The local mind is preoccupied with what's next. I am aware of it. Then i can let go. Or just allow this to be here. I dont need another carabiner. I have enough but maybe can do with one or two--five at most. Then i can let go. I have let go already. I'll go poop later. The sun is out. The sky seems to have cleared a bit. I can have breakfast with daughter.
I dont do it more often. What else is possible. Do the laundry, clean the toilet, go out for an hour's ride. Have lunch with daughter but i'm fasting today. I think that's a lot already. I rode last night. Bike was ok. Finished wheel align last weekend. It's all good now. I have plenty spoke nipples but i still have to measure out for spoke replacements. But that is looking out ahead into the future.
I cant carry all that weight. I am maintaining it though. I can sign up for gym and do this every day. But do i have time for it. Mornings yes. Evenings yes but not sure if that will keep me up. If it's raining that could be an issue. Where to park bike. The giant has seat issues where i keep pushing back feels saddle to close aft. I can push it back later but maybe it's how it is constructed.
Maybe i can save this one on a bookmark and click on it just to play. I like the blue colors where the flame is hottest. That is one warm and hot place. I was there before. That uses up alot of trees but it is effective. Me not going means we dont have to plan anything with them for vacations and all that. If they did, i dont have to go there. That to me is best time. Discomfort creeping up on my back in there.
I am upset with self so i project this to others. Not really but my patience was short. It's because that was an issue that is not adressed. She dont listen to me and i'm ok with it but when i have to carry her baggage i let that affect me. I choose to get my self affected. I can ride through to albany in that shortuct. There be plenty uphill. I have that coming in but where is cable.
Do i need a new replace then levers. This is the problem with money then. I am always making changes to it. Why did that bike park in there. I see plenty giant bikes on there. Was that a good buy back then. Do i have to go to toilet now. It's going to be tight soon. It is weird rain was forecast this morning. It was raining a bit hard but when it stopped, the clouds cleared.
This is my creation then. I finish writing just now. I am putting presence into present. They go out. I do laundry. I am not present. How do you be present when writing. I tend to go forward future or back to past. What do i write about then. Write what comes to mind. Nothing there much. Just write. I ride ater when it's warm. I can ride to have coffee but that is takapuna.
I dont go to library anymore. I used to love that part. I did not take a leave of absence. I'm moving forward now. Just do this let go of it. That too is part of it but i dont see anything much. I dont think i want to go on road trip with her. Just do this here then. We dont have sex out of town anyway. Why not get something just because. Why use it as an excuse. I dont get that part. Maybe it's over.
Why did i not see that. How do you know it's just inertia then. Is this even a factor to consider. Why not ride through that one. I used to go that way. It's the bike. I dont have to worry about anything. Just go easy, get back then see how it goes. It's a nice long ride. I can do that as my fast day one. No need to eat much. I finish the laundry then i can go. I can do up north.
There was this road that i wasnt sure where it went was beyond silverdale. That can make for a good road trip. Maybe get to that part. I dontk now. But not for results. Just ride out then see how it connects back to you. Just do this one thing then. I have maps on my phone. I can do this here. Then i dont have to worry about that one.
Son can use it for his data but it is an expense i dont have to deal with now. I get upset. I allow this because i am then aware of it. That gets up fast but when i am done it festers the rest of the day. I practice presence this time. I get into that, one hour and it's gone and this builds up throughout the day. I feel positive with my self. Then lets get right to it.
I dont have to maintain bike today. Maybe get a gig on that. What other things do you needs to go do. I'm not sure. But it looks ok that way. I have much in there and i forgot to lubricate that spoke. I will do so later on. For now, there is only this. Why is it better. Why not get something else. That gym is close but beyond. This is close but far off.
Maybe i have options. Doing yoga is nice. I do yoga then. Laundry as i do yoga. I have two batches to do. Let's get right into it. The poop was less this time who is this running. Why is it relevant. Plenty of things in there but that feels irrelevant now. It doesnt make sense to me anymore. What is happening then. Not sure. I can get more but i switch over to that from now on.
Then i dont have to save it to hard drive. I can add them to my playlist even the good parts. That means you put it out there. And then they get deleted. How else do you create something that makes sense for me. Just do this. Why not create a depressing one. I dont have to go there. Just do something interesting. Like what. The bot farm. How do you manage one.
I simply run this then add to it every fortnight. Then i run it again. It would have been consistently up if it was still on it. Then i've seen that. Let's get right into it then. I did not have that esteem issues. I have let go at this time. It's a hundred less but the funds are going this way. I see that now. It's time to resonate.
I drive her off have coffee then see what comes out of it. I do the laundry first batch then i do yoga as i do laundry. That frees up the morning for me then i can head outside. I have water. Where would i go. I dont want to just sit here do nothing. I can go to that part of the city. They should get after pay for those things.
