gone inside here now

 try something new, different. Explore into self. It's not outside. You've been hearing this all along. Go inside. See how that works. Get the dopamine hit, but in reverse. Lean into pain. 

The way through is the way through. This is the process for me. If she's there on the other side, so be it. This is a different exploration. Trust the timing on this. It's going to be ok. You have been here before. 

Everyone is going to be here for you. You know what this is about. Trust that this is connected. Once you get past this one, you see how this works out for you. I can play tennis, but why not make this your rest day. 

I can explore the city. But i dont have bike this time. Chuch is up. I love this dogs. They are so unconditional. Why did we every tie dogs. I dont know. That was based on fear. That is sad. 

I know. Now things are way different. You have this in place. It'sdifferent now. He dont like the chicken. Maybe it's stale. Perhaps. But you can work something out. I can rest today, or rest up thursday when i work on-site. You ge how all that is baggage.

I know. It's to learn this. It's time to use up the energy. You get how what's in store for you. This all here what you thought was isnt really. You can be anywhere even the poorest places and still find joy. That's where it's all at. Where was the place you were most happy.

She doesnt get it because you saw all along. Now you get it. Now you see. All cards are out on the table. I can work this through then. What comes next. Just do this. Get to the other side. We never really shared anything together. It's sad this way.

I know. We got off at the wrong start. I had issues myself. I see this. I am moving on and forward. If i restup there is tennis wed. Monday, i dont think so as it is a new year. I run through this. 

I can run this one too. Rest up through the rest of the day. Will i be injured. No. You fast today and get to saturday next. Maybe even wed. You'll be ok. I think it's all in there. You go check it out. 

It's even on the hard drive. I can look into it. I can run at noon. I dont have to use that crutch. I be letting go now. It's time i go inside. Lean on the pain. This here doesnt serve me. If you want to be here so be it. If not, i let you go. No hard feelings.

But this is journey on my own. This dog has its suppport system. My son is looking after him. This shoe arrives monday, no tuesday. So be it. Them be going to be busy and it's like the pro3 but for everyday use. 

I like these sauconys. They are engineered for running. I should have got one sooner, but it wasnt synchronicity. Now you know. Now you see. I can deep dive into tennis this way. You saw how he struck hard but didnt last that much long at the wall.

That tells you much. They can hit all over but precision wasnt there. I kept mine within that circle. I think that's good enough. I can make it tight. The power comes later. First you hit it right, then you get to hard hits. But hit it right and you dont need power. 

Now you get it. Trust this path. I can run later. I rest up the rest of the day anyway. I'm not running marathons anyway. A thursday break sounds good and the way i run is way too easy anyway. I can have coffee. You be ok. Trust that all this is connected.

It's not a junkie hit. You get that this is leaning towards pain and you get the dopamine hit afterwards. You are changing your system. This is what i do here. It's not an experiment but a new process.

It's a system. I be enter this mode and it's all here. I have coffee now. Trust that this is all connected. You get how this works out. When you are you are. You already have it in you. Let's get going. 

fragmented ok is

 clarity is the gift? I got an insight yesterday. It is when i try ...not try, but think things through exclusively that i get triggered. 

I was trying to make sense out of incomplete information. And that's what the circumstance was. The local mind doesnt have the wherewithal to understand comprehend everything in creation. Hence, it went around in circles. If i had let go of getting an answer, i could have been in the experience awareness and be ok with it.

That's the point. I return to breath. This is the waareness. Aha. I've fragmented myself. You go back to breath. And then you see. You zoom out. You understand. You find insights, not answers. 

It's never complete--that's the point. But this is what makes it complete. That's the paradox. It's all in the paradox. And now you have a more understanding of this. Now you see. Fragmented. Complete. Whole. Empty that's the point.

Now you see. Now you move on. You have leveled up. You have are complete in this moment. This is th egift. You dont have to go there now. Just be. Trust know that this is all connected. Trust there is trust and not trust. Be in the awareness.

I can run later. Or not. I can play tennis later, or not. The point is that you have it in your awareness. This is the practice. You can be if it serves you. But how. You are better off aware that you are fragmented. You get there faster. If there is synchronicity you'd know. But this is the synchronicity. This is what's relevant. Else you wouldnt have awareness. You are framented.

And now you see. You get the whole body into the shot and not just the arm. This is the lesson. You got this. You are aware of it. Complete may not be the right word. But it can get there. You see that. Now you know. 

That one was on the other side. I guess fragmented doesnt will not show you the way. And i dont have to. Just this. This is the path. Rest days are on there. And you got this. It helps with motivation? That too is incomplete.

You are always motivated. It is the something lost my train of thought. This is desire? Observe. What do you get out of it. This is the point. It is the awareness. You deal with fragments. That's what this is. Not broken, but perfect as to where it is relevant.

I get that now. I see. This is what it's here for. I realise saw something and it made sense because i was in that frequency. Now you get it. I can have coffee after this. If i stay on, then so be it. But you got this now. You see. 

She meant well. You took it fragmented not complete and you saww not the big picture. But you get it now. You can move on. That's the point. You get this sorted and you know. This is what it's here for. 

Where else can you get this. It be nice to run with dog. How to get this sorted. I'm not really sure. But get him off leash and you can run while he explores. I can work with that. This is the workout for me. I can run barefoot again.

He's going to enjoy that. He has options and you can run around. He's not going to go away. He knows when to approac and not to. The point is, he too is enlightened being. He is awareness. He knows what's relevant for him. This you can let go and have control. 

Again, paradox. I can run later, or not. You have choice. I can go back to bed take a nap. It's all about choice. This is what's relevant for you. Once you know you have it, then it's gone. It becomes a choice. That's the point here. Now you know.

Now you have moved on. I am in this space. She dont have to know all these things. I see the questions come up. You dont have to. The thing is trying to get to the answers trip you up. You dont have to in real-time. You simply be.

And then all these things are added unto you. You got this. Now you know. It is time to head back. You got this anyway. And it is a definition. It is a perspective. I have choice. Every step of the way i have choice. 

aware what i identify with

 let's write, and then see if i can walk the dog later. You know see how these things ar. I dont like the run testers. It's mostly product reviews and not much gain i get from that. 

I like kofuzi. It's more personal and although reviews they have, i find it useful enough. I can see where the gaps are. I can build in this direction. It's more catering to those that need to do lifestyle changes. 

Or not. But i had a good run. I feel good. I needs breaks in between or the knees start to buckle. I had a rest yeserday. It was more than 24 hours rest and i only did tennis walls...not much running.

I can work this out. Every month before i add a kilometer, i go for a personal record. This sounds challenging enough. I got deep into this listening to that yoga retreat meditiation thing. When she left i was pretty ok, upbeat. 

Now you see. Now i have choice. Everything is out on the table. It wasnt about me after all. It was never about me. It was her insecurity. It reflected to everything she touched and i dont want any of that on me. Why did i blame myself. 

I was led to believe. Why am i on here again. At least it is in my awareness. What worked. Be in the experience. No more thinking about it. Just be in the experience. How do i work tomorrow. I can head out to city work in the library. 

But i cant do talk there. Where else is it possible. I can go to campus. I can work from the library on there. There is a campus in the city. I can go there instead. But it is the library. There are study places on tehre where i can talk.

You have plenty options in the city. At least it is different. But it entails cost. I can recharge off that thing. They have power outlets galore in the study rooms. I can work on that. 

What are my other options. After work, i can do something. I can head out to uniqlo. But the shoes could be delivered today. Ok. That is a factor. I run tomorrow after work. I used to run evenings. What happened there. I can get back to that. 

There are plenty of things to consider. I think daughter flies in on march. But i dont think so. She has a lot going for her already. Plus where is she going to sleep in. I'm not sure they are having that conversation already. 

Why do i even entertain that thought. It's not me anymore. Why is the thought even there. I see the identification. That's what you work with. That's teh thing. I can build on this. It is teh story anyway. 

I works again tomorrow to friday. Thursday i head out onsite. It's ok. I can work with the variety on there. It's all connected in this way. Trust that this is so. What are my other options. Just do this. Get to the other side. 

You get ho these things work. I can bring dog downstairs. Is this dyslexic. I can bring him to park. But there be no more dogs on there. Just get him excited enough. The brother takes him out during the day.

I think mornings. But there are times he doesnt want to go out. That's normal. I think things are ok in this way. This is what i identified with. Now i see that. Now it's not the same. 

It looks teh same but it is different. The awareness makes it way more different than same. And it's a different ballgame altogether. You can build in this direction. I messed up big time. I'm sure it's the same on that side of the court.

And now i can identify with this. Trust that this is so. I was more arrogant back in the day. Now i see it. It's not the same. You get how this works. Let's continue on. I can identify differently. I choose different. I choose clarity.

difficult reward balance

 write first, then have coffee. It's still early. I take the day off. What's that on his back. I can get me another carbon plate, or do something else.

I am bored. I am healing. But you can do without a crutch. Crutches dont help in the long run. I get that. What then. Just do this. Use up the energy. Get to the other side. You've been in this space before. That lapses. This is not enduring.

You want prefer choose enduring. I hang out with the kids, or i can do something else. How do you develop that. Wall is good. I get good mileage out of that. 

It's spelled with an e. But that's the thing about this language. It's like java. You want something like python. It would be ruby for me but the libs are hell. You dont want to get into gems. Python is easy as a simple include. But that's just me. I dont know much about this.

But you know people. You know yourself. I like this better. What can i do abotu this. It is the experience. You can go inside on motivation. You go have fun with this anyway. Then you can go far and wide. That's the point.

Finish these then have coffee. Do i want to run today. I can take it easy, then run tomorrow. I get back to work tomorrow for three days then it's ok. I can work this through. This is the difficult part and you let it be ok. You have the reward to look forward to.

It is the reward part, the silver lining that makes it work. If you go for reward without the balancing difficulty, it doesnt work as well. The enjoyment diminishes. It's like getting high on drugs. It's a shortcut. You get that part easy and relaxed swing.

But there are limits to this. Running is personal. You dont have to be the best but you still win. With tennis, you get to have your best days and still lose. The expectation insistence that you win is what trips you up. Simply go out there and have fun. 

It's still on sale, has dropped off significantly. If that why not this instead. It is about the run. I can do an unboxing on that. How do you make one then. You expand on this as far as it will go. You get into this and that. It is the quality of the message.

You get that. But if when you start falling that way, there are a lot of myths on this. You can work something out in the meantime. You get lazy. You put on cruches everytime. You get what all this is about. Do i get into that. I can do a video on that. 

Send it out soon as you are done. You dont have to latch on to these anyway. Simply get going get on the other side. When you get that sorted, you'll know what to do. You see how that is. Now you know. Now you move in this direction. Them be selling that and it's ok that way.

How do you help in this way. I think i see a path, but it's not rerelavt for me at this time. Get that plus the other one and you are scot-free. That is spelling but i dont have to go there now.

Tune in. Thi si is dr drive and you get this part anyway. It becomes well worth it because you have the process. It gets old in that way because that's no longer relevant for me. Continue on this way. Now you know. Now you see. There were questions about it.

Do i have to hear about that. Why not continue with this way. I think you see the point here. What are my options to this. Im not really sure. You can move on and forward now. Where do you find the connections. You already have it. You simply need to get going.

Ok. I see what you means there. Now you know. This is all yours and you are in this anyway. There is no cut-off. You simply are or processing this. That's the point. But you see it. Everything is out on the table. Why would i want to be on here. It's the underlying.

Aha. You see how that played out. Now you know. Now you see. What are my options here. I can go check that one out. I will look into this. I remove cache then restart. It works out in every which way. Now you done.

difficulty reward hit

 it should work now. I see the point. Delay gratification and you have more of that anticipation. That's the best part on there. But yo ugo direct it wears off and you get more pain. 

Leave it be then. You get the idea. Which font is this. I have coffee, but i write first. You go around. You make pain first, then you go for that. But isnt there a detriment to this. You see that. Now you know. Trust that this is so.

This is why asceticsm makes sense to some people. You delay gratification...you dont give in to urges for now. You give it time and when it's there you have more hit. That's what you do on here. You dont binge-watch on that. You simply get it running in the background. 

When you are ready, you will enjoy it more. This you see was what you are. Now you know. How do you choose to proceed. Now i see it. I dont have to go there. It doesnt have to be on there. Just do this. It is the anticipation that gives you the hit.

Now you get it. Let's do this then. You see how this works out. I think so too. What comes next here. You delay. You build on the anticipation. That's why it took that long. Now you see it. This is the reward mechanism. But they dont get that. You see how this works for you.

You use this. It is the hormone and you can work with that. You build on this. I get coffee but i do several things first. You go through pain, then you build on that. Now you make something happen. This is what you are processing. 

You want something but not give yourself one. You go around through a hurdle, then you attain. It doesnt have to be this and that. You get the idea. Got it. Now i build on this. It doesnt have to go through this. But you get the idea.

This is how we move on. When you want something, you put yourself through difficulty first, get that sorted then you reward. That's how you get things done. And this is what you have with running. This is the life you dont need all that.

Now you see. Now you get it. This is the point. And i learn something along the way each time. You dont go stuff yourself. You do something difficlut then you reward. What's another word for that. Get a hit. That's a junkie. I know. 

You get the idea then. Yo udont sit through this all day watching. You do something to get sorted, then you reward yourself. It can be one to one bu you get things done. That's the point. You can build on this together. This is how you work with the relationship.

It's how you build on something. You dont go rewarding yourself just like that because you can. You work through something then reward. I get that. Now you know. Now you build on this in every aspect that applies to you. That is irrelevant.

Things are quiet now. It used to be fun that way but i found a way. I get that. Last night was great. It was work but it was fun too. Then you continue in this path. You have this in place. 

When you reward, ask what difficulty i went through. Then you feel worthy to it. Now you know. How to build on this. You get the idea. It's what works with the human population. You dont go for that. You add difficulty along the way. 

It's about you. It's not her. You put it out there then you dont have anything to work with. Own it. Then you have all this in place. I can run later tonight. Or not. You can run later. I can do tennis in the afternoon. 

I can make it that way. You get the idea. Now you see how to build on this. It is this way and that. I think that part is interesting. I will go deeper into that. It's how you build habits. 

You build habits around this. Then you are spiraling in a positive way. I pay these off, do the milage then get me another one. That's what i do. I also build on the channel. I am working in this direction. You give ideas. You give guidance. Better yet, live as an example.

jumbled up but still

 i write, then have cofee, then work. It's like standing on the side of the road. You dont chase around what's in front of you. When your ride is here -- that issue or situation that needs your attention -- you hop in, go as far as it will take you, get off then observe what's around you. You dont go and chase the cars around.

That's what this is about. And this is positive for me. I like this. This gives me, unravels, unfold, reveals the hard-wired bliss joy that's already in there. It can be a wild ride, or a noisy one, but so be it. I have choice. I can get off or choose to make something out of it.

But the choice is mine all along. I dont have to. I am not pressed for time. I am not old and running out of time. This is an illusion. I am timeless. This is what's relevant for me. This releases me. I've used up the energy. I have no need or want outside of myself.

Now you know. Now you see. We can go this way or that. I am done with all that drama. I think you get what this is all about. Now you are free. I dont have to go there. It's not to pity that, but you see the freedom and you see your choices.

And this is where i am. I have coffee after this or not. It doesnt really matter. I have this. It doesnt matter what the perspective is. The awareness is the gem you have had al this time. 

You simply went running after every car that whizzed by. If that is your thing, so be it. But put your awareness into it. Know see what it is you are doing. Once you've used up the energy, when you are finally aware, you simply let go. You just be. 

This is what my practice is about. It feels good this way. This is what gives me joy. Bliss. You have not, then you are inside something else, not inside of you. It has consumed you. In actuality, it is your thoughts and emotions.

The experience of it is real then. This is what is inside of your awareness. You do not replace one for the other. This is the insight. Now you know. Now you practice. Now you see. I can go this wayor that, but you get the idea. The more interesting ones come in the after lunch.

Aha. That was an interesting case point. I can do more of this or that, or simply let go. Now you know. Now you get it. This is to move forward. People like these need help. You were instrumental in this process. But how can that be.

Now you see. You can simply walk away. There is horror in their minds and you have a choice to all this. Now you see. Now you get it. It's time to move on. What is here and now you are. Now you see.

I can have coffee when done, or not. You simply write. You are in bliss. This is what the channel is about. It is all about choice. It is general in nature. You do not have to be specific. You can go into details, but you have this anyway. You are.

And this is what's great. You dont save up money. You build up an audience. And then you have a business. It is a system you have. This is what you have. You have system. It's not a business. But a system. 

Now you see what's different about this. You have a system now that works. This is what's on the other side. You needed to go through this to appreciate the gem you've found. You dug through dirt and you now have the gem treasure.

This is the kingdom of god. It's not about religion. It is a metaphor. It's not heaven where old bearded men sit in judgement of you. You see what's different here. Now you know. You can go forth.

It's the mulitply part. This is here and now. It's all been jumbled up. But why would you do that. Why would they give away such a thing. It is this way and that. In a way...

What does that mean. You question because it is in yoru awareness. And the question is triggering the awareness. That void is where the answer is. You dont have to answer. Just be in that void. That's the point.

three saturdays to go

 it feels sad down here. It's different in this way. So this is how it feels like. I have the dog to keep me company. What does he want?

Three more saturdays. It feels like forever...it feels the same, but it's all different this time. That's the point. It is different. Even if it were just this, it's not the same anymore.

Me determines how i respond to this. It's good to retreat on this. Imagine i am on a retreat and practice mindfulness. It's tough this way, but that's the point. I migth as well fast as well. 

I just got back from tennis. I am hungry, but i dont feel like eating anymore. I saw earlier that it doesnt matter what's on the outside. It's what you are from the inside. It's the clarity inside. 

It's not what you think the future is going to be like. Why be sad about it. Who knows. What can i do different here. I run tomorrow. I fast tonight then run tomorrow morning. 

This kicks in the dopamine reverse. This lasts me through to lunch, more so later. I can go for that. I can live off the coffee. I was feeling anxious this morning but i made it through. 

The thing is to keep redefining. It may look bleak, but that's the old me looking into the past, projecting the past into the future. It may can be like that, but it is entirely different in every way.

You get this. You have guidance. Trust that this is part of the synchronicity. I have the audience im building up. Just do this get to the other side. You dont have to be in that league, but you get the point. I can go for marathon by november next year.

I think i can build a good base itm. I can finish that race marathon, but it's not going to be so fast. It's something i keep going onto. I've always wanted to join one. This time around i think i have enough momentum going for me.

I am starting a channel on this. What comes next. How to bring that thing with me. I'm not really sure. But you have this anyway. I can order another one. This is long enough. It's enough for now. I can look for that other one.

I think i know where it is. ...it's not there. Keep open. You'll see where it is. In the meantime, just work with what you have. It's around here so you'll find it somehow. At least this one looks ok.

I can easily order another one if needed. In the meantime, just do this. What comes next. I'm not really sure. I can work something out. I have this much on here. You get where this is going. 

I dont have to dwell on that. Just work your way through to three saturdays. That's i dont know. I forgot. That's not 21 days. I can countdown into that. Or not. Just enjoy the moment.

You can't wish it to be here. You are not in teh moment this way. I can write abou these things. There is work. There is tennis. There is running. I have the channel to grow. I can ...i am going to be ok. 

For one, the fasting plus running just feels great. Get to that frequency each and every morning. It's going to tide you over and you'll feel great about this. Trust the timing. You get how this works.

I am getting sleepy now. Finish up then get ready for bed. I can wake up early and then get to work. I have naps in between. You get how to work with this. Everyone is on the same boat. You have synchronicity.

two more sats

 what's happening there. I go for a run. I run two days, rest one day. This keeps things going. Tennis, not much atm. That's ok. It's more like rest days for now.

January things pick up again. Wife be back playing from injury. This takes up most of the weekends. Does it get old. It can. But it's a choice. You can opt in on that yourself. 

You see the difference on here. It is the elegance. That's the point. It's beautiful on there and you get how all this is connected. In a beautiful run, you can do ten k.

And it's a great feeling on there. You get a high throughout the day. I can sit on my chair and work this way much. You get the idea. Lets expand in this way see what you get out of it. 

I connect and its all great this way and i build on this continue in this direction. You get the point. I dont have to stay in one place for long. I choose. I prefer this. I repeats every now and then. It's ok this way.

What are my options. You choose. That's the point here. It is this way and that. You provide to yourself and you get the point. I can have coffee. I put that in the freezer for throughout the day i have this. 

Will it affect the mix. I fast after lunch. I sleep through this and it is all connected in this way. That's the point. I continue with the whole foods . I am thinking and it is not. You can connect in this way. 

You build on this and what are my options here. He is ok i think. That's what i am here for. And it grows in this way. This is what we do here. I get that this is connected. I have this much. 

I dont want that life. I can choose. What are my options. I am playing it safe. Is there something else i can do. I think you get all this anyway. What comes next. I am not really sure. 

But you see that. Why should i stay. I can continue on in my journey. This one is complete. I am looking for safety net. What is that thing. I am not sure. But i can run. I can choose.

Not run away from, but just this here and now. I have much in place anyway. Let's see how it goes. That is the point. You have much in this way. You get the point. Is this the truth already.

I can work something out. I can build on this. This isnt much and you connect. You blank the mind and it's still going through in the background. Can i work something out on here. You know the answer. 

I have this way and that. I dont have to. I have choice. I dont check that and i can work something out. In the meantime, why go there when we have this comms on here. I can check things out in that way.

You have this way and that. I have plunty and you can see where this is going. It doesnt have to go that way there. But you get the idea. How many are doing that. You have an edge here. 

Let's build in this direction. You can work your way around this and it builds momentum with this. That was fun wasnt it. Now you get going as well. You see how this works out.

You get asked back and i can see what to make out of it. You get the point. I think i would have made something out of it. Let's get going. You know what to make of this.

one day to weekend retreat

 write first coffee after. I have time. I reset password if that doesnt work. I think she has ego mind active all this time.

What now. I'm not sure. Zoom out. You chose this. You can choose otherwise. It'd be great to be out there on weekends. I can go there. But the bike needs fixing. Trust the timing then.

I finish these then continue on. I've been journaling for a long time now. This too is connected. I can use that to connect. But you have all this in place. Use it to go deep into mindfulness.

It's the experience. Savor. You dont have to exclude such thoughts. Where else can i work then. It's nice on here. Library too is good to be in to work. You have plenty options. 

I can look into that. Where else do you need to be next. I think you see how this is connected for you. Let's go there next. And i can be in this phase. No need to wear uniform like that. But it can be exclusive uniqlo. Or hnm. 

That makes sense. Let's look into all that. You get how this work.s trust the timing on this one. You have much in place anyway. It is this and that. You get where this is going. I dont have to go on there. Just do this.

I have choice. Every step of the way there is choice. I think i need to change that script. Or not. You see how this one shifted. It is on that side and you got this. Trust that this is so.

I think they can meetup or something. It is all here and now. If they know, that keyboard has a lot on there. You get where this is going. I think the username is there the same way. This i want to see. Is it possible. Or not. 

You get the point. The point here is that it happened for a reason. It is up to you to make that positive or negative. This retreat is positive. Then i go on here. That is the vows. Clarity im. This is what the vows are. These are my lifelong vows?

Not vows, but clarity. I am clear about who i am. That's the point. I am in this place. And i am mindful. Thisis my clarity. This is who i am. I have coffee throughout the day anyway. I write and i connect. You have this capacity.

I can write about this here. What are my options. I think you can have a look at this. I dont have to but it is an interesting option. Let's get into that. I think he has insulin issues.

How then. I'm not really sure. Just do this. Everyone has that. You get how this is connected for you. It is the dopamine rush. I can look more into that. Not going to uni means you have more options on here.

I have choice. I can make video on there about this reverse dopamine approach. It is interesting and this is what delayed gratifications are about. You delay so you get a better, longer duration hit of dopamine.

How do you test that. You experience it yourself. You have issues, you know where to refer that. I can stay here and be good at this. Or not. They always need one in there that works out. I think you see the point. You experience.

You get good at this then. You can work through that and see how to get sorted. Why spend time on there. You must have a hobby that makes sense. It's why it is here anyway. I can go for that instead. You get the idea.

Work this way through and you have the weekend coming up. It's all good. That one is going around and you have this in place anyway. Trust that this is so. You got this. What are my other options. Finish up

setting up work

 this seems ok a setup. I works today. Mondays. I can move the thing here, but the real work-horse is in the laptop. 

The issue here, situation is that everything else is on here. You know the answer already. Just move on. Continue on wit the work and you cane something else later on anyway. 

Or simply get into that stay there and everything else is on here. You get how this is. Lets try that. I did not run today. I decided three days running needs deserves worthy of a break.

I can build on this. It's youtube and everything else running on there plus the research i be needing. It's just the notes and all that goes into there. But you get the point. Let's work with this then. How else.

I can do so on outlook. There must be a different notes for that. Do word on he app. It gets updated into that later on. Plus you have plenty serch on there anyway. What are my other options.

I think you get the point. I can do something with the app and it gets updated automatically. Simply get this sorted already. You get hwhat needs to be here. Is it the foam or something else.

Plus how good is it glued on together. That used to be an issue and with today's tech, there should be something else. I can use the email function to move notes around. But then again, you need different. How else. 

It'll come up. You get how all this works. It takes a few seconds to send that. She flies off thursday. I needs to continue on. Just one moment at a time. You get how all this works out. Be the better person. Be the more positive.

Be. Experience. Choice. That's what all this is about. And you can always go this way and that. Plus it doest have to be one percent. Its this and that. You get the point. I will find my way through this. Trust that this is connected.

You get the idea. Is there a different way through this. I think you already know that. What are my other options. I look into this anyway. Why is it not that one. I'm not really sure. 

It is the customisations. It is less baggage on there. You move around in this way. You have much on here that works out. What then. It is this and it's ok not to be happy anyway. I can read through that. 

Is it really low heart rate. That complicates a lot of things. You know that to be true. What are my options here. It's been a month. I'm not keen about it. That is the stop you have in between. 

You simply get on with your life and get with the program in this way. That thing was way quiet than before. I think that one is too early and who whould that be. I gave her privacy and look at what she did. 

That doesnt reflect on you. It's not about you in any way. Why feel bad negative about it. You have insitstence. Now you use it through this way and that. You get the point. 

I can listen to that later. Or not. You simply set things up and see what you get out of it. I know. Use up th e energy. You use up the energy and move on this way. I have cross training.

I run in between or rest days on there. It is part of the equation. You dont want burn-out. You simply go out and have fun with this. That's the point. What else is there. I can look that up. You get that. Let's get going.

morning pages after

 that is a clear sign of overdose. It's getting the outside first before the inside is filled in. That's the issue there. How then.

I can head out for a run tomorrow. I can do this my everyday thing. But not too daily. Maybe every other two days. I used to do it this way. How come the font looks too thin this way. Which one goes first? 

Do the one that's closest and easiest for you. I can do the shoes. But is this something i can do something on here. I'm not really sure. Just do this. That one is sick but they dont have much on there. You get this.

I learned much this morning. It was a good experience. It was positive for me. And you see why that was so. Now you expand in this direction. Tomorrow is friday. There is tennis. I can head out to tennis then play. I run then tennis at night.

I be sitting on here all day anyway. Is that positive. I think it is like every other day. That be like tues thurs saturday or sunday. Maybe both. That's four times. Plus weekends when she gets back but then again there is something else.

What are my options here. We have two and i wonder if this other one comes along. But this is what is here and now. You get that. What are my other options. I think you see. You get that. I need to be doing this and that i repeat myself unto that.

But you get it. I was focused too much on that. I went through a lot. I know. But you gainde clarity all that time this time. I feel like it. You know. And that makes it worth the effort experience process.

Did i write the past few days. I'm not really sure. But this is where i am. Trust that this is connected. I am tired. I can make something happen over the weekend. Just do this then. 

That would work. I think we can work something out. I like this chair than that one that is flavor of the month. I have much on here and this is where we are. These are comedy relief. 

I have that booked and people be transferring funds and to play tennis. That pays for the court. And i can work with that. We be there anyway for the christmas dinner. This is among friends and it's fun that way.

I get that. It is positive in this way. Now you know. There's so much on here that you see the reflection. That's the point. Do i need to go. I can skip that. But i can run through the weekend. 

I rest up tuesday. That's a long way from here. I can do one hour. That be more than enough. I can work wit that. I wonder how distance that is. Could be less than a km or something like it. At least it doesnt cross the street. 

It is ...i lost my train of thought. Which one do you lose in the blink of an eye. Your train of thought. Aha. That could be on to something. I am sleepy. I could have run earlier. I know.

But just do this. I have choice every step of the way. And you simply do this. Get to the other side. I can stay like that way and you get how all this works out. I extednd in this way. You get that.

But i am to finish these soon. I can get me another one but that is like weeks from now. The next one is near christmas. She'd be gone off by then. This is the life now. I know. Trust that it is all connected in this way. I set that up anyway.

It's already downloaded. You simply need to get the password reset. I can work with that. How to use it on here. I can do wine. I can look into that instead. It's just that jabber that's the problem.

tennis at balwys 9

 what's he up to now. I start works on thursday. This is the thing now. I'm ok with this. 

What happened then was what's relevant. I had a great day yesterday. It was about choices i made for my self. That's what all this is about. I can work that later. Finish this. I can have coffee.

I've been doing this for more than twenty years. You should see the junk i've accumulated. That one moves from here to there. What can i do about it. I can have coffee. That's not short term solution or stuff.

And you get how all this is connected. Trust that this is so. I build into this over time. Just do this. Get to the other side. Plenty of things here and there. Trust that it is all connected. I have coffee.

Is she headed out. I can ask, or i go myself later. But i ask her later. I head out in a moment. And then we spend christmas alone this way. And what comes next. That is a terrible thing to do. 

But they have their back against th ewall. Still. You have choice. And people will do that. I can swap things around after this. Something's amiss with that hard drive. I can move things around later.

It was good. I can make me another one. And it's within that price range. Get over this hump then. Why would you do such a thing. Not sure. But they think they are disempowered. What about that one. It is a process. Where do these things come from.

Where would they go. How come that one was saved and not this. It is the knowing? It could be. Or it can be a lot of other things. I have coffee and move on. This is what's relevant for me. 

It is all connected. This works out and you get how it is here for you. Simply continue on and see what you get out of it. I dont like but there's a lot here you dont like. Still, things turned out positive for you.

I get that part. What comes next on here. You simply use up the energy in this way. You raised that way and you have that in place. You see how it goes. But i was mean there. You know. 

Let's get going. He was a good person. I was mean. And now things are full circle. I get that. This is the karma then. I know. So be it. Let it be ok. Now you have awareness into this. It was part of the process.

What do i do now. You continue on. I can get to work just do this. I would rather live my life. I know. I get that. But this is what's relevant for you now. I can warm up that way.

People connect through the sport. You can shorten the typing. I think you can verify that but not now. Finish up then continue on. Do i type faster than the image background changes.

If so, that's ten minutes. You can do something different on here and you get the idea. This here is nice. You see why this is here then. You have everything in order this way. You simply countdown from there.

That's not relevant for me. What else can i do here. That's like amazon but individualised. Can i work something out on here. It is this and that. There are a lot of ways to work things out.

You can be this and that. What comes next here. You build into that. I dont know. Just get to the other side in this way. Trust that this is connected. I'll work on that by that time.