Maybe she felt bad about it is what the kids will say. Why did she not do something about it. It's not about being the bad guy here. It's about doing what's right for you. What's right is being with the kids. It's going to be an added expense but you see where this is headed. I'm going to let this slip away for now.
What happens next. You just go about your day. It dont matter what comes next. I have one hour. I leave at eleven past seven. There are old pictures here. They are different shift. This is what i do currently. What comes next? Just put your head down for now. Where did she sleep? I dont know.
I dont have to be here. I dont want to be here when she's around. She might sleep in a different room now. She might kick son out of his room. That's drastic for her but she has that capability. Then it is time to move on. It dont necessarily be bad. Just be open to the synchronicity. This is different. Why am i here?
I dont know. Maybe it's time to fork the path and see where this leads to. I did not sleep well? I think i did. If i was there for about two hours i slept through straight almost. My side hurts. I'd get used to it. She...time to stop putting blame on others. This is my reality experience. This is my response. I have a choice each time.
What comes next. I dont know. Keep to the light. Do your best. I can finish early. I have that tool now if i wanted to. People dont stick around much. I have this and i am consistent about it. I dont take a whole days off. I only do them half at a time. Does that cost much? Then you have this in place.
Keep to the light though. This is what you go through. What comes next i dont know. Only do this. Then you see what's coming up. You know the drill. Tech challenged is not an excuse. Google it. I tought myself programming. I can build a pc. I can create a web server, use aws and i learned them all from google.
Do i have coffee after this? Who knows. Just write and see how this goes. It's too early to just be sitting there. I go back to early next week. Friday tomorrow. What is taht guys name again? I forgot. How come he knew my name. I dont know. Maybe it's everyones businesss to know each others name. I guess so.
That battery drained faster than usual. I dont have time for coffee there. Should i take that umbrella. Nobody uses them anyway. I need one and i can keep this here. I need to turn that one off. Where did she sleep. Ask the kids tomorrow. I dont want to sleep in another room. This is our bed. Why do i have to bend backwards. Why cant we both go to bed together.
I dont know but that is important for her. She works hard because she spent a lot on that vacation. That was five grand she's still paying off. And she claims she's paying a lot. I knew this was going to happen. I let it go at that. Why did i not fight it. This time though i did. We're not going unless it's cash.
Then i am done with that. I keep to my own light. No need to convert others. It's not about religion. It's just this. What was that light. It was my light. No need to just sit. This is my experience. What comes next. Just do what comes next. Nothing came in. It's the campaign. They are running the different campaign.
How will you do things differently? Make it easy for the customer to do so. You can only do so much. Keep to your light. Everything falls into place that way. That was the last? I guess so. She dont get to have it straight through. I went there. She could have ordered in food. That was the cheaper way to do things.
That would have been fine alright. She could have watched a video that way. But in her head, i'd silently go along with her. I am positive about this but i also need to be positive for my self. I was putting myself down that way. My response is now different. It's not that she cant go there. It's that her priorities are not aligned.
Are mine not aligned. Yes. You put family first. It should be your self first then everything else. When you have time for your self, you have more to give to the world. You see the equation there. Am i having coffee after this? I dont think so. Then let it go at that. It was a lot yesterday.
I'm fine with that. I can enjoy posting this. This is time for the self. That bus is coming soon. I dont have to take it this time. Do i bring an umbrella? It's going to be warm wearing a jacket. I can use son's umbrella. It fits in the bag. Let's do that. Have a look at it. Otherwise i dont want to bring home two.
It's a stormy day today. That's part of my equation. But it's not always sunny. I slouch. It can be this or that. It's all the same anyway. Just do this and see how it goes. You can make something out of it anyway. You can check that out when you are done. At least this is behind you now. This feels better with coffee. I can go make one while i post.
That sounds good. Let's get on ahead. You are about to take a new path. It is aligned and this is relevant. We'll see how it goes then. If she's negative about it then so be it. This is the process for me. I am allowing them to be negative about it if that's their choice. And i have my own choices to make.
