It's all inside you. You effect the outside from the inside, and not the other way around. So a better metaphor perspective to it is that it's inside out. How do you deal with hunger on the outside? You go inside. You transform energy. Three day water fast is the thing. It's going to be tough.
So be it. That means, let's go. Use up this energy get it over and done with. It's difficult. How do you use this energy from the inside. You sit through it. You observe. You allow pain to be there. This through christmas and christmas is your break. You can go as far as you want. Sit through it.
Allow the pain to be there. Meditate. Use up that energy. Be in that pain. Feel it. See what thoughts come up. No resist it. Bigger than you means allow to be there. You dont get rid of it or change it. Allow for this to be here. It's letting go. You feel how that energy is different.
Now you see. I have that. I allow. This means I take care better of myself. Sit through this. Not align with something else. Allow. You've done the alignment. Now you sit this through. Bear it. Not exactly. The emolation is the same this one self-induced. Why is there that. I had a glimpse of that.
And I see. But why change the outside. You are not of that. It's a projection. When you see, then you are aware. You are outside of it. You contain it. You are bigger. Then you see. How is this part of the story. Because you allow. From this you contain the pain. You create it. Now it's different.
It's not pain on the outside but energy that you experience. Then it's different. You made it different. And the craving, they are thought habits. You local yearn for the simialr. The local doesnt welcome change but it served a purpose. Know that this too serves gives local purpose and meaning.
Not evident but it is part. And I remember those christmas. Now I see. It was fun. I miss that energy. There's so much with her but I choose the neagtive. Now I see. It's contrast. I have feedback now. I am aware. I let go. I dont have to dwell on that. And I can change things around. It's the new file buffer that's different.
Is there anything I can do about it. Simply change format later. For now, only do this. That affects stream of consciousness writing. It stops when it sees the new toy. You write much. Ti's the same as writing there. Now you are different. I can ask for closure.
Is that something else. Why would you want it that way. If they don't close it when does it close. I can ask the community about it. Or not. I let go. Whyc can't she let go. I showed the light. It is allowing. It's not giving up. I know I have expectations then. No. She comes back or not it's ok. The relationship is different.
I like that orchid. Where do you find one. I get these things. And you can too. You already are building these things. Is there an orchid society. There is this. Then I can change things around. They needs to pick up. It is part of the equation.
Now I see. It is something I can do locally. How do you hunt for them. I'm not quite sure right now. Also bonsai. Those are amazing. But I would rather plant the tree and leave it to grow. There is no expectation but knowing that a tree grows. And that one is great. Is it oak? I love how it grows. Too bad no flowers.
Not that i'm aware of. But if it blooms, that be amazing. Does it shed. Then colors galore. I look forward to it. I have so much of them in my walk. This is my synchronicity. I allow. I like them big trees and orchids. This be my reflection. What is different then. You sit through it. I dont have to put meaning to it. But you see.
How is this possible. They stay on the flats. In manila, they live through all that. Why is that different then. So much going on. Why are they different. Maybe it sags. Another one is coming. Are they libale. No. It's the corp. And that shields them. Maybe there needs to be change. But you change from the inside.
This is my path process then. See it from the inside. That is the energy. She gets up soon. I have coffee soon. What can I make out of this. He may have to go through that. But this is process. What now. I walk him over. Or not. Just be. This is me. I dont know what to make of it. This is me right now.
They're grown up. The energy is different. What now. Not really sure. But I can live this way. Do I leave. Ride the wave. Trust the synhronicity. If it goes there then so be it. Right now this is happening. Trust the timing. This is what's relevant for you. If something else then it be here, but it's not.
Then confirmed this is me. Can you write it this way and that. I see. People expect something but it is different. Is that the intrigue. That is something. It's the misdirection. Then you break expectations. How is that usable in your writing. Lead then break then lead again. That's what his story is.
