new dinner experience

they have hotels with mall lobby. What then. That was good dinner. Dessert. It felt like overkill in the end. Too spicy. But it was good. I'd go back for another but not soon. Seafood causes gout :(

what then. Waiting for daughter if pickup after work. Otherwise, we get start work on this. I can watch the video so i'd know what i'm doing tomorrow. Is there anything new around here. I can check. 

HOw come he did not have pizza? I am stuffed. I have one meal a day starts tomorrow. I made video today. I do one every day. The tennis videos go once a week now so i have more time for the other. The tennis ones take hours to finish.

But that one has momentum to it. HOw come filos look similar in that regard. It's the food that they are exposed to. What is this place? I'm not sure. I dont think i know this area anymore. Would i go back? 

I dont think so. It doesnt resonate with me anymore. I need to clean up. Do i shower. I can shower tomorrow. I head out for a walk tomorrow, do yoga, then do my video. I start work on that tonight.

That's the job basically...or in a nutshell. And this has long term potential than the job itself. It goes on even without me. That's the point. But how do i position the message in that way. That you dont need to go there anymore. 

You can create a business on tehre. It is a feared...is this something you want to see. I cant read the horizon anymore. Maybe it is along edsa. But it doesnt look like it. Would you go there. Jsut do this. Finish this in one year.

Or continue with this one. Finish this one here. Do i go poop now? Finish these then go there later. For now, only do this. That one is behind me now. Plenty disconnect. But i dont have to. I am was in survival mode. That was necessary then. 

What now. Started healing. Rest up. Clean up. That's the thing. Gets started already. You know what to do on here. HOw come you know these things. You invest in the long term anyway. 

That's plenty unnecessary. Finish these. You shower tonight? I can skip that. I'm stuffed. Dinner was good and heavy. That was a new experience. That's the point. The experience is different. I'd rather have new different experience.

I did what i can. I did my best in the meantime. It really drained me. I had to get my self out of there. Otherwise i'd resent much about it. The healing would be or the hurt would be irreversible. Now it's done. You are out of there. You are safe now.

Safe in such a way that there is still unknown, but it is different. This is learning, but not toxic negative. It can be but this is not toxic. I prefer growth in this direction. You have choice every which way. I choose to put my self first.

Why would there be cats in public common areas on there. Less people there. It could be that public area near that area. I think so. I used to bike there a lot. Now things are different. Would you go back to that.

It is a possibility. It always is. But not now. It'll shift into that. You'll know. Not right now. And let it be ok. I learned much in that process. I lost clarity for a moment. But that too is part of the process.

HE did not pee. I am not getting up from here. HE is not insisting on it anyway. What time then. I think we head out for a pick up. It's late. I would i be driving soon. I get that later. HE's asking for it. 

HE did not pee but he's asking for treat. What happened there. I need to ask about that next. In the meantime, just do this. You know what to do about these things. Trust that this is connected still.