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this is good tracks. It's kinda jazz, a streaming music channel i found on youtube. I can write with this.

It's got no vocals. Wife working out on her latest exercise machine. She gets one every two or three years while doing the monday diet. I write. I had hives the other night, recuperating from the antihistamine side effects. That's life. It's sunday and it's beautiful sunny weather outside.

I got me something positive going this morning. I'm good. I'm as content as a cat napping. Do i need to sleep? Not really. I had coffee outside in the sun earlier. I also finished two batches of laundry. The landlorb is here fixing up the room at the back. Why would you spend sundays working? Maybe it is something that gives him peace of mind, better yet, joy.

That be nice. How do you have that in your life. Will this work out? Why not. Answer that and everything works out. It's one of the questions i ask me often when i get doubt or under the clouds. Also the statement 'so what?'

i dont have to finish off on that. Continue writing. I'm still on ml focus more on python now. I can side swipe into data wrangling with python. I think you can do the same with r. Why not stay there. Big fish small pond. Good point. Not everyone is looking for this but if you can do the same job with r, then you get the client. It's how you solve problems with perspective.

How else to get there. You crunch data. Or you scrape with python, put them into sql, then upload to r for processing. It's all the same. I have resources easiest to understand with r than python. The latter was developed by academics so they make it easy for non-devs to work with r.

That is a point. Let's do this then. I go to python when i get sick of learning and need to segue into something else. Then you get this and you be on your way. I had light breakfast. Not really. At least for my taste it was light. What comes next. I'm not sure. Is she going to work. Perhaps. I can sit here do nothing.

I used to work on sundays. It was sad. People be at home and im at work. Still, this be life. Everyone be outside and still they'd be calling in. And i was miserable. But i put a little sunshine in whenever i'm aware. It's easy. When you are down, simply check in. Then you can look under the hood and make changes. Or not. But the awareness pulls you inside and everything is good and bright.

Or you can choose to leave it as is, dark and gloomy, but the awareness is there. At times this is the easiest thing to do. Just sit there be aware that, "i'm in a dark place right now, and i'm ok with that". This is peace. No need to fight it. It doesnt even have to be ok, but just be in that dark place and be aware of what you think or feel. Observe. Like you sitting on a park bench and watch everyone go by.

I enjoy doing that. I watch people. I infer stories in my head as to what's going on in their life. I can write abotu it. Like that middle-aged transvestite or cross-dresser. He'd park there, sit in teh car a few minutes, then head to the mall. Some times he carries stuff he bought out to his car, other times he comes back empty handed.

I told my wife that during the early days, he found someone and had great sex. He they connected. But it was a one night stand for the stranger. He wouldnt allow himself to go there. Soon as it was done, he had issues. But not my guy the cross dresser. He was open to creation. He must have fallen in love. How do you describe that. The other guy said he'd call.

But he didnt. Maybe something happened to him and died. The cross guy didnt know about it. So now he comes back to the place they met. It's been years and the cafe had already closed and it is a different shop now. He just sits in a bench or coffee shop and just while the time away.

What does he do on his free time? He is satoshi nakamoto. He goes back to his home, works on his latest project and doing all this under the cover of crypto. Imagine that. This be interesting a story. Is this connected to his inventions? Of course not. But it makes the story more interesting. What's the end game here. He finds true love again. He opens up to the universe and finds someone else.

How does that happen. Conversations. Stories, small talk. He connects but this time it's a more relevant reflection for him and both of them. Things went easy. They'd have coffee and both doent think or give a hoot about what others think. They'd cross dress like crazy and they love all the attention they get.

And they come home have sex -- love making, for hours. And they take it easy the rest of the day. They clean up, get fabulous again then head out for meals. They have lots of friends. And they hang out with them often. Or not. Some days they are invited to small cozy dinners. Other weekends they go to big parties where everyone is open about who they are.

It is a fun and busy calendar full of events kind of life. You live this way and things happen and you take it all in stride. Do they have kids? Not of their own. It doesnt cross their mind. What abotut in a previous life. No. They enjoy the single life this way. There be enough conflicts in the relationship as is. It is the beauty of growing old with some good friend that you can have sex with. And it's exclusive although it is an open relationship.

How come bad things have to happen. Because you need to show that it's ok and with the positive energy, you transform these things. That's why you are here. You make good on all this and finish things and you get on your way. That is how you get to the other side.