feel how  heavy that is. It's time to let go. You know what needs to happen now. Just do this. That looks yum. I can work with that. It's that you are out there and you have these meals. That is yummy. Maybe park off in an island and cook something.

That is way better. It doesnt have to be several islands. I can do one and put the camera in one different location each time. This way you get a different view of the same one place. That's good enough for a year. Aha.

qualify of questions asked, not the answers

 write about these first, then make coffee. I reactivated nvimcmp. I'm headed back to web dev albeit backend dev. This resonates with me best. I dont think it's interesting for the rest of us, but how do you urs yourself into getting attention.

That part is done and good. Move on. You got what you needed. If it were meant to be, then allow for it to fall into place. It's there still. You see that. You just needs to get over this and resonate. And you know how to use this.

So now, you have this and it shows you positive synchronicity as it is. Just get to this, get to this level and you'll know what comes next. You get how this principle works. You get how creation works. I prefer that one. 

How then. You resonate. I was already in that mode. How come. Is it to fill a need. A void? Now you are aware of it. You can usi it in any which way you choose. That is the keywoard. Is the tone conversational? Do they even know what to look for? 

If not, then it is something else and until they learn or resonate with the frequency, it's going to pass them like a boat in the night. It's quiet you dont see it and it doesnt even register in your senses.

Why did i not leave. Why'd you let me stay through this. Because this is what's relevant for you. And you chose to be here. Now that you know, finish up and get this sorted right away. Do you even need those line numbers. Finish up and add it. 

Ok. I am halfway through. Close your eyes so this goes faster. It's because you connect and the ideas come through faster than when you pay attention and think it through. That's not the point. Your job is to write it down. 

It can go this way or that. I have all that and know how to use it but what is it really. Do you need a job or cash flow. You see the difference there. You simply get to that level and you'll knowwhat to do.

Was it all a scam. It seems like it. What's different this time. You saw that. You get how this works. Finish these then get going. It's not the sales. It's the eyeballs. It's the audience, the community you build around it. 

Youo dont need savings. That is too disconnected. You build your audience and all these things are added unto you. You have this and have access to that. You simply get going and you'l know what to do. I can talk abotu these things.

You can do a stream live with that. I think it is possible. Jst hide those personal details so you can work with these things. Again, this is the channel you build. Get the momentum going andit becomes easy. I make coffee after this. 

I had meds earlier. I am scheduled to take another one soon. I have one every three hours. This to keep the level up there. But maybe you dont need one. You just need to vary the dose and chem.

Is it better this way. I can get me one of those later. For now, just do this. This is what's relevant. Get to this side and use up the energy. It takes a while. It's still at four percent. Why are there fewer.

Maybe because the website is down. Where can i get a site like that. Go do a search. It'll come up. That's how they came up top because  they hardly screened for negs. But now its different. I think you can find something relevant.

Ok. Why did that not work then. It's because people liked prefer the results they get from the leader board. Now that you know, you get how to use this then. How do you make a search engine. Aha.

That is an interesting questions. By asking you get answers. It's the quality of questions that you want. This way you are open and you dont have to go that way. Now lets get going. Make coffee, get on with your day. 

grilled fish fresh

 these guys have something good going for them. They are from coron, palawan. I used to know people from there. I wonder how things are right now.

Where did that rec come from. I dont write in that way. But it's in my observation. How do you not think this one here will work. Why then would you say yours will not. It was interesting that you went out like that. I had so much footage. 

It never got old. It was fun. I had fun out there. I can go out but this time, focus on the video instead of the money i make with the runs. Again, start from where you are. I had a nap. I think it was long enough as i woke up refreshed. I was upset earlier. 

It's because i put workload baggage that isnt mine. And i am aware of this now. Can i move forwards with this. That line is not necessary. How to continue on from here with this one. I have emmet online as lsp. It works. I continue on with this. 

It is a bit cold. It's time for my meds again but not yet. I'll take one later but not this time. That's a lot of fish there. Is this working? If i were looking for help, found documentation on this, it will help to convince me. 

I think i 'm not usenig this correctly. Go in that way then. Make it like the landing pgae is sell copy then every readme after that reinforces the skills and know-how necessary. It doesnt have to be one big project. You can add on one small part at a time.

You understand these things. I think she knew you were upset and she somehow accommodated to it. It's cold still. I dont have to force things to happen. Is that the same as in perth? It's wide open to the open seas. You can go from there, or go the other way.

What's this dog up to anyway. Maybe he wants to head out. I dont have to do this one. You get how you have it. You have the tools and the resources for this one. Continue on. You know how to target a market. You make it as part of the experience.

You continue on until you get to the ocean. That you travel by sail to get to that part, catch one or three, head home and one is for meal, the rest you give away to needy. That is interesting. 

I can also create something on here. It's the same banana and this way you have something going for you. I think you see what you can make out of this. They can make do with better footage. I think they have enough on there. Continu on.

I see how i feel this way. I eased up a bit since this morning. Earlier i was upset and ready to lash out...wanted to lash out. It was tough because i dont. It's pent up. I had to use up the energy in a different way. 

It's like everyone on there has a gopro camera. They have a channel and they are working towards building it. This is why you have room for one because they are watching somethnig else anyway. 

You can add to this as you go along. Aha. This is interesting. Where to catch fish this way. You get that. You can continue on because the trip itself is part of the equation. You got this.

They have a shallow one but it works out anyway. It's not much but you get how that is. Do i want to do that or just do wit hthis. Maybe i can build something with this in the process. 

You create a function, use data structures to build on this. It can be a golang channel in a way that you use it to create solutions or use golang to get things done in that way.

You have ideas, you just are impatient to get them working for you. But you get the idea. If i went ahead and continued on there, i would have one year of videos under my belt. That's about fifty videos and you gain momentum enough on that.

son about to take test

 there is a need to ramp up my videos. If i made a video everyday, at the end of the month, i'll have enough in there to get the algorithm to work on my channel.

The issue then is, what are the videos going to be about? Surely there is going to be 3-act structure. I can walks around the area and find something that's worth eight minutes long. That's practically full-time work. What's good about it is that i'll be doing work on my business. 

In the long term, that is going to leverage/scale up beautifully. I can do videos on my channel on apply for work here. At the moment, i have more than enough. I can talk about these things when i have quiet moments on here. You get how to make that work.

If not, you can put subtitles to it. They play volleyball in the water like that. It's because they live in the water. So much in there that's interesting. That was a good investment for google buying youtube. I wonder how things are with the original team.

If i searched enough, surely there be information on that. I can work something out in the meantime. You can do a foodie and travel channel. This is common and you dont have to be the big fish on this. But you can if the pond is small and unique enough. I can work on that. 

You have much on here. You dont need tools. You can edit these later on. For now, you have more than enough. Just do this, get to the other side. I need to recharge that battery after i finish these. My foot hurts. I need to take meds now.

Do that after this. I started this already and need to finish these now. You get oused to that. For now, you simply dothis. These are voting? That's a lot. And you see what you can do about it. There's always something here for you. 

Or sell shovels to this gold rush. You get the idea. What would it be then. I'm not sure right now, but you see where this is headed. Your target audience is practically anyone on here. Plus also the wannabe-devs who are similars. 

Ok. But not right now. For now, only do this. That is something that is interesting. You have this and that. You have that much and plenty noices in the head. Where did that come from. Not sure. But it gets triggered and i dont want to have to do all that now.

Get started with this, by the time you resonate, you'll know which one tool you need to build. Surely there is something on here. It's not showing because you are not in that frequency. When you reach that point, everything is going to fall ino place.

That's why i do these things. I have anxiety in me. Use this as trigger entry point into deeper awareness. That is like anxious and they need the funds. You have this for that. Plenty poor people in that area. It's because resources are controlled. 

If no control, will it be working? I dont know. But surely there will be nature that will balance things out. But i dont know for sure. It's not in my place to think these through. I get that. What then. Finish up. Wife is on her way home. I make pizza shortly.

What happens here. Just do this. I dont have to go there. It's like a cat. You dont go running after a cat. You let the cat come to you, and then you can play. But if you go after cat and she's not ready, no play, just more negs.

That's the plan here. Take meds, take nap, then see what you get after this. I have this. Why walk around with your luggage. Can you not check that into a hotel. I be fasting today until friday or so. 

There's not much on here i want anyway. I can apply unto that and then get htat sorted. Or not. I have two anyway. Someone always selling something. And these guys will thrive in a fair go environment. Did i limit myself? Definitely. I tried to fit in. 

And that's why you are here. And now you know. Now you see why this is so. I get that. It's fun making these and you'll know what to do anyway. You have this in place. What is that about. That's a bigger boat but you can get a ride with it. 

bucketlist plus siargao

 do i want to write, or do the dishes? I have something in my head. Or something needs to come through. These videos are about travel and food. And you never get enough of these. It is a different perspective altogether.

And, that's the point. Going there entails a lot of spending. Why not make it something that bring back something? I can work with that, in that direction. What is this business about. Maybe something to do with golang. 

I'm not sure what that wil be, but i am headed in this direction. I bit that bullet. If it were not for my condition i would have gone. It's that easy? It was. And also there is that voice inside saying reminding you of who you are.

I see what happened there. But that was zoomed out something that had to happen. Is that the same situation still? I dont know, i dont think so. It doesnt seem like it. But if i dont take this step, it's something i'd regret the rest of my life? 

Not really. It's not and you get that. You understand these things. My friend went to work in one of these things. And now she lives in germany. That is synhronicity. 

That autocorrect did not sit well with me. But this food here is great. I can do something similar. I wash the dishes. I then make me tea, have meds at five. It's better now, but if i stop taking meds, the pain comes back.

I take the meds to get over this phase. Does it make things easy for you. I am halfway through. That's ok. Go work this finish it. There is a new champion on there. Why is this guy alone? Maybe he is there with someone. It seems like it. Someone working the camera from behind the scenes.

That must be the partner who doesnt want to be on camera. This feet feels better now. Imagine you were there and you had that shop. You'd be in that place all the time. That's something you can work with. You can set up a database in the cloud, get the main package nearby and access that easy from anywhere.

You simply need a shortcut to it. That qr code will get that sorted. So it opens in a browser or as a web app. This way you have something that gets updated regularly. Make that like the shopify of small business. You can cut htem off that.

But what about the payment system. That could be an issue. And do they want to be on there or is it something you can work as blockchain. The question is who will participate in such a project.

It can be that payment system. It works within the system you build. It's not much, but when you scale leverage the tool to work. I think you get the general idea there. It'd be great to live there christmas. 

I wouldnt surface until i needed to. I can work with that. The question now is, where do i put this file? If it were me, i'd see it in the package header. That tells you where and how it connects to everythig else. 

I make tea after that dishes, then take my meds. This one is four hours later. This is an interesting place. How do you get into that. She's from a different spot. Maybe we can find a connection somehow. Or not. But you get the point.

It is the six degrees connection. You'll find the relevant frequency when you go there. If not, hten you'll find something else. But the thing is that you go anyway. I think you see this on here. What else is there. 

Can this serve videos of some sort? I think so. You have a player, and then you serves the video in that way. You will find your way soon as you go there. That one is too much noice.

Ok. Trust that you'll know how to get going. In the meantime, just do this. So much on there is cheap trash. I know. But that's how they make money profits. You can choose that way or do something else. Done.

weekend off play not work

 i have so much resistance right now. Watch your head. You are overthinking this. 

I guess i use this in a positive way, make it positive. It comes neutral, no built in meaning. You put meaning into it. That's your response-ability. You have choice. That's your job. The date autocomplete works already. It's with copilot. Today's date...

It doesnt seem to work now. That reminds me of the teletech days in junction. That was way long ago. I think we heads out after lunch, around 1pm. It's a sunday and everything is going to be full. 

Make that thing on a phone. This way it will not have ad blocker. But some of it do. Do you even need that one. It can be hardware, but that is cost included. You can find something else. 

I dont get why they have to show the eating thing. How do you connect in this way. You can say you dont know and cop-out. Or you can explore this path. I am streesed by all this. I feel like i was left here on my own. If so, i can make this work. It doesnt have to be negtive.

Should i ask? What was that thing? It could be a bug, but it's gone now. Maybe i made highlights into that. Farm is a farce. It's nice and all that. But it only works when you have resources to burn. If so, you have something else on here. Just do this then. 

I can segue in to that, but is it relevant or is that too escape. Now you see. I dont have to watch this noe. Go see something else. It's how i think. Maybe i can do something else. I am going around in circles? No i am exploring and using up the energy. 

Doing so helps me think in some way, that peocock is not necessary. I wonder if they make something on there or is it all just for show. I think you know the answer to this. It's something that had to shift. I think she's still injured, just dont want to talk about it.

Finish these but it is halfway through. There's still much on here. She's still looking for answers when it comes from the insid. What to do how to complete this. Starts monday but i usually not go there.

What is the system there. It's system as a habit. You build this system. I can do wall practice at dinner time. I can also do yoga. You get what you need to do. I think there's so much on this one andyou have optimised this so it doesnt go wide like that.

Ok. I see that. There is no need to go there. You simply do this. Just do this. They have resource that way but how can this be relevant. It's all ego. I have ego in this. He's just rambling and doesnt really give you an answer. Now you know.

Continue on with this. You have this in place. You know what to do. I am on blank. I dont have anything in there. Just finish these then do something else. He's not doing anything ...that's nikkyo. 

I used to do that a lot. You get what needs to happen here. That one is too small. But does it give you the much needed 4k? It could be. Finish up and continue on. I think i have kitty running on there but it is in the background.

I used to hate that thing. Now you see. I ws feeling out of place on there. Now you know. Just be here and now. You get this. It was a learning experience and you as part of the equation you get it.

What now. You dont force it. When things quiet down, you can work something out. Just do this. I can take a nap. That too is much noise. If it's in pain, you give your body time to rest up. 

That's what i am doing. I dont have to do things her way. It's not relevant for me. Just do this. Once you have the reflection, you can complete the energy in this way. This one has resources to burn. You dont have to compare.

sandbox testing choice

 i cant sleep. I thought i was while watching movie, but didnt fall through. I have match later. It's the first one in a week. I've been injured. Recovery mode now so i take it easy tonight.

Fever abound? It's the flu. I think that was messenger chat. Not the one i'm waiting for. I'm different. I dont mind the open but it's the negative that i cant stand. I move forward with this energy. 

I dont restrain myself anymore,trying to fit into someone else's mold. I live my life from here on. There is no limit other than the one i put on myself. That's the path for me. If this breaks the relationship, so be it. I dont think there's not much to it right now.

I guess this is it then. I move on. I cant dwell on this otherwise i'd get sick. I stay in my clarity. I resonate with clarity and integrity. That one i dont subscribe to. If i go that way, the others have to know. This is positive energy. 

What happens now. You get how this is part of your process. Use up the energy. See how this works out. I finish that test tonight? Get that working and see what you get out of it. This is all connected. I have this. It grows from here anyway.

It's only fair. If i am not going to get that to work, then why charge him. Even if it were a small amount anyway. It's worth more to me this way. And that he wouldnt have enough money to pay me for. That's how valuable i see myself to be.

This is the self-esteem i have. This is the value i put on myself. I no longer hold myself back just because. I'm not the problem. I dont dwell on that. Even if this one doesnt pan out, at least i know how it is. I dont spend any more time on there. I resonate.

I let go. I allow. This time, i see differently. I have choice. And choice is what abundance is all about. You have money but you cant make that choice, what is the point? I'd rather be in this frequency and have all the choice i want. This to me is abundance.

That one there, i dont think so. She put herself...you see how this is now. I am aware. It's not the same. I wear this so i can play and be warm. I can have this washed tomorrow. I can play tomorrow. Just take it easy. Or they all can play, i take a break.

Ok. I still have this. It can be turned off. I get that. And i have choice anyway. It's a middle-ware. If so, where is the error coming from. This is the part i enjoy doing. I can do a search and run these by the ide. I also use the terminal in this way. 

Aha. You see now how this is different for you. I know how to work with this energy. It's up to you really. Just do this. See what you get out of it. And then you can work somethig out. What comes next. I'm not sure. Play it by ear.

She can be home in less than an hour. You can work something out. In the meantime, i do these things. It's this and that and you get what needs to be here. You see how this goes. No need for a vps. Or i can get me a container and work from there.

I think so too. It is in the code since golang is throwing an exit status 1 error. Is it. That is either a panic or log.fatal. Either way, there is an error on there. See what you get out of it. I can download the source code and fix do a sandbox local. 

I think you see how this works for you. Let's get going. Finish up then get going already. What comes next. I'm not really sure. Anyways, you have all this in place. You get what needs to be here. I have confidence in this. It's been a while and it's a lang that i can understand.

I have an idea. It's not automatic but i can work with gemma on this. It's a tool i use a lot lately. I can get this sorted and clear that for a year. I think i prefer chatgpt on this one. Let's see how it goes.

In the meantime, finish up. You have a match. It's fun this way. You have muuch in this regard. You've always played and now things are different. Why was i off that time? Injured elbow. Aha. Now you get to see what to make outo fit. How far is that from station?

deadlines set action

 what am i doing? I could have been studying for that test. Two of them. Or finish the assessment. Why am i just watching youtube. 

It's an escape thing. At least you caught this on you. I am upset still. Two of them and it's not ..i am putting it out there. I see that now. I can change this. Because i own it, i am responsible. I can choose a response. 

I have one hour to bed time. I can write about these things. I can let go of that. If she's not keen about it, then i am sufficient enough. I alone am...ubuntu. Not that. But this instead.

I move on. I am sufficientn. I go on my way. I have my process with me. This weekend i finish that and the assessment. The test comes in next week. I go there, do that. I have plenty on here. Ok. I've set deadlines. I can start work on these tomorrow.

Also watching videos doesnt help. It's just a never ending series of videos. You see how you are now. See the experience. See the reflection. You are down on the dumps. Get started with the business. At least you gain momentum if it's going to take you another month. 

Get started. When you resonate, you feel positive about your self...your situation. What's dog doing there. I gave it a month. It's not over. I continue on this path. It's just that i consider my alternatives and what it is i really want to do.

Get started. That's all there is to it. This here is a good match. It looks like she's going to win this one, but there's a chance still she won't. It's still up in the air. What happened here. You get slumps like these. And it happens when she switched coaches.

I am not feeling well on this. This is why you need to get sorted. Is there something else i can do here. Write a story on this one. You have three acts. You have heroes journey. You know story structure. Get going.

If not that, then reverse  the flow and channel the information through. Tell the story about this guy down on his luck and working his best to resonate in the positive. It doesnt come from the outside. But he gets his life sorted...then he sees the reflection...experience the reflection manifested.

That's the story structure for you. It doesnt matter what you do. At the end of the day, it is the positive experience. That's what you focus on. Get going with this. And then you'll know what to do with this. Ok. I work on this too.

And you have that coming up. Just get that sorted. It doesnt matter when you'll take that. Just do this get to the other side. If you have to take the test all day, so be it. But get to that level and see.

I dont even have to go there. I can take the test online finish that already. It's all there. Just do this. You know what needs to happen here. I get that sorted tomorrow. I can start today. Or just write about it. 

I have one hour to go. I rest up. Do nothing. I can do that. And that too is the same. Or head out. You like being out. You dont like this stay athome. That's her thing. I'd rather be out living my life. 

You see the difference. I get it. Now what. Just move on. No need to dwell on that. It's not on you. Just do this. Everyone knows the story here. It's a shame. I am disapponted. But it's happened. Move on already. Not much i can do to change that.

You know how it feels. I couldnt have reversed that. It was a void she had to fill. It's sad that way. I am sad. Disappointed. Angry? Not much. The energy has dissipated. It's the disappointment that gets to me. 

I do get angry at times. It's good to use up the energy in this way. I dont have to take action in this direction. I use the energy in a direction course of action that i prefer. I use this energy to move myself in this process. Trust the synhcronicity.

what synchronicity feels like

 i needs to write first before i continue. I found go for devops book in the library. This is easier to understand, explains the fundamentals well.

I re-enabled cmp. This because i'll be working with emmet html completion. I reset the keymaps so tab uses something else and cr triggers cmp. Now i have something come up every time it triggers cmp.

I guess this is ok. I do big fish small pond with golang. I like this better than most languages i've looked into in the past. I've gone from zero to being able to read code and think i can work something out. 

Next step is to start a project and see it through. I give it a month to complete. In the meantime, i continue with seek mornings. I feel better now with the left foot. I should be able to play friday saturday, but i dont want to push it. 

One day rest in between days is necessary. I am not able to push two days in a row. This tells me i can do two or more consecutive days play but i be doing easy drills and not be chasing the ball around. Besides, chasing the ball tells me i am not in position or footwork is off.

This feels like synchronicity. I like this. The synchronicity wave tells me i am in relevant mode. I can do that thing in there but right now, that is not necessary. Is this thing coming up a lot. It comes from buffer and once closed, you lose all that text.

It's good this way. Imagine you have open source software like this and this helps the community. That's the point. You are now part of this community. Next stop is to build something here. You have the resource available for that. 

What happens next. You simply conitnue on with this. You be helping out the ones that need help most. This means you work within and use the system to complete the something. You have much in this regard.

Can i use gemma with this. Definitely. Gemma is much a partr as it is always waiting in the backend. Let's get going. What can i build with this. Continu on and you'll see. If i dont know, i can always ask gemma to explain 5 that something.

This helps. This means you dont have to see all the way through. See just ahead of you is enough and you will go far with this. That's the thing. You learn what you need when you need it. You dont have to pack heavy. Just go with what's here and now.

And that is what synchronicity is about. So far you have this experience. It's cloudy and looks like rain outside. I  think she starts early today. She's probably at work. I can work on this. You'll get something in the inbox later. 

For now, just do this. I am wondering if they use software or whatever is in there. There should be a way to make that easier. I think you know how to check up on that. You create logins, but that is a security issue. 

I can look into that. It needs to be in the binary. But someone can always look into it. The thing is, code runs regardless. This means you need to localize access, or do something with how code is run. 

This is interesting. That went through fast. You can revert back to this. When the bucket fills up, you can work something else later. In the meantime, i learned much by watching the match. 

It was cold but i learned something. We have much going on here and we have friends to hang out with. I am not  that. Things are way different now. You got this. It's all connected. Finish up on next line.

I have this and i be applying. You need someone on that side and i'll be big fish in the pond this way. You dont need to go blue ocean. You can but still you limit the scope. You got this. You know. You understand now.

alacrity balance now

 time to write, and then i'll get back to the routine. Not that word...but the process. That's more like it. I be acting on my integrity, clarity, wholeness from here on. 

I get that. The body tells me no more mr nice guy. I've given that ten years. Family of course is a priority, but everyone else, they come as an after-thought. Time to heal. I am better to walk now.

It's not that i be thinking this through, but i blink. When i over-think, i use that as gateway or trigger. With this i go into awareness. This is home. Thisis what's relevant. So what if i dont have work. This is part of the process.

Ok. But i put in the effort. I do my assessments, homework. I apply for work. I send out at least ten applications. I work on the business--youtube + golang. I'm not sure  what that will be. I'm leaning towards trading and all that. Golang + algo trading.

I'm not sure how that will turn out but i donot have to know. I like alacritty better than kitty. Maybe it's the config i need to figure out, but that's the thing. Alacritty is easier to figure out. It looks and works as i want it to be. Kitty, i still have to figure things out.

I think there was a package in aur where a terminal gui for nvim written in go. But that is out-dated. I'll look into it again but right now, i dont think that's relevant. But look into it. I can do yay for an easier search, then look into the wiki.

What now. Just do this. Go through the process. I writes. Then i do the class. Do i finish that now. There's not much on my list. I can work on that today. I dont know if i'm a priority but this is something on here i can work on. 

And you know these things. Why did she not join that. I'm not sure. Maybe as beginner, she didnt feel comfortable but it is one more player in there. I was there once. I cant play tonight. I can push it, but that will make it worse. Worse means i stop playing for at least two weeks.

I'd rather sit this one out this week, to complete the healing. From there, i'll find my way. The monitor seems slanted to the right. I fixed that. Shibahara is the japanese player. She's consistent in doubles. I think this is the first i am aware she's played singles.

But oof course, i am wrong about this but no need to look deeper into this. Continue on with the path. I dont have to start over. Just continue with golang. I am balls deep into this. I keep looking into that. It's the same you did back when. 

This time it's reflected back to you. At least you have balance now. You see how that works out. It's time to move on. You dont have to dwell on that. This shows you have choice. Even if that was a nightmare, you have choice. It's the here and now that matters.

Is it mental game. She could have easily hit that ball over the net. But you sometimes look to the other side and not the ball. She's coming in sooner. Is that a positive. That's the play i do. I'd do the same. Get the other to move to side, off-balanced, then come in.

I study that. I can make a video on this. It's about an hour. Then i can work something out. She plays good on that pattern. I can figure things out on here. It's not that you win or lose. But when you minimize the unforced errors, you have already won.

I focus on that. I be writing throughout the day. What did i do yesterday. I did those things. I do more of golang today. I also do the pizza dough soon as i'm done here. I move forward from here. Just do this.

What comes next. I dont know. Finish this. You'll know what to do. Definitely not over-thinking. That's automatic. I need to be more aware of that. Just do this. Get to the other side. Use up the energy. And then you'll know what to do.

All this is part of your process. I can look more into that. Or listen to that podcast again. There was so much nuggets in there. I will listen to that as i work throughout the day. And then i am done. That was fast. I like this terminal better.

wait without hope

 it doesnt seem to work right now, but i'll leave it be. That gilbert author, so much insight, wisdom. The message resonates with me. 

Right now, this is where i am. This is what's relevant for me. I take action and it reverts back. It's not that i will not take action, but wait without thought...wait without hope. This feels right for now.

The timing comes around when it comes around. It doesnt have to be now. Just be. I have one more on there. Where'd it go. I think i closed the browser on that. Good thing i saved that on watch later. 

It's about two hours the audiobook. I have much in there. I still have ankle pain. Lunch is still frozen. Leave it to to--i forgot the word, had to search for it...thaw. What happened there.

Is this bold font? How come it looks feels too small right now. But it looks ok. Leave it here. I can switch that around later. I just need to write. I dont have to do everything. Just be. 

What happened is bigger than you. I'm not in that frequency. That is what's different here. You learned a lot of things about self. Leave it be. Was it roles reversed? I think that was action out of weakness. And that what i have now is borne out of weakness still. 

How do i change this. Clarity. I keep coming back to clarity. You get this. It's bigger than you but if you zoom out, you have a bigger view. You see it. The local mind doesnt grasp it as much, but you have intuition. I'd call it wwisdom, but it's not that. It's just a knowing.

First time i used that ai. Where'd it come from. It came up in there. I guess this is how you use it still. You write about it much and maybe it comes out in the video...or not. You continue. You keep writing.

I finish these then make lunch. Then we head out again tonight. I wonder where we'd go. Maybe that joint again. I have much fear in me. I start that tomorrow. I'm not sure i can play wednesday.

I may have to put that in then. Rest up the whole week then you have better opportunity in the coming weeks. I can not listen to the body and extend the time i'm off. You get that. Finish then. Just sit this through. Wait without hope.

Action be out of clarity without assumption or insisttence as to how this will turn out. That's why the snippet resonates with me. It connects. It was a different perspective and it was a reflection born out of clarity. This is why i write. 

And can you talk to her about these things? Some times, there are things you cant talk to anyone about. You just know. And putting it into words just wouldnt cut it. It's not going to come out right. Write and you make sense of it. You are able to deconstruct.

That's the point. You write and see what you get out of it. It's like cooking all the ingredients not knowing what dish you are making or how it'll turn out. You know it's there. I guess that's what art is about.

Cooking doesnt cut it. Maybe it's a story you write. You listen. Your job is to write it out. That's what life is about. That's how you live your life. I dont think she'll head out. She'll just buy junk food.

We head out for dinner tonight. Daughter's birthday is coming up. We celebrate today as we are all not available on that day. And this is the connection. Do i want in? Maybe this or there is something here for you still.

I see that. And you grow into this. If i had done that continued on with that ptah, would i know what i see now. It could be. It could have been different but you got something out of it anyway. So yes, this here is what's relevant for you.

as you go along

 it's not ignored, but preoccupied. I dont mind. It's reflection showing where i am. The setting didnt turn off mouse showing up. Maybe it is something else. I can change that later.

Or not. It is one more rabbit hole to get into. Do something else. If you're not keen to put in the effort, then what would the reflection be? Aha. You see the expectation assumption you have on there. It's all reflection anyway. It's an opportunity to learn more about self.

And this is the why. You are here to learn more. But if you move back to that frequency, you already have that. I think it has to do with the process. It is the clarity while you are in process. In higher frequency, it's instant. You dont have process, unfolding.

Hence you get to practice clarity even without. Also time and space is part of the process. That's why it's here. Also i heard that this is steeped in negative. But again, it is all neutral. How can it be negative. I may have misunderstood that.

You get that. What then. Do this. Build on the channel. You have this and that. Continue on with this path. There be finals tonight. Also tennis sunday tomorrow. Am i still in that frequency definition? It looks like it. Now you know. 

I like how it works with copilot, but not on the text document. It's still clueless. It's because this is stream of consciousness writing. The auto-pairs doesnt work well in there. Perhaps there is something else i can use. Just look into the plugin and create one yourself.

How do you know which ones to use. Test it. If it works as expected and more, then i keep it until it doesnt. Else, i try something else, or leave it at  that not use it. If i go down hte rabbit hole, it's going to take me all day to figure it out.

What if you just make several channels instead. You'll get how that works for you anyway. I need to go to toilet. I finish these now. No need to restart. Just continue with this then publish. Do i need to go start another blog? I can document the journey, include some thoughts along the way.

It's a step in this direction. I can take screenshots, put my ideas in order, then create a video at the end of the week. At least the blog and vlog works together to get that sorted. I can work with images, then upload or include these in the videos.

No need to long think these. It came as a blink. I can work in the process and see how it works out. Again, drop all assumptions as to how this should turn out. Let go of insistece. Just be. I enjoyed that time there. Why not go back.

It's not relevant for me now. Otherwise, i'd be out there. I guess i finish these then continue on. I have two chapters to work through. Just do these then you can elevate to the other book, or start on a project or two. This way, you get what needs to happen. 

Ok. I can work through that. I get lost at times, or take a detour. But i learn much when i take a detour. It shows me something i would not have learned had i stuck through. That's the point i guess. So be it.

I have tennis at one. I finish around three or four. Then continue on to the next one. Or not. At least we have this in place. That's the point here. They can work on that one or the other. You get the idea. 

In the meantime, finish up on here. I have azure working in the background. I can use golang for the back-end. This comes in handy because of concurrency and parallel stuff. This comes in handy and i get to work in that direction.

I can check that later. In the meantime, just do this. Finish up. I have a main waiting on me. The play last night was ok. It was a different experience. But you get how you are to go from here. 

Yes. I saw a different perspective on tehre. Now you have something to work on. That's the point. You know what to do with these insights. I can go this way or that. I have options. I do this and finish up and i have much. Rather than start anew and go beginner level. You learn what you need as you go along.

choice with integrity

 it's nice that i can access pages from any folder i'm on. This way, upon exit, i get back to what it was i was working on. I found this book on micro-services with golang. I think this is a niche i can deep dive into. It's working with cloud compute and there's dev work plus everything in between. 

It is kinda related to web dev that i did in the past, but it is more focused on the backend. I like that. I enjoy woring with golang. It's much like c. It is interesting and modern and i feel like i can work with this for the next ten years.

That's the thing. I get into something for a decade. This could be the last decade. The last one was kinda different and unique. What it be like to travel in this way. This is interesting. I can build a business with this? Definitely. Create services on the cloud, then offer that for cheap and get streams of income for several months.

I'm not sure what that is right now, but this is something that's interesting to me. I am open to be in this process. What's it going to be then. Start with one, then evolve from there. That's the thing here. Maybe i can do blockchain dev, use that as database for the service, then explore options.

I think you have something on there. I have a tutorial process for me. I learn by experience. I also have copilot and it works fast enough. I was probably having issues in that day, but i like this already. This is more relevant for me. When it shows recs, i do less editing on auto-complete than i did with codeium. 

If i need to pay monthly on this one, i dont really mind. But i have gemma. That one has free drive space worth 2tb. That's like not having to buy xdd for the rest of my life. It comes out to that anyway. It's also available online. The xdd is available at home.

Why not have two of those anyway. I dont know yet, but this is something i work with. Give it that and you'll see how to work with this. Does it ever get cheap. I'mnot sure what you mean there. Sure you have competition but you have something on here that might work.

In the meantime, just do this. The fad wears out. You can do something that's kinda i dont know. Just be open to the idea. Or i can use it on my own. Right now, this works just right. I have this. It resonates with me. We head out later. Tomorrow is tennis weekend. 

It would have been today, but we have stuff lined up. We have tennis on wednesday. That's the start of fast4 and after that, we have the new season comp. It's short than usual but this sits well with me. I wonder if this picks up on the pattern.

There is no pattern. That's the pattern here. The recommendations for auto-complete will never be spot-on because there is no pattern to follow. I'd be gobsmacked if they make sense in the future. But i work with his and it sits well with me.

What happens then. You get with the program. Do what you can, do your best. Take it as far as it will go, no insistence on teh outcome. No matter what, stay...choose to be positive. That's the point here. And if neutral is transformed to positive, then positive acceleration.

What then. Finish up then continue on. I have this anyway and it comes out the same way. I have laptop. I can send that to kids then get me something that i like...bigger screen and more ram. Ok. I know, have an idea what to get me next time. 

I like lenovo. That is more likely what i'd go for next. It was good that time, but idk, i doesnt resonate what happened then. I've learned much about myself, but you see how this turns out. If push comes to shove, i'm out the door.

In thte meantime, i act with integrity on this. I'm not going to be like that in any way. Soon as i see that monster, i'm not the same person. You get that. And then what. I build in this direction. You have this in place. Just do what you can.

Do i need one of those? Definitely not with the brand. I prefer something netural. I like how this keyboard clacks about when i type. It can be quiet and it is easier on my fingers than the default ones you get. Stay with this for as long as it works. 

It has bluetooth connectivity but i have it hard-wired to the box. This way it's connected and no delay. Just work in this direction. It doesnt have to be in there. Just do this. Finish up and see what you get out of it. Do i shower now or later?

go to france roland garros

 i'm feeling this "dread" inside. It's that perspective. You can choose to redefine, then it's usable. If not, simply put in your awareness.

I created the ptn. I added members, but there's still others that might want to join. At least it's out there. We can do other things later on. For now, this works. I found me another book. It's got a useful app right off chapter one.

The ai suggestions on text is way off. That's context for you. It doesnt have an idea what this is about and that's ok. The effort is there. It is good for coding. I need to do the dishes after this. 

The adobo was good. Gemma sent the recipe for that. I'll do the dishes after son finish eating. This match is interesting. We have matches on there coming up. This is going to be interesting. I'm resting the elbow. I practice weekends.

It's the easy ones i attend. This way i can choose how much effort to put in. The left elbow is good now. The other is resting up but has improved immensely since day one. This is what i do now. It's too close that way. It needs a bit space.

I slouch. That i am aware of. I miss seeing that look on chuchi's face. It wasnt me that. This is what's relevant, but the one on there, it's not relevant anymore. Lesson had been learned. 

How do i fix the error. I can put that in with gemma see what ai has to say to fix it. Otherwise, i'm thinking it's all that processing the form. It doesnt have that middleware. I can add to that. In the meantime, continue on with the tutorial. 

I have much to go through then. Just work this through. You'll see how this is connected. It's a harsh lesson but see what you get out of it. Maybe we can sort things out. If not, it's what needs to be here. If so, pay the price. See it as what's relevant on here.

These are on the male frequency. Is that a thing? It's what came to mind. I can do more writing on that, but i dont have to for now. I just want to use up this energy. This is nice so far. Keep at it. This is what's relevant for you.

Show how you solve problems by building apps. It's all about the problem solving...how you find solutions given the context and situation. You'll know what to do when you get to that bridge. Else, leave it be for now. 

In the meantime, i can watch this match while i write. That there was a good shot. I can bring dog out for a walk, but it's the ride that he wants ot get into. How then. 

A month from now. I can use this background, or make it thinner on the background. But i dont think that information here is relevant for her. It's just an out-pouring of thoughts. I think she was reading out of paranoia. 

It's not the same river. That's what i see about it. Besides, there might be a story on here that's relevant for you. Know that this works out anyway. You have this backend language that you can use on different platforms.

I think there is something here for me. Plus i have the text editor and the terminal that runs on gpu. What more can you ask for. Finish up. I dont think i can play tonight. Rather, choose not to. It'd be great to be outside though.

If there's a second court and have enough players, might consider going. In the meantime, i need to rest up this elbow. There is plenty matches coming up. It's good to give it a break as i pushed it too much. I knew it was going this way. 

Ok. Lesson learned. Now you know. Now you have reflection. I slouch again. This i change. That doesnt look right in that way. You have options here. See that you have this in place. I feel the energy to go there--france. Roland garros.

thousand of blog entry

 there has to be a way to fix status bar below, but that's a whole new rabbit whole that will take days, at best, to get sorted. Leave it be. This thing is buggy, but it does the job.

I like that this is customizable. What's happening to me. It's a coping mechanism. Ok. But how far do you take this? Options. There's always choice. At least i have a point of reference. But this too, will change every time.

I'd like to take a nap, but coffee keeps me from dozing off. I use up the energy. I've done plenty already. I am halfway through one book, plus i have three others to work on. I finish these. I have a good idea about the fundamentals.

If the bot breaks, i'll know...rather have enough context how to find a way to fix this. How come i missed that? I chose to ignore it. That was unconditional love. That was being positive. What happens now. It's given but with a limit. If ___ toes the line, i'm out.

Right now, i'm seeing that slowly creeping in. It's human nature to worry about things i know. I worry much myself. But at least it's in my awareness now. I am not in denial. I call it as it is. I have options. It can go this way or that. 

Ok. What happens now. I make pizza for hte kids. But they are both out. The dough is good and ready. I leave at five. I dont have anyone else confirmed for today. It may be doubles for tonight...rather, singles. I was thinking two players--double. 

Anyway. I dont mind singles, go easy, then break wed or see how it goes. I have wrap on my right arm. What happens now. Just do this. I have fear. Let it be. No need to invalidate this. Just be. 

Do i have to finish these? I started it. I finish writing then continue on. It's been a lot to study. I take a break. I need the break to let it all sink in. Otherwise ram gets over-written before it gets to write into hard drive. Hard drive here is like awareness, not memory.

I get a feeling of how or what it's like knowing. This way, when i am in the situation, i bring up how it felt like and i have context. This is how i work with ideas. It's all about energy if i can make it that way.

So it goes. I make pizza later, or i take a nap. Why not go see a movie. That's a good idea. I'll finish these then go see what's in the hard drive. There's always something in there. Also i can set up a home lab. I'll go find the creds to login to azure. 

I think i need to cancel my aws for now. That's going to get unpaid and i dont have the resources for now. It's always different and you get how these things work out. Trust that this is so. You need to make a decision? It's already written. 

Ok. Let it be for now. I know how this turns out. She's doing her best. I see the sincerity. I'm the one with issues. This is a reflection then. I see what she went through. But i choose to respond differently. Maybe she was in a different situation then...not invalidating her experience choices.

Ok. I have it in there. Dog is bored. He misses being in the car. I'll get to that again. Use up the energy in this way. This is the process. Trust that this is connected for you. I go in this frequency. It's the trust. You need to trust that this is neutral and it's up to you to transform.

This is the lesson then. Ok. I use up the energy this way. Maybe that was a typo there. She's off to work. I wonder how these things are. That is like a family business but she's not part of the company. Wow. That is cheap labor. You need s to look into these things.

Or not. But i'm not the one who's going to break things. She knows what's in there. You are using up the energy in this way. Am i hungry. Definitely. But it's different. There is energy, but it doesnt have to be acted on. 

I use this as gateway into awareness. I pay attention to this but choose to respond differently. I am a different person in this way. I dont think anyone else will play. Cancel that and be on your way. There is socials on north tc. I go there.

use what is

 i cant go wash the dishes now. I can write, use up this energy. It's all connected. If that doesnt work out, then i can will see what's relevant and what's next. I will use act on what is.

I know it's tough. But you have clarity. You know how this works. Trust that this is what's relevant for you. You get something out of this. In the meantime, i am making headway with this. Else i will be getting blanks like the last time.

And i have learned much in the meantime. I am able to do pseudo-code with what i've learned so far. With this knowledge, i can ask gemmat to outline a code for me, then make the code work over time. This is the process.

I dont have to know everything. I simply act on what is then build process from there. I have this in mind. Trust that you'll know what comes next. Maybe that is an issue. I give it a day. If no reply, i take it as not possible at this time.

Ok. There's so much unknown here. I can walk choochi later before sunset. This way, i get to keep my commitment to him. But he already knows at some level. He gets it. He's my teacher/guide in a way. He knows things i dont even know is there.

I'll wash the dishes soon as she's done with her call. It creates so much noise and i dont know how to make things work from here. I sit here and wait? Not do nothing wait, but allow for this to fall into place. From here, i'll know what it is that needs to happen.

There be socials tomorrow, wed, and friday. Then the weekend we plays again. I think i have rested my arm enough. I have this in place. Trust that this is what's relevant at this time. You'll know what to do next.

Of course you did. It's in the past tense because it was. But you get how this works out. Use up the energy. In the meantime, you learn about these things. Use up the energy in this way and see what you get out of it.

I have that muc on there. I can bring them over and use it later. I have enough in place. Trust that this is so. What are my options here. Just get to the other side. You'll know how this is once you've used up the energy, completed the process.

It is never completed, but you get what that means. Ok. This chair is higher seats me higher with proper ergonomics for the arm. I can build from this. I learn much in this process. You know what needs to ahppen here. 

I can do a search for repositories that are similar. I can build something from that repository. If nothing in golang, find similar situations and translate for gemma. This way, i learn much about these projects.

In the meantime, just do this. Get to the other side and see what you get out of it. If lucky, you'll find a repository and build up on that. Else, you learn what you need in the process. I'll reply to that later after i've done my search.

What then. Finish up, do the dishes. I can resume my education, resonance for the experience in this way. This is the process. This is where i need to be. Trust that you are connected. I am in awareness. I am in gratitude. I think there is a misnomer somewhere in that statement. 

Gratitude and in awareness...something seems off about it. It comes to you but in awareness, there is a sense of quiet gratitude about it. It's gratitude without the words. It is simply aware of what is here and now. I'm not sure how that makes sense.

But given this context i just wrote, this makes better sense for me. It doesnt have to make sense for the reader. Right now, this is what's relevant. 

I cantinue on writing. Or do something else. I can watch this match. Potapova seemed like she just gave up on the match from the second set. You get that. You can use that from here. You have match tomorrow. I wonder who else is going to play.

use what is

 the worst that can happen is that--jail time, plus that will affect your records. Driving without license is serious around here. But to go through all that? I'd pay the fine, work my ass to get that sorted, but to have something like it on history?

What if it were just the fine. Ok. Maximum on that. Also do community work. That is also relevant. I wasnt disqualified. It's just that i was going through a lot and things got in the way.

Ok. I do community work like that. This too is opportunity. I would rather have this. I think this is feasible. The fines, i can handle. I can build up in this direction. If it goes south, then it can do something on there. They need people like me working on their side.

But it's not going to be like that. You know the difference. It's fines plus community work. I can work with that. The records, that comes secondary. I have this. I'm not limited by all this. I can build up on this.

I see what you mean there. This is why i write. I can continue on with this build something positive along the way. Now you see how this is going to be. I wont be driving for a while. That's just fine with me. This is positive reflection.

You go by the reflection? Only to label as positive or negative. But then again, it doesnt have to eb. It's all neutral. It's positive or negative how you use it. Ok. I see that. This is why i write. You see that. I am not set back. This is part of the synchronicity.

What are my options here. Get to the other side. Trust that this is connected. You get how this will work out. It's good that you are considering all the pathways here. You can always get something else...something different or better. 

Ok. That one is old. I guess you get one or two every three years or so. It doesnt last that long then. I get that. You move on with this. I'm not that anymore. I see this. I dont have to have that talk. 

It's tough this way but i'll have restrictions like this. I know my energy. I know who i am. I am in knowing. There doesnt have to be faith. I have clarity. And that this is all neutral but positive or negative how you use it.

Ok. Thisis the path i take then. I dont have to leave. Just be in the moment. Be in your clarity. This is what it's here for. Trust that this is where you need to be. I've been through worst. This is rock bottom. Now you know. Now you see.

By allowing all things fall into place. That's the lesson i got from that. I continue on this path. But this time, i look at both sides of the road. This is what i have. I continue on this path then. 

Does it have to intefere? Only when it's relevant for you. I am sure there are lots of that on there. I can continue on from here. It's all different now. I sit at a higher chair because the keyboard put a damage on my forearm. I need a higher one.

This one feels better. I dont have to throw out the other one. Do you need to get rid of all that? Not really. Unless there needs to be something but not this time. I rest up my arm until wednesday. 

Aha. We have that coming up next wednesday. That is something to look forward. Now i see what's relevant. This is what i resonate with. Trust that this is so. I cleared it up. I have clarity again. This is what needs to be here. Trust that this is so.

Why not  set up your own shop. I can build up in that direction. How do you get them to connect to hardware. You ssh into everything and you present gui. It's going to be all chromebook with linux running in the background. 

That is interesting. Do you need to pay for licenses? I dont think so. I can set up one myself. You can use containers in that way and the backend is running in the cloud. Interesting how things can go this way or that. 

tough being a parent

 it's like a checkpoint for myself, see if it's connected, makes sense. But in reality, this is just another control mechanism. I get that. I have it in my awareness. 

I lost all my matches. But it's ok. I was ok with playing with their best player. I was no match, but since the others in the team wouldn't, didnt see the benefit in losing--forgot my point here.

But it was ok that i lost. I get to see where it is i stand and what needs to happen next. I was able to do a good play somewhere in there. Given time, i could can will be better at my game. 

In the meantime, practice, take care of myself. This will go a long way. That's the ideal. Just use up the energy for now. Act in my clarity. Stay be in my clarity. No need to control the outcome. Just be. No expectations even. I dont have to go there. 

Who are these players. The other one looked like a short kid. I think that is kenin. The other one was way much taller and bigger. Kenin it was. She's a feisty player. She won a slam at some point. 

I wonder how much or what does it take to be consistent top 5 in the world. It takes a lot i suppose, more so as a person. You are in total clarity about this. Should this be in my chosen something? I forgot the word. Craft?

Could be. Vocation. Job. State of being. Who i am. It is a combination of several things and it is not just one thing. I have worry. I sense that. I use this as gateway into my awareness. I sense that and i zoom out, observe breath or be in the experience. Limit ego mind to what is necessary.

I get through my days in this way. It's tough. But this is the process for me. I'd get through this eventually. Maybe why not at this moment. Even if it doesnt last, just free a this moment. 

I can do that. What perspective is that--to be free. That so what mentality. I can be in that space. I can explore that. So what. This terminal is great. The config is perfect. Nvim works great. I get an error now and then but i get that sorted and still get some good work from this.

I can work with this then. Just do this. That page number column is too wide. Should i turn that off. It is too wide. It wasnt like that before. But anyways, finish these then do that later. 

I think it is the padding. Test that. Didnt work. Should i turn that line number column off? It's off, but there's the three chevron symbol off the top. What is that and what is it for?

That is yet another rabbit-hole to deep dive into. It's not showing at this time. Is it because i am on insert mode. Can i do something about ithat. It's back. What triggers that and what is it for. 

Maybe i can do zen mode and get rid of all the stuff that comes out. Or something else. That was bothersome a noise. Daughter is still out. Should we give her a call. Should i be worried. 

I was there like that when i was their age. But i was a male. It's different? The symbol comes in and out. What is that for and why is the left side that wide? It shouldnt be?

I can test that on different code. It's a symbol for the ide or something. I'm not sure hy it has to be that wide, but it is for stuff that come up every no and then. Should i have line numbers? No need. I hardly use them anyway. It's just something familiar on there.

Should we give daughter a call. I think we can get that in there. Can you let us know how you are else we'll call you. At least it's put out there. We are concerned and this is a bummer but that's what all this is about being a parent.