It's the first day. My dad was out three days before he passed. My mom lasted about 24 hours as well in the hospital. I don't know what's going to happen now. I'll be there at least and see how things go. I'm on a tight dubget. I'm not sure i want to annnounce my arrival. It's going to be tough anyway as well. How do i get a cab from there. I can walk out and get a bus outside. I've done that before. What are my other options.
Maybe someone can come and get me from the airport. I don't know who can do that if my brother is going to be available. I needs to pack my stuff. I bring one laptop on handcarry. What else. Maybe i can get me a slightly bigger bag on the way back. I'll be travelling much anyway. It's going o be a tight budget. I'll be taking uber ride tomorrow early morning.
It'll mess up my sleep but at least i get a break from my rides. I'll fast as much as i can, that's the operative word. Other than that, it's all water for me. No need to worry about these things. I feel like an outsider already. What comes next. Not really sure if i want to bring the laptop. I won't be doing much anyway. My videos are in here. I can figure out something in the meantime.
How come they did not get my passport details. Not sure. But my name appears on it. Wife has big card limit. I don't want to go there but it's not going there. I'll be out three weeks. How to pay off card by then. Not really sure. We'll see how it goes. I'll have to get me a job going back then see how far it'll go. I don't know if things get better by then. Hopefully it does.
I would be in a better condition physically by then. That's two weeks fasting. I can hack that. That puts me in a better frequency. I needs to go to toilet. I'll go check my schedule when i get there. Itm, only be here and now. I'll need to get me something else. How can i get me a ride coming out of there. The question is, i go straight there, head back to rest then see how things go.
Which bag is better. That backpack looks small though and it's going to fill up quick. What are my other options here. Not really sure. Just do these things then go from there. I'll have to carry that one around. The essentials will go to the mess bag. The rest, i'm not sure. Why not bring both and one pair jandals. I'm not going anywhere anyway.
That makes sense. That one, plus another be good. Or something else. Like what? A pair of socks. That changes the game a lot. How else can i do that. Not really sure. Only do this. May have to get something else. Who or where can i stay while i'm down there. Airbnd sounds good enough. I can stay some place conveniennt. We'll see how that goes. Where else. I'll be talking to people while i am there.
Or not. Things have changed. Having a bike to move around would surely be fun. How to bring it back? Buy one used, then sell it back or gift to someone else when you go. Joey might need one. But they left their bikes out to be stolen. How do i guarantee it's going to be used. I'm not sure i can leave them outside like that. I wish i cut it tight. Are there friends i can stay with while there.
I don't know. I can contact people or something. I'll see what i can do there. I needs to prefer to hang out with people i know. Gary is one person i can see again, with others if possible. But i'm not the wife. She connects better with them. I guess i'll be walking around much doing nothing then. Just like in the old days. I might go visit some cousins while there. Or something like it.
Better yet i just might hang out in the hospital so his wife can go work. I can come home at night or something like it. Their kids are going to be there. I don't have much to do anyway. Where to leave my stuff. Not sure. I'll have a towel, three to five shirts, two pants and i'm all good. They alternate for the rest of the week. I don't know what to do when i gets back. It's going to be tight.
I'll just apply for whatever work i find. If there's a want ad, take it, then expand from there. Kitchen hand be good. As long as i do that labor all day then i'd be fine. Part time also works. I can do uber eats part time. That's the part time i prefer. I can go back to that. But we are headed into winter. I won't be home for son's birthday.
What are my other options here. No need to go back. It's all here and now. Surrender is key. This is washteh. It's all good. It's all connected. I don't know how things are going to be. All i know is that this is where i am and it's relevant for me process. He left too early. It's way too early. What now. I don't know.
Just take things as they come. Stay in the hospital. See how you can help otherwise. Where can i stay around there. Not really sure. I can get me someone to hire a cab then pick up. Maybe one of his kids or something. Or something else altogether. I don't know. We'll see how we can arrange something. In the meantime, i walked that far. I can do so again. I don't know. But trust the timing on this one.
It's already in pasay. I can take a ride from there. What bag do i bring make it easy to move around. That blue mission workshop sounds legit. It's not too big though. Bring another one for the laptop. Then these two sounds good anyway. Is there something else i can bring along. I don't know. At least walking around with them is going to be ok.
Where to stay. I can figure it out when i get tehre. Everyone is going to be at work. Why be so eager to go. What if things were to turn around just like that. Not sure. But just be open, do your best, trust the synchronicity. These are my todo list every morning when i get up, i remind my self. Focus on these three and i'm set for the day.
It really did appear on my dream to bring a book. Or something like it. Screen memories. Then i saw the message and that got things rolling. Plenty of travelling to do. Walk. Take the jeep. You gonna be ok. Where to get money from around there. Visa atm machines. Wife used to do it that way. What else can i do around here. I am vulnerable.
This is surrender. Wife is taking a test. Let her be. It's a sunday. I leave early tomorrow. I takes uber. They be asleep by then. I have dinner with whoever is around. Then i fast while i am there. It's going to be a long grind. Let's see what happens. Either no passing, or a lot of crying. His friends are going to be there.
It's going to go so fast, except when doing nothing. How to charge devices. Not sure. But i'd be reading and doing them exercises. Then you gonna be alright. Simply do that use up the energy. This is part of the process. You don't know hat you don't know anyway. It's all connected.
