I guess i regret that but then again, she got it coming. I am letting it go at that. This is how the week is going to be like then. It's her decision. I allow her to be in that. Do i shower? I can after this. This way i don't have to do anything tomorrow. There's a lot of pressure. I'm letting it go at this then see how it goes. She has unlimited drive in google. Why isn't she using that then.
I cancelled the family plan in youtube. I can resume that later. I have every other lunch and dinner mecs. This isn't working out well here. Why not get something else. I can get a different playlist. Maybe i've heard all this already. There you go, added my old playlist. I'll add the good ones for now. This way i get tracks i enjoy listening to and not worry about it. It's 9pm i took a nap until 8pm. Does that mean i won't be sleeping early today?
I guess so. I'll shower later. I was tired anyway. I would rather nap then see how things go. I don't have linux xfce on this device i'll play with kde for now. The lenovo has xfce on it. I'll use that as backup. What comes next. Leave it at that. When i gets preoccupied i don't have cough. You see where this is going then. Check the weather every morning. The app isn't that reliable.
I have other apps in there. I'll go check that instead. There be plenty in there i can do. If not, see what opens up. Winter is coming. I don't know what to do then. Just be open to synchronicity. You know what to do here. I'm not sure how this relationship will turn out though. It's there for a reason. Maybe it could be a something to help you decide to put yourself first.
It could be. Once you answer back put holes in her argument, she's going to back down. But her thinking has a lot of negativity to it. I don't really care if daughter to live in with her bf. I think there's a lot of questions in there but it's a process she has to go through. I can't decide that for her. What then. I don't know. That she is the one to go there to be with him, she's the one doing all the work -- is a big question mark.
But i don't know anything. Maybe they grew up in that generation where meeting the parents is not a big deal. Maybe i can point that out. I don't know. She's at work now. I can talk to her during breakfast but i don't have that now. Then there be other means. I don't know what to do next. It's not negative unless i say so. It's no meaning a situation. I let it go at that then.
I listen to this in the background. It's ok. I am ok listening to this. The track is ok. I am going back to spot. They should make things better now. Is it encrypted. It should be otherwise people be losing money on that. But if i am in the light, anything that happens in here is connected. All the devices are connected unless you log out of it.
So be it. This one isn't because the app is not running. Leave it at that. This is opm. I remember this. It's good track production. The sound be crisp. But i'm not crazy about this music. So i let it play in the background. What's going to happen now. I let it be. I put myself in the light. The process they go through is theirs to process. I have mine. By allowing all things fall into place.
She dont get that. She'd rather control everything. She thinks that covering for uncertainties is the way to go. But that puts you out of the light. If that gets her pointing downstream then i allow her that. But i wont be in there with her. We fork the road i go my way. It's not my process. And i don't have to be here. If that's a factor for her, then this is as far as i'm going.
I don't have to be with her anymore. The kids are grown up anyway. I've taught son most of what i know. He is to put together everything and make sense of the world. I'd be there for him alwaysbut it's time to test his wings. He is strong enough. I can leave that desktop background at that. It's dark but the pics change anyway. For now, finish writing. I'm here. I will resume everything tomorrow.
It's going to be quiet tomorrow but hey, that's part of the game. I make hay while the sun shines. Then i take a break on rain days. For now, only do this. You'll know what to do. I'm not ready to go for that today. I'll do a day's fast then get on with that. I'm fine with that. Let's get with that path then. It's not a plan though. It's the energy i prefer, a path i choose to explore.
What next. I take a shower. Then i get ready for bed. Yes. Let's do this now. Anything else there for me. Finish this. I am done here. I can move on now. This is how it feels like. How to move that bike to there. I don't know. The kids be here anyway. I am done anyway. If the fork comes i'll take that path. The phones can recharge tomorrow. I saw this concert but that was a long time ago. I should have taken that shot.
Anyway. I got a lot from that. I'll see how things go from here. I did that almost everyday back then. Things are different now. And you always get something out of it. Everything is positive. I have this playlist. I listen to the ones i like i adds them. Or not. Just keep it going this way. Then i can pick out the path that works out. If not, you'll find what's relevant for you.
I think i am done with that trip. It was good but it's those that work only once every ten years. If you were there all the time, the energy shifts. Then i let it be so. Just keep it coming and it was new back then i think it was only ten years and not that new. But they were making hay too. Things moved around a lot since. But she the ex, she stayed with that identity. Why do that.
I think she identifies with the pain. How does that reflect for me. Am i like that in any way. What pse from the past or other's baggage that keeps me in the dark. When you feel that negative energy, you'll see what you have under the hood. So welcome them and use it to see what you have. Then you own it you can change things around. This is how you move forward. I agree. I am almost done last sentence.
