it's sad it had to be this way, but it is. This is what's relevant for you. Trust the timing. It is stable but unhappy. It is indifferent.
I blame outside, but it doesnt work that way. Simply move on. If you were on that space, blames self. Dont have the awareness to knowself doesnt know self. That's the point. How do i get my answers then.
It comes from self-awareness. You have this, you can equate but on the level of this not of that. You can move on now. It's not the same. It looks like hat but maybe it was about me.
Does it. Then i'm no longer needed here. The energy is used up. It's notthe same. It was aperception and now i see it was an illusion i have of my self. Now i move on. It's not the same.
I dont want to carry baggage that isnt mine. It's not my baggage. Why should that be then. Why focus on that. I cant change that. Go in this direction. I am headed in this direction. It's not the same anymore.
What can i do different then. I gave it a shot. It's not there anymore. I'm not the one. If so, i am. That's the paradox. Maybe i over-thinkthis. If so, letthe wave pass. Let the cycle turn.
Use up the energy by not doing anything. Sit on this. But it is stable unhappy. Am i unhappy? Definitely so. What makes me happythen. Not with her.
Ouch. That took a moment to sink in. The kids are grown up now. I can move on. I did my best on here. This ishow i useup theenergy. Write it out.this way i donthave tothink much about it.
Is tennis a band-aidsolution then. It is not. I am having fun on ther. What is band-aid if any. That we talk. We do not. There is no connection. At least not from me. I try but there is not much self-awareness on that side. But then again, i project who i am.
This is the learning experience. To make this positive. We went our separate ways but it's because she left not me. I was left holding the bag so to speak. The baggage. What can i do about this. Move on. You cant change the past.
It's here again, i know, but thisis what it's like. You get how all these things work out. Let it be so. Use up the energy. You have knowledge on all this. When have you seen a dev bileted in a hotel.
They get paid much but it is an expense. This too you know. How do you change these things. It's gone spiritual. You are past that. It's different now. It was fun, but it goes a deeper higher more intense feeling on the physical.
Look into this.the keyboard needs retouching. How do you fixthat. You dont. At times it issomething you let happen fall into place. And now you know. Now you get it. What then.
I'm done with that level. Let's explore this spirit thing then. Do fourth density. Things are way different from this perspective. But what is that perspective. You know what itis.
Do i want to go there. It is all connected in this way. Do i want to do that. I was repeatingthat. So be it.
You can work this way and that. Can i build in this direction. How many want to be in that space. You sell thesizzle. How is that. I dont know what itis.
