it doesnt seem to work right now, but i'll leave it be. That gilbert author, so much insight, wisdom. The message resonates with me.
Right now, this is where i am. This is what's relevant for me. I take action and it reverts back. It's not that i will not take action, but wait without thought...wait without hope. This feels right for now.
The timing comes around when it comes around. It doesnt have to be now. Just be. I have one more on there. Where'd it go. I think i closed the browser on that. Good thing i saved that on watch later.
It's about two hours the audiobook. I have much in there. I still have ankle pain. Lunch is still frozen. Leave it to to--i forgot the word, had to search for it...thaw. What happened there.
Is this bold font? How come it looks feels too small right now. But it looks ok. Leave it here. I can switch that around later. I just need to write. I dont have to do everything. Just be.
What happened is bigger than you. I'm not in that frequency. That is what's different here. You learned a lot of things about self. Leave it be. Was it roles reversed? I think that was action out of weakness. And that what i have now is borne out of weakness still.
How do i change this. Clarity. I keep coming back to clarity. You get this. It's bigger than you but if you zoom out, you have a bigger view. You see it. The local mind doesnt grasp it as much, but you have intuition. I'd call it wwisdom, but it's not that. It's just a knowing.
First time i used that ai. Where'd it come from. It came up in there. I guess this is how you use it still. You write about it much and maybe it comes out in the video...or not. You continue. You keep writing.
I finish these then make lunch. Then we head out again tonight. I wonder where we'd go. Maybe that joint again. I have much fear in me. I start that tomorrow. I'm not sure i can play wednesday.
I may have to put that in then. Rest up the whole week then you have better opportunity in the coming weeks. I can not listen to the body and extend the time i'm off. You get that. Finish then. Just sit this through. Wait without hope.
Action be out of clarity without assumption or insisttence as to how this will turn out. That's why the snippet resonates with me. It connects. It was a different perspective and it was a reflection born out of clarity. This is why i write.
And can you talk to her about these things? Some times, there are things you cant talk to anyone about. You just know. And putting it into words just wouldnt cut it. It's not going to come out right. Write and you make sense of it. You are able to deconstruct.
That's the point. You write and see what you get out of it. It's like cooking all the ingredients not knowing what dish you are making or how it'll turn out. You know it's there. I guess that's what art is about.
Cooking doesnt cut it. Maybe it's a story you write. You listen. Your job is to write it out. That's what life is about. That's how you live your life. I dont think she'll head out. She'll just buy junk food.
We head out for dinner tonight. Daughter's birthday is coming up. We celebrate today as we are all not available on that day. And this is the connection. Do i want in? Maybe this or there is something here for you still.
I see that. And you grow into this. If i had done that continued on with that ptah, would i know what i see now. It could be. It could have been different but you got something out of it anyway. So yes, this here is what's relevant for you.
