i feel anxious, overwhelmed. At least it's a trigger into mindfulness practice. Just observe. No need to analyze why or how. Just observe. This is how i feel. This is what i'm thinking.
It when it gets too much, i write about it. Otherwise, else go play tennis. That's always good. It gets me out of the house. It shows me the progress i've made all these years. This shows me that i too can be ok and good at this skill.
It's not about getting better over someone else, but better than who i was before. In that regard, i've made plenty progress. I dont have to prioritize how you feel or think about all this. It doesnt work for me anymore.
The lesson here for me is to put my self first. Then all these things are added unto you--or something like it. Just do the instruction manual. When it's done used up, then it shifts. I ride the next wave take it as far as it will go.
Other times, i simply allow. Just be. Take a nap. All that things. Observe what's different now. So much. I know how to analyze a program. I know have an idea what to do. It's the carrying out. But it drains me so i need to stop. Do a session in teh morning, take a break mid-day, then do another set at night to midnight.
This way, the information simmers in me head overnight. The insights i get in the morning are somewhatconnected. And i get more work into it. So i put in about six hours at least each day on this. That's a lot. Considering that it's your own business, that's a lot already.
Grateful is maintaning balance perspective. Sure you have bad times, but you also have good times. Plus you learn something from the experience--always. In all ways. So let it be so. If nothing seems to happen, it's taking root. Big trees grow without you noticing much happening.
You live your life. Next time you circle back, it's grown by so much. And you do this with your business. Cultivate. Curate, gather information. It's growing. You just dont have to pull it by the roots to see how it's going. Trust that the universe is doing everything to reflect the energy tat you are.
The drive test was postponed and it's ok. I learned something in the experience. It's always about learning. Not much you can do about it. No need to put blame. It's your energy. This is my task. No need to invalidate. If you puts blame, i cant change that. It's who you are. But i dont have to play that game.
Why did i ever play that game anyway. What do you get out of it. Now you see. You have the energy. What comes next. We be late for that. It's ok. I can head out and walk now. It takes a while but you see how you can practice with this one. It's tuesday. Is there finals tonight?
I think thursday. Tomorrow we have team practice. What else is there. Can i change anything else, push it a mm along in any which way. You've done much. If the energy isnt there, no need to push yourself. It becomes that energy. Is that what you prefer? You get that equation. Trust the synchronicity.
What comes next. I'm not sure. Just this. You can work something out and it is you anyway. I think we can stay in this court but we need to pick up daughter. I can head back walking. I dont enjoy hanging out with you anymore. There is always that potential to fight or argue.
Just this then. Leave it be. Trust that you have it in you. You contain this. Life flows through you. It is up to you how you respond what you make out of it. Then you see have the experience reality expressed through you or something like it. Just this.
You'll know what to do. Get this sorted anyway. You know what this is about. I have reflection and you see how it is anyway. And then you do. You dont have to force it. The kids know how things are. You dont have to force anything.
Anyways, it's all opinion. What is fact is another perspective from a higher frequency vibration. It changes on every level. You just dont see it that way right now. And you can choose to live in this knowing. HOw. Do the instruction manual. The five laws of creation.
You have all this in place. Trust that this is where you need to be. It'll all pan out according to energy. Know that you know what you are doing. You can go this way or that. It is what it is. You see what you get out of it i am running out of words to write. Finish.
