is it worth it to go into triggers/dwell on the past? It can be if there's something to learn from it. But if i simply go there to not learn, then what's the point? I think it is ego trying to control things where it cant.
It's not the ego's job to do that. I can ride get the coke box. It's too heavy at this time. Go for that one instead. Ride, then get the cokes. I fast today? How far can i take this. It rains anyway.
Ok. If it rains at lunch, i can get a box for lunch. That works out this way and that. Son left for work. It's his second day so i guess this works for him. How many in the shop? Idk. But it is work experience for him. He gets to go out anyways.
I can go talk to him. But he knows what this is all about anyways. Trust the synchronicity. You have all these tools for you to use. Let's get going then. Wife is at work. I know what or how concentration is about at that level. You get to work on the creative side.
I guess it was all me. This is me accepting responsibility for my actions and more importantly, failure to take action. It is what it is. These things happen for a reason. The meaning you put into it is the result you get out of it.
I know there is a positive in this. I stay open in the inquiry. I stay with the question. This way, it can come in through different channels. Trust the timing of your life. There's something here for me anyway. You get how this works.
I dont have to go that way. I dont think she's that kind of person. But this did happen for a reason. Trust the timing on this one. It can be an issue. The kids are affected. I'm affected in a deep way. But this showed me things i would never thought i something.
This is the purpose then. I can work with this. Is it going to rain? It looks cloudy but it's high clouds. If it does rain, i can come home later. But it is three days of rain. I dont have to go anyway. Let's see how this works out. You have the rest of the week.
This is my synchronicity. It's all connected. What are my options on here. You get to see these things. That's the point. I do the mail thing, ride out to that take it easy. Then i come back and do the coles for lunch while she's working.
I get that. I dont think it's headed there. But if it does, i can look into other things as well. I dont have to dwell on that. Is she going there? We'll see. If he is careful, which i think he will be, then there's no way for me to catch that.
Trust the timing. I can choose to dwell on that protect mode but that shuts me down. I choose not to dwell on that instead. I trust that she knows better this time. It can be that she forgives him, but it can be this is a better pull now. Is it just the excitement?
It feels like it. The responsibility did not kick in before. The only thing that's different is that channels of communications are broken. Does she miss him? I suppose so. The kids know. This is what's different. They hinge on how i am doing. I think she's invested on that.
So be it then. I can dwell on the past, or focus on positive change. When i get lost or dwell on the past, i check in on my mission statement. This works? It does. Also i keep myself busy. This helps as well.
I can do walls today. She goes to tennis. If it rains, i can head back. Otherwise, it's a rest day. I can extend on different days later on. This works for now. Also, weekends are cool, but it is for hers as well. I focus on weekdays then.
Finish up then hang the laundry. Let's get going on this one. I can do other things. For now, finish these. What's happening. Finish up and there's more laundry to go through. Simply do this get to the other side.
I think i can finish these right here. Is it going to rain. It seems like it. But clouds are still high. It could, but if it doesnt, then it's not going to rain the rest of the week. I have a day off then. I worked four days? Maybe three. That's good enough. You know what to do.
