time to write, and then i'll get back to the routine. Not that word...but the process. That's more like it. I be acting on my integrity, clarity, wholeness from here on.
I get that. The body tells me no more mr nice guy. I've given that ten years. Family of course is a priority, but everyone else, they come as an after-thought. Time to heal. I am better to walk now.
It's not that i be thinking this through, but i blink. When i over-think, i use that as gateway or trigger. With this i go into awareness. This is home. Thisis what's relevant. So what if i dont have work. This is part of the process.
Ok. But i put in the effort. I do my assessments, homework. I apply for work. I send out at least ten applications. I work on the business--youtube + golang. I'm not sure what that will be. I'm leaning towards trading and all that. Golang + algo trading.
I'm not sure how that will turn out but i donot have to know. I like alacritty better than kitty. Maybe it's the config i need to figure out, but that's the thing. Alacritty is easier to figure out. It looks and works as i want it to be. Kitty, i still have to figure things out.
I think there was a package in aur where a terminal gui for nvim written in go. But that is out-dated. I'll look into it again but right now, i dont think that's relevant. But look into it. I can do yay for an easier search, then look into the wiki.
What now. Just do this. Go through the process. I writes. Then i do the class. Do i finish that now. There's not much on my list. I can work on that today. I dont know if i'm a priority but this is something on here i can work on.
And you know these things. Why did she not join that. I'm not sure. Maybe as beginner, she didnt feel comfortable but it is one more player in there. I was there once. I cant play tonight. I can push it, but that will make it worse. Worse means i stop playing for at least two weeks.
I'd rather sit this one out this week, to complete the healing. From there, i'll find my way. The monitor seems slanted to the right. I fixed that. Shibahara is the japanese player. She's consistent in doubles. I think this is the first i am aware she's played singles.
But oof course, i am wrong about this but no need to look deeper into this. Continue on with the path. I dont have to start over. Just continue with golang. I am balls deep into this. I keep looking into that. It's the same you did back when.
This time it's reflected back to you. At least you have balance now. You see how that works out. It's time to move on. You dont have to dwell on that. This shows you have choice. Even if that was a nightmare, you have choice. It's the here and now that matters.
Is it mental game. She could have easily hit that ball over the net. But you sometimes look to the other side and not the ball. She's coming in sooner. Is that a positive. That's the play i do. I'd do the same. Get the other to move to side, off-balanced, then come in.
I study that. I can make a video on this. It's about an hour. Then i can work something out. She plays good on that pattern. I can figure things out on here. It's not that you win or lose. But when you minimize the unforced errors, you have already won.
I focus on that. I be writing throughout the day. What did i do yesterday. I did those things. I do more of golang today. I also do the pizza dough soon as i'm done here. I move forward from here. Just do this.
What comes next. I dont know. Finish this. You'll know what to do. Definitely not over-thinking. That's automatic. I need to be more aware of that. Just do this. Get to the other side. Use up the energy. And then you'll know what to do.
All this is part of your process. I can look more into that. Or listen to that podcast again. There was so much nuggets in there. I will listen to that as i work throughout the day. And then i am done. That was fast. I like this terminal better.
