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i just want to sulk. Why cant i just sulk here for a week. I dont know if that helps but it feels right to just sulk. What is it about sulking that'll help. Time off from my head. No resistance.




I can simply go there do nothing now. That place looks nice. Do i want to go there. It would be nice to take the shot from the angle with the water. Or something like it. Why are they taking it from there. Not sure. Just do nothing here now. It dont have to be a week. Just let go. I can let go of insistence. That the day has to be good. I'll just sit in this moment.

Why is there a need to have a good day. Why not just be good to your self. Is that not possible? I can do that too. What did they do to that guy. Poor kid. He should have not waited anymore. He could have signed up with others. But that's me. Its an opinion.

I am looking for yoga videos. Something i can follow. No. I'm just looking at feet. Why is that. I dont know. It is interesting to look at feet that way. I feel like no place is perfect. Or is it my local mind doing sort work. I guess so. Now i see it. I couldnt even finish one round yesterday. The hands were numb. That means theres something off about it. I may have to use this kona for short rides.




How do you change that. I dont know. Those be long bones. Ours are shorter on that. Then hy do you compare. I just want to do nothing. At least finish writing. Why nothing. I have four days intot this. Fasting used to feel good. I'll get back into that. It felt good and i have four days. Remember this. How come it felt good. I cant remember. It just felt good waking up to a fast. I have four day. I break on monday but coming home fasted is stressful. I can let go of that then see.

Just get through your day that way. I can do one round each time i finish then head home from there. That is an extra half hour or so. Lets do that. It can be stressed but when i get home i can shower and then go to bed. This way i dont have to go there. That sounds legit on your end. Let's get into that then. I have enough lights anyway. What happened thene. She was holding a pose.

You can do videos like this yourself. That is the classic jawline there. How did they get those. Not sure. But i am done there. But yoga and fasting feels good. What comes next. Get yourself casual work. I can try this for a month. Then i can check things out. It's like getting that one settled in then get the others to go there. This kid is getting ready to leave for work.




She has good discipline? Or are things simpler for her. Why cant i make it simply myself. Let go of all that conditions. You dont have to go there. Just be in this moment. Make it ok to just be here. Can i be ok for now. I can let go. No need for that baggage. I see it. I am aware. I have let go. The response is different now. You dont have to go that way. You know how its going to go. Let's see what comes out of it then pick up from there.

What else can you do with this. I dont know. I am doing yoga in a moment after son leaves. Other child has finished school. Shi might hang out with frineds. I only finish writing. Let it be ok for now. Surrender to what is and act on your excitement. You see that path. The universe will expand on this. Why not go farther before. Not sure. I was waiting for the hand of god. Then you see how that goes.

You put it outside of yourself. Now you aware, you have changed things. I have let go. Now what. I dont know just yet. I only have this. I can change things up on that bike. The derailer isnt working. How do you fix that. Check out the video. It feels kinda loose there on something. I continued writing. Is it a phase. It could be. I used up the energy. Now i write. There was a stinker.




I clean that on monday. For now, only do this. Maybe sunday i can clean things up. I do nothing now. I feel like doing nothing for now. Then i let go of my load. Just be here. You see the meaning. There you go. Lighten up. You dont have to carry that all the way thru. This here and now is where you are. Everything comes into this. Then you can pick up the energy from here. Th e flow is here for you.

I dont have to deal with it now. I have let go. The response is different. That is balancing a lot. Do i go there. She'll do one side then shift to the other. I finish late. That guy finishes at midnight. You get a lot of those along the way. You can also do things that way. Then let things go for now. What other options can i do here. Simply do nothing. Let go. I can take a nap.

A short one before i go. I leave at half past noon. Plenty of time there doing nothing anyway. I just sit and wait until its over. Take these short breaks throughout your day. This lightens up your load. You dont have to go there. I only has this. There is that front rack. Do i have to go there as well. That dont feel right and can i change things up. I dont know. Why not.




Then change things from here. I post then see how it goes. I get the picture. Lets take it easy right here. Letting it be ok to just be free of the thought? Not free, but aware, observing them thoughts. No need to be perfect now. I only writes. No need to be in the future. I only writes about it. Then things can change from here. Do they change those things up. I guess so. I used to like that.

I did take a break there. How else can i do more. I have this response. Then i can let go. That is my response. I see that now. How was i able to effect changes anyway. I dont know. But this is where i am now. I think he had an email there. I can check that later. What are my other options here. I dont know. He took a while to sort that out. I can help out. I have time.

Then finish these lets do some cleaning up from here. How can we clear those things. Not sure. There has to be a way around this. Maybe i can sort things out myself. What else can we do around here. Not really sure but you can clean that up in six paydays. That was before. Let's see how it can pick up from here. You simply clean the toilet like it. Then you do a good job at everything almost.

It's just this. Get this done. Be in the moment. Sit through it. I can go take a nap now. Just take naps throughout the day. This is all i do in here. I dont have to be anything else. He wore a shirt that was too old there. Who was supporting that. I am not sure. But that was the experience for him. Can you do better than that. Not sure what you means there. It dont have to be fancy. Can i go there.