fasting mode me. I dont have to tell her, but as relationship transparency and all that, i will. I am not taking the course. It's not me. I would am exploring failure if it were if i were to label it.
I need to be authentic. Doing the nursing job isnt me. I'm doing it for her just so she'd think highly of me. That's not me. I'd give her the option. I dont want that. If it's not acceptable for her, then i move on.
What then. Continue on this path. You get what this is all about. Trust the timing. You know what you are doing. I am fasting until wednesday night. That's the context right there.
I dont have to put more energy into it. The awareness itself changeds that. I can go this way and that. I can say that i chose this not her. I can be mum about it. But i am no longer going to be there.
Shestill chose that path and i guess it was part of her exploration. Now things are not the same. I guess it was meant to be so. But still i give my self choice. This is what i give her as well. I think different. I'm not sure if this is positive.
Ok. No more invalidation. Is this what i prefer. I build up on that now. Trust the timing. You get what this is about. I build up on that account. Let's get going. You know what to do here.
Fast until then. Build up, break down with autophagy. I do three days this week. I continue on. This is the path for me. Where is the phone. Do three days then continue on. This i raised frequency.
It's not the same. It's different now. Do you want to go that way. If it were to be so, let it be. This is part of the equation. It's going to be weak this time. Let it be so. You get what this is all about.
You can work something out, or not. But it is quiet on there and it's not the same anymore. Let it be so. Trust the timing on this one. You get what it's about then. I think i remember it wrong.
Or not. You see what this is about. How come it got quiet on there. Do i talk to her later about it. Or do we do so now. I'm not sure. She wont be thinking about ithere and now. Did she think about things back then.
Aha. It's not the same. She might go back. She might hide it again. She did so last time. Why would things be different this time. Because it's not thesame.
Forget about it. Let's move on. This is what's next. I'm not going on there now. Trust the timing. I can simply do this one instead. She says it's going to be paidback once i get going. That's what i thought back then. I did not pursue it.
Is it the thinking then. I had all the time in the world but things broke down. Why is it here this way. What can i do different here. Do i want to go there. Just do this instead.
I am conflicted. Maybe it's time to move on. I give you choice because that's what i want for my self. Should i wake her up. Wait until then there and you can talk things over. Is it different now.
I can take a nap later but then again, i'd have to leave much later. It's not the same. The promotions are not there anymore. It's only there when theyneeded more on the field. But it doesnt work that way anymore.
I continue on to the next page then. Dog is outside. It's starting toget cold again. I guess this is what the reflection is about. How come it feels sad this way. It's over and done. It's not the same.
