she drew first blood, not me. She quit on me first. She wasnt honest with her relationships. I was and before anything serious happened, i let her know about it--and she mocked me for it.
But i dont dwell on that. I found myself drifting away. I spend more time outside with work and photography. I guess this is it then. It's time. It's not invalidating. It is simply an observation.
I did not get to play much yesterday. Things got busy in the morning. When things slowed down, i was low-bat. I simply went through the day to finish everything. And it's not high-income dinks. I'm not there anymore. These are the people you see at camp with all the toys.
They are trying to squeeze everything into something a short period of time just so they can get back to their high-paying jobs come monday. It's nice to have all them toys, but at what price. I get the synchronicity of it all. I choose the latter.
Everything else flows through synchronicity. It flows through you. I see that. I have this experience. Do you have to cut down trees that way. What if everyone else were to do this. Not everyone has this much awareness. You can work something out.
What about all these photographers. They are building their skill. But they are chasing after luck. It doesnt come from lack.the frequencies are different. What then. Observing mind. You are open. You resonate with the something.
I dont know where this is headed. But i sense that there was a shift somewhere. I'm not sure... I am simply open. I observe. It's in my awareness. Why is he talking. Show, dont tell. That's what all this is about. And then you know see.
Talk and your videos dont last very long. People dont resonate with it. These videos run in the background and people watch it. You can talk about things but it is not the same. What can i do different. I can talk about other things.
Aha. That one is different. You have much in store here. How then is this relevant. I woke up some time after 3am. I can go back take a nap at six or seven. I get up late. I can have coffee later after the nap. I can work that way.
I think she goes to costco later. I cant join her. I have work. I choose to work. I wont be here weekend. Is there something else i can do here. Next stop, i would rather work the weekend. This is so much fun.
You go in their circle and things get different. They have more expensive toys, but hardly use it because work. It's the time and space. It's the experience that counts most. I see that now. What are my options here. I can use the other bag.
It's the two hours coming home that i need to process. I see that now. I dont have to go the whole thing. Simply get through that two hours, go to bed and you are good to go. Now i get that. Let's get going.
What next. Finish up, then i dont know. I can have coffee now. Son seems to be asleep. I feel like i lost touch with what is happening around here. Trust the timing. Use up the energy in this way. You'll know what to do.
I saw that opportunity. I simply get into this and see what you get out of it. You see how the videos come out. You dont have to do that one. Simply take the trip during the week, make the video, come back.
You'll need plenty batteries with this one. I can work something out. Why not find relevance here and now. I see what you mean there. What happened on here. I can have coffee take a nap then go.
Let's do that. This resonates with me. That bus is up early. People are headed off to work. It's not the same. Things are different in this way. I'm not going back there. That doesnt work for me. I can build something else. Let's do that then.
