my task is to rebuild. You're not a priority now. Maybe as my kids' mother but only because they are the priority and not you. The relationship is different. It's always changing. Everything changes. Cant fight that.
The issue is was that i wanted more. But it was more of the illusion you put up. I cant have that anymore. I move on. I have a framework to get me through. I build different. I build on solid foundations now. You can work to be part of that...this world, but it's different.
I'd rather go solo than be with you. You do not put any effort into the conversation. You talk better with your friends. I thought...i had the illusion that you were my friend. But it was all a lie. It was decades of lying. Who wouldnt die of that. It's different now.
I accept that i fooled allowed myself into this. I bought into my own illusion that you were someone i missed out on. But that too is an illusion. Perhaps the next decade i'll focus on this business. I think this is what got me through. I see things different this way.
Tennis? It can be part of that. But it's not sustainable. It hurts much. I started on this process to shift frequency. This is the going to the airport or portal into a different dimension frequency experience. It's tough, but the mental spiritual side to this is tougher.
I'll go through this physical fast and come out the other end. Raising my frequency in the process plus that feels-better feeling helps with the reflection. Not that there are expectations, but this is a gateway portal i should have gone into years ago.
I gave my self the chance. It did not happen. I continue on. It's not the same. I deserve am worth better. I am worth the best i can get or reflect back to me. HOw do you say that. But it's not the same. I work on this business for now. It seems uncertain, but that's where you find more of your self.
So what now. Nothing. I can take the day off. But there's so much to learn. That's the idea. The learn part is amazing and it reflects back and spirals into a higher frequency level. HIgher not meaning comparison but on a physics level.
Like there's more energy passing through, like water through a hose. There's higher water pressure with more water coming through. That's what i meant by higher frequency. I can relate to that water hose. I feel a tummy ache. Like warm in my tummy.
I needs to hang the laundry, do yoga, head out to walk. I slept through last night. I thought i'd be spending the night wide awake. But i practiced mindfulness. That's what i do now. I did not walk yesterday and the other day because of rain. The weather looks better now.
Is it a holiday still? I dont think so. I had a taste of finding a bug. It was out of scope, but that's how you find them. And this is what i do now. Is it open scope? It could be. But i learn this and can expand on this. That's the point. Trust that this is all connected.
Shoudl i learn about eth development? It can be that way. You get to see more. But if it's not relevant anyway, it's not going to be in your experience. Trust the timing on this one. You'll know what is relevant or not. I can go another in the toilet. Or head out walk already.
Too early. Do this. Get to the other side using up the energy. I think they started out strong, but what shifted. I think i can work on that video later. Not now. I have this energy anyway. I got eight thousand views last week.
That is way much more than the hundreds i used to get. HOw come it's that way. I'm not sure. Does the sub request help? It could be. Keep it coming. Why not do something different. I'm not sure how but trust the timing.
You dont want that disconnect. Just be resonate positive energy. You'll have this come through you and you resonate. That's the process. It's all about process. It's what was mentioned an d lost track of that.
Am i ready tonight. I am rested. That's more than enough. I do the laundry, do another set maybe do yoga. I do yoga after laundry. There is match tonight so it's good to be stretched. But that's tonight. Even so. This is practice.
