2 things that i know

now there are two things that i know without a shadow of a doubt:
1. i know that all circumstances are neutral, as bashar says, and only i can give meaning to it.
2. i know that i can choose my state of being at this moment, and any given moment.

bashar says that reality is an illusion, a reflection, and that only our experience of it is real. he also says that my beliefs, definitions are the template for creating my reality, my emotions and behavior also help in building that experience of reality.

if this were true, then i could have been experiencing my reality in a different way. all these years, i seem to have been exploring the opposite of abundance. since lack and abundance are the same one thing, how can i change my life experience?

is it my state of being? surely there were times when i was in a state of being i did not prefer, but there are also times when i was in the state of being that i prefer. i guess it was how my definitions were.

since we arrived in new zealand, i have been learning more from both bashar and abraham. i am aware now of my vibration and how this affects my manifestation. there are times when i learn, and there are times also when i am in ecstasy.

that when i find my self in a circumstance that i do not prefer, that it is not that i failed, but only given contrast and that i can choose. the contrast is there, why? to experience all the different faces of all that is?

then i have been giving meaning to my circumstance in a negative way. that i have been resisting instead of seeing this as a process.