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 should i be reading those instead. I write first. I think we are on track. Do i need to go through them details? I have the book. I can read at a leisurely pace.

Would you rather go through that. I think it's a bum thing. It could have. This would have been moot. Do you want to go there instead. I dont know. This is too much work. But going in that direction also requires work.

I'd rather stay here. Would you get into this. If it stays above that ice-line, then i open on the trib. Let's go then. What's dog doing. Is that a phone call happening. Is she truly done with it. That part i needs to read about.

It was vicious. How do i continue with this. You have stuff to keep you busy. Continue on this path. I can claim shoulder is sore. She'd still go. I can hang out and do stuff. Or not. It's going to rain the rest of the week.

It wouldnt. You get forecasts like these and it never lasts more than three days. That was a bum six years. You have a roadmap to healing. Keep to this. You'll know when to add more and stuff like that. I reads about these things then.

Do i have to watch over her. I be accessing these stuff. It's not choking, but rebuilding trust. I be accessing those anyways. It's a daily grind then. So be it. Is she going to delete stuff. If she was sincere about it, she wouldnt.

Ok. Let's go back to that. I was feeling more secure this way. What's dog up to. I can head out. But will that support the narrative. She was good at hiding, but not that good. I wasnt paying attention. 

Things are different now. I need to be less trusting but more verifying. We can go through all that. It comes in and there could be a backdoor. How would you work on that. It could be the work laptop. But she's not allowed to install. 

It can be a website then. An anonymous email account that they send to. You'll need to see the sent messages and deleted inbox. I can go through that at the start or end of the day. I am paranoid but it's because i have wants.

Did the system fail us? It seem like it. It feels like it. How then. Do you go short on that. If it closes below, then you see more downside to this. I can claim that. Is she going then. I can work less or so.

She be buying stuff from the grocery. You see how this works out in this way. If she was sincere, which i think she is, then we can work things out. But she has to be transparent about these things. 

Ok. I have these things in place. I be checking them when. At the end of the day when i'm on this side. It comes in, easy to delete. Which way am i going there then.

I can check from the router level. I did not see them there before. How else. I be access from the hardware level. You dont have to go there. But you see how all this works out. Does she use them. I can have a look.

She goes through that and i have access. She wakes up at eight. It rains tonight. That's good enough. Soon as the rain is done we can head out for more explorations. But this is on track. I think we have a shot at this.

Trust the synchronicity of in your life. This is what needs to be here. You can expand on this later. For now, it's only this. You have opportunity for spiritual growth here. Trust the timing.

It works out this way and that. You know the drill. Do i have to go through every chapter? Not really. When i have healed, i can work through those. But not now. I can look into them. Not now. Work with healing.