There is a reason for everything and anything that happens in my experience, my life. Reality is a reflection, an illusion. It shows what I am inside as a reflection. As it is, how does it serve me to not win last night's lotto?
This is a process. It is not negative that we did not win. There must be a process here that I am learning. Maybe just the fact that there is a mystery that I am going through, for without the mystery there is no process. So sometimes I need to uncover that. So be it. I am.
Long weekend with wife. She no work Friday and Monday. Again, another process I am going through. It's OK. I am learning a lot here. Learning to choose my vibration. That is key. Learning to choose my state of being in spite of what is happening around me. That is something I know for sure, without a shadow of a doubt, that I can choose my state of being, my vibration. Even if I were to live all my life with only that knowing, things are going to be all right. And that is what I learned from all this experience so far. I am learning a lot, uncovering a lot. I know it is all in me, that I do not have to get or learn anything that is outside of me. It is all in there. I simply need to open my toolbox and see it.
And this is the process that I am going through. And it is OK to go through this process. I am dropping all expectations. I am keeping the expectancy. Not defining what it will be, but it is there. Just need to discover that. It is there already. I am learning how to resonate. That is another I am discovering in my self.
Today, wife plans to go to church. I can do pizza for tonight, or I can do yoga. I plan to run again this afternoon. But yoga is primary. I am doing that. Do I need to go to the hospice shop today? No need really. Just practice being.
It is cold today. It was cold waking up. The sun was up earlier today. At six it was already bright spring is upon us. Choose my vibration. Choose to resonate. Choose my state of being. That for sure I know. I cannot prove anything to anyone. You can only prove it to yourself. That is what Bashar said in the book.
It is not like a bible to me. Different. More like a guide, not a set of rules. But the four laws, they are more like defining characteristics of creation. So be it then. Just be in the moment and get to the other side. So Michael is my guardian angel? Not like angels in the church, but like an oversoul? Maybe. It is just that. The questions were kinda fun to answer as it felt revealing. I answer by how my vibration felt like. I did not go to the head for answers. It was my heart that defined the answers. But as the previous word say, it was a definition. Seeing that definition. I can change the definition. Why not just have an open definition that serves my purpose?
That is a good idea there. My fingers are freezing. Wife is still in bed. I think she is napping, shallow sleep. No longer in the deep sleep. I woke up around six. My sleep was done. The legs were not as sore as expected. The run yesterday was easy. It was a good start. Today I can run at higher tempo.
I like the run for the meditation. For the practice. Then I can do that some more. How to run later? I do not know yet what my wife's plans are. She intends to get the thing from near the city. I am going with her, and so are the kids? I think so. Maybe not all if they choose to not go. Elise can be in charge and Marcus can come with us.
At times, Marcus chooses to be with her sisters. We will see what happens later. I do not have to do the laundry today. I can do them tomorrow. There is plenty of time plus the weather is improving most definitely. I do not have to have all these things.
When bashar defined abundance as being able to do what you need to do when you need to do it, I realized he was talking about the energy. There is a definition there of energy for doing is energy. I always thought it was the reflection, having the material things. But if I had all that energy all along, why are the reflections not there? There is a definition there for me to see. What is it telling me? There is the fear. The anxiety. So there is a definition. I think it is more how I define things. What is it? No need to see it now. For now, it is good to know that I have that definition.
