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integrity from clarity

 i dont think i have issues making friends. I get out there, do what interests me and i bring people around me who's in the same frequency. 

I think it's more an issue of not thinking you are worthy. Self-esteem? It colud be the right word, or that there is fear that you are not worthy. Then you act have that experience.

But that's the point. You see that you hold on to these definitions perspectives and believe that it's the only one that's valid. You need to test that. You need to test if it resonates with you at every moment.

If when it doesnt ...i like this track. Where'd i find this? Must be ted lasso. They have good music on there. Plus the story. Character arcs. Amazing. I wonder if they're coming out with more. Who wrote it? It's a team surely, but you are going to see more of that?

It could be. Or some executive is going to push their profitability to the table and that ruins everything. And that integrity is what you have intact. That's your clarity. It doesnt matter what others think. It's not you.

What's improtant is that you are true to your self. You are authentic. It's not being arrogant and not caring. It's more about clarity. I know who i am from the inside and it's not based on ego. 

That's what is different. Then i move on. That one is not me anyway. Just do this. Get to the other side. Use up the energy in this way. I can do tennis there. Or this and that. Why would i want her to pay for me.

That had never been relevant for me. I am not that person--ever. It's that i didnt want to go and would not spend on that but you insisted. But then again, i paid for my tennis all the way. I own this.

This is what responsibility is then. It's not that. It's more about being aware what your choices are. And you act from clarity. Ok. I am about there finish. I send in applications and continue from here. 

I have tons of things to do. I sent in the assessment. I move on to the next. We have tennis later? I have class. But i can login then leave that running. I learn more when i go myself. Continue on this path. I have this in place.

And not everyone is there, but you are up there. You have much in this. Trust that this is where you need to be right now. Soon as you shift, everything else falls into place with this. Let's get going. This is last line. I am done here. Just do this. Publish now.