i canceled divorce. It was ego self trying to control the outcome, with a big insistence to go with it.
If there was one thing, it'd be to let go of insistence, and just allow for things to fall into place. If it were to happen again, then it's there for a reason. Why did ego get the whole day like that. How to work this in my day.
Put it into your awareness. You can be more aware like this. Now you see how ego gets in the way. What can i do different next time. Get out more often. I have injury. This is ego doing so. Now you know. You can work something now. What would it be.
You have this. I can get me a job. That gets me out of the house. Look into this. You know what all this is about. You were in that space. You made positive changes in that way. What comes next.
You get to the other side. At times it just doesnt make sense. I had a gameplan. Itwas working. But every three days things get out of control. I let go. Ihave choice. I can put this into my awareness. I can go back to bed at six, take a nap then up and go.
Sleep is important at this time. Also going out. You do something about it. For now, it's healing. Meditation, observing ego mind local mind in action. This is something i can do. Itis the awareness. It doesnt have to be in that perspective. You are aware of that.
This is a mess i'm in. Start shining light on this. Do the youtube thing. Make a channel out of it. Do a vlog. Anything to get your mind working on something else. Get a job? That is something i can do myself.
It changes a lot of things, but mostly, you still need to get out anyway. I would rather have my time than go there. I was doing ok until d-day. Now you get why this is so. I can fast.
So much to do anyway. Just do this. Trust the timing. It was that record. Now i can extend on that. Simply head out. You can resume startingmonday. I have two days on this. What's up with the space-bar.
It seems to be doing that. I miss tennis. I can work something out from there. Trust the timing. I may need one more week. It's pushing the envelope. But body needs one more week.
What are my options on this. I think he is going to pee. I can change things. It might take a while to get there but i changed. I made changes in my life. This insistence will dissolve in the light of awareness.
Has she changed. She misses that, but it's not the same. Ican let go with that. Now you know. Now you see. It's like dog pooped. Record was four days. I can extend that. I can get her involved.
Ligaw mode worked. Get back into it. But this time you have that. It's gotta be this way.let's get going. It's the weekend. She might have something in store for us. Idk. But i can work something out.
She's broke. And so am i. It's the ego mind this way. I can ride until this gets better again. Or get work as that sitting around the house in this way. It's a quick and dirty. You get how this works.
I can upload at any time. It's in the past and in a different country. But you can do something. You know how this works. Or do something different. I can do youtube. It takes a while to kick in. I need something asap.
Get a job in that way. You move in this direction. I can do tech support work or something similar. Is dog sleeping again? He slept on here. But she went to bed early. You get how that works but it was compartmentalised. What now.
