what am i doing? I could have been studying for that test. Two of them. Or finish the assessment. Why am i just watching youtube.
It's an escape thing. At least you caught this on you. I am upset still. Two of them and it's not ..i am putting it out there. I see that now. I can change this. Because i own it, i am responsible. I can choose a response.
I have one hour to bed time. I can write about these things. I can let go of that. If she's not keen about it, then i am sufficient enough. I alone am...ubuntu. Not that. But this instead.
I move on. I am sufficientn. I go on my way. I have my process with me. This weekend i finish that and the assessment. The test comes in next week. I go there, do that. I have plenty on here. Ok. I've set deadlines. I can start work on these tomorrow.
Also watching videos doesnt help. It's just a never ending series of videos. You see how you are now. See the experience. See the reflection. You are down on the dumps. Get started with the business. At least you gain momentum if it's going to take you another month.
Get started. When you resonate, you feel positive about your self...your situation. What's dog doing there. I gave it a month. It's not over. I continue on this path. It's just that i consider my alternatives and what it is i really want to do.
Get started. That's all there is to it. This here is a good match. It looks like she's going to win this one, but there's a chance still she won't. It's still up in the air. What happened here. You get slumps like these. And it happens when she switched coaches.
I am not feeling well on this. This is why you need to get sorted. Is there something else i can do here. Write a story on this one. You have three acts. You have heroes journey. You know story structure. Get going.
If not that, then reverse the flow and channel the information through. Tell the story about this guy down on his luck and working his best to resonate in the positive. It doesnt come from the outside. But he gets his life sorted...then he sees the reflection...experience the reflection manifested.
That's the story structure for you. It doesnt matter what you do. At the end of the day, it is the positive experience. That's what you focus on. Get going with this. And then you'll know what to do with this. Ok. I work on this too.
And you have that coming up. Just get that sorted. It doesnt matter when you'll take that. Just do this get to the other side. If you have to take the test all day, so be it. But get to that level and see.
I dont even have to go there. I can take the test online finish that already. It's all there. Just do this. You know what needs to happen here. I get that sorted tomorrow. I can start today. Or just write about it.
I have one hour to go. I rest up. Do nothing. I can do that. And that too is the same. Or head out. You like being out. You dont like this stay athome. That's her thing. I'd rather be out living my life.
You see the difference. I get it. Now what. Just move on. No need to dwell on that. It's not on you. Just do this. Everyone knows the story here. It's a shame. I am disapponted. But it's happened. Move on already. Not much i can do to change that.
You know how it feels. I couldnt have reversed that. It was a void she had to fill. It's sad that way. I am sad. Disappointed. Angry? Not much. The energy has dissipated. It's the disappointment that gets to me.
I do get angry at times. It's good to use up the energy in this way. I dont have to take action in this direction. I use the energy in a direction course of action that i prefer. I use this energy to move myself in this process. Trust the synhcronicity.
