And that's not what i prefer. I dont know what but i can allow for this void to be here use up the energy. And i do this by fasting. The sooner i get over this by using up the energy, then the frequency goes up. Not because of expectations of how things should be, but just to feel good about me, here and now.
That sorts things out. Son didnt go to school today said there was occasion in school. His mom was ok with it so go for it. I did my walk. I was teetering towards grabbing something to it, but thought better something else about it. What comes next. Not really sure at this time.
Continue on this path. It's been solid synchronicity left and right. Keep at it. No expectations though. Just get right to it. And finish these pages. Post then you are off to teh races. I take five in between though just to get me in the mood or something. Can i have coffee? Done with that. Tomorrow we go out west with some new friends.
Let's see how that goes. What comes next. Not really sure. It's just this, not much into it. I just write. Let it be so. Let this be ok. Not much happening and it's like that after you plant a seed, or growing a tree. You dont see much action but give it ten years and you have a strong and solid tree.
I can go with that. I'll write here and now, do nothing much. I'll go check things out later. The first one was solid. The sequel fell flat on its face. Was it the writing or direction? I dont know. I'm not in that field so i cant see what happened. I guess it's not relevant at this time.
Son be getting ready to clean up the living room. I cut me toe nails. It's back short again. It takes a month or so between cuttings. Used to be once a week but they dont grow that much anymore. Plus i find it difficult to bend over at this time. The tummy is in the way.
It's why i fast. Teh original plan was five days, but i can break tomorrow. Can i? Then i can resume the following week get that straight through. I guess we can do that. Or something else. At least it's moving in this direction. Then i can have that lunch then.
When not much is happening, you fast. Then you'll have enough autophage happened and get on with your day. I think that's the right word there it is a noun or something. It's a name for the process that happens inside your body. Is it biochemistry. Is that something i can get into? Not sure. But the trend is headed that way.
Trust the timing then. I'll get into that and see how it goes. We goes out tomorrow. I wonder if she'll bring something along, i dont know. We do grocery afterwards. Or somtehnig like that. But this be my battlestation. I didnt see that there so i think they have laptops galore for everyone. Or not.
Son saw it there and things be different. To get to that point you gotta have a change in perspective. You see things different and you shift. You do things from that energy add that to the pee. I changed that back so it's e is netural and from the awareness and not outside in.
And you can pick up from there. It's either passive or you create things but it's always the latter. The wrist still has pain so it is taking a while to heal. Next thing you know it be gone. And you get all that. You have much to go through. You get there when you get there. I can look into that as well. For now, only do this.
I sent message asking what dinner is. I dont know if she has anything planned that way. I can throw that one out or something. It be there one more day i suppose if i take a break tomorrow. I'll get over tonight dinner then break tomorrow. Sunday, what do we usually do?
I cant remember. She used to work weekends. I dont want to go through that again. But this thing is taking another month or so. Do uber. I can am looking into that. It's why i fast. Once i get into that zone, then i get into it. One more week? I guess so, then i'm good to go.
Ok. But how does she feel about that. The costs are lower this time here local but she sends out to rent and stuff. I guess it moves forward. Finish these then get on with it. Does it have to be that or something else i can do. Not sure, but this here works out for me. I guess you see the pattern but things be different now.
Then you have something in here. What can i do about it. You cut it pretty close. It's good as gold. What else be tehre. Not sure. Pay attention. Put your awareness into it. That's how you use up the energy. I can do that. What comes next. I get on with this one then see how it goes.
I can read my book while there. Or not. The point is to have this in here and see what comes out of it. But it gets boring until it's not. You see what that is. Things are different. You cant go back because everything is here and now.
